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You Yingxi woke up and found that she seemed to have a cold, she pressed the alarm that was still buzzing, and tested the temperature of her forehead with the back of her hand.No fever, but dry throat, a little sore, lightheaded when getting out of bed.

She was born prematurely and her health has been bad since she was a child. She will always get sick in winter and summer, and there is no need for abnormal weather. Extreme cold or extreme cold or rain are not the main reasons. It seems that there is a KPI. If it is not completed before the end of the year, she may get sick for several times. Second-rate.

This discomfort was within the tolerable range for her. She washed up, carried her schoolbag, and stopped in front of the easel before going downstairs to stare at the unfinished painting for a while, estimating when it might be finished. .

Seeing the empty wall at Jiang Wanzi's house that day, You Yingxi suddenly had the idea of ​​returning the gift.She had thought about this when she accepted her lipstick, but the other party was obviously not short of money, and she didn't know what she liked, so what to give became a problem.

Fortunately, she still has such a handy skill as painting, although it is not worth a lot of money, but it is her heart anyway.

You Yingxi walked downstairs and coughed a few times.She thought to herself, it's actually a bit ironic, she grows up so big, the only thing she knows is what she hates to the bone.

She doesn't know what she likes, but at least she doesn't like learning painting since she was a child.At that time, the interest in acting was still on the surface, but from time to time, she would ask her grandpa to take her to the repertory troupe where her grandma used to be, and she became a substitute for her sister before she could go deeper.

The age of cultivating interests has long passed, and life has become like a dog's tail continuing with a mink. You Yinuan is a mink, and she is a dog's tail.

Even this dog tail that is not worthy of a mink is only continued by her studying the exercises day and night to do the papers. Min Younian and Tao Huanhuan feel strange. Isn't she going to study in the Academy of Fine Arts in the future? The culture class doesn't need to be so high scores?

use.Because she is not herself, she is You Yinuan who died unexpectedly, and it is Yu Shurong's assumption to comfort herself.

You Yingxi sat at the dining table, and Aunt Liu brought breakfast.

A glass of milk, a sandwich, and an apple.

She has no appetite, but considering the whole day of studying, she still wants to eat.After taking a bite of the sandwich, the smell of peanut butter spread in his mouth, You Yingxi frowned, and spat out the sandwich he hadn't eaten yet.

"Auntie, did my mother make the sandwich?"

Aunt Liu: "Yes, there is something at school. My wife got up early today and said she would make breakfast for you herself."

She felt that the child's tone was not right, and she was sluggish when she heard it. She looked back and saw that the sandwich was very rich, with poached eggs, ham and tomatoes sandwiched, and the peanut butter was so wrapped that it was overflowing.

"Ouch, this..." Aunt Liu stepped forward, looked at the sandwich, and then at You Yingxi, who was pale.

She just came to You's house a few years ago. She is good at cooking, serious and meticulous.Taking care of the basic necessities of life of a family of three, I naturally know that You Yingxi is allergic to peanuts. The sandwiches she makes for her children are always wrapped in salad dressing.

Aunt Liu wiped her hands with her apron, feeling a little embarrassed for a moment, and she didn't know what was going on. The salad dressing and peanut butter on the spice rack in the kitchen were not put together.

She could only smile: "It's probably because my wife was rushing to school and made a mistake. Auntie will make a new one for you. There will be time."

"No need, auntie, I'll just drink milk."

You Yingxi had a sore throat, and took several sips before drinking the milk, and didn't take the apple.I went to the drawer under the TV cabinet and dug out the medicine box, poured a glass of water, and took cold medicine and allergy medicine.

Allergy medicine is not easy to find, a small bottle, only she in the family will be allergic to certain foods, and everyone else has no restrictions.I only ate a little bit of peanut butter just now, so it should be fine.

When she stood up, she suddenly became dizzy and helped the table.

Aunt Liu was packing things in the kitchen. When You Yingxi told Aunt Liu that I had gone to class, she nodded her head, thinking that the child was really obedient.

You Yingxi was changing shoes in the hallway, she glanced at the green scarf hanging long from the hanger, it was woven by Yu Shurong herself last year, and she said she would give it to her daughter, it was her favorite color.

You Yingxi almost asked, which daughter is it?

But she didn't ask, it was too hurtful, hurting others and herself.

Yu Shurong remembered correctly, the one who likes peanut butter is You Yinuan, and the one who likes green is also You Yinuan.

She is just sick.

After You Yinuan died, Yu Shurong not only suffered from bipolar disorder, but also had intermittent memory confusion.

There is a complete version of Yu Shurong's memories about You Yinuan, which is a time that cannot be returned.There is another fragmented version, taking a different time and space train on platform nine and three quarters, like nails nailing You Yingxi into what Yu Shurong wants, her preferences, her character, if even her It would be even better if the face was all You Yinuan.

You Yingxi seldom looked at Yu Shurong, the only few times, she felt that Yu Shurong was looking at another person through her face, because the eyes were too gentle, and she never used them on her.

Obviously not very similar.You Yingxi thought many times that she shouldn't have been born. She was born because of You Yinuan and wanted a younger sister.In Yu Shurong's eyes, what is she?

The few friends of hers who knew about these things, Min Younian, Tao Huanhuan and others said that You Yingxi was too tolerant, how could she be so tolerant?They were originally rebellious and fragile ages, whoever put these things on them would not make a fuss about running away from home, cutting their wrists and jumping off a building or something.

Yes, that's a relief.It’s not that You Yingxi doesn’t have these ideas, and she once walked to an unoccupied rooftop after school, with half of her feet dangling in the air, and her body was shaken by the wind from a tall building.

In the end, he still walked down, like a silkworm unable to get rid of the cocoon, retreating into the chrysalis, dragging You Yingxi's battered body, playing You Yinuan's flawless role.

why?

Because, You Yinuan died because of her.

She missed You Yinuan all the time, and even hoped that she would be the one who died, so that everyone would not suffer.

The class bell rang, and the cram school teacher came in with a stack of test papers on his arm.

"Students, the scores of the last quiz have come out. Our class is mainly about the papers. The scores this time are the same as before, and the parents are notified by text messages. Because the test papers are difficult, I didn't pass the test. Don't be discouraged, students, this time there is no full score, the highest score is 143."

The test paper was delivered to You Yingxi's desk, with a score of 140, which was the same as the score she estimated after the review a few days ago.The only thing missing was the additional questions, which she didn't have time to do, and all the previous questions were full marks.

You Yingxi rubbed the test paper, she was not very energetic, she was not feeling well, the cold medicine took effect, she began to feel sleepy, her throat was burning.

In this way, I persisted until the end of get out of class, and it was rare for me to sleep on the dining table without doing papers after lunch.

When the alarm bell rang, Uncle Li wanted You Yingxi to sleep more, so he hurriedly reached out and scratched it off.

You Yingxi raised her head slightly, her eyelids were morbidly red, and her voice was very hoarse: "Is it time?"

She coughed a few times: "Let's go, Uncle Li."

She stood up, feeling a little unsteady.

Uncle Li sighed: "What are you going to do? You... are sick, call the studio teacher and ask for leave."

As he spoke, he took out his mobile phone, and You Yingxi shook his head: "It's not that serious, there's no need to ask for leave."

She couldn't carry the schoolbag and painting tube, so she handed it to Uncle Li, and walked out with empty hands.

Uncle Li's throat rolled up and down, knowing that he couldn't be persuaded, so he had to let her go.

He knew that this child looked like running water on the surface, with steep and slow east, west, north and south, as if she could do anything, but in fact, she always walked in one direction and only walked one way, and she had to grit her teeth to pass the hurdles she couldn't get through.

But there was such a hurdle that she might not be able to get through in her life.It was blocked there for a long time, and it became a pool of stagnant water, as if rotten.

The crux is her sister You Yinuan.

Uncle Li likes this child, she is smart and filial. In the early years, You Zhuangchen and Yu Shurong couldn't quarrel because of her presence. As soon as the couple closed their eyes, You Yinuan came out to persuade him, and Yu Shurong laughed out loud after saying a few words Come on, she laughed, You Zhuangchen's temper was never meant to quarrel.

You Yinuan treats her younger sister better. She hides her younger sister behind her to block the scorching sun and cold wind, and also bears all the pressure from the adult world.She knows what kind of daughter Yu Shurong wants, and she is proud of her to do it. You Yingxi just needs to be happy.

You Yingxi relies on her, likes her, and can't do anything without her.

On the day of the graduation ceremony of You Yingxi Elementary School, You Yinuan was participating in the summer camp. Despite the heavy rain, he insisted on rushing to participate, but there was a car accident on the way.The driver who caused the accident was drunk driving, and the car in which You Yinuan was sitting was unable to dodge in time. The two cars were hit beyond recognition, and the scene of the accident was full of scorching smoke.

You Yinuan was dying when he was sent to the hospital, and the moment he was on the operating table, he suffered a cardiac arrest.

At six o'clock in the evening, You Yingxi came back from the studio after class.

As soon as she entered the house, before she could see the scene in front of her clearly, she received a slap in the face. After going to class with illness for a day, she was exhausted, and she was a little bit broken. fell to the ground.

Yu Shurong: "How did you get such a small score? Is it difficult to get a perfect score? What do you learn every day in the cram school?"

Yu Shurong had already had an attack when she knew the score. She could accept that You Yingxi didn't get a perfect score in the test, but how could she be second, and how could her daughter not be the first?She yelled at You Zhuangchen for old accounts, either it was an affair or he didn't care about the family, You Zhuangchen endured it and slammed the door and walked out.

After a while, You Yingxi came back.Yu Shurong slapped Yu Shurong with hatred towards You Zhuangchen, because You Zhuangchen cheated on her when she was pregnant with You Yingxi.This child was cuckolded when she was conceived, the plea was postponed when she was born, and half of her beloved daughter was gone after raising her.

evil creature.debt collector.

Yu Shurong looked at You Yingxi, as if looking at an enemy.

You Yingxi was still on the ground, and Aunt Liu helped her, but she didn't get up, she leaned against the wall, the fingerprints on her cheeks were very obvious, and the swelling quickly swelled.She bit her lips tightly, her face was pale, her expression was stubborn and indifferent, her eyes were filled with the coldness of wanting to destroy with the world, she stared at the void in front of her eyes, recalling the unforgettable memories in the hospital many years ago.

The emergency room where the lights suddenly went out.A slap in the face, and high-heeled shoes kicked towards her. The passing nurse had a tray in her hand. Yu Shurong was crazy, and without looking at it, she picked up the infusion bottle and threw it at her.

It was fragmented, it was glass, and there was not a deep relationship between them.

Her body was covered with blood and wounds. Yu Shurong was tightly held by You Zhuangchen's arms when she came back to her senses. It was full of rotten maggots, eating away at her since the man cheated.

Yu Shurong kicked and cried, her high-heeled shoes flew up into the sky and fell down again, playing a farce in the corridor of the hospital.

The parabola seems to indicate that You Yingxi's future life will fall to the bottom.

Yu Shurong cursed: "Why don't you die? Why didn't you die? Why didn't you die?!"

yes.I also want to know, why is it not me who died?

I wasn't important at all.

The world in front of him suddenly went dark, and the moment You Yingxi fainted, he heard You Zhuangchen's angry and distressed voice: "What is this for?"