ashamed

After the holiday, Tong Youming returned to school to complete the [-] clinical assignments planned for this semester. He left early and returned late, and spent six hours a day standing in front of the operating table in the physics and chemistry room, performing surgery, performing tests, and taking notes.But less than one-third of the progress was interrupted by the counselor, who told him straightforwardly that he could quit.

He was called to the department office, because he forgot to drink water for a long time, and stood thirsty and confused.

"At that time, you were the supervisor of the internship hospital. Yes, it was Professor Li of our hospital who was ill recently. He wanted you to go back and take care of him for a while. I don't think you have anything important. The professor has already spoken in person. I can't refuse. You go Come on, I'll give you the homework grades."

The counselor said slowly, Tong Youming was still in the fog after listening to what he said, but the window in front of him was full of gorgeous autumn colors, and the wind was sunny.

The counselor let out a long sigh.

"You said that you are so good-looking. Why is your head made of elm..." He held his forehead weakly, "What does this mean? You are just one step away from a formally-staffed surgeon. You have a ready-made good job, understand? "

The young man finally had a somewhat conventional reaction, "Ah."

"Don't ask me why, I know that you have always performed well, and the professor thinks highly of you. Young man, you must seize the opportunity and work hard."

Only then did his eyes light up.

However, the inertia of restraint for many years made him unable to express this excitement smoothly. Tong Youming curled up his fingers holding his sleeves, his face flushed a little with the sudden surprise, and it took him a long time to say something, "……Thank you, teacher."

He touched his tight chin, almost incoherently said, "Thank you, I will work hard."

Si Jun was happier than him when he heard the news, his face full of intoxication of "Why is my wife so promising", even though he encountered something bad in the company that day: a little-known but extremely keen on hype A tabloid reporter came to interview him. It is reasonable to say that Si Jun usually does not accept interviews. Besides, this reporter has no notice or other permission certificate at all. Maintaining an improper relationship, how do you respond to the rumors? What about so-and-so and so-and-so?"

Si Jun hated these pretentious bullshit the most in his life, he almost wanted to spit in the reporter's face on the spot, I fucking like men!Is it surprising?Are you happy?

In the end, he swallowed those angry remarks that might cause him trouble. He couldn't say more, and the more he said, the more wrong he was.He waved his hand: "Close the door, let Lei laugh."

Immediately, a big curly-haired dog rushed out of the office cubicle and began to chase people fiercely.

After some days of training, Assistant Lei has been able to take care of well and be competent for cross-border jobs such as secretary, security guard, thug, tea boy, etc. There is a huge room for improvement, which is impressive.After driving away the unscrupulous reporters, he combined the absurd questions mentioned above and recalled the boy he witnessed at that time, holding Si Jun's hand, and couldn't help asking embarrassingly, "Boss, your target is the boy from last time." ah."

"Ah." Si Jun still held a sample of the pictorial in his hand, and turned to the bottom of the page he had just finished reading. He was wearing a smoke gray shirt today without a tie, and the sleeves were rolled up to the crook of his elbows. Hearing this, he raised his eyebrows slightly, and there were warnings and threats in his eyes that could be interpreted, "Can't you?"

"...No." Lei Xiao said sincerely, "Sister-in-law is quite handsome, she looks very down-to-earth."

Si Jun wanted to show himself as flattered as possible, but because he was so happy inside, he almost tore up the sample magazine sent by his partner.He stroked the light stubble that had grown up on his chin these days, and replied calmly and cheaply, "I think so too."

"However, is it younger than you, boss... a little..."

"You get me out."

Three people become tigers, rumors eat people.Si Jun would rather have some pornographic news on the surface as a smoke bomb. He doesn't mind others making a fuss about him, as long as it doesn't affect Tong Youming; he is still a young man who is just about to step into the society, and he has a bright and clean future. It's true that they won't be able to hide for a lifetime, which is unrealistic, but they will never be notorious like in their "last life", and the two of them will not be able to live a normal life.

He felt that he was protecting the other party, and that he had enough skills and qualifications to protect the other party.This is what he wants to do most.

Tong Youming's return to the hospital this time is already considered an informal job. The professor who took him before had worsened varicose veins in his legs and could no longer stand in front of the operating table for a long time. It is very likely that his medical career will stop here. It cannot be regarded as a pity for peers.

Tong Youming took advantage of the weekend to visit his home once. The teacher who has been with him for three years has become as close as a real elder. He asked about Tong Youming's current situation, and the other party said frankly, "Your life is in your own hands." If you don’t, you’ll still feel uneasy.”

"No matter how many cadavers I have dissected in school, and how many surgical procedures I have recorded with my teacher, if I hold the knife by myself, especially those major operations that are life-threatening, it is hard not to be afraid."

"It's not the fear of blood, the fear of thumping internal organs, but the fear of making mistakes, the fear of negligence and mistakes, the fear of not being able to bear the hopes of others."

The professor looked at this young man who was gradually emerging, and he could see the infinite potential in him. Every teacher will have one or two proud students, who can often cast their shadows; but Tong Youming and those common excellent students Life is different, he doesn't have the arrogance and arrogance of being too good, but more of humility, low-key and habitual depression in the process of growing up, which is probably good.There was nothing better to say to comfort the boy, he thought.

"Never be disappointed in yourself." He said, "No matter what the result is, you must do your best. If you want to be worthy of others, you must first be worthy of your own conscience."

At the same time, Si Jun received a call from the nanny.

"Mr. Si! It's not good!"

Hearing such a bad news-like opening statement, Si Jun's heart sank suddenly.

"Uncle Si seemed to have fallen when he was on the balcony at noon today. He was fine...I saw blood when I found out..." The nanny's voice sounded like he was already in a state of confusion. After a short period of unbearable silence, she Finally burst into tears, "Internal bleeding..."

When Si Jun stood up, his hands and feet were cold, and he could hardly see clearly.