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Lin Lian originally wanted to make a fuss on the school celebration, but he had already made such a fuss on the radio, what if he missed the opportunity if he didn't strike while the iron was hot?Especially when the applications for Class [-] and Class [-] were thrown into limbo on the grounds that it was "not conducive to the physical and mental development of young people", he would not be in the mood to play together with the class if the plan was changed...

It is worth mentioning that these two top classes are very good. After the plan was rejected, they changed positions and submitted another application that conformed to the core socialist values. On the day of the school anniversary, they began to collectively do homework.

So when the whole school was full of excitement, these two classes were eerily quiet. All the students were writing hard, ignoring any teachers and classmates who passed by, and studying happily for two days.

When the principal came in and asked them "why they protested in such a way", no one answered.

Hanging on the blackboard are ten bright characters - "It is not conducive to the healthy development of young people's mind and body".

When the "Most Popular Class" was finally selected, Class One and Class Six tied for first place.

Ah, these are all later.

Closer to home, after the song was played that day, Lin Lian received a tip from Wen Mingche: "Jiang Cun has gone to the studio, I think his eye circles are a little red, he must have been touched by you."

He took out his mobile phone and sent Jiang Cun a message.

[Handsome Lin]: Where are you?

Lin Lian went to look for him, but couldn't find him. He once again deeply doubted whether Jiang Cun belonged to the rabbit--the three caves of the cunning rabbit!Every time he encounters such a critical plot, he loses contact, which makes the relationship between the two of them still not progressing.

He began to suspect that Jiang Cun hated men's liking, so he always avoided himself.

Do you start to be suspicious once you have someone you like?

But where he couldn't see, Jiang Cun leaned against the wall of the room, clutching his heart tightly, feeling so stuffy that he couldn't breathe.

He knew, he could understand that Lin Lian liked him, and it was the first time he had accepted such a fiery liking.

He also thought about it - if only Lin Lian liked me.

But he didn't know how to deal with this situation.

There are quite a few girls who have liked him since he was a child. He has always refused directly and bluntly, and when he sees a girl with an embarrassed expression, or runs away with her face covered, or burst into tears in sadness.

He didn't want to hurt other people's hearts, and he didn't know how to politely refuse, so he agreed to a certain girl's request.

But within a month, they broke up.

It was the girl who called first.

She cried on the phone and said: "Jiang Cun, I really like you very much because you are good-looking, good at painting, and have good grades. You seem to shine in my heart...but I can't feel your existence. Every time I take the initiative to call you and ask you to hang out, you don't like me at all, why do you promise me? I'm tired, I'm really uncomfortable, I I don't want to like you anymore, sorry."

Jiang Cun did not like her, but when he heard the girl choking, sobbing, and intermittent words, his heart also felt uncomfortable.

It doesn't work to reject others, and it doesn't work to accept others. Is it really so difficult to "like" this kind of thing?

"Obviously I should have avoided him from the beginning."

He felt a panic, like sinking slowly in the sea.

Bubbles float to the surface one by one.

——Why do I always make people sad and always hurt others?

Jiang Cun took out his phone, blocked and deleted everything about Lin Lian.

He suddenly felt quite cheap.

[Peach Planting Taoist]: Brother Lian, I'm sorry.

[Peach Planting Taoist]: I'm going to another place for training.

[Peach Planting Taoist]: Everything is my fault, I'm sorry.

[Peach Planting Taoist]: You must study hard.

Pulling open the bedside table, there are scattered medicine bottles and knives inside.

He regretted it.

Regret to accept his kindness quietly.

He regretted sending him that voice message on WeChat—even though Lin Lian didn't hear it.

Regret that I let others lead the direction of the story as if I stayed out of it.

It happened suddenly and irregularly, and Jiang Cun didn't know what he was struggling with. He hoped that Lin Lian could sense his intentions, but he was afraid that he would really like him, so his eyes gradually became confused.

Lin Lian was looking at the messages on his mobile phone at this time, and several messages were updated in a hurry. He only saw clearly "I'm sorry" and the last sentence "You must study hard", and hurriedly wanted to open it, but accidentally slipped his hand and dropped it. On the ground, a large piece of the screen film was broken, and the screen went black when the power off button was pressed.

His heart sank all of a sudden, he always had such a hunch before encountering bad things.

It was as if a big rock had been pressed against his chest, desperately trying to squeeze out the little air left.

The sky in the evening was orange, and large flakes of fire clouds were wandering in the sky.

He remembered that at this time last week, the two of them were still eating hot pot together, and they were still shopping at the night scene together, so what was the deal?

Jiang Cun, have you been a thief all your life?

Do you know how to hide and hide all day long?

Did Laozi say "I like you and I want to fall in love with you"?

Have it?

Lin Lian picked up the phone but found that he was trembling all over, and couldn't turn it on no matter what he did, his instincts that had been suppressed for a month broke out, and he threw the phone on the ground with red eyes, making a loud noise.

Seeing the scene of debris splashing everywhere, he didn't know how to cheer up.

The poor cell phone was smashed and flew onto a certain pair of sneakers—it was Yang Qicheng who was wandering outside the school.

"Lin Lian, what the hell is wrong with you?"

Yang Qicheng was not very happy at this time, his new target was taken first by the hated person, and he was also full of anger in his heart, so he rushed forward and punched Lin Lian.

The beating was heavy, a trace of blood leaked from the corner of Lin Lian's mouth, he raised a chilling smile, hooked his foot on his thigh, squeezed his shoulders with both hands, and pressed Yang Qicheng to the ground to beat him.

Hit to death as if you were going to kill someone.

Originally, the level of fighting between the two people was comparable, and even Yang Qicheng had always had the upper hand—because he was not afraid of death, but Lin Lian was reluctant to die.But today, Yang Qicheng couldn't do anything except defend. He was shocked by Lin Lian's appearance.

Lin Lian's fist now is thrown out of order, just to vent his anger.

He felt so uncomfortable, it looked like he was hitting hard, but in fact he couldn't exert much strength.

"Are you a fucking idiot! Who do you think you are!

"Aren't you fucking going to let Laozi come to Baidi City to entrust Gu to Gu!?

"I asked you something, you fucking answer, Jiang Cun!"

He probably tried his best to pull Yang Qicheng by the collar and roar.

Yang Qicheng's eardrums were so painful that he frowned and slapped Lin Lian again: "Is there something wrong with you? You are yelling at others! Are you fucking messing around with me?"

The two wrestled into a ball again, until they had no strength before sitting on the ground and gasping for breath.

"Lin Lian, I won't play house with you anymore," Yang Qicheng spat bloodshot saliva, "From now on, I don't care about the affairs of Binjiang and Fifth Middle School. Go play with whomever you like."

Lin Lian didn't say a word, and he said again: "I'm not like you young masters, I have many ways to retreat, and I have a big temper, what the hell do I get dragged all day long?"

"Are you so fucking dragged here to talk about Lao Tzu with [-] people?" Lin Lian whispered, maybe because he was too tired and had no strength, the sweat on his forehead was slowly sliding down, and he didn't bother to wipe it off.

"To be honest, I don't understand why you are a good student. If I had good grades, I would have passed the exam in a big city, and I'm still useless here?"

He chuckled: "I never imagined that one day I would be able to chat so harmoniously with Binjiang school bully."

"Whatever you do is false, fake, and it's real to live."

Yang Qicheng left behind a nonsensical sentence, bared his teeth, and walked away with injuries all over his body.

Lin Lian has a Weibo account called "Lin Lian has a diary called Jiang Cun". After getting to know Jiang Cun, he updates it every day.

He recorded all the things related to Jiang Cun that he thought of on it, in every detail. His personal profile is "I hope the whole world can see your good, and I hope you are my exclusive treasure".

Like keeping a running account, he keeps a long Weibo every week, and he refuses to let go of anything about Jiang Cun.

But now, this account may not be updated.

He began to ramble, began to cry and type uncontrollably.

"Jiang Cun, I have never seriously liked others. You are the first person I want to plan into the future and occupy the rest of your life. The promise you told me that day, I still want to keep it. You Always keep everything in your heart? You call me Brother Lian, ah, I’m your fucking brother, if you have anything to say, don’t worry about it alone, are you the king of heaven? Do you have any? So much patience?"

"You said you were sorry for me, what is there to be sorry for? If you really feel sorry, don't hide from me? Did I say the words 'I like you' in front of you? I know seventeen or eighteen years old It’s ridiculous to talk about love when I’m old. I also know that crying like a fool and saying ‘I only like you in my life’ is really stupid. Anyway, you can’t see it. I still have to be like a crazy person. It fell on you, and I can't tolerate others in my eyes."

"You may be avoiding me because of this passage, but I just want to say it again, classmate Jiang Cun, this is the fifth week we have known each other. You gave me a painting, and I don't know what to return to you. Give this heart back to you. If you want to play wild, I will accompany you for the rest of your life. I hope that when your hair is as white as snow, you can still remember that you are number one in the world."

He began to slowly recall the dramatic month of acquaintance with Jiang Cun. His chest was stuffy. He didn't feel this way when he fell back by [-] grades. He didn't feel this way when he was grabbed by his collar and beat him. , When his parents refused to answer his phone call, he didn't feel this way.

He is just sad.

He felt that everything was too unreal.

It's as if a soft and beautiful piece of music has just started for 5 minutes, but it suddenly turns into a harsh and unpleasant noise.

Not even a trace of mental preparation

He knew that he was quite stupid, and he fell in love with others so casually.

He knew that Jiang Cun hadn't done anything, and probably had no feelings for him, and knew that all of this was his own wishful thinking.

But Lin Lian never restrained himself.

Life is not as good as it is, so if you don’t act arrogantly before stepping into the society, where will you go in the future?

So before he met Jiang Cun, he never panicked.

No matter what happens, he accepts it calmly.

He felt that Jiang Cun was quite decisive. In order to escape from himself, he even gave up the cultural class in the morning and went directly to a studio he didn't know for training.

But now that person named Jiang Cun seems to be fading out of his circle of life, he doesn't know what to do.

"He may not be able to accept my way of 'liking', or he may be disgusted by homosexuality," Lin Lian rubbed his phone screen and said to himself, "But I can't control things like feelings. I'm sorry."