My ancestors wouldn't let me be gay

What it's like to have someone completely disappear from your life.

At first, Sheng Mingkao pretended to be nothing, calculating that it was time for Makizaki's plane to take off, and it was time to land in the United States.

He would still go to the second canteen to order braised lion heads, but he couldn't remember what kind of food Mu Qi likes to eat.

It seems that he likes to eat whatever Makizaki eats.

So it's not considered humiliating yourself in terms of food, and accommodating a person who has already left.

He continued to eat his favorite meal, but it tasted like wax.

Because he didn't have to wait for that person to swallow slowly after eating, and he didn't have to go to the canteen to buy two bottles of soda and then make Mu Qi shrink his neck from the ice.

It's easy to forget someone on a university campus. At the beginning, there was a heated discussion on the campus for a month, and the foreign affairs department student studying at Stanford University was soon replaced by a third-year senior who cheated on a freshman girl.

Makizaki's photo is hung at the top of the outstanding student wall, and the introduction column above reads: "Studying at Stanford University because of his excellent debating ability."

Stanford University, the cradle of many politicians, and Makizaki's classmates in the future are the talents who are truly worthy of him.

While rejoicing that he finally doesn't have to bear the future of the two of them, and the place in Zhanning continues to be dark, Shengming misses the person far away on the other side of the ocean crazily.

Makizaki never contacted him again.

The two people's phone calls, WeChat, and QQ were all blocked by Makizaki on that crazy morning.

He especially remembered that Mu Qi said that morning: "Sheng Ming Castan, you let me go, in the future, no matter whether it is long night or dreamy, don't think of me."

Sheng Mingkai secretly released Mu Qi from the small dark room, and then quietly sent a message, but got a big red exclamation mark, and the other party did not let him out from the small dark room.

After confirming that the other party could not receive the message, Sheng Ming breathed a sigh of relief, then regarded Mu Qi as a file transfer assistant, and began to talk to himself.Number one: "I miss you."

The second: "I decided to miss you."

Article [-]: "You said that day that you were not allowed to think of you, but I disagree, so I miss you stubbornly, for a long time and passionately."

"Hit me if you have the ability!"

Some people are born with this self-healing ability, no matter how desperate the day is, he can find a way to be happy.

Sheng Mingcastle's appearance of enjoying himself does not seem to be deceiving himself at all.

He even reunited all his former high school classmates, having fun for a few months, barbecuing and drinking until he vomited.

Yuan Kai's grandson couldn't stand it anymore, and scolded him one night: "If you really can't do it, go to the children's table. If you don't do much, you are the one who makes trouble the most."

"What good will it do you to break your body?"

Shengming Castanopsis crouched by the flowers, brewing drunk, "vomited", and another meal was overwhelmed.

"Kaizi, you don't understand, the night is too long..." After speaking, he added: "There are also many dreams."

The night was indeed too long, and the dream was full of the taciturn boy.

When I found it in my dream, I was no longer an old acquaintance, and there was no covered bridge beside me to cover the wind and rain.

Sheng Mingcastan is like a drowning fish, surrounded by familiar old friends, but he can't find the root of breathing in this place.

Clearly, the sky in Zhanning is still high and cloudy, the clouds are leisurely, and the summer is scorching.

But Castanopsis shengming couldn't find the root to breathe here.

Once he was so depressed that he ran to the provincial capital and sneaked around the old house of the Mu family. Behind the layers of verdant old trees, only a protruding corner of the small building was exposed.

The boy who was leaning on the corridor and looking into the distance was nowhere to be seen.

It wasn't until three months after Mu Qi left that Kao Sheng Ming slowly realized that this person had really left.

He was so disappointed that he returned to Zhanning from the provincial capital, and continued to live a life that seemed bright and lively, but was actually a dead body.

Sun Yuan came to look for him once, she was so grateful that she almost knelt down to him, but after being stopped by Castanopsis Sheng Ming, she still said gratefully, "Thank you, Castanopia."

People who couldn’t be persuaded by their parents no matter how hard they tried, agreed to apply for a visa and submit documents for going abroad after fleeing the house overnight.

Sheng Mingjiao said with a smile: "Thank you, I also look forward to him leaving, don't I?"

Sun Yuan looked at the boy who was losing weight rapidly in front of her. There was no flesh on his face, his cheeks were sucked in, his eye sockets were sunken, and then his dark eyeballs were shining brightly.

Sun Yuan felt a pain in her heart.

"Little Castanopsis, let auntie ask someone to take care of you, you are...too thin." Sun Yuan said.

Sheng Mingkao quickly refused: "Oh, don't, I'm already 21, and I still need someone to take care of me."

After rejecting Sun Yuan's kindness, Sheng Mingkao returned home, looked in the mirror carefully, and compared his previous photos, feeling that he was really not living a decent life now.

"Made, live like a dog for a man."

So I cleaned up, went out to buy vegetables, and chatted with the grandma and girls in the streets and alleys.

"Yo, that daughter of the Luo family is like a star now."

"It looks more beautiful than before. I heard that as soon as she came back, the threshold of Luo's family was broken by young people, saying that they wanted to see her." "Don't say it, I still know that kid from the Yuan family, Hanging around Luo's house every day, helping Luo's father and mother to carry water and chop firewood, serving the elderly is very diligent." "Hmph, who doesn't know what kind of heart this kid has."

"That gentle lady is so cute, isn't this a normal thing!"

Sheng Mingkao took the vegetables and leaned against the wall to listen. He didn't notice that two potatoes had fallen out of the bag, and he only had one thought in his mind: "Luo Yan is back?"

Picking up the potatoes on the ground, carrying half a catty of pork, when we arrived at Luo's house, Luo's mother opened the door, seeing him coming to the door with vegetables, she smiled redly and said, "Oh, boy Sheng, there are more vegetables than flowers, chocolates, etc. gone."

Sheng Mingcheng said, "Uh...that... Auntie, I'm here to find Luo Yan."

Luo's mother has a beautiful daughter who came back from studying in Beijing and dressed up like a big star. Which boy from all over the world did not come to see Luo Yan.

Said: "Oh, Auntie knows, who among the young talents in this yard is here to see my daughter, Nuo, let's line up."

"No, Auntie Cai took it away first, just to make a dish of vinegared potato shreds." Luo Ma took the vegetables, and Sheng Mingkao came in dumbfounded. Sure enough, he saw a yard full of young talents, either holding bouquets or wearing suits. Leather shoes, standing at Luo's house.

Seeing another rival in love, everyone's eyes were red.

Someone in the kitchen is cooking and cooking big dishes.

Luo's mother is very hospitable. In the past few days after her daughter came back, people came to the house one after another, and she stayed for dinner before leaving.

Sheng Mingkao looked at the kitchen, good guy, Chef Yuan is in charge.

"Kay."

Yuan Kai looked over from the oily smoke, the hot peppers in the pan were so hot that he shed tears.

When I saw it, there were tears in my eyes.

Sheng Mingchen couldn't hold back, and laughed: "Are you so happy to see Dad?"

"Go away, I was smoked."

Yuan Kai lost all his foolishness, and wearing an apron, he has the temperament of a family boy.

"Kai, are you aggrieved?"

Yuan Kai sighed: "Look at the love rivals in this yard, not only can I not beat them out, but I also have to prepare wine and good food for them in this smoky kitchen. Mom is about to get sick."

Sheng Mingjiao just wanted to comfort him, but a person came in from the kitchen and said, "If you feel aggrieved, don't do it, just tell the group of people outside to get out."

Luo Yan's woolen coat and British-style hat looked noble and elegant, which was incompatible with the environment of the kitchen.

Yuan Kai drove her out: "Hey, Yanzi, what are you doing here when it's so smoky, get out quickly, and just wait for the food."

Sheng Mingcheng laughed: "Wow, the big stylist succeeded in counterattack."

Luo Yan slapped them with a smile, grabbed Yuan Kai's shovel and threw it into the pot, pulled two high school classmates left and right, and walked out: "Let's go, it's been a long time since our high school classmates got together. cup."

Yuan Kai glanced at the dishes in the pot uneasy, Luo Yan patted his head and said, "Are you stupid? You're rushing over to work without marrying me? My mother is so stupid, are you really stupid?" Are you stupid?"

Yuan Kai wondered: "Isn't it, my mother is happy to do some work!"

Luo Yan took a sip and said, "Bah, whoever is with you, my mother, hurry up and get out."

Sheng Mingjiao looked at the two people, flirting, but they didn't look like they were together, and couldn't understand it any more. After completely disappearing from Luo Ma's sight, Sheng Mingjiao asked, "No, what's the matter with you two?" ?”

"Underground love, hiding it from her mother." Yuan Kai chuckled and said, "Brother Castan, do you still remember that I borrowed 3000 yuan from you in spring?" Sheng Ming Castan was awakened: "Remember, pay back the money quickly .”

Yuan Kai slapped his outstretched hand and said, "That's not the point. The point is that I took the money and went to Beijing secretly."

Sheng Mingkao was passionately in love at that time, so he couldn't care about his brother's life and death. Hearing this, he said, "You still went to Beijing?"

Castanopsis Shengming has never been to Beijing yet!

Luo Yan blew on her newly manicured nails, rolled her eyes and said, "Yes, this idiot's wallet was stolen as soon as he got out of the train station, and then he chased the thief for ten blocks, snatched the wallet back, Beat the thief to a half-mutilation, and he got into the bureau on the first day he came to Beijing."

Castanopsis Shengming: "..."

Yuan Kai: "..." The atmosphere of the long silence was a bit awkward, Sheng Ming cast a glance at Yuan Kai, and said with a smile, "You are quite awesome."

Yuan Kai defended in a low voice: "I like that wallet very much, it was given by Yanzi."

Luo Yan leaned against the pillar, glared at him, and said, "There are small carts on the pedestrian street selling grandpa and aunt's wallets for ten yuan or two. What do you like?"

Yuan Kai still wanted to whisper something.

Sheng Mingjiao pressed his shoulder, and continued to ask: "And then? How many days have you squatted?"

Yuan Kai said: "If I didn't squat, I was guaranteed to come out that day."

When Luo Yan mentioned this, she vomited blood with anger, and she said: "I just flew back from the set, and I had to vouch for this idiot non-stop, but the idiot said it was too embarrassing, he didn't want to go out, and he was going to stay in the bureau for the rest of his life, Eat a lifetime of prison food."

Yuan Kai turned his head in embarrassment.

"In the end, the police advised him that it's enough for a man to do it for a while, and don't do it for too long. Be careful that his girlfriend gets impatient and coaxes him, and he will really leave him in the police station for a lifetime."

"Then I came out." Yuan Kai said.

Yuan Kai saw the light in Luo Yan's eyes, and smiled embarrassedly with Sheng Mingjiao: "The police said she was my girlfriend, but she didn't refute it."

Luo Yan played with the newly-made nails, and "hummed": "I just saw how pitiful you are."

The three of them chatted for a while in the courtyard, and Sheng Mingkang got nothing but a meal of dog food.

Suddenly, Luo Yan stared at his face more and more seriously.

Sheng Mingchen touched his cheek and asked strangely, "What's wrong? Did I touch something?"

Luo Yan said: "In the past two years, I have met many celebrities and transformed many people, but there has never been a celebrity whose skin is as good as yours?

Sheng Mingchen said "Aha" all over his body, and said: "Because I am used to exercising, long-term exercise can make the skin detoxify and sweat, and the metabolism speeds up, so the skin may be better."

"That's the reason." Luo Yan clapped her hands and asked, "Brother Ji, are you interested in entering the entertainment industry? I recently heard that a big director is auditioning for a leading role, and he wants you to be healthy, sunny, and sporty." of."

Sheng Ming was silent for a while, Yuan Kai thought he was embarrassed and lacked confidence, so he patted him on the shoulder and encouraged him: "Brother Castan, you listen to Yanzi, even if you don't become popular, we can still make a difference in the world, right?"

Sheng Mingjiao raised his head, looked at Luo Yan, and said, "Actually, that's why I came to you."

"The night is too long, and the dream is full of him. If there is no dream one day, it means that I have forgotten him, or he has forgotten me, so I want to stand on the high platform with the widest view, even if he is still alive My anger can only see me."

Luo Yan knew who he was talking about.

Not to mention Yuan Kai, he was out of the closet by Sheng Mingcastle.

Hearing this, the three of them were a little silent.

Luo Yan has always been courageous. After thinking for half a second, she said, "Since you have made your decision, Brother Castan, we will definitely be able to help you achieve your goal."

Sheng Mingchen looked gratefully at these two friends who grew up: "Okay."