smoke like fire

But I really didn't expect Zhao Kuanyi to admit him and me to Mr. Zhao.When I heard it, I was just stunned.Afterwards, I didn't know my emotions, Mr. Zhao's words were blown into my ears like a spring breeze, but a storm was blowing slowly in my heart, I was going to be muddled, as if I was isolated from everything around me, I couldn't hear or understand.Of course I understand, but I have to give up first.I should absolutely refuse, otherwise, all the persistence up to now will be in vain.However, what Mr. Zhao said is not unreasonable.The reality is indeed like this.If it goes on like this, not only me, but Zhao Kuanyi will suffer too.

I can't stop thinking about it like this, I can't resist the powerlessness that is always tug-of-war with my will.

Tonight, Zhao Kuanyi is coming back from Beijing.

It's still morning.With a routine meeting, I try to focus, and I can't wait for the night to come.

But this time I didn't go to the airport to pick me up.Of course I really wanted to see him as soon as possible, but the airport has always been the most crowded and noisy, and the matter has not subsided, so there is no guarantee that there will be no reporters ambushing him.Can't be careless.Besides, only when I get home can I have a good talk.The calls these days have been brief, not much to say.Because I can't see anyone, I feel even more lonely.

I never had the opportunity to mention the meeting with Mr. Zhao.Also do not want to say.I don't want to create a rift between them.But I don't know if he noticed something, the occasional few words on the phone seemed to be a little comforting.

At this time, in the meeting, there was some vague debate.

Chen Liren is going to develop a new project in New York, and he intends to hand it over to my department.It's still open for discussion, someone has an opinion.On the surface, of course, because it requires careful evaluation by all parties, in fact, everyone tacitly understands what is going on.Due to disagreements, we still can't come to the same conclusion, so we can only discuss it next time.

Chen Liren's complexion was not good, but there was nothing he could do.Or go his own way, but he has never been this way.After the meeting was over, everyone left in twos and threes.He stopped me, "You should make some preparations for this project first."

I nodded, but said: "If that one has a heart, maybe it's—"

Chen Liren interrupted: "No, too little experience."

I said, "In fact, I don't have much experience."

Chen Liren looked at me, but smiled, patted my shoulder with his palm, and said, "Okay, it's not like you to push three times and four times four times." He told me again and left.

I also went back to the department.

When I entered the office, I checked my phone and found a missed call.After more than a dozen calls to the same number, it was Secretary Zhang who dialed.Still wondering, I called again.

I hesitated before accepting it.

Secretary Zhang's voice rang out anxiously: "Finally answered——Mr. Cheng! Come to National Taiwan University Hospital as soon as possible, the chairman is now in the emergency department here."

I didn't expect it, and I was taken aback for a moment, but my heart was blunt and indifferent.I said, "Oh——really."

Secretary Zhang also said: "Mr. Cheng, you must come here quickly!"

I was silent, and said: "I don't necessarily have to go there. I'm going to hang up, I still have—"

"Mr. Cheng!" Secretary Zhang called me eagerly, and said in a low voice, "Mr. Cheng, the chairman's condition is really bad. He was sent by an ambulance just now. Maybe—if something happens, you Can't be absent."

I felt numb, as if I didn't know what to say and was in a trance.I thought that what happened to my father was none of my business.But he couldn't speak, and his mood suddenly became agitated.

I hear myself asking, "Did you call my mom too?"

Secretary Zhang replied: "No."

I hurriedly said: "Don't call, I'll go over right away." Then I hung up the phone.

I rushed to the hospital quickly.On the way, Secretary Zhang called again, and he waited for me at the door of the emergency department.When I went to the emergency room, it was crowded with a bunch of patients, and the hospital staff were busy.Noisy everywhere, nothing like being in a hospital.The beds are arranged from the inside to the aisle and then to the door.The air is filled with a strange coldness, sinking and decaying, but also seems to be full of vitality.

Only then did Secretary Zhang squeeze out from a group of people, raising one hand high and waving it non-stop. The emotion on his face was obvious, and he was not as calm as usual.

I walked towards him and found that his forehead and face were covered with sweat, and he must have been running around.I walked with him through the group of people just now, and he explained the process to me.

"The chairman has always complained of a headache these days, and this morning it seemed to be in severe pain again. At the meeting, when he had to stand up, his hands and feet seemed to have no strength, so he fell down and couldn't speak, which scared everyone for a long time. Jump, call an ambulance quickly, I was still awake when I was sent to the car, but then I seemed to be in a daze."

I said nothing.Because I really don't know what to say.Always felt like it was fake.

In the middle of speaking, Secretary Zhang had already led me to an emergency room.The door was open, but the curtain was drawn, and the monitoring equipment inside could only be heard beeping.

A few people stood outside.

The man surnamed Cao who I saw last time was also there this time, and there was a strange woman standing beside him.In addition, there are Ms. Xu and Xu Chengcheng.Of course it is indispensable.Secretary Zhang said to them: "Mr. Cheng is here."

All the people immediately looked at me.For a moment, I couldn't see what their expressions were, and I only paid attention to the male doctor who came out of the emergency room.

"Which one is a relative?"

At this question, Ms. Xu and Xu Chengcheng seemed to make a move, but they didn't go forward after all.Everyone seemed to be frozen, looking at each other.

I can only say: "I am, I am his son."

The male doctor nodded and said to me: "Your father has a severe headache, he has no strength in his right hand and right foot, and he can't speak. We suspect it's a stroke. We just had a computer tomography examination and found that the front of his left brain..." Pointing to his own, "There is not a small area of ​​bleeding, it is a hemorrhagic stroke. We have tested his coma index, and it normally reaches [-] points. Your father's score is less than [-] now. Although he is still I can wake up, but the situation will only get worse, and I must operate quickly to remove the blood clot."

I was stunned and remained silent for a while.The faces of several people on one side were solemn.The man surnamed Cao whispered to the unfamiliar woman, and the woman went aside to make a phone call.I looked at it blankly, and before I could figure it out, I suddenly heard Ms. Xu's nervous voice.

She asked, "What kind of surgery is this going to do?"

The male doctor glanced at me vaguely before answering: "Craniotomy, open the head from here to remove the blood clot inside."

Ms. Xu took a deep breath.

It was Xu Chengcheng who asked, "Is that dangerous?"

The male doctor said: "Surgery is inevitably risky, but it is even more dangerous not to do it now."

The man surnamed Cao also said: "The chairman has always been in good health, why suddenly...had a stroke?"

The male doctor looked at me again and said: "There are many factors that cause a stroke, and it doesn't mean that it will not happen because of good health. Age is one reason, or high blood pressure, hot and cold weather, and emotional ups and downs." -"

Ms. Xu suddenly said: "Ah, he lost his temper a few days ago, and his headache started from that day—" He glanced at me, his face seemed hesitant, "It's because you quarreled with your father, so—" .

Xu Chengcheng interrupted his mother: "Mom, that kind of thing has nothing to do with it."

Ms. Xu fell silent for a moment.I still don't speak.Seeing the different faces of other people, I was a little dazed.I vaguely remembered how my father was furious that day.At that time, he was so angry that his whole body seemed to be shaking.I've never seen him fluctuate so much.

The male doctor said at this time: "I have read the medical records. I have been hospitalized because of blood pressure problems. It may be that the follow-up is not well controlled."

Ms. Xu also said: "But——"

Xu Chengcheng shouted suddenly: "Okay, Mom! Don't say any more, okay?"

I couldn't help looking at him, he looked away, pulling his mother to stand back.Ms. Xu's complexion was not very good, she seemed to be somewhat resentful.

Secretary Zhang called me: "Mr. Cheng, you have to make a decision."

I paused, and it took a lot of effort to be able to speak.I asked, "When can I have surgery?"

"After completing the formalities, send it to the operating room immediately."

I nodded slightly, and said in my mouth: "Okay, let's do it quickly."

The male doctor called for a female nurse.She brought some sheets and explained to me the dangers of the operation.I signed them one by one.I seem to be confused between this, no matter what I listen to or do I don't know very well.All the formalities should be handed over to Secretary Zhang.

Before going to the operating room, the male doctor asked me to visit my father in the emergency room.Ms. Xu and Xu Chengcheng also followed.I didn't care about them, I just looked at the man on the small bed with some pipes on his body.It was the father, and it didn't seem to be--very gaunt and tousled.Without his power, at this moment, he is just an ordinary old man.Is father this old?

The nurse was calling to him.It took him a while to open his eyes.Ms. Xu was next to the bed and went to hold his hand.Xu Chengcheng called him from the side.

I just stand and can't get close.He seemed to be looking at me, but he didn't seem to be.

Before long, my father was sent to the operating room on the fourth floor.

The operation took up to four hours, and I did not leave, waiting outside the operating room.Ms. Xu and Xu Chengcheng were also there.Not embarrassing.It's not just the three of us here, there are so many people around who are waiting for their relative's surgery to be over.

The man surnamed Cao left first.Only Secretary Zhang and a woman whose surname was Wu later became known.But they don't always wait here together, and often don't know where to go to make a phone call.

Ms. Wu is the publicist of my father's company. She handed me her business card and told me that the news of my father's illness had been reported in the news.I don't know how it got out.I didn't speak.She didn't say any more, and went to call again, but never came back.

Secretary Zhang went back and forth several times before finally sitting down.

Time seems to flow very slowly here.

But looking at the watch, the time was fast again, it was already past three o'clock in the afternoon.I suddenly remembered that Zhao Kuanyi's flight back was at this time.I took out my phone and thought he might have already boarded the plane.I can only send a message so that he can see it when he gets off the plane.