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On the eve of the Chinese New Year, the office building was empty, the school was empty, everyone was crowded in the shopping mall, and the businesses also put on the most festive and hasty music, just to make everyone walk faster, and then hurry up, everyone's face showed There was a rush of joy, hurried steps, hurried gestures, more and more goods piled up in the cart, but Xu Ruqing still walked slowly, occasionally opened his mouth, but did not make any sound, as if he forgot how to It's like opening your mouth to speak.

Xu Yanxin smiled a little, holding Xu Ruqing's hand, letting his occasionally raised fingers curl up in her warm palm.When he first got sick, Xu Yanxin maintained an optimistic and positive attitude towards his grandfather's condition. His grandfather was quick-witted and witty, how could he be defeated by a small illness.However, no matter what status or status people are, they all retain the most primitive and vulnerable side in the face of illness. Perhaps one of the cruelest things in this world is to see the one you love slowly aging and withering.

When passing by the candy shelf, grandma smiled and said, "What a cunning guy, why did you come to take refuge at grandparents' house? In fact, you just came to steal junk food, right?" Xu Yanxin said with a smile, because she missed the sweet and sour pork tenderloin made by grandma , I want to gain weight, and after finishing speaking, I smiled at Xu Ruqing.

Xu Ruqing lost a lot of weight, her cheeks were sunken, and her pair of piercing eyes appeared extraordinarily large, as if they occupied half of her face.When Xu Yanxin occasionally looked at him, seeing his gray-black eyebrows, she would always think that grandpa is like a painting that has not been maintained properly, and all the colors have gradually faded, like a gray winter day.Before leaving, the grandma passed by the children's building blocks shelf, looking at the building blocks in the children's hands, she felt lost and said, "You also liked to play with building blocks when you were young. Other children like to build castles and high-rise buildings, but you like to build bungalows. Build a garden. Your grandpa would correct you every time and wanted to build something more grand and objective, but you never listened. But thinking about it now, maybe Xinxin told us the answer back then."

Xu Yanxin stood there, very touched: "Grandma..."

This topic came to an abrupt end, just as the cold wind blew on his cheeks, all the joy in the mall faded away.

If someone asked Xu Yanxin, what kind of person would you become at the age of 27?Perhaps only the 17-year-old Xu Yanxin can give this answer.At the age of 17, a symbol of youth, in order to avoid his parents, he came to his grandparents' house, living under the shadow of worrying about his grandfather's illness.His grandpa was getting old, and he was always looking at the wall in a daze.Above is his award certificate.

However, he understood that he would never be able to become the Xu Yanxin that everyone expected.

In the early morning, he received a package from the Academy of Fine Arts, which contained only a thin entry certificate.Grandma just passed by him and was going to water the garden. He immediately stuffed the competition certificate into his pocket. Fortunately, grandma didn't have any doubts.Until late at night, Xu Yanxin called Jiang Yu and asked him in a low voice, could he accompany him to City B?

Jiang Yu froze for two seconds and said, okay.

After packing his bags, he tiptoedly closed the door and walked down the stairs, only to see a black figure sitting straight on the grand master's chair. Xu Yanxin huddled against the wall behind him, touched the lamp on the wall until the light dispelled the darkness, Only now did he see clearly that it was Xu Ruqing who was sitting stupidly.

When Xu Yanxin walked in front of him, Xu Ruqing turned her eyes back to him in a daze. Those old hands touched his forearm and patted it lightly, "Are you hungry?"

Xu Yanxin didn't expect him to say this. When he was a child living at his grandparents' house, he would go downstairs to steal snacks in the middle of the night.

A tear trickled down his cheek quickly.Xu Ruqing stared blankly at the wet spot on the back of her hand, and put her arms around his back, "Why are you crying? Is your mother bullying you? Grandpa took you to find her to settle the score, and I said, what kind of piano do you want to learn?" Her fingers are swollen. Didn't Xinxin want to see the whales? Let's go to see the whales tomorrow, shall we? We won't take the grade test."

Xu Ruqing didn't remember her research and her pride, but only remembered his little pain.

Xu Yanxin cried until her eyes were swollen, but she was afraid of alarming grandma, so she had to keep her voice hoarse, "Grandpa, when I come back, let's go to see the whales together. I will go out with my friends later, but I will be back soon, you Don't tell mom."

Xu Ruqing only grasped the key word, and said quite relievedly: "How could I tell her? I will always stand by Xinxin's side. I just said, Xinxin will definitely make good friends and stop playing with that boy Together, grandpa was very scared, dreaming that you fell down the stairs and stayed in the hospital for more than a year..."

The phone vibrated, and Xu Yanxin came back to his senses. He said yes like coaxing a child. Xu Ruqing sat on the chair and said those words over and over again, afraid that his fingers would be swollen, that he would cry, and that he would be bullied by his mother. At the end, Xu Ruqing looked at the back of Xu Yanxin who was going away, and said blankly: "Xinxin, don't forget, I'm going to see the whales."

Xu Yanxin said: "I will never forget, I will definitely come back soon."

When Jiang Yu saw Xu Yanxin, Xu Yanxin cried so much that his eyelids were swollen, Jiang Yu took his schoolbag and said nothing, just like this quiet night, caged them in silent sadness.The street lights were dim, and occasionally a car passed by with its headlights on, making their figures longer and shorter, just like his sometimes firm and sometimes confused heart, but when he walked to the bright place, he held Jiang Yu's arm tightly, like I learned a little bit of courage and didn't look back.

Jiang Yu booked a train ticket. As soon as he walked into the compartment of the green leather train, he could smell all kinds of cooked food in the air. Xu Yanxin held the ticket, looked around, looked for his seat, and bumped into Jiang Yu. The back of the island.Jiang Yu first settled the luggage in his hand, and then settled Xu Yanxin who was unconscious.It was the first time for Xu Yanxin to take a train, and it was quite novel. She stared blankly at the old man who was snoring like thunder, wondering how his mouth could be opened so wide, but Jiang Yu misunderstood him and whispered to him: " Let’s take the high-speed train when we come back.”

He "run away from home" for the first time, full of pride and rebellious mind, but he didn't know how many cards and RMB he had stolen.

Two hours later, the train drove into the countryside, Xu Yanxin also jumped twice like the street lights at the station entrance, and then rested quietly.Looking at his defenseless side face and pale fingers, Jiang Yu had an idea for no reason, if Xu Yanxin always needed him and relied on him so much, it would be fine.He likes Xu Yanxin, his smile, his innocence, and everything about him. Their meeting was romantic and flawless, and the timing was just right. Even the fire was a gift from nature. Xu Yanxin was like a piece of a puzzle that fit perfectly in his In this poor picture, perhaps Xu Yanxin should have belonged to him, and he just took back the gift that was deposited with the gods.

When he was approaching City B, Jiang Yu looked out the window, and the handsome young man reflected on the glass had a smile on his mouth. He touched the corner of his mouth lightly, and he didn't even notice the faint smile.Maybe it was his little action that woke up the boy next door, Xu Yanxin groaned twice, opened his sleepy eyes, and suddenly smiled, "What are you laughing at?"

"Secret." Jiang Yu said.

"Jiang Yu, you seem to have a lot of secrets." The boy touched the scar on the top of his head, which gave him a strange feeling. The scar was like a sensory organ of his, allowing him to feel the warmth of Xu Yanxin's palm. "Actually, I wanted to go to City B by myself... Thank you for coming with me." Xu Yanxin looked up at him, her eyelashes were wet, and her eyes, which were warm and bright in the dark night, were also wet.

Jiang Yu laughed shortly, "Is this touching?"

"Can't you?" The boy felt a little awkward.

Jiang Yu said, of course, you are easily moved anyway.But he wanted to say in his heart, Xu Yanxin, these are not enough, far from enough.

When they arrived at the hotel, Jiang Yu went into the toilet to wash up without saying a word, Xu Yanxin sat on the sofa with her bag in her arms, and looked at the double bed in front of her with her face propped up.When he was at the front desk just now, Jiang Yu's reaction when he heard that there was only one standard room with a double bed left was as if Xu Zhao heard that he had passed the exam.A few minutes later, Jiang Yu came out of the toilet and had already changed into pajamas and pajamas. His handsome face was frosty, and there was a drop of water hanging from his chin. "You sleep on the bed, I sleep on the sofa."

Xu Yanxin felt very baffled, "I'm not a girl...oh, yes, you...then, then I'll sleep on the sofa, you are tall and can't sleep." When he realized it, his face turned red.

Jiang Yu ignored him, moved the pillow to the sofa and lay down on it.

Xu Yanxin glanced at his legs hanging outside, "Or..."

Jiang Yu glanced at him, "Good night."

Xu Yanxin pursed her lower lip, and turned out her pajamas. Just as she took off the last top, she heard a cool voice behind her, "Can't you go to the toilet to change?"

Xu Yanxin hadn't perfectly adapted to Jiang Yu's sexuality, so she froze for two seconds, wondering if she should scream like the girl in the movie and ran to the toilet at three o'clock, but Jiang Yu's bland, somewhat The cold voice really made him blush and run into the toilet.

The person in the mirror has fair skin, a thin body, and his ribs are faintly visible when he bends down. He really has a dry wood-like figure. Xu Yanxin looked at his body quite probingly, but he couldn't find anything attractive.However, when Xu Yanxin came out after changing her pajamas, the lights were dimmed, and Xu Yanxin groped and climbed onto the bed.

The hotel Jiang Yu found was located in a good location, very close to the school, but the conditions were poor. When he turned over a little, he could hear the creaking sound under the bed.Xu Yanxin split a turn over into three steps, just like doing plank support plus abdominal training.

"And you incubate your eggs on the bed?"

Xu Yanxin was stunned for two seconds, "It turns out that you haven't slept yet, so that's good. You are a patient, how can you use the sofa, let's change it, actually I liked sleeping on the sofa when I was young..."

"I understand." Jiang Yu said suddenly.

Seeing his cooperation, Xu Yanxin immediately stood up and wanted to get out of bed to exchange with him, but the creaking and shaking bed suddenly became heavier, and Xu Yanxin suddenly realized that it was Jiang Yu who bent one leg and pressed against the edge of the bed, resisting his chest, pressing him back on the bed.Jiang Yu's arm rested next to his cheek, and the two could hear each other's breath.Xu Yanxin's heart was beating like a drum, and her face was like a red sun, for fear that Jiang Yu would also hear her own heartbeat.However, with a sudden light on his body, Jiang Yu had already slept in the empty seat next to him, and said sullenly, "Sleeping."

But Xu Yanxin was still thinking about the warmth of his chest, didn't dare to move, just opened his eyes stupidly, staring at the chandelier on the ceiling, he didn't know what material it was, how powerful it was, he was trying to distract himself like this When he was struggling, Jiang Yu turned over, "Go to sleep, don't worry, homosexuality is not interested in every man, a brat like you who wants to have no breasts, butt and no butt, entered GAYBAR And no one will ask you for your contact information."

Xu Yanxin was a little unconvinced, "Oh, so you all like Hulk."

Jiang Yu laughed, "But there are also some with unique flavors, and I like skinny and unnutritious children like you."

Xu Yanxin heheed, and said, "Talk people like crayfish."

Jiang Yu choked on him, and the romance that had been blurted out was swallowed back into his throat.He wanted to say it softly and comfortably, but his taste was a bit unique.But Xu Yanxin has already brought the topic to the sky. Sometimes, he couldn't help sighing. When he was in Qingshui County, he didn't want to hook up with Xu Yanxin, but made the child blush and heartbeat. Now that he wants to hook up, he is used to his pace up.

As the Centennial Tavern says, love can't be found, that's why people say "fall in love".

Jiang Yu wanted to pull Xu Yanxin to jump into the river, but Xu Yanxin is only struggling with "protruding forward and backward".