she's rude

I am the daughter of the chairman of the Shanghai Fu'an Chamber of Commerce, who is full of stars and stars. I was born proud, with silk and satin, delicacies from mountains and seas, and no worries about food and clothing.

My father and mother have given me everything I need, and I don't need to make any effort to get things that ordinary people can't get in their entire lives.

I am content and know how to be grateful.

So I calmly accepted the marriage arranged by my parents.

This is probably the only thing I can do for them without hurting their hearts or compromising the interests they and I enjoy.

Fortunately, Yang Qiyuan is a qualified husband. He looks upright and behaves politely, so he doesn't offend me.He loves me as much as his parents.

Getting married and having children is a matter of course.

Outside of family, there is only one friend with whom I have a heart-to-heart relationship, and that is An Jing.

I hate the pretentiousness of those so-called celebrities, and I hate their unhealthy atmosphere of comparison.

When I get along with An Jing, I feel that I will always be a girl.Her pampering and caring for me is different from that of my parents and husband.

Of course, for a long time, I just regarded this as a special friendship between us.

Until Yu Yinxia appeared out of thin air, until An Jing felt that the most important position other than relatives was no longer mine.

If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't understand what it's like to be jealous.

If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have understood that women can like women, and love them so heartbreakingly.

Fu Wenjing broke into my life at an accelerated pace when my strange feelings began to awaken.To be precise, it broke into my life.

She should also thank Yu Yinxia.

The first time Fu Wenjing acted like a baby to me was when I was helping Xiaoyu set up a swing.

She fell and sat on the ground in embarrassment, insisting that I personally pull her up and be "responsible" to her, otherwise she would refuse to get up.

Yu Yinxia dispelled the embarrassing words, and in hindsight, she was already fueling the flames for her.

I took Fu Wenjing to my room to change pants. Before I found out the right pants, she took off her dirty pants and sat on the edge of the bed, with her long legs stretched forward. I have never seen such a bold woman .

At that time, she and I were not familiar enough to look at each other's bodies.

But inexplicably, she put on my trousers in front of me and said, "It turns out that Miss Tang's legs are as long and straight as mine."

My face was so hot.It seems that the one without pants is me.

Before her, I hadn't seen another woman's body.

Before her, I had never slept with another woman.

An Jing was injured and gave up on herself, Yu Yinxia asked Fu Wenjing to come to see the doctor.It was me who was tricked by her.

Xiaoyu likes Fu Wenjing very much. Strictly speaking, Fu Wenjing is better at making children happy than I am than An Jing. She always greets people with a smile, which makes me ignore the real reason why she loves Xiaoyu so much.

That night, I felt irritable because of An Jing.

Thinking of how long she and Yu Yinxia have known each other, they can sleep together in the same bed all night long, cuddling and hugging in front of everyone.

That's something I never got from her.

Fu Wenjing was in my room, teaching Xiaoyu to sing nursery rhymes, telling stories to Xiaoyu, and coaxing her to sleep.

Sitting on the sofa, I became a guest.

Xiaoyu was clamoring for me to sleep with her, so I had to dry my hair quickly and lay down on the bed in pajamas with long sleeves and trousers.

Fu Wenjing was about to leave, but Xiaoyu held her back and asked her to tell us stories and sleep together.

She was a little embarrassed, but I looked at her cold red feet exposed outside the quilt, and I couldn't bear it.

I said, "Xiao Yu, come to sleep a bit, and make room for Aunt Fu."

Looking at Fu Wenjing again, she smiled so sweetly.

She got into the quilt and stretched out her arms, seemingly holding Xiao Yu to pat lightly, but she touched my arm intentionally or unintentionally.

Listening to the fresh and interesting stories she told, Xiao Yu and I fell asleep at some point, feeling very peaceful.That was the first time someone put me to sleep growing up.

Anshi, after all, couldn't hold on.The flames of war finally came to Shanghai.

An Jing is gone, Yang Qiyuan is in Tianjin.I had no choice but to take Xiaoyu back to my parents' house, praying to survive the gunpowder safely.

In the month before the war broke out, Fu Wenjing would come to accompany me every two or three days.

After the official start of the war, she didn't show up again for more than ten days.

She is a doctor, and I was suddenly afraid that she would be captured by the Japanese and become a military doctor, and I was also afraid that she would volunteer to go to the front line of our army.So I pretended to be sick and tricked her into coming home.

After she confirmed that my child and I were fine, she immediately relaxed her nervous expression, but she passed out in front of my bed in an instant.

I asked Qingyan to help her onto my bed.At that moment, I didn't think about whether her clothes were dirty or not. I was just worried about her.

Overworked, she sleeps for three hours at a time.Woke up and it was dark.

She politely thanked me and got out of bed to leave.

Xiao Yu entered the room at the right time, hugged her coquettishly and refused to let her go.Maybe she didn't know, but when she fell asleep, I had colluded with Xiao Yu.

She told Xiaoyu that there are many heroes in the hospital who need to be rescued.

I went forward and grabbed her arm, and said in a displeased tone, "If you don't take a good night's rest, you will be the one who needs to be rescued tomorrow."

She compromises.

I found clean pajamas for her: I went to wash it first, and then came out to eat supper.

She complied.

Qingyan changed the bedding, in order not to make Fu Wenjing tired again, I asked Qingyan to coax Xiaoyu to go to grandma.

That night, there were only me and her in the room.

At first she turned her back to me, separated by a distance, on each side.

I closed my eyes, but couldn't fall asleep.The six-month-old boy in my stomach started dancing again, and the kick made me feel a little uncomfortable, so I moved my body.

She turned around: "Are you not used to having people around?"

"No, it's not because of you, it's the child."

"Let me put him to sleep." Fu Wenjing said, stretched out her left hand to rest on my stomach, and moved her body a little towards me.

This unprecedented intimacy made me so nervous that I didn't know what to do.Her palms were not very warm, and she gently patted my stomach: "Baby, it's getting dark, and Mommy is tired and going to bed, shall we play again tomorrow? Be good, Auntie Fu will sing nursery rhymes for you." ..."

Listening to her nursery rhymes, unconsciously, tears fell from the corners of my eyes.

I panicked.I hurriedly raised my hand to wipe it.

Fu Wenjing took my hand that wiped my tears, put it to my lips and kissed it.

"It's okay, the war will end, and we will all be alive. He and you will eventually be reunited."

I was so stupid, I thought she was referring to An Jing.So I answered her hoarsely, "I'll wait until she comes back."

Then, holding my hand, she buried her face in the pillow and cried.

The hand that was about to be withdrawn could no longer be moved.I don't understand why she is crying.For the country?For home?Or for the people?

She cried so sadly that it made my heart ache.She let her hold her left hand, and moved her right hand to the top, stroking the top of her hair and comfortingly said, "Dr. Fu has been strong for too long, crying will make him feel much more relaxed."

As soon as I finished speaking, I was caught off guard and kissed my face, and then my lips.I was dumbfounded.

She didn't push her in, it was just a quick touch in both places.

"Tang Yunqing, after today, I will not come to your house again. You have a happy family to take care of, and I have a noble cause to do. We are people on different roads."

Her kiss, her words, plus the impact of An Jing and Yu Yinxia's incident on me, no matter how stupid I am, I can still understand the deep meaning.

My heart was beating fast, and the sound of heartbeats filled my chest and brain.

"Fu Wenjing, can you accompany me until the end of the war?"

I admit that I am selfish. Compared to seeing her pass out in the hospital because of being busy, or to join the medical team without telling me, I would rather let her see through my selfishness and see my cruelty clearly in my sight.

She was silent for a while, then raised her head and said to me in a joking tone: "I promised, what benefits or rewards are there?"

I was embarrassed: "You kissed me without authorization, I didn't blame you, it was connivance. You still want to..."

Before I finished speaking, my lips were blocked by her.

Her lips are cool.

This person's body temperature is not directly proportional to her enthusiastic personality.

Because I "ask her for something", and because the feeling of being loved by her makes my heart move, I can't go against her "aggression", let alone resist her will.

Our first kiss ended on our lips.But my heart has already been swallowed by her, a heart thief.

That night, I fell asleep on her arm.Obviously, she was still preoccupied and frowning in the last second, but in the next second, she forgot all the worries in the sound of her light and shallow breathing, and woke up until dawn.

Fu Wenjing.

I know, I also pretended to be you in my heart.

Because, when I kissed you, I felt no guilt towards Yang Qiyuan.Because, if Yang Qiyuan wants to kiss me again, I won't be able to bear it.

Fu Wenjing.

In times of war, I will bind your wings and wait for peace.When it is safe outside, I will set you free.

……

Fu Wenjing really stayed with me for more than two months. In the name of helping me with my miscarriage, she often came to the house and occasionally slept with me.

She took great care of me, and the most excessive move was just to kiss my face, without moving her lips or teeth.

I have sent someone to secretly pay attention to Yu Yinxia, ​​this is An Jing's request, and I will do it.

An Jing also stored a photo of her and Yu Yinxia with me. When I saw the "Sweetheart Big Hero" on the back of the photo, my heart still hurt a little.

But I have Fu Wenjing.

I am probably infatuated with and dependent on An Jing when I was a girl.To Fu Wenjing, it is the attachment with a swaying heart, the love that can tolerate her touching me.

An Xi, also deposited two letters with me, they are really hateful pair of siblings.

As soon as I left, I entrusted so much affection to me.Every word is like a must, how cruel you two are.

……

Later, the flames of war finally stayed away from Shanghai.

Before she could breathe a sigh of relief, Yu Yinxia was arrested and sent to prison for killing her father.

In order to save her life and help her reduce her sentence, Fu Wenjing accompanied me around and spent money on relationships, and finally the dust settled.

Yang Qiyuan came back to Shanghai, accompanied by a woman with a big belly.Yes, after such a long separation, how can a man be without a woman?

I'm not sad, but I'm angry.

Angry at him for disregarding his children, angry at the fact that the home he guarded for so many years has been surrendered to others.

In the hospital, it was Fu Wenjing who was by my side the whole time. She held my hand during the whole process and cried worse than me.

I want her out, I must look awful.I am afraid that when I think of this appearance in the future, I will get bored, will, and will no longer like it.

Besides the doctor, she was the first person to hold the baby.

I forgot for a moment that she was also a doctor.

I looked weakly at Fu Wenjing beside the bed, and the little boy in her arms.As if that is, me and her child.

Originally obsessed with asking An Jing to name the child, she has drifted away unknowingly.The closest person to this child is me, and Fu Wenjing who coaxes him to sleep, watches his birth, and hugs and smiles.

"Aunt Fu, give him a nickname."

She smiled, held my hand and said, "Can I be called Xiao Ning? An Ning's Ning."

I said: "Okay."

Yang Qiyuan wanted to see the child, but I didn't stop him, I just said indifferently: "Xiaoning's surname is Yang, but he is a child of the Tang family."

Xingxu knew that he was ashamed and owed, but Yang Qiyuan didn't embarrass me, nor did he forcefully take Xiao Yu and Xiao Ning away.

The entire Chamber of Commerce was affected by the flames of war, and my father's property and business were not as good as before.They persuaded me that the Yang family gained power and had one more concubine room, it was him who gave him face, so there is nothing wrong with it.

I understand that my father needs the financial support of the Yang family.

I told them, "Don't worry, I'm not going to get a divorce, I'm not going to fight with him, I'm just, never going to live under the same roof as them."

……

Yang Qiyuan rushed back from Tianjin to hold a hundred-day banquet for Xiaoning.

He drank a lot, I drank a lot, and we let ourselves get drunk for different reasons.He is staying in my room, and I am relying on Fu Wenjing.

I drank myself dizzy and threw up a mess.Leaning on Fu Wenjing, she is the only one, no matter how dirty or sloppy I am, she will never dislike me.

That night was the first time I let go of my pride and reserve, and "tangled" her to take a bath with me and sleep with me.

That night was also the first time I seduced her to fan the flames on me.I called her name and she did what she wanted.

But when I woke up the next day, I pretended to be drunk/sex so she didn't have to take it seriously.

I saw her hurt eyes, but I couldn't soften my heart, and I couldn't evade: "After so many years of hard work, you've already got what you want, and there's nothing in me that I can give you."

She bit her own lip and kissed the blood on my lips.

"Tang Yunqing, your body is nothing more than that. How can you repay the time and emotion I spent on you by letting me sleep for one night? I'm not in a hurry, I'm still young, and I still have a lot of time to spend. You die, or I die."

Fu Wenjing.

Why bother?

The smoke is gone, Shanghai is free, and you should be free too.

……

As compensation for me, I asked Yang Qiyuan to buy me the former Xianlemen, and I handed over the management rights to Yu Yinxia who was released from prison.

In a flash, it was three years.

In the past three years, I never gave Fu Wenjing a chance to climb the bed.

In three years, she never once said that she wanted to leave.

For three years, Xiao Yu and Xiao Ning couldn't do without her more and more.

For three years, I haven't slept with Yang Qiyuan again.

Until An Jing came back.

Seeing her and Yu Yinxia torturing each other, and looking back at the girl who has been with me without complaint or regret, I was a little shaken.

For me, she wasted her best youth, missed her good son-in-law, attracted rumors, and failed her parents.

In this world, the only person I feel sorry for is her.

But just when I was hesitating, Fu Wenjing left as soon as she said she would.

It’s okay, it’s okay, you are finally tired of staying, and you are finally going to fly to a higher and broader sky to find your freedom.

I won't stop you, how can I stop you?You were supposed to live a wonderful life.You are so good and outstanding, you are a doctor who saves lives and heals the wounded, you have saved so many lives, it is time to save yourself.

Saying goodbye, the only thing I can say to her is: I wish you a bright future.

There is another sentence that I didn't say: It's windy and windy outside, so I hide my heart when I come back.

I was so heartless that day that I didn't shed a single tear.