i'm not a phoenix

... I have never experienced any of these, so I silently wrote down the answer.He used to send me flowers on anniversaries, and I went out on Valentine's Day...when was it not?It was when I... began to ignore his loss because of work.After five years of marriage, I love him, but I didn't let him feel that I love him.I have to change something.

I took advantage of the opportunity and clicked on some links to related questions, such as "One Hundred Tips for Marriage", "How to make funny conversations for people with stupid mouths", "What can you do with your wife during vacation time"...

I……

Before I knew it, it was already 12:30. I closed the computer and found that Li Wan was playing with his mobile phone and had not gone to bed. I wanted to remind him but was afraid that he would think that I was taking too much care of him.I hesitated whether to remind him or not.

Seeing my furrowed brows, he actually took the initiative to turn off his phone, slipped into the quilt to sleep.What surprised me even more was that he said: "You can sleep on the bed, the sofa is quite small." When he said this, his voice was very low. If it wasn't for the quietness of the night, I might not have heard it.

He lost his memory and didn't get angry with me much.The strong guilt made my eyes sore.

I didn't say much, Pat, turned off the light and went to bed.

Although he tried his best to lean to the right, it was a hospital bed after all, with two big men lying in a row, and I was only a punch away from him.I was afraid that he would be awkward, so I didn't move.After Li Wan's breathing stabilized, I called him softly: "Wan Wan?"

He didn't answer, I leaned over and hugged him cautiously in my arms—the hole in my heart was finally filled by the warmth of the two hugging each other, and the impact made my heart numb.I, who sighed in my heart because of the loss and found it, did not notice the momentary stiffness of Li Wan when he was embraced by me.

"Wanwan, I love you." My tears finally rolled down his ears.

……

From that day on, he was less repulsive to my touch, and even chatted with me when he was bored.

"How can I like you? You can't hold back a word for a long time, and you always make trouble for me..." He was very strange.

I……

"My mother said I was after you?" he asked.

"Um……"

He looks like the end of the world... Now that his injuries are almost healed, he still has doubts about our relationship.

"Then tell me about our love story!" he said.

"After you were drunk once, you ran to my house in the middle of the night to confess to me, and then..."

"And you accepted it?"

"...and you threw up," I said.

He seemed to be choking, probably not expecting to be so humiliated.

"Then you started to blatantly pursue me, and I was moved by you to marry you."

"It's that simple?" His eyes were full of disappointment, "No other special things?"

"...No. It's you chasing me, I agree."

"I thought we had gone through some great storms, waves, difficulties and dangers!"

I'm funny, I didn't see him so fond of fantasy before, but indeed, he seems to be very particular about rituals...

"Then what do you like about me?" He rolled his eyes and suddenly asked curiously.

Stingy, playful, picky eaters, very stubborn... These words linger in my mind, and they don't seem to be good adjectives.

"I don't know..." I thought for a while and said.

"You don't know?!" He raised his voice suddenly, and then snorted coldly, "Hmph, you don't know that you are still married to me?"

I thumped in my heart, annoyed that I didn't have a long memory to get along with Li Wan like before, and when I was in a hurry, I said whatever came to mind:

"I really don't know why I like you.

But just thinking about spending the rest of my life with you makes me feel like a gift from God.I'm stupid, and I can't tell what's good about you. Maybe in my heart, your bad parts are also very cute in my opinion.

After marrying you, you are my number one ideal for the rest of my life.I just want to live a good life with you.Wanwan, do you know how sad I am and blame myself—because my stupidity actually made you question my love for you.

Wanwan, can you believe that I love you solemnly. "

"Ahem... what are you doing so seriously..." Li Wan coughed in a concealed manner, with the corners of his lips slightly raised, "and... I don't doubt you."

"Wanwan, I never said much, but now I will say the following words no matter whether you take them as flattery or not. Marrying you is something I have carefully considered. Unless you don't love me anymore, I will respect your choice to separate from you. Otherwise, I will hold you tightly." After I explained seriously, I said again: "Wanwan...you are the partner I swear to the godfather to marry, please believe me, I will spend the rest of my life taking my wedding vows seriously."

"Ah! You man! Do you often say such things to me in such a serious manner?" Li Wan covered his face after hearing this, and the blush on Qingjun's face began to spread.His whole body seemed to be gurgling and steaming.

"...That's not true, because I'm not very good at talking." Speaking of it, I feel a little guilty, and I rarely express my feelings to him like this.My ears were burning and I was not used to it, but I still promised, "But I will change it, I will tell you more about my thoughts and plans, and I will try to be more funny."

Li Wan...

"...Then you are really humble."