bend you

He slept too much during the day, which made him unable to fall asleep at night. Xiao Ran opened his eyes blankly.In the past two days, his life has been like a roller coaster, with ups and downs, and the speed is so fast that he has no time to think.Can't sleep now, just gave him time to think about things.

Thinking of Mo Xiaoyan, thinking of Ji Moqian and Zhuang Lie, and finally Sun Yiyi who he didn't want to think about the most.

Sun Yiyi was like a thorn in his heart, and if he couldn't pull it out, it would hurt even if he thought about it.He ruined a girl's innocence, even if Sun Yiyi treats it as a one-night stand, he can't just ignore it and act as if nothing happened, he's such an asshole.

But he really married her?Xiao Ran was a little hesitant again. After more than ten years of acquaintance, there was no admiration for them. A marriage without love, they would not be happy.

Compensation, Sun Yiyi doesn't lack anything, so what can I make up for her?

He had no idea at all, he didn't know how to compensate Sun Yiyi so that he could feel at ease.This matter cannot be made known to a third person. He has no one to discuss with, so he can only bear the pressure silently.It's so annoying, I'm so annoyed, I feel so blocked, and I don't know what to do.

Xiao Ran sat up from the bed, lowered his head and scratched his hair irritably.He let out a low growl to vent his frustration.

He remorsefully thought about why he had to drink. If he didn't drink, he wouldn't have sex with Sun Yiyi, and if he didn't drink, he wouldn't do irreparable things.

If Mo Xiaoyan hadn't left, she wouldn't have gone drinking, and all causal connections were ultimately Xiao Li's fault.

If it wasn't for Xiao Li, none of this would have happened. He was the one who made Mo Xiaoyan leave, and he was the one who made himself sad.There is nothing wrong with scolding him, he really deserves to die.

Xiao Ran raised his head and leaned against the wall, clenched his hands tightly into fists, competing with himself.The nails sank deeply into the flesh, and the pain was not felt.After a long time, he sighed and slowly let go of his fist.

With the dim light in the room, he turned on the lamp beside the bed.His hand accidentally touched a book on the bedside table, and he glanced at the cover of the book "Thank you for letting me meet you" (Bi'anhua) and the name might be a romance novel.

Curiously, I picked up the book and flipped through it. It was estimated that there were about 20 words, and there was a cherry blossom-shaped bookmark in the middle.In his impression, Ji Moqian likes to read medical books or books related to medicine the most, so it is self-evident who owns this book.When I was about to let go, I saw a sentence in the book, "Thank you for letting me meet you in my best time. Although we were not together in the end, this is already the most precious memory in my life." Short A sentence resonated with him.

Now I don't feel sleepy at all, instead of trying to make him feel uncomfortable, I might as well find something to distract him, just because this sentence makes him want to read this book.During the long night, Xiao Ran leaned against the head of the bed with a book in his hands, quietly opening the book.

The novel is exquisitely written and the plot is fascinating, and the story is full of ups and downs.The only thing that makes him regret is that this is not a romance novel at all, but a novel about sympathy.

He felt it was a pity to give up after reading a few chapters, and he was very curious about the later development, and he couldn't avoid the plot of same-sex love that was very likely to appear later.

After weighing it, he felt that he understood the love between the same sex, Xiao Ran told himself this way, and continued to read with his head buried.Fortunately, the plot of the story was twists and turns, and the characters were full. Xiao Ran was really fascinated by the reading, and when the story was heartbroken, he also felt uncomfortable in his heart.

Along with the white belly outside the window, Xiao Ran also finished reading the book. He lamented the love in the book. They obviously loved each other, but they missed each other due to various reasons such as family and reality.This mistake is the time of a lifetime, there is no chance to meet again, and in the end it all turned into that handful of loess.

"Sorry, I can't love you in this life, I can't give you a lifetime. If there is an afterlife, I will definitely not let go of your hand."

Seeing the bottom line of small characters on the cover of the book made him sigh with emotion, "This book is adapted from a true story, and all the plots are real." It turns out that both the same sex and the opposite sex have such an unforgettable love that can be remembered for a lifetime.

He has a little understanding of the love between the same sex, which is not weaker than heterosexual love, and even stronger.

It takes more courage and determination to love.

After reading all night, the sky outside the window is also bright, and the rain has stopped long ago.Xiao Ran closed the book, and pressed his tired eyes with both hands.Now that he was sleepy, he lay down and closed his eyes, and soon fell into a deep sleep.

When he woke up, the sky outside the window was already dark, and he slept for another day.

He got up slowly, and vaguely heard the quarrel outside.He didn't like to listen to the walls, but the sound seemed a little loud, and it still faintly reached his ears.

"You should tell him." The voice was Zhuang Lie.

"I don't want to embarrass him." This should be Ji Moqian's voice, what happened?Xiao Ran thought suspiciously.

"His embarrassment is more important than Xiao Li's life? Xiao Li will die if he continues like this."

The word "death" made Xiao Ran's heart tighten. He subconsciously grabbed the quilt and got out of bed.

"Xiao Li just has a bad cold. He is a doctor and he can handle it by himself." Ji Moqian retorted plausibly.

Zhuang Lie said anxiously, "If you refuse treatment for a severe cold, it will kill you."

"He's a doctor."

"Mo Qian, he is trying to die now." Zhuang Lie sighed helplessly. "He doesn't see anyone, he's still drinking when he's sick, and no one will know if he faints"

"He" Ji Moqian wanted to say something else, when the door of the guest bedroom opened.

After looking at each other, the two looked at Xiao Ran standing inside the door, then hurriedly walked up to Zhuang Lie, and asked nervously, "What do you think is wrong with Xiao Li?"

Zhuang Lie glanced at Ji Moqian hesitantly, and quickly said, "He caught a bad cold, so he locked himself at home and no one saw him."

"How do you know?" Xiao Ran looked at him suspiciously, but his heart was very nervous.

"He asked me to buy wine for him, and I bought it and sent it away, only to find that he was sick. I wanted to take him out, but he kicked me out." Zhuang Lie said helplessly.

"Why doesn't he take the medicine?" Xiao Ran subconsciously grabbed Zhuang Lie's arm and asked.

Zhuang Lie glanced at Xiao Ran unnaturally and said, "He said you let him die." Seeing Xiao Ran was stunned, he quickly added, "I know you don't want to see him, but if he continues like this, I'm afraid he will really something happened."

"Xiao Ran, if you don't want to go let me go." Ji Moqian hurriedly said because he was afraid that Xiao Ran would not want to see him.

"No, I'll go." Xiao Ran shook his head.He really hoped that Xiao Li would die, but when he heard that Xiao Li really gave up on himself because of his words, he was very scared, afraid that something would happen to Xiao Li.No matter how he treats himself, no matter how much he hates him, hates him, hates him.Xiao Li is his elder brother and his relatives.Xiao Ran didn't want anything to happen to Xiao Li. "Where is he?"

"Apartment." Zhuang Lie answered quickly.

"Take me there right away." After Xiao Ran finished speaking, he rushed to the door in a hurry, and Ji Moqian immediately said, "I'll accompany you."

Xiao Ran glanced at Ji Moqian gratefully, and nodded.

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