I'm going crazy and I'm green

I was still sitting on the bed and they all looked at me like I was a treasure that should be kept in a soft place.And those beautiful and vague memories of yesterday, all of which are so different from the day they left, make me feel unreal.

I heard the sound of my teeth chattering, and the beating heart was about to jump out of its original position, turning into a hug that didn't want to let go.

Shen Miao's serious expression made me want to kiss him, but I didn't dare.

I looked at the two people in front of me, gritted my teeth, and suddenly a panicky question flashed through my mind.

Shen Miao and Liu Chao came here in a hurry because they were afraid that I would lose my mind and seek death. If they knew the reason before, would they still come?

How can I make them willing to come?

I didn't have the face to ask such a question, so I didn't dare to look into Shen Miao's eyes any more, I lowered my head and put on my shoes.

I tried my best to make my voice normal, and smiled at them: "Anyway, thank you for coming. I was so drunk yesterday, and I must have caused a lot of inconvenience to you. Don't worry, I... I am almost sober , and will never do anything to seek death. It’s getting late, let’s go eat something first.”

They glanced at each other, but no one spoke.

I asked cautiously again: "Or...or did you delay too much time and want to rush back to deal with things?"

Liu Chao, who was silent for a while, asked me, "Are you hungry?"

In fact, the feeling of hangover has not completely dissipated, and I have no appetite, so I just shook my head honestly.

"Then there's no rush." ​​Liu Chao said, "If there is really something urgent to deal with, it's not in the capital."

I didn't understand Liu Chao's meaning, and I froze in place in a daze, but was pushed back on the bed by Shen Miao gently and irresistibly.

He said: "There is no inconvenience, and we don't think it is a delay, you know?"

What Shen Miao said was "we", he and Liu Chao.The two of them stood side by side in front of me, forming a high wall. There was something hidden behind the wall that I didn't know about. Maybe it was the treasure peeped in the dream, or maybe it was a beast with claws.

I sat on the bed, unable to retreat, and said in a shy voice, "I... I don't know."

I was afraid that my answer would be too blunt, so I added intermittently: "I... I'm so stupid... I don't know what to say, let alone what to do... To stir you in, and always Things got messed up...and I..."

Shen Miao actually laughed when he heard the words, and he gently pressed my lips with his fingers, making me hoarse, just like before in Li Ge's residence.

I remember he was also smiling at that time, and what he said was "It is enough to hear a sentence you are willing to do", and I remember every word clearly.

Now he said to me, "If you don't know what to say, I'll ask you, and you can answer me?"

Seeing me nodding my head, Shen Miao asked, "Xiaoyan, do you have me in your heart?"

I was even more confused, and I didn't understand Shen Miao's intentions at all, but looking into his eyes, I went back to the day when I was at Brother Li's mansion, the candles reflected the moonlight that hit my arms.

With a sore nose, I replied: "If there is you...you have been here for a long time."

Shen Miao suddenly leaned down and pecked my lips. He was unsteady, even considered frivolous in the eyes of outsiders, as if the person who did this move was not the current Shen Miao, but someone I had never seen before, someone who knew love for the first time. The young man of the Shen family.

I bit my lower lip and touched it with the tip of my tongue, it seemed sweet.

Shen Miao then asked: "But you also have Zilan in your heart, don't you?"

The inside of the lower lip was bitten off unexpectedly, and the tip of the tongue was stained with a thin taste of rust.

I looked at Shen Miao in astonishment, and uncontrollably turned to Liu Chao aside.Liu Chao and I looked at each other for less than a second, then turned his head away, and muttered: "Yesterday, I was so drunk that I wanted to kiss me."

Compared with the last self-report, the answer became much clearer, but it was more difficult to say it, like taking a knife to cut open one's internal organs, looking down to see the hidden place inside.

I still drew the knife.

"...Yes." I replied again, and waited for the final verdict.

I told myself that at least this time, they wouldn't go away, life or death would have a definite outcome.

Shen Miao was silent for a long time, until Liu Chao patted him on the shoulder and said, "It's far away, why don't I come..."

Only then did Shen Miao speak, his tone was full of doubts and inquiries, but his eyes were extremely firm.

"Xiaoyan..." he said, "I had talked with Zilan many times since I left the mansion that day until last night. Can human affection really be split into two halves? I can't figure it out, but I can’t bear to let go. I came all the way to Jiangjunpo yesterday, and I know that Zilan’s heart is as anxious as mine, and even more so. But I still don’t quite understand.”

"But I understand that no one will be willing to let go of this. Xiaoyan, instead of being sad and indecisive, I think..." He finally took my hand, "We want to ask you to put this in the future. Say the answer slowly and well."

"Let's try it, shall we?"

I seem to have entered another big dream, this dream is much more magnificent, swaying like floating on a painting boat, I can't tell whether it's the lake water flowing or the sinking flute sound.

The man sang: "Daimei is now displayed for the king, and the branches are broken, cherishing the time."

The sound of the flute subsided, and the melodious female voice was replaced by a familiar tone, leaving only the last sentence - let's break the branches and cherish the time.

The water of the lake also receded, and the last note of the flute also disappeared, leaving only tears flowing.

"What's there to think about?" Liu Chao's voice suddenly rang in my ears.

He pinched my face viciously, and wiped off the water stains with his thumb: "Don't you want to?"

I said to Liu Chao and Shen Miao, and to the one who was squatting alone by the river of forgetfulness, "I am willing...I am willing..."

Like a wanderer who has finally returned home after traveling tens of thousands of miles, I hugged Liu Chao's hand and cried without thinking about anything.

Seeing that I was crying more and more shameless, Liu Chao said anxiously: "You, you...don't let your snot run down my clothes too! I already ruined a whole sleeve yesterday."

He said so, but he didn't push me away.

The first snow of winter floated outside the window.

Finally the dust settles.

After rectification, we embarked on the road back to Beijing.

It was warm inside the carriage, but the snow outside was getting bigger and bigger. Although it was not as cold as in the coldest days, Blowing still felt the pain of scratching his face.

Halfway through the journey, Liu Chao suddenly yelled: "I was wrong just now!"

My heart skipped a beat, and I almost smashed Mrs. Tang in my hand to my foot, waiting anxiously for his next sentence.

But Liu Chao said angrily: "There is indeed an urgent matter waiting for me to do in the capital. I am going to smash Liu Jiawen's cunt mouth."

Shen Miao said helplessly: "...Okay, then I may have to go to the palace later."

He said to me again: "Xiaoyan, you also go back to the mansion to report that you are safe, and I will come to you after I finish my business."

I hugged the warm Mrs. Tang tightly and nodded.

When I entered the capital later, I knew that the horseshoes would tread three different paths, and then they would pass through the growing wind and snow and form a marriage.

small theater:

Shen Miao gushed: Xiaoyan, we blablablabla

Liu Chao: Me too!

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Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooo finally wrote here! ! !Because I will put all the emotional running-in between the three people after confirming their relationship into the episode, so in a sense, today is the end!I am so happy!Frog Flurry.JPG

This article made me realize many of my problems, especially the flaws in the plot, and because of the change of the outline and improper later schedule, the update was as slow as (not as good as) a snail, which brought a bad reading experience to everyone.

So thank you all for following up! ! !I love you woo woo woo woo (crying super loud

I will reflect on these issues carefully, and hope to bring you a better reading experience when we meet next time.