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On the second day of September, Tong Youming returned to school with his laptop and the backpack when he came back.

The bus that crossed the two urban areas came every half an hour. Since there was plenty of time and there was no rush, he sat on the silver bench on the platform and waited leisurely.Seeing that only he and another young girl with a clean face were left at the station, she had checked the time on her mobile phone countless times, and sighed at the station sign, "It's so slow."

"The one you want to take should arrive in 5 minutes," Tong Youming reminded friendlyly, "if you don't get late according to the usual rules."

"Really, I seldom come here to take a car...I don't usually live here." The girl spoke in a low voice, and her demeanor was very restrained. Her slender hands were folded on the knee-length skirt, unconsciously What a brisk beat. "Are you going to school?"

"Ah, you too?"

"No," she smiled slightly, showing her teeth, "I'm a few years older than you, no matter what."

Only then did Tong Youming see the work card she had in her handbag, "Ah." He said concisely, "Your name sounds nice."

"Thank you." Cong Xiao stood up facing the slowly approaching bus stop, walked two steps away and waved to him politely, "Goodbye."

"Goodbye."

They are just two strangers who met by chance, and neither of them knows what kind of story has happened to each other.

But the weather is fine today, and it's a pleasure to pass you by.

The day before the start of school, the campus had recovered some signs of its former excitement. Tong Youming bowed his head and staggered away from the passing crowd, and went directly to the dormitory management office to complete the formalities. After finishing the chapter, I went back to the new dormitory building where I hadn't lived in for a day, and said goodbye to my brothers in the same dormitory.

"Oh my god, you have grown up, sixth child." The third child who called him at that time smiled and touched him with an elbow.

Tong Youming put the snacks brought from home for everyone on the table as he would do every time he was on vacation. His family was the only one in the dormitory who was local, so he consciously took care of everyone more without saying anything; Heckling from all directions without explanation or blame, just use the most in-character expression and smile shyly along the way.The boss in the dormitory next to him reached out and snorted his hair, "That's right, Ren Youming has reached the legal age of marriage, okay, but you idiots are more diligent than the other, so don't meddle in other people's affairs."

"Who cares about that?" The second child, who just came back from playing basketball, sat down on the corner of the bed, rolled up his T-shirt around his waist, and turned on the big fan, "We were all afraid that you would not be enlightened, next time please Let's eat."

"Okay, put it on my account."

Tong Youming stood up and brushed aside the bangs on his forehead facing the cool wind. Without the cover of his hair, his facial features looked clear and stretched, and even his expression brightened a bit. "From now on, you don't have to be polite to put anything on my bed, let's go."

The buddies immediately waved out pretending to be disgusted.

"Let's go, let's go, I'm not happy to see you guys having sex."

He didn't meet any familiar faces all the way out of school, he walked inattentively, and calculated that Si Jun should not be off work yet, thinking about it, he couldn't help speeding up his pace, and on a whim, he looked at himself from the glass window on the side of the street s face.

This is so fresh.He thought he'd be so happy to run at the thought of seeing someone soon.

He had no choice but to pretend to lower his head to straighten his clothes, and almost bumped into the oncoming pedestrians. The usual calmness under the appearance was gone, and he had the illusion of falling into the clouds, dizzy, but beautiful.

—Will he be glad to see me back?

Going back to Si Jun's residence, the owner hadn't arrived yet, he was relieved, all this met his definition of "surprise"; open the window, let the warm air flowing at dusk fill the room that had been empty all day, Tong Youming After a rough turn around, there is no difference from when he left. Most of the furnishings that are still in their original places still create a living atmosphere that belongs to the two, toothbrushes and mouthwash cups of different colors, and a pair of bone china tea sets in the center of the dining table. , There is a gap between the bookshelves that has been pulled away from the books, silently announcing the place reserved for him by the man.

Like waiting for him to come back anytime.

The emotions that surged up in an instant made it difficult for him to think about other things, so he rolled up his sleeves and went into the kitchen now.

There was a twisting sound of the door lock outside the entrance, like opening the mechanism that was jumping in his heart.

Si Jun still had the phone on his shoulder, so he heard his voice before seeing anyone, then leaned into half of his tired body, kicked his shoes into the drawer under the low cabinet, and suddenly raised his head to meet Tong Youming's gaze.

"..."

"Hey."

The boy hastily wiped his freshly washed hands on his clothes. The buzzing range hood in the kitchen had just stopped. He rubbed the tip of his nose and peeked at the man's expression. He seemed not ready yet. Okay, but it seems that there is a small expectation for this.

"I am back."

The gaze that replaced words did not last long.

Si Jun raised his hands and left the annoying machine and useless lines behind him, stepped over and hugged him in a few steps.

After being thrown on the bed and fully expressing her yearning with body language, Tong Youming was embarrassed but obediently asked Si Jun to carry him into the bathroom to take a bath.

Two men with rough hands and feet sharing a bathtub is not as beautiful as imagined. The hot water overflows with a slight collision, so they didn't move, and it seemed that they were just looking for a reason to lean against each other.

Si Jun put Tong Youming around his arms and massaged his cervical spine and shoulders, as well as some parts that were overused just now.The young man is thin but not weak, his flesh and blood have beautifully shaped lines, uniform and delicate, Si Jun's hand has been stuck on the scattered hickey marks on his neck and shoulders for a long time, and the meaningful touch makes his spine Unconsciously, they tightened, and the ears and lips were aqua red, which made people's thoughts aroused after a few more inadvertent glances.

Si Jun couldn't help but took a deep breath, pressing the pressure in the bottom of his throat, and his voice was a little hoarse, "You're starting school now. The last semester?"

"Well, there are basically no classes this semester. Until a year ago, it was clinical assignments, and the second half of the semester was papers." Tong Youming turned his face slightly, "It doesn't seem so easy."

"Me too." Si Jun rested his head on the curved edge of the bathtub, the sound of water dripping in his ears, "I'll take a break in late September, let's go out and relax."

"it is good."

They chatted about those insignificant little days in a tone that they are all too familiar with each other, like chewing the sweetness from sugar cane.

——When I no longer resist the ordinary, no longer be nostalgic for the past, no longer afraid of carrying a huge and long life alone, and pick up the occasional joy in the trivial with you, I believe I am happy.

——Never believed that.