half soul

Two months have passed since Xia Li pushed open the door of her real home one day.Go to school honestly and play football.Give yourself back to your old life, as if nothing has changed.

She was just a little girl, and she was supposed to live those normal days.What soul, what death, what soul world, what does it have to do with her? !She is still alive now.Even if you are a suitable half-soul, do you need to be in a hurry at this moment?After she died, she really went to the corpse soul world, and then went to conduct those so-called researches.

Kisuke Urahara didn't say anything, of course he knew Xia Li was back.But she didn't tell, and he didn't intend to ask.After all, the fields that Xia Li was involved in were ultimately beyond her control.What she has experienced, what she has considered, he is not qualified to ask if he can't empathize with her.

So when Urahara dropped this sentence, please feel free to come to me if you need anything, Xia Li just said sorry calmly, waved her hand and turned to leave.

"No need to apologize, Ms. Kurosaki...if it's your decision."

Xia Li paused her steps lightly, but she didn't look back after all, and continued to walk forward.

It is what I want to go deep into without authorization, and it is what I want to leave without authorization.

It's all my decision.

It was I who blindly disrupted their lives and broke into places where I shouldn't be.

So it has irreversible consequences.

The one who feels guilty is me.

The pale pink cherry blossoms lightly drew a trace in his eyes.She lowered her eyelashes a little bit, and the light cast a shadow on her brow.

The falling of cherry blossoms is an unspeakable calamity in this early spring.She couldn't imagine how she would feel when she saw all the petals on the cherry tree wither again.

The whole life will slowly be drawn into a blank, right?

Unable to determine my mood.

Is it impossible or never dared to think about it.

Once you think about it, you will regret it, it will hurt your heart, and it will be an inescapable sin.

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You can't see your expression now, how distressing it is.

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"Hey, Kurosaki, let's play football together!" A friend greeted her.

"Oh yes." Smiled slightly, then turned to Youzi and said, "You go back first, I'm going to play football."

"Understood, come back soon."

As usual, she and her friends went to play football in the clearing.Looking up, I can see a translucent guy floating in the air.There are many souls in the city, and I'm used to seeing them, but Xia Li just can't see them.

Wait... that black... deadly costume?translucent? ...

The picture reflected one thing in my mind.Xia Li raised her head abruptly.

The god of death in this world is not translucent... so... it is... a half-soul? !

The guy in sight was floating quite high.But Xia Li was sure she didn't know that guy.

"Hey, Kurosaki, what are you doing in a daze..."

When she came back to her senses, Xia Li told herself that those things had nothing to do with her.Then with a flying kick, the football volleys across a perfect arc and goes straight into the goal.

"Pretty!"

"As expected of Kurosaki!"

During the break, the girl turned her head slightly, and the guy seemed to be still there, or a little closer.

For some reason, her heart was beating wildly.Intuition made her raise her head and stare at the half-soul.It was clearly an empty space, but a piece of cherry petals suddenly floated in front of my eyes, and the sound of the wind came from my ears.

"No...don't..." There were light pink stars in the black eyes, stained with unconcealable fear.

To go to disappear.

in front of my eyes.

again.

There is no need for any doubts, it is all certainty.

She is the right one.

don't want……

don't want……

No!

Xia Li turned sharply and ran away.Turning a deaf ear to the shouts of her friends behind her, at this moment she just wanted to leave this place as soon as possible to escape that catastrophe.

It's a crime, it's a punishment, it's a bondage.

It is a chained soul, from being unable to be freed to being wiped out.

Is it no longer missed, is it abandoned?

So it completely lost the meaning of existence and slowly disappeared.

I can't figure it out!Why do half souls exist? !

Xia Li ran home in one breath and locked herself in the house.She knelt down and held her head.

Why do you exist, and why do I exist.

If it is said to meet once, it will be painful once.

So if the two don't meet each other, it will be safe and sound.

pity.

It's a pity that you are a suitable person for the half-soul.There is only you in the world.

You are destined to live in the gap between the two worlds, and you cannot turn a blind eye.

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"I'm back." The orange-haired boy pushed the door in, followed by a small and bright girl.

"excuse me."

Rukia?Xia Li was startled.Since the last time I left the Soul Realm, I haven't seen her again.Moreover, I let Captain Ukitake meet Rukia without authorization and then annihilated him. I don't know what expression I should use to face Rukia.

"Because I applied to return to the empty seat to be the god of death, so I will interrupt you temporarily." Lucia curled her lips and smiled calmly.

Xia Li carefully studied her expression.

It's no longer the deadwood Rukia who always has sadness between her brows in the soul world.

Looking at the bright smile of the woman across from her, Xia Li suddenly felt as if she understood what it means to say "your smile is always better than your tears"...

I hope you smile happily.

Even in the face of unimaginable sadness, let's get back together.

The last, the last, the last.desire.

so.

Is it done.That's great.

So the corner of his mouth slightly raised an invisible arc.

After dinner, the wanderer went to clean up the dishes.Ichigo went to make arrangements for Rukia's bed.Only Xia Li and Rukia were left in the hall.

"I want to say a few words to you, can I, Xia Li?"

Xia Li turned around.Rukia's purple eyes clearly reflected her shadow.I didn't expect my expression to be so spotless.Obviously, he has done so many excessive things.In fact, it is both calm and desperate.

"Well, yes."

Rukia looked at her, her eyes softened little by little, and finally it was as wet as the first rain that was about to fall.she says. "Thanks."

Breathing seemed to stagnate at that moment.

Varied……

Why……

Shouldn't it be me who made Captain Ukitake disappear...

Shouldn't I be blamed for witnessing the disappearance of precious people again...

Shouldn't you be blaming me for letting you experience the pain of heart-breaking pain again...

It's all my fault...

but.

Why did you say thank you?

Where am I, I deserve your gratitude...

"Why." Xia Li raised her black pupils, concealing a bottomless unknown.

I don't understand. I really don't understand.

Mistakes should be punished, sins should be punished.

It's not me who needs comfort, so why do you say such warm words to me.

"I was wrong at the beginning." Lukia sighed, "I only cared about my own feelings and continued to be sad, but I forgot that I should really think about others. Not only Captain Ukitake, but I ignored big brother , Renji, Ichigo, and so many people hope that I can stand up again." A faint smile slowly appeared on her face.Yes, there are so many people around her who care about her and love her.They all understand that the most precious thing is not tears but smiles.

Xia Li stood there, listening quietly.

Obviously desperate.Tell yourself that you have embarked on an irreversible fork in the road, farther and farther away from the place you want to go.So I can only sit on the side of the road and let the time grow wildly into weeds.But why do you reach out and say that there is nothing wrong with this side.Between your brows, which are as blue as black, shine brightly like the sunshine in April and May, illuminating the whole world.

I really want to believe it.

Can I believe it.

And who can tell me which direction is the right direction in this overgrown land.

"Sure enough, there are some things... you should ask... him."

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"Welcome." The store manager said in an exaggerated tone, with a smile that never existed for a long time, "It's really a rare customer, Ms. Kurosaki."

The black cat curled up in the corner raised its head, its pair of golden pupils narrowed slightly, looking intently at the person coming.

What happened?

Still thought of something.

I have always said that she is the only one on this road.

so.

What this child faces will always be troubles that we can't imagine.

"It means that if there is anything I don't understand, I can come to you." Xia Li took a step closer.

"Yes..." Urahara covered his face with a fan, "but the premise is that I have to know the answer."

"You will. Then I will ask directly," Xia Li stretched out two fingers, "I will give you two choices. One is to meet the half-soul, only 5 minutes, and then that person will disappear forever; the second is to choose No, so that person can always be there, but you are not me, so you will never feel the existence of that person...Which side do you choose?"

Urahara hid behind the fan and observed her expression.

Slightly tangled eyebrows.Anxiety and anxiety in the eyes.And slightly trembling fingertips.

Asking such a question is probably because of the guilt that caused a certain half-soul to disappear.

I have doubts about my behavior, and I am at a loss, so I have to leave temporarily.

I want to make sure I'm doing something wrong.

It should be like this.

……

It should be said that it is indeed Kisuke Urahara.

all hit.

"Then..." Urahara pinched his chin, and replied slowly, "I should say, if it was me, I would still like to see him. Otherwise, even if that person exists, it is useless, and it is useless if you can't see it, right? What's more..." Urahara spread his hands, "The half-soul will disappear with the weakening of thoughts... Rather than letting him disappear unconsciously, wouldn't it be more cost-effective to meet him once? "

The black cat slightly closed its golden pupils and opened its mouth.

"There should be no half-souls around us, so what I told you probably isn't an answer. You can ask little brother Bai Zai if you want to see his wife for the last time, and see how he answers."

Because of knowing him, you will understand that his longing for Feizhen is the condition that is enough to become a half-soul.If Fei Zhen has the same strong heart, maybe... she is really still there.

"Byakuya Kuchiki's wife?"

"Ah. That's Kuchiki Rukia's older sister, Hima."

Xia Li suddenly remembered.That woman who stood in the courtyard of the dead wood family, was as warm as rain.

that person!There is absolutely nothing wrong with that!

That's right...

No wonder she looks so similar to Rukia...

It turned out to be Rukia's older sister, Kuchiki Byakuya's wife...

In the long days after becoming a half-soul, she has always loved and missed her unknown.

Also, try to smile even though no one can see it.

If she was allowed to meet Byakuya and Rukia, she would be very happy.

but……

I mean but...

Looking at the loved ones, even if they are half souls, even if they are unknown, they can still show a relieved smile.

Since she can do this, it means that becoming a half-soul is neither a bondage nor a shackle for her.

How could she disappear so easily.

Obviously it can be like this, continue to stay, continue to smile and continue to look at my beloved.

How can I deprive her of existence.

"Well, what's the matter? Do you want to go to Jingling Court to ask for clarification? The door of our store is open for you at any time." The store manager snapped his folding fan and bowed gracefully.

……

really.

It shouldn't be me who makes the choice.

"I'll be there."

Understood.

It seems that I understand a little bit.

Being a suitable half-soul does not require me to choose myself, but to provide choices for others.

Whether others want to see or not, is their freedom.

All I have to do is tell them.

You can meet but there is a price to pay... So, what do you want.

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"Lukia, come back this time, do you want to stay in the empty seat forever?"

"Ah." Rukia squinted her purple eyes, looked at this familiar room, recalled countless things that had happened in this world, and flashed before her eyes like a slow-motion replay.The origin of everything is that the original self was impartial and stepped into this window.It was the butterfly that followed the wind and flew into the destined garden.So the purple light is rippling in whose eyes.

"I really miss it."

miss you...

A world has changed.

Anyone can understand.

Can not go back.

But we really should raise our heads and move on.

There will be confusion and hesitation, but as long as we are still alive, we must have a future.

Just like a river, as long as it doesn't dry up for a day, it will definitely go to the ocean.

The clear, wide and boundless sea is the destination of the river.

In the name of hope.

"Bai Zai, is he really willing to let you go back to the empty seat? The Jingling Court will be very busy, right?"

"Ah, it's work anyway, so it's not bad here," Rukia shrugged, with a smirk on her face, "However, with you as an errand runner, it's easy for me."

"Hello..."

"By the way, Ichigo, do you know what your sister is doing, Natsuri?"

"Huh?..." Ichigo pouted, "This..."

Before he could finish speaking, the voice of Death God's proxy suddenly sounded.It's false!

"Let's go, Ichigo!" Rukia swallowed the Yihun pill immediately, and jumped out of the window neatly.

"Oh!"

The figures of two people are flying in the night.There was a cool wind passing through her hair, and her thoughts returned to two months ago in an instant.

"Are you going back?" Rukia stood in the empty seat on the outskirts of Liuhun Street, looking at the girl with a calm expression in front of her.

The eye circles are slightly red... and... I am deliberately avoiding my own eyes...

What are you crying for?

Rukia didn't ask, if Xia Li didn't want to say it.All along, I have said enough.If she still thinks it's better to hide some things, then don't say it.

"Okay, I'll go and contact the World Transit Gate for you." Rukia turned around.

"Lukia, if the first brother asks about me, you can tell him, it's okay. I didn't want to hide it from him."

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"But if he didn't ask, there's no need to tell him." Xia Li waved her hand, expressing a relaxed expression.

this child.It's always like this, and I don't care about myself at all.

"If the first brother asked"... I was thinking about that guy's mood...

I have spent so much time in this lonely city, and I have plunged into it day and night, for what and for whom.

Is it just because fate decides that she is the right one?

Then if... fate requires her to pay more, for others... what will this child do...

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Are you gone?

Yeah.I know.She must be gone.

Hitsugaya sat on the roof of the tallest building in the vacant seat, watching the sun rise and fall day after day.The snowy hair on the forehead was gently raised in the April smoky wind, unable to hide the tangled eyebrows.

I can't remember how many times this is the sunset.

How many more times will I see it.

do not know……

But it seems that it will continue to watch.

As a half soul, he knew very well who was missing and believed that he was still there.He knows exactly who supports his existence.

Hitsugaya lowered his head and gritted his teeth.

I think.I betrayed her.

With the simplest behavior, he betrayed her most thoroughly.

Maybe so, just right.

hate me.resent me.

Then...forget about me, let me just disappear.

I'm not someone you should miss so much.

……don't want.

...don't come back again.

...Don't come back again, Xia Li.

Your incomparably pure yearning made me even more certain that if you knew that method, you would definitely carry it out desperately.

That... the way to call me back.

But I can't let it happen.

because……

I don't want you to end up with a fate similar to half-soul for me.

—abandoned by all sight.

-To be continued