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The story of Xu Ruqing was widely spread in No. [-] Middle School. Even the best students could not avoid the temptation of gossip.Jiang Yu has heard those people's guesses about Xu Yanxin more than once. He hates Xu Yanxin being a pronoun in other people's mouths. Big smile.

Even so, before the college entrance examination, he only met Xu Yanxin three times.One time was the physical examination before the college entrance examination. Xu Yanxin stood at the front of the line, holding the wrist of the other hand, and just stood like this, not talking to other students.The classmates next to him slandered him, sympathized with him, and explored him in a low voice, but Jiang Yu only felt that Xu Yanxin was very thin, and his two shoulder blades were covered with a thin cotton T-shirt, like the wing pack of a small animal, which can be easily blown by the wind. blow away.Jiang Yu's gaze could almost burn a hole in Xu Yanxin's body.He had too many things he wanted to ask Xu Yanxin, how he was doing, and what was going on with him, but the crowd seemed to have an idea, preventing him from squeezing to Xu Yanxin's side.

Just like a flying bird, Xu Yanxin only glanced over the sky of Jiangyu, and then disappeared.

The second time, he repeated his old trick and knocked open Xu Yanxin's window with a small stone in the middle of the night.

However, Xu Yanxin didn't open the window for him this time, just looked at him, neither letting him come up nor let him go, he just stared at the Jiangyu downstairs, as if he was sculpting his face.

In the past, when Xu Yanxin saw him, he was always jumping with joy like a bird returning to its nest.But this time, he put on a high posture, so alienated, as if he didn't know him.

Jiang Yu is such a selfish person. Since kindergarten, the teacher has disliked him for being selfish and mean. He refuses to share the toys he gets with other students, and deliberately gives him a bottle of milk. He will aggressively ask the teacher to hide the bottle in Milk in a carton.Never suffer any loss.He also scoffed at the saying that suffering is a blessing, how could suffering be a blessing?It's just that people suffer for no reason and needlessly, and even deceive themselves and others that it is a gift from heaven.How boring.He never believed in this theory of self-consolation.

Only not to Xu Yanxin.

Just as Xu Yanxin expected, he walked quietly through the night.

He thought more than once that Xu Yanxin was not avoiding him, but was too busy, too tired, and had too many things to do, so he couldn't spare a few minutes to talk to him.

It turns out that self-deception is self-taught without a teacher.

Filling out the volunteers before the college entrance examination, Jiang Yu heard the wind that Xu Yanxin ranked the mathematics majors of all universities at the forefront.

Xia Song clicked his lips and said, "If I were Xinxin, I wouldn't have the face to study other majors."

Chai Fang squinted at him, and said disapprovingly: "Even if there are many apologies, you can't take the future life as compensation. The old class is too kind, so he is restrained everywhere." Xia Song couldn't help Shaking their heads approvingly, the two argued.Jiang Yu stood up abruptly, hooked his long legs to the legs of the table, and the entire table hit the ground with a loud noise, Xia Song and Chai conveniently fell silent.Fang Keshi twisted his fat body and leaned closer, "Jiang Yu, how is my deskmate now? Are you really not going to talk to him?"

With a cold face, Jiang Yu went out through the back door with his pockets in his pocket as if he had never heard of it.

He heard Xia Song say something softly, which meant that Xu Yanxin didn't know him that well either.

What is cooked?

He drank a glass of water with Xu Yanxin, ate a bowl of rice, slept in the same bed, secretly kissed him twice, and eavesdropped on countless words in his sleep.Xu Yanxin didn't want to see him once.He kicked the basketball at his feet, and the graffiti-covered basketball was kicked far away by him, rolling into the wasteland full of thorns.He pretended to be indifferent and left, but after only three steps, he couldn't help but got into the bushes and picked up the gaudy basketball.The spikes made his arms red, but he only frowned, staring at the graffiti in his hand.

Xu Yanxin's sense of guilt, guilt, or dedication has nothing to do with him.

He is the extremely selfish person, he wants Xu Yanxin to be happy.Even if there is no him in this happiness.

In the empty classroom after school, the weather is getting hotter, the windows are wide open, and the wind blows up the thin curtains.Xu Yanxin held the piece of paper, seeming to be thinking about something, but also seemed to be in a daze, until Ye Yuqing knocked on his desk and urged: "Can you pay it, I just want to go to Grandpa's office."

Xu Yanxin lowered his eyelashes, and replied: "You go first, I will go by myself later." Ye Yuqing did not move, but directly straddled the position in front of him, facing him, frowned and said: "Even if you don't Speaking of your grandfather's matter, you are also a scientific research material. There are so many disputes in other industries, so many problems that cannot be solved by strength, why do those things? Isn't it good to be in a clean field? Besides, people If you don’t have the talent in this area, you have to go there anyway, but you have it, but you don’t respect your own talent, it’s a waste.” Ye Yuqing was rarely arrogant, even though he raised his eyebrows, there was some sincerity in his words. of.

"Thank you."

Ye Yuqing blushed suddenly, "Why are you thanking me? I just don't want my competitors to suddenly run off to draw cartoons. It's like Einstein and Bohr have been fighting for a lifetime, but Bohr suddenly got up and wanted to be a painter." It seems like a joke." Xu Yanxin thought of a funny thing, smiled rarely, and said, "Einstein, don't tell God what to do."

Ye Yuqing snorted and immediately answered, "Solvay meeting."

The two smiled at each other.

However, this is a bit dazzling in the eyes of others.

After Ye Yuqing left, he sat for a long time, and finally walked out with his volunteer watch as if he had made up his mind, but as soon as he went out, he bumped into Jiang Yu with a sullen face.Jiang Yu didn't know when he came here, leaning against the wall with a bad expression on his face.

Jiang Yu's gaze shifted from his face to the object in his hand, but he avoided talking, "Do you like that girl?"

Xu Yanxin was stunned for a moment, "Who? Ye Yuqing? How is that possible. We have been rivals since we were young, let alone like me, the person she hates the most in this world should be me."

Jiang Yu sneered and did not accept his words.Jiang Yu only glanced at Xu Yanxin's volunteer form, as Xia Song said, all majored in mathematics.Jiang Yu frowned lightly, "Are you sure?"

Xu Yanxin smiled, showing a trace of weakness, and responded softly.

"You always feel guilty about the world, about the poor children, about the scavengers on the side of the road, and about me. But when do you think about yourself? You can find another kind of guilt for your grandpa's affairs. There is no way to make up for it, why waste your life, besides, it's not your fault..."

"It's not like this. You always think of me too kindly, so it's hard for me to face you. I just want to think that when grandpa passed away, I was... Have you ever thought that maybe I just want to Are you at ease?"

"But I know you're not like that."

"Perhaps you are mistaken."

Jiang Yu lowered his voice and whispered in his ear: "Do you think you know yourself well enough? Do you know how many moles you have on your body?" Xu Yanxin's skin became hot from his breath, and she gently pushed him away, but Jiang Yu grabbed his hand and said: "Twelve. Xu Yanxin, don't be a holy father, don't let everyone owe you. If you really can't do it, at least you can be a little selfish in front of me. I can give you two more chances, and from the third time onwards, when I come to see you, you have to go downstairs to see me."

"If you insist on handing in this voluntary letter, that's fine," Jiang Yu held his wrist, "but you have to promise me that at least you have to finish drawing your Animal Farm cartoon, otherwise you can't give up drawing cartoons. "

"What kind of robber theory is this?"

"Because I'm your first fan."

Xu Yanxin smiled, "If you call it Animal Farm again, I will expel your fan status."

"understood."

Jiang Yu boasted that he went to Haikou and wanted to go to City B with him, but his grades were not satisfactory.The teacher also unconsciously hoped that he would give up, not to mention that Liu Rong and Jiang Tao were furious when they learned that he had filled all the schools in city B.But Jiang Yu's barbarism has not diminished over time, and he has never worried about his retreat.Although he is selfish, he is not greedy.Before meeting Xu Yanxin, he only longed for a job that could provide food and clothing. He seldom had any desires. However, after meeting Xu Yanxin, he didn't want to pull Xu Yanxin down from the tall building to kiss the earth. He was willing to support him and let him live forever. On top of tall buildings.

He spends all his time studying.

Because of this incident, he had to quit his job in the bar, and he was suddenly penniless. Fortunately, Zhang Hui was willing to help him and lent him 1 yuan.The chic and coquettish teenager in the bar was gone, replaced by a nerd who lit up the night in the room, and even when eating, Jiang Yu was silently reciting words in his head.

There are a lot of things he didn't tell Xu Yanxin, such as his hard work, his eyes gradually wearing out under the cheap lamps, and the pair of black-rimmed glasses he wore before the college entrance examination.But because of embarrassment, I have never worn it in front of outsiders.He had too many things to share with Xu Yanxin in time, but when he really met Xu Yanxin, he would not say anything.

Jiang Yu occasionally thinks that the facts of the world are bizarre.At first, he just wanted to possess that beautiful and gentle boy, just like possessing a beautiful toy when he was a child, he could use it to show off and decorate.Little did he know that his casual and arrogant attitude became his own cage one day.On that day, he laughed at the hairy monkey who loves to death and has no self-esteem.But he didn't want to be in the cage of love, so he might not be as decent as the monkey.

Perhaps somehow, he was doomed to lose.

He won so many people, God couldn't understand him, so he sent someone to clean him up.

From the first moment he saw Xu Yanxin, he lost.

It's just that in this bet, he lost willingly.

He didn't even tell Xu Yanxin that he had secretly let him in countless times.

That's how Jiang Yu was, and he didn't say anything.Even if he has loved him countless times.