rebirth double

I seemed to feel that the muscles in my whole body were desperately tense. I looked at the tear stains on Tang Yuchuan's face, and I was at a loss for that open embrace.

Once upon a time, whenever I climbed over the wall of the business school, I would see Tang Yuchuan standing below with open arms to me, and said to me with the corners of his mouth curled up: "Jump slowly."

But every time I threw myself into his arms desperately, unreservedly and unscrupulously, I smiled foolishly, and then Tang Yuchuan pretended to be angry and said: "Silence, are you sparks hitting the earth?" ?”

Very close, very close, as if it was yesterday.

But at this moment, I just want to escape, far away, and ruthlessly.

That embrace is no longer the so-called peace of mind and happiness.It was deceit, it was betrayal, it was captivity, it was chains, it was despair.

I suddenly felt very cold, I clenched my fist subconsciously, bit my lip tightly and began to shake my head mechanically.It was an instinctive resistance, and I began to step back slowly, my legs were so weak that I could hardly support the weight of my body.

Perhaps Tang Yuchuan was frightened by my resistance, the smile disappeared on his face, and he just walked towards me step by step with his arms open.

I felt the boundless darkness, as if Tang Yuchuan's arms were full of thorns, as long as I stopped backing, I would be hurt by this embrace again.

How could I ever get close to it.

"Xiaomo... let me hug... just a little... okay..."

No, no, no!

I took a big step back suddenly, but my body staggered and hit the wall behind me.Tang Yuchuan was still slowly approaching me, and I began to struggle to retreat, this kind of coldness seemed to freeze me completely.

I started waving my arms crazily, my eyes widened, and in front of me was the nightmare I had for several years.

"Don't, don't come...don't come, don't come!"

"Xiaomo..."

I started to retreat regardless of my image, yelling, Tang Yuchuan was about to reach out and grab me, I knocked his hand off suddenly, with too much force, I was unsteady and sat on the ground like this .

As soon as I wanted to get up, Tang Yuchuan knelt on the ground and wanted to hug me. I kicked him subconsciously, and Tang Yuchuan sat down on the ground with a muffled groan.

"Xiaomo..."

"Get out, get out... get out!"

I pointed my fingers at him and yelled at him. Tang Yuchuan slowly knelt down on the ground and didn't get closer. He lowered his head. I couldn't see his expression clearly. I could only see his chest was soaked with tears. that slice.

Tang Yuchuan suddenly covered his face, kneeling on the ground and shrinking his body together as if in pain.

"Xiao Mo... why are you afraid of me... why are you afraid of me...don't be afraid of me, don't be afraid of me..."

What Tang Yuchuan said was right, I was scared, so scared that I never dared to approach her again.

I felt so empty in my heart, and I didn't know where the strength came from, so I got up all of a sudden. I was about to run wildly, but Tang Yuchuan grabbed my wrist violently. I started to panic, and I started to swing like a demon. arms.

"Don't touch me, don't touch me! Ah!"

No matter how much I yell Tang Yuchuan refuses to let go, I seem to see a poisonous snake slowly entwining me along the wrist he is holding, and slowly upwards.

Tang Yuchuan slowly trembled because of exertion, he slowly moved his hand back, and I pulled back desperately.I heard the sound of the soles of my feet rubbing against the ground, so sharp that I wanted to pierce my eardrums.

"No, I don't want, I don't want, get out, get out!"

"Xiao Mo... don't treat me like this, don't treat me like this..."

The door of the neighbor next door was suddenly opened, and a woman stared at us and yelled, "Die, why are you yelling in broad daylight?!"

Tang Yuchuan's hand loosened, and I saw the timing and kicked Tang Yuchuan's lower abdomen. As soon as Tang Yuchuan let go, I pushed open the door of the upstairs room like crazy and rushed down.

"Little Mo!"

He came after him, did he come after him?

"Xiao Mo, don't go, don't go!"

Tang Yuchuan followed me like a nightmare, I could hear myself panting desperately, I wished I could just jump from here to the first floor, I ran for my life, staggered a few steps and almost came down again, but I just can not stop.

I knew I couldn't outrun Tang Yuchuan, so after I left the unit door, I ran into the stairwell on the adjacent floor.After I locked the door, I began to hold my head against the door with my back and gasped desperately, trying to calm down the feeling that I was about to suffocate.

In the empty stairwell, my frantic breathing sounded horrific, but Tang Yuchuan's voice still came in from the outside, reaching the bottom of my heart.

"Xiao Mo! Xiao Mo!"

"silence!"

"Silence, come out! Silence, come out!"

"Silence...you come out...you come out..."

"Silence...don't hide from me...don't hide from me..."

"Silence... I beg you... I beg you! Come out... come out..."

I don't even know how long Tang Yuchuan shouted outside, the last voice was hoarse, but all I could do was cover my ears and curl up, telling myself over and over again, "Don't panic, don't panic, He can't find yours, he can't find yours."

The sound of Tang Yuchuan's footsteps became farther and farther away, and I slumped on the ground as if exhausted.I never thought that it would be like this when I saw Tang Yuchuan again with the body of Silence.That day in the bar, and now, I just want to run when I see him, and I hope never to be found by him again.

But when I realized that Tang Yuchuan would continue to appear in front of my eyes in the future, I only felt boundless darkness.

Tang Yuchuan, why do you still appear in front of me?

Tang Yuchuan, isn't it miserable enough for me to be harmed by you?

Tang Yuchuan, isn't the heart I entrusted to you broken enough?

Tang Yuchuan, could it be that you haven't fucked enough with this body?

Oh, I think...

The last one is more reliable.

When I stood up and was about to leave, I realized that the slippers on my feet had already flown to nowhere. Then I remembered that I ran downstairs in all pajamas. I had no choice but to turn around and go to Li Xiao. apartment and rang the doorbell.

"Silence? No, where are your shoes?"

I walked in in embarrassment, and slumped on the sofa: "Tang Yuchuan... is here."

Li Xiao grabbed my shoulder violently: "You, did you see him? Did he come to your apartment?"

I nodded, Lu Yingchen handed over a glass of water, I took it and drank it clean.

Li Xiao scratched his hair impatiently: "Fuck, this grandson, how about I find some bodyguards to follow you?"

Lu Yingchen put the cup on the table: "Tang Yuchuan didn't come here to murder, besides... Silence is just not ready to meet him yet."

Lu Yingchen slowly sat beside me and patted my hand: "Silence, what do you want to do?"

I shook my head: "I don't want to see him, but if I stay here again Tang Yuchuan will come back to you sooner or later, I think I'd better go back to the capital."

Li Xiao sighed: "Why are you going back to the capital in this state? Even if you want to go back, you will have to wait for a few days. We are about to go out. You go out with our car. I will arrange another place for you to live in first, and Tang Yuchuan will guarantee it for half a month. I can't find you within. You just use this time to think carefully, whether to continue to hide from him, or to talk face to face. Silence, no matter which one you choose, I will support you. If you still want to go back to the capital, then go Not too late."

I don't know what to do, I'm confused.

Lu Yingchen patted me on the shoulder: "Silence, I think what Li Xiao said is right, don't go back first, think about it first."

Li Xiao took me to a villa. He said it belonged to his brother, but his brother usually doesn't live in this villa.It's relatively hidden here, and people will be hired to clean it every Saturday. Even the Tang family will not find this place quickly. After all, Shenzhen is so big, it is still very easy for the Li family to hide a little me.

After Li Xiao left, I sat on the sofa in a daze until night fell.My mind was in a mess, as if I had thought a lot, but at the same time it seemed like I hadn't thought about anything.

I don't know why I did this, obviously I don't owe Tang Yuchuan at all, but I avoid him like the Lord of Hell.Maybe what Lu Yingchen said is right, I'm just not ready, or I'm just too cowardly.

When my whole body fell into darkness, I felt that I had found the reason to avoid Tang Yuchuan.

Because I don't want to hear Tang Yuchuan say that damn sorry no matter what, and I don't want to suffer that heavy slap for no reason anymore. My meager self-esteem can no longer withstand that kind of blow. The awl made me feel chills and resistance one after another.

Tang Yuchuan never liked me, he always regarded me as his silent brother, I know this very well.

So why did Tang Yuchuan still come to me?

For some reason, I suddenly thought of Tang Xia, and suddenly thought of the scene where I saw Tang Yuchuan hugging Silence like a child that day, and I suddenly thought of Tang Yuchuan once said to me as Xu Cheng, "I don't think I'm broken in love. , but it’s not necessarily true if you lose your mind and lose your mind.”

My heart seemed to have fallen into a bottomless ice hole all of a sudden.

That's right, Tang Yuchuan is crazy, he has never had a good time, otherwise, who would find a substitute as a treasure, and play with the house wine for three full years?Even a three-year-old child knows that no one is exactly the same in the world, right?Perhaps for Tang Yuchuan, this game is not over yet?

That's right, if I hadn't discovered the truth, maybe I'm still trapped in the valley, or being pressed down by Tang Yuchuan and fucked hard.

I feel that I have been spoiled by Tang Yuchuan from the inside out, like a broken toy, I can no longer pick it up and play with it again, but Tang Yuchuan didn't think about it.That's true... But how could he care about my life or death? He never had me in his eyes or in his heart. Maybe I was just a lost toy to him.

I stayed in the villa for a week without going out, and there are some stocks in the refrigerator that are enough for me to eat for a while.Li Xiao would call me here from time to time, because Li Shaoying let go of everything and wanted to throw herself on He Lianwei. Li Xiao and Lu Yingchen were very busy recently, so they said they would come to see me in a few days.I don't want them to come, I also want to be alone.

Just when I thought I could calm down here and think about it, Xia Hao's phone call came from the capital.

I looked at Xia Hao's mobile phone number on the caller ID, and I was a little confused. I thought it might be because I hadn't contacted Xia Hao for more than a week, so he called this landline, and I quickly answered the phone.

"Xiaohao?"

"Well, bro, it's me."

I smiled and rushed to say: "Well, my phone is turned off, I'm fine here, don't worry."

Xiaohao seemed to make a "tsk", but I didn't hear it very clearly.

"Brother, Tang Yuchuan's grandson somehow found out about your relationship with the Xia family. He came to our house three days ago."

My spine stiffened.

I grabbed the phone and asked nervously: He, he didn't talk nonsense with the old man and our dad, did he? "

Xiaohao said "Oh" and said: "It was nothing at first. Grandpa went to play chess with his old comrades in arms that day. Dad went to the army. I was the only one at home. I didn't let him in that day. Who knew that grandson Kneeling in front of the door for two hours. I went out because I had something to do in the afternoon. He caught me and asked me to tell him where you were. I refused to tell him and scolded him. Actually , I didn’t feel like I was trying too hard, so I kicked him anyway, I thought he would hide, but who knew he didn’t hide. Later, when Dad came back, Tang Qindu came to our house the next day to settle accounts with me He said that I kicked Tang Yuchuan's ribs. Dad didn't know what was going on, so he turned on me and chased me to beat me. Later Tang Qin said that Tang Yuchuan refused to accept treatment. He still clamored to see you. Dad thought we were wrong, so he asked me to call you and call you back. Later, when grandpa came back and heard about it, he scolded me again. Grandpa also... let you Come back, bro, are you coming back?"

I was speechless for a while, I don't know how there are so many moths in just one week.

I choked, scratched my head and said, "Well... can I not go back?"

Xiaohao sighed and said, "The Tang family is looking for you. They are mobilizing people. I guess they even used private detectives. Otherwise, how would Tang Yuchuan know about your relationship with the Xia family. Brother, I think you are hiding from Tang in Shenzhen. Yuchuan is not a problem, besides, dad and grandpa are also at a loss now, and it is difficult to explain to the Tang family. I was afraid that I might say something wrong, so I didn't say anything, just said that you and Tang Yuchuan have some festivals. No matter how you say it The Tang family is at fault, and Tang Qin also sincerely said that Tang Yuchuan just wanted to see you and had no other intentions. Although grandpa and father are very protective of the calf, they can't say anything about Tang Qin's attitude. But brother... Tang Yuchuan How do you know you're still alive?"

I just felt a pain in my head: "When I was shopping with Li Xiao, I saw Tang Xia and Shen Mo. I guess Tang Yuchuan followed suit because of this. I met Tang Yuchuan in Shenzhen a few days ago, but then I ran away It is estimated that Tang Yuchuan couldn't find me, so he went to Xia's house."

I think I have to go back this time, otherwise the old man and dad will be worried.

I endured the resistance in my heart, and finally sighed.

"Well, I'll go back tomorrow."