rebirth double

The past and the past are like shattered pieces of glass, piercing into every pore of me bit by bit, stirring fiercely.I tried desperately to keep my body to no avail.The sudden disappearance of the darkness in front of me made me blindfolded subconsciously, and next to my ears was the sentence Tang Yuchuan said to me at the beginning: "Jealous? It's up to you?"

I desperately recalled when and where Tang Yuchuan said this sentence, with a trembling, a trace of doubt, a trace of disbelief, and a trace of contempt.

I thought about it carefully, and suddenly my eyes became clear for a while.

It was the eve of the junior sports meeting, and Li Xiao came to me from Beijing. At that time, Tang Yuchuan said that his brother had come to city B, so he didn't live at home and didn't let me go to him.

That day, Li Xiao, Xiao Qi and I went to the hotel to play Fight the Landlord all night. The next day, I got a new hairstyle, which made Tang Yuchuan unhappy.I asked him if he was jealous. After he said this, he slammed the door and left. Then I called him and he didn't answer. On the third day, Tang Yuchuan sent me a text message, saying let me Throwing away the clothes and dyeing the hair back, I did that and sent him a picture, and he felt better.

At that time, our university and Tang Yuchuan University were holding the autumn sports meeting. Tang Yuchuan said that I would come when I ran 1500. I started the inspection at 01:30 in the afternoon, but I started calling Tang Yuchuan in the morning and he would not answer. , I wanted to go to him, but Tang Yuchuan said that his brother would not let me go to him, I think maybe Tang Yuchuan didn't want his brother to know that he was gay, so he didn't let me go to him, but I But I think it’s not a big deal just to cheer as friends.

I was a little anxious and angry. After making a few calls, Tang Yuchuan finally answered.

I was a little angry but I didn't mention it. I just asked, "Tang Yuchuan, I have to run 1500 in the afternoon. When will you come?"

Tang Yuchuan was silent for two seconds before saying, "My brother is here, I can't go."

When I heard that, I was a little anxious: "No, why can't you come to see me when your brother is here? Could it be that the word homosexual is written on my face?"

Tang Yuchuan sighed: "No."

I became even more irritable: "It's not what it is, in a word, are you coming or not?"

"I really can't go."

"Why can't you come? You told your brother that your friend's sports will cheer you up, can your brother not let you come?"

Tang Yuchuan grunted and said, "You studied broadcasting and hosting, while I went to business school."

I suddenly understood in my heart, and sneered: "Isn't that right? Even if you are separated by a wall, you went to a first-rate university, and I am a third-rate university. If your brother knows that his first-rate younger brother is friends with people from third-rate universities What are you talking about. Then why are you still living in my crappy little house? Oh, by the way, you have moved out these days, I don't think you should come back at all. "

"I didn't mean that, you..."

"I don't care if love comes or not!"

I was so angry that I hung up the phone, and I-fuck, I can't take it out, what happened to me going to this university?That's what Lao Tzu got in by his own ability. The first-class university is amazing, who the hell!

I was aggrieved for nearly two hours, and when I was about to take a lunch break, Li Xiao called me and said that he came to our university to cheer me up. As soon as I heard that Li Xiao was here, I thought about taking him to the canteen to buy some bread. I gnawed on the roof, but when I saw Li Xiao, he brought me two nutritious takeaways. He said that he could run fast in the afternoon after eating well at noon. He also brought a few cans of Red Bull, sports drinks, and vitamins. , Glucose or something, a big push.

I chuckled: "I said Li Xiao, buddy, I'm not going to participate in the Olympics, why are you buying such a big bag?"

Li Xiao bumped me with his shoulder: "What's the matter, what's the matter, can't I care about you?"

Although I thought Li Xiao was a bit exaggerated, I was really moved in my heart at the time, and felt that the buddy was reliable at the critical moment, not like some narrow-minded thug.

I smiled and said to Li Xiao: "Okay, okay, why can't it work. Let's go to the rooftop to eat, no one is still quiet there, and I can squat for a while at noon to recharge my energy when I am full."

"Yeah." Li Xiao agreed, but stretched out his hand to touch my hair and asked, "Why did you dye your hair back?"

I had a stalk in my heart, so I had to say: "I, I think it's too troublesome to take care of every day and I can't get used to it, so I dyed it back."

Li Xiao opened his mouth to say something, but turned his head back and said, "It's all right, let's go up and eat."

A good picture of the cool autumn breeze and the fragrance of sweet-scented osmanthus was completely ruined by my gobbling. Although Li Xiao is not very good-tempered, his eating posture is similar to Tang Yuchuan's, elegantly following the western restaurant. It's like eating steak.

"Silence, eat slowly, eat this."

As Li Xiao said, he put the most nutritious things in his set meal into my lunch box. I just pretended that he was not hungry, so I lowered my head and ate it vigorously. I swept away the whole set meal in ten minutes.

"Here, drink some water, I'm choking when I see you eating."

I took a sip of water: "What do you know, eating like this is delicious. After all, how do you eat with Tang Yuchuan? It's as elegant as drinking afternoon tea."

Li Xiao glanced at me, and suddenly said: "Silence, what is the relationship between Tang Yuchuan and you?"

I didn't finish stretching my waist and almost swayed my neck. My eyes started to dodge and I said, "Let's live together, it doesn't matter."

Li Xiao put the leftover lunch box into a plastic bag and didn't look at me, just said: "Silence, I went to Beijing and Shenzhen this year to learn business with my brother and met a lot of... homosexuals."

I was a little confused: "Li Xiao, do I have that feeling and taste in my body now?"

I rub it, have I become a sissy?Could it be that after being suppressed for a long time, the behavior became abnormal?

I felt cold sweat running down my back, but Li Xiao hooked the corners of his mouth, pointed to his eyes and said, "No, it's the eyes."

I choked: "What the hell, so evil?"

Li Xiao gave me a white look: "Silence, you are an idiot with a very low EQ."

Hey, why do I have a low EQ?

"Then you don't know how to explain clearly, what kind of eyes? I didn't discharge anyone."

Li Xiao snorted softly: "It's not you, it's his eyes."

I choked again: "I said Li Xiao, you have only met Tang Yuchuan once, right?"

Li Xiao nodded, stood up, carried the plastic bag and walked towards the trash can to the west.I was a little irritable and followed, Li Xiao finished throwing away the trash and leaned against the fence on the roof, lit a cigarette and took a deep breath.

He pointed to his own eyes, looked at me and said: "The time I went to find you, it was Tang Yuchuan who opened the door for me. He was still in a relaxed state, but when he saw me, his eyes changed. He looked at me like a wolf looking at his prey. At that time, I even thought he would jump over and bite me to death. If I hadn’t said something at that time, you What are you doing behind the door? I guess he won't let me in and send me away, so tell me in silence, what's the relationship between you two?"

"I, my...that's also..."

Li Xiao looked at me who couldn't say a fart for a long time, he patted my head and said, "Silence, you are so simple, you won't even lie."

I clenched my fist: "Dude, why are you lying?"

"Then you were acting stupid just now?"

I scratched my head impatiently: "Well, this isn't something about honoring our ancestors, I just, I just don't know how to tell you."

Li Xiao sighed and took another puff of cigarette: "You must be from below, I guess."

I was stunned: "You, how do you know?"

Li Xiao squinted his eyes at me and said: "Silence, in fact, you usually bluff, but you are kind-hearted and always considerate of others. You are always easy to follow what you do. As long as others say something, as long as it is not too If you ask too much, you will wrong yourself to accommodate others. Of course, I am not saying that Tang Yuchuan is not good, but I think Tang Yuchuan's eyes that day, and his behavior when eating... Let's put it this way, I think you give him too much Now, that's not good. I don't feel his respect for you, and it makes me unhappy."

I digested what Li Xiao said for a while: "Well, he is quite volatile sometimes, but generally he is fine." After I finished speaking, I realized what was wrong, and suddenly raised my head and said, "I Li Xiao, what kind of tricks are you doing? Shouldn't you persuade me to turn my back on the sea of ​​suffering?"

"Then can you turn around?"

My face became hot, and I deliberately raised my tone and said: "Well, that's not certain, maybe there is a 36d beauty on the shore to seduce me, so I will go back and go ashore."

"Pfft, idiot!"

Li Xiao patted my head. In fact, I wanted to say it a long time ago. Li Xiao always touches me like a big brother. He is obviously a little older than me. To put it bluntly, they are not all the same age.

Just as I was about to say something, Li Xiao threw the cigarette butt on the ground. He turned sideways suddenly, grabbed the tall block behind me with both hands, and locked me between his arms. Arrived a faint smell of tobacco.

When I raised my head, I seemed to see a trace of stubbornness flashing through Li Xiao's long and bright eyes. This imprisoned posture made me feel extremely embarrassed. Li Xiao was originally about the same height as Tang Yuchuan, five or six times taller than me My eyes were fixed on Li Xiao's red lips, and I was so frightened that I froze.

Then, I heard Li Xiao say word by word: "Silence, if I say that I have liked you since the second year of junior high school, and have liked you until now, if I say that I understand you better than anyone else, I understand you. If I said that the person standing on the other side is me. Will you turn back?"

When I was asked, I almost forgot how to breathe, and I just felt that my brain was blank.

Today, now, at this moment, I was confessed to by the best buddy in my life, and it was still such a gentle confession.

I looked at Li Xiao's eyes and suddenly felt a little sour in my heart. I couldn't ride a tiger, and I never wanted to lose this good buddy Li Xiao, so I could only mutter in a low voice: "You are not 36d."

Li Xiao froze, and his broad shoulders trembled again. I looked at him trembling with laughter, and I was even more dazed.

He shook his head and stared at me helplessly and said, "Silence, silence, your way of rejecting people is really interesting."

Li Xiao let go, and the sunlight that was blocked by his body shone on me again. When I saw Li Xiao's body turned away, my heart suddenly tightened, and I pulled his shirt subconsciously, and asked timidly: " Li Xiao, I treat you as a buddy, the one who will last forever, you..."

Li Xiao seemed to understand what I was worried about, he just smiled and patted me on the shoulder: "Don't worry, this is a secret between us, a secret that grandchildren don't even know. Silence, do you still remember when your grandparents died?" What did I tell you then?"

I nodded, with a sore nose: "Remember, you said that you would take me to hang out with you when you become a big boy in the future. You said that we will always be good buddies, and you will not let me go. Let me relax."

Li Xiao nodded: "Well, this sentence is always valid, we are good buddies for life. Silence, although our family is... quite rich, but it's all from my brother's business. I want to have my own business, and then take you with me. It’s not good to say that love is a matter of getting together or breaking up. After you graduate, as long as you want, I will take you to do business. You must be so smart. It's fine. But I said you don't have any psychological burden, and I just said this time, if you rejected me, I will pretend that I didn't say it, and you will pretend that I didn't say it, okay?"

My eye sockets were a little sore, and I nodded heavily.

Li Xiao smiled, and suddenly stood in front of me: "I have to leave in a few days, and my brother will take me to meet the boss of a company to talk about things tomorrow. Be silent, although what I said just now is quite a gentleman Yes, but I like you anyway. I have been secretly in love with you for so many years. Because of your love to blow hair, I didn't dare to tell you. I tossed and turned all day long. You said you were fine, but in the end you were hooked up by another man and ran away. How are you going to compensate me?"

"what?"

I'm simply...

Li Xiao, my best buddy is looking at me like a wounded kitten?My heart softened, and I grabbed a corner of my sportswear.

"Then, how do you pay for it? I... um..."

Li Xiao suddenly lowered his head and kissed me, but let go with just a little touch, then winked at me cutely and said, "Okay, I'm sorry."

My face was numb for a while, and I pretended to be relaxed and said: "Heh, heh, you really have a way to claim compensation, a little..."

"Kiss again."

"What... um..."

The faint smell of tobacco rushed over again, and I subconsciously tried to hide, when I suddenly heard a rush of footsteps.

"What are you doing!"

I pushed Li Xiao away abruptly, my face turned pale.

"Tang...Tang Yuchuan."