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Si Jun decided for their first outing to be in the outskirts more than 50 kilometers away from the urban area, a mountain forest that survived over-development, surrounded by patchwork old-fashioned bungalows, the colors are bright and romantic like stick figures; the most important thing is Quiet, without crowds of noisy tourists.It is perfect for a short trip within a day or two.

On the first day of their vacation, they still slept firmly until they woke up naturally. To be precise, Tong Youming got up quietly first to let Si Jun sleep a little longer - he saw the hard work of this man who went out early and came back late a few days ago, and he himself I can't help much, I can only be more considerate in the details.

The morning news reached the last program, and Tong Youming returned to the sleepy bedroom. The morning breeze brought in some light from under the curtains. The room was quiet. He sat by the bed and patted the man on the back , "Get up."

For no reason, he likes to look at Si Jun's sleeping face, without thinking about anything, just makes his whole heart as gentle as sinking into clear water.

When people indulge in such inexplicable emotions, it is easy to do things that they would not do.For example, Tong Youming's mind was completely dominated by the evil serotonin at the moment, and he lowered his head and kissed Si Jun's eyebrows.

What responded to him was that the other party had rising and falling breaths after waking up from a dream. Si Jun still had his eyes closed, and he caught this little guy who learned to steal kisses just by his hand, "...how does it feel to play hooligans while others are sleeping?"

Tong Youming's hair was messed up, and she fell into Si Jun's arms and pillow and smiled shyly, "That's great."

Si Jun half closed his eyes and pinched his nose.

"Looking forward to the next time, make persistent efforts."

After getting up and tidying up, they walked in a leisurely manner, chatting on the road and the time passed quickly. The car drove straight out of the city from a small road full of poplar trees, and the gray buildings on both sides were replaced by flat roads. In the wilderness, the city they live in is mountainous, but not steep and dangerous. Most of the outskirts of the city are rolling hills. The natural environment is well maintained, and the scenery is mostly simple and refreshing.

After entering the residential area, they need to walk. They stop and go along the way. There is a winding stream under the uneven slope, which flows peacefully around the square courtyard.Tong Youming actually likes this kind of back-to-basics things more than magnificent scenery. I don’t know if Si Jun thinks the same way. This place is less troublesome than the city, but more human than pure nature. It is a breath of life.

The people who live here also have an instinctive kindness towards outsiders. When they passed a small bridge, they met women who came back from the orchard, and gave them two freshly picked oranges, which were fragrant in their hands; Si Jun While Tong Youming was not paying attention, he put the peeled orange in his mouth and ate it, leaving a piece of orange peel that was torn into several pieces.

The sky was blue enough to drip water.

Walking up the mountain, they met other tourists, and then Si Jun remembered that there seemed to be a temple here, which was well-known from far and near, so although the incense was not strong, it was still there.When the two of them walked to the foot of the mountain, they took a rest and sat on a bench under the shade of a leafy tree by the side of the road. The sunlight projected through the branches was cool. Drinking from the blue water bottle, he asked Si Jun, "Do you believe in Buddhism?"

"Do not believe."

In fact, Si Jun was still thinking about this matter before he died. He dared to do any immoral thing without taboos all his life. The fundamental reason was that he did not have faith. Before faith reaches the realm of human spirit, its meaning lies in restraint. Only when we are afraid can we know how to respect.

But Si Jun has been afraid for "all his life".With something you want to protect wholeheartedly, people will become brave, but at the same time they will also become timid, afraid of making mistakes and afraid of losing, it is not always easy to let go.

Tong Youming stood up at this moment.

"Then take it with me to have a look."

When climbing to the middle of the mountain, the peak turns around, and a large open flat land spreads out in front of you, with luxuriant vegetation, hiding a winding stone step, which is obviously a dark blue stone road built by man, leading to the quiet temple deep in the woods, under the corridor Monks in robes walked past; several banyan trees in the vestibule were covered with pavilions, and the air was filled with the scent of sandalwood that made people feel calm.

The curling smoke came from the incense burner in the center of the courtyard. Several old people were offering incense in the Buddhist hall, and a young girl was kneeling on a futon, her hands clasped together, probably asking for a lottery.It was quiet time in the afternoon, and the tourists who came and went did not make any noise, and walked very slowly.

Si Jun watched Tong Youming kneel down in front of the futon, and he followed suit when it was too late.

The Buddha statue overhead is lifelike, with benevolent and downcast eyes.

"Would you like to try to make a wish?"

Listening to Tong Youming's voice, he closed his eyes.

And the only thing he can feel when he can't see is that his lover is also kneeling beside him. He doesn't know what counts as piety, but after the silence in his mind, some thoughts emerge like the truth.

I have no faith, I am not worthy of faith.

But I have never been so grateful to God, even if I spend my whole life paying for my sins.

As for the miserable life you have never experienced, leave it to me to change it.

I would like to use my hands to love and protect you for the rest of my life. Even if you are separated by bad luck one day, you will be happy, safe and healthy in the rest of your life, and your children and grandchildren will be full until your hair is gray.

When he opened his eyes again, Tong Youming was talking to a benevolent monk a few steps away. Si Jun couldn't hear what they were talking about here, but he saw that the monk's hands were wrapped around a bunch of Sandalwood beads, nodding with a smile.

Tong Youming seemed to have handed him a small cloth bag, and then bowed to the monk to thank the monk in a dignified manner. Today, he is wearing a blue and white striped shirt with a collar, and the back of his neck is natural when he bows his head A small piece of fair skin is exposed, and the curve of the neck is so beautiful that it makes one's heart ache.

Si Jun really didn't want to have any unclean thoughts in front of the Buddha, so he quickly straightened his face, and when Tong Youming came back, he asked him, what wish did you make.

"secret."

The two of them took three sticks of incense from the wooden table outside the door, stood side by side in front of the incense burner and lit them.

"I'll come back when my wish comes true." He licked his lips, rarely showing a sly expression, "I'll tell you when the time comes."

"Okay." Si Jun responded without asking any more questions, turned his head and bowed to the incense burner, "Let's pay homage first."

"Ah?" Tong Youming went in without knowing.

"Don't deny it." He raised his chin at him seriously, "I even kowtowed in it just now, but you will be my man in the future, benefactor."

"..."

The two walked around the other courtyard of the temple together, walked out from the main entrance, and were dazzled by the sun for a moment when there was no shade outside the courtyard. Tong Youming said softly, "Don't tell lies in front of Bodhisattvas."

"—I promise you."

They drove away in the evening, bought pizza and cold beer to take home, and prepared to watch another night of boring and funny popcorn chips.