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Statement Yan didn't even know how he got home.

He was lost all the way, Xu Liangyun walked behind him, neither of them said a word, as if walking towards the final end together.

After Chen Yan walked to the unit, Xu Liangyun said behind him: "Then I'm leaving."

The two policemen standing at the door of the building responded twice and nodded respectfully to him.

But Xu Liangyun obviously didn't say this to the police.

The statement turned to look at him.He saw Xu Liangyun standing against the light, looking at him very calmly.

The street lamps in the neighborhood cast light on his back.Chen Chen looked at him tiredly. After watching for a long time, he suddenly became a little dazed.

He thought, Xu Liangyun really lost too much weight.

When looking at him like this, Chen Yan couldn't remember how he used to be.

Xu Liangyun put his hands in his pockets, took two steps back, then lowered his head towards Chen Yan, and bowed slightly.

Like the last farewell.

Then, Xu Liangyun straightened up, lowered his eyelids, stopped looking at him, turned around step by step, and slowly left his sight.

Disgusted with him turning away, Chen opened his mouth, wanting to say something.

But he still couldn't say anything after all, he could only watch Xu Liangyun leave helplessly.He watched him leave step by step, but he could no longer find the original majestic hatred in his heart.

He said "Xu Liangyun" in his throat, like a mouthful of blood stuck in his throat, he didn't have the courage to spit it out, nor was he willing to swallow it.

He looked at Xu Liangyun's back, and suddenly muttered in his heart - he said in his heart, turn back, you turn back, Xu Liangyun.

But Xu Liangyun never looked back.

Chen Yan stood where he was, watching him walk out step by step.When Xu Liangyun completely disappeared from sight, the mouthful of blood in his throat was finally covered with five years of love and hatred, and fell into his heart unwillingly.

He withdrew his gaze, lowered his eyes, turned his head and went home in a daze.

Statement Yan was not even interested in petting the dog anymore. For the first time in his life, he pulled the pudding off his body and said "Don't bother" to it.

Pudding is a smart little dog, and this time he sensed that he was not in the right mood to express his distaste.

It just lay on the spot, with its ears turned away, and whimpered pitifully at him a few times, as if asking.

But I don't want to say anything at all.

He took off his shoes and walked into the room, took off his coat, and threw it aside without turning on the light. He took two steps towards the sofa, and directly planted his head on it.

Chen Yan faced down, stretched his hands above his head, and took off his gloves blindly.

Then he withdrew his hand, put it in front of his face, drooped his eyelids, and looked at the wounds on his hand that had already healed.

The wound was twisted and twisted, some were cut by a knife, and some were electric shocks, it was so ugly that it was too ugly to look at.

Chen Yan looked at these injuries in the dark, and was stunned for a long time, his mind was full of Xu Liangyun today.

Chen Yan let out a long sigh, turned over, and lay on his back for a long time.

I have many thoughts.

After lying like this for a while, he sat up, ready to wash and sleep.

But as soon as he sat up, Chen Yan saw that Pudding was trying hard to bite the giant avocado that had been placed in the living room, and pulled it towards him.

The avocado is too big, and it is not easy to get the pudding, so it has to bite the avocado with difficulty and pull it here.

The statement was stunned.

Pudding heard the movement of the statement getting bored, raised his head, and met his eyes.

It beeped again, then raised its paw, pressed the avocado twice, and pulled it towards the statement.

Looking at the deformed avocado, Chen Yan suddenly remembered Xu Liangyun back then.

Suddenly, he seemed to hear Xu Liangyun calling him loudly and smiling at him on that sunny day.

Xu Liangyun was still a special police officer back then.During his vacation, he took Chen Yan to the playground for a date, and bought him cotton candy and strawberry ice cream to eat.

The weather was fine that day.In early autumn, the weather is just right.

At that time, they happened to pass by a shop that was engaged in shooting events, and Chen Yan turned his head inadvertently, and immediately fell in love with the biggest avocado inside.

That was about six or seven years ago.The now deformed avocados were bright and beautiful at that time, and they were very green and lovely.Two beady eyes, the corners of the mouth are turned up, and there are pink blush on the cheeks.

A statement-hate is a person who says what he wants.So he stopped, reached out and grabbed Xu Liangyun, pointed at the avocado in the shooting shop, and said, "Liangyun, that."

Xu Liangyun held a stick of ice cream in his mouth, turned his head, and saw the avocado in the store that was a bit silly.

Xu Liangyun: "...Did you say that green one?"

Narrator nodded.

"you want?"

Statement Yan nodded again.

Xu Liangyun has always spoiled him, so he readily agreed: "If you want, I will call you."

After saying this, Xu Liangyun led him to the front of the shop.

The staff was clapping the board next to it and introducing to the person who came to ask: "Ten yuan for one shot, eighty for ten shots, whoever hits the number-hey, hello, how many shots?"

Statement hate to look into the store.

The shooting place where the gun was placed was about five or six meters away from the target. There were large and small red circles drawn on it, and numbers were written in the red circles.The number of the huge avocado is the red heart in the center, and the red circle is pitifully small. It seems that it is specially used to seduce consumers. Most people estimate that they will not get hit once in ten shots.

But it's different for professional players.

Professional player Xu Liangyun reached out to scan the QR code and gave the money: "Just one shot."

Statement Yan was not surprised at all, and turned to look at him again.

"...One shot is enough for what." The staff wanted to persuade him to spend more money, and said, "Sir, I understand you, you see you bring your buddies, I know you want to show off, but we are not professional... "

"Not buddy."

Xu Liangyun walked to the side while listening to him talking, reached out and picked up a gun that looked the most pleasing to the eye, held it in his hand and studied it left and right, and said, "It's my boyfriend."

staff member:"……"

The staff turned their heads and glanced at the statement.

Statement Yan was inexplicably embarrassed, clasped his hands together, and smiled embarrassedly at the staff.

At that time, society had improved a bit, and the attitude towards homosexuality was vacillating between acceptance and non-acceptance. Some people accepted it, and some did not accept it.

Luckily for Statement Sickness, the staff is receptive to that wave.

He smiled kindly at Chen Yan, then turned to Xu Liangyun and said, "Then you can't do this anymore, you said that if the gun is empty——hey, what are you doing?"

Xu Liangyun took two or three steps back with his gun.

He loaded the bullets of this kind of amusement park special gun, then held it up, and said, "No, I think this distance is a bit unchallenging."

Staff: "? No, you—"

Before he had time to say anything, Xu Liangyun fired a bullet.

The bullet pierced through Yang with a hundred steps, and hit the most difficult red heart all at once.

The staff were just dumbfounded.

There was no smoke from the gun, but Xu Liangyun wanted to put one in front of his boyfriend, so he took the gun in his hand and twirled it twice, then put the muzzle of the gun to his mouth, and blew heavily.

"Professionals also bring their boyfriends to the playground," he said.

Xu Liangyun's face was expressionless when he spoke, but his eyes kept on staring at Chen Yan, and the sentence "I'm handsome if you are handsome" was wordlessly written all over his face.

Xu Liangyun couldn't hold back, and still said it: "Janyan, how are you Brother Yun?"

When he said this, he raised his eyebrows, and put the toy gun on his shoulder again, with "Praise me quickly" written all over his face.

He wanted to make himself look handsome, so he kept trying hard not to smile, but the corners of his mouth still couldn't restrain his desire to twitch, so he couldn't hold back his trembling, his eyes were shining - he must have felt that he was a fucking thief at that time dazzling.

He also really shines.

In [-], times changed, and Chen Yan's eyes suddenly turned red.

He thought of Xu Liangyun from that year.At that time Xu Liangyun was so young, when he looked at him, his eyes were sparkling, and the affectionate eyes were as soft as water, shining with a clear light.

Xu Liangyun used to like him very much.

Xu Liangyun will remember every word he said.He would buy breakfast for Chen Yan in the morning, and then use various methods to wake him up, and would buy him flowers from time to time to go home.

There are always various flowers blooming in Zhang Yan's studio, always exuding the fragrance of Xu Liangyun's love for him.

Xu Liangyun would hold his hand tightly when going out, and put his hand in his pocket in winter.Xu Liangyun, who is tired of painting at home, will accompany him silently, and he will listen to the nagging about painting with a smile, even if he doesn't understand at all.

Xu Liangyun would hug him around the house and make him feel disgusted by his sticky sounds.

Statement Yan sometimes stays up late to draw, and Xu Liangyun is already asleep when he goes to bed.

Every time, he would dazedly grab the statement and pull him into his arms, then unconsciously find a random place to kiss him, and tell him in a viscous voice not to stay up all night, and fall asleep again before the words fall up.

At that time, Xu Liangyun always liked to mutter and state that I was disgusted with you, but I loved you so much. People are mutual, and you have to love me forever.

—You have to love me forever, too.

I love you so much that you must always love me too.

Xu Liangyun, who had said this to him countless times, had changed his words now.He said in the cold wind that could freeze people to death, you hate me, I can live with it if you hate me.

He said I'm sorry for you.

Pudding had already brought the avocado to the foot of the statement. It raised its head, pressed the avocado twice with its paws, and beeped twice, as if to comfort him.

Chen Yan looked at the avocado, which had already been deformed to the point of contempt, and suddenly felt that its smiling expression seemed to be crying.

He looked at it, and suddenly thought coldly all over his body, Xu Liangyun really will never come back again.

They're really over, all over.

Five years passed, and they were completely over.

Love has become hatred, helpless hatred.

It was obvious that he had known and accepted the facts for which he had been numb for a long time, but now the matter has become murderous again, making people suffocate and suffocate.

...why.

Why on earth.

Which of them did something wrong to become what it is today?

Statement Yan's eyes were blurred for an instant, and tears flowed out.

He finally couldn't bear it anymore, so he lowered his head and shrank up, stretched out his hands and grabbed his hair tightly, and cried out heart-piercingly, his hands trembling.

It wasn't raining outside, and the young man holding an umbrella and yelling that he loved him was not there.

This time no one came to hold him in his arms and say sorry to him for wronging you.

No one is there anymore.