she's rude

After Fu Wenjing left, I became uncertain and irritable.

I always feel that a very important piece is missing in my heart, and I always feel that someone is missing around me.All that is missing is her.

I know that it was An Jing's idea that she went to Peking.I don't blame any of them, I don't blame them for being "cooperative", they are all doing the right thing, all are right.

But when I heard An Jing scolding me and saying, "You're just playing around with Dr. Fu" and calling me a "poor and hateful crazy woman", I really broke down.

Fu Wenjing, I am not just playing around with you.

If I am just playing with you, I will not reject you thousands of miles away, I will not hurt you repeatedly, I will not let you go, and I will not let you escape from my palm.

After playing An Jing, I blamed myself.What she said was right, and the one who was wrong was always only me.

……

Xiao Ning fell ill, and the whole family surrounded him. Xiao Yu felt left out, crying and clamoring to find her godmother and Aunt Fu.

She still doesn't know that Aunt Fu, whom she likes, has left Shanghai.

My mood was so bad because of this, I scolded her for being ignorant and not reassuring.Seeing Xiaoyu crying out of breath, grandma took her away.

I thought that my mother just hugged her and went to other places to coax her.In the end, she complied with Xiao Yu's request and asked the driver to take her to find her godmother, but before she arrived, she was hijacked by Chen Dong who was waiting for his opportunity.

I found out about this when I watched Xiao Ning recover from the high fever and wanted to apologize to Xiao Yu.

I called Xu's house, and the person who answered the phone was Li Xia, who became Xu Weiqiang's wife.She said that Master Jing and Master Qiang had gone out.

I asked Xiaoyu if she was there, and she said: Xiaoyu has never been here.

Is grandma wrong?

She just obeyed her granddaughter's wishes and sent her to the house of her godmother who loved her so much.The wrong one is still me.It was me who said harsh words to Xiao Yu that gave the bad guys a chance.

The whole family went out to look for Xiaoyu, and also for Master Jing's whereabouts.We even went to the police station to report the disappearance for help.

A few hours later, Bo Yang sent back the unconscious Xiaoyu.

His black clothes smelled of blood.

I asked him, "What happened? Where's An Jing?"

The man did not flick his tears easily, his eyes were red: "Sister Jing saved her beloved daughter and killed her hated enemy. She said that what Dr. Fu has been waiting for is just your word, love."

I settled Xiaoyu and rushed to Xu's house overnight.Only Aunt Rong was watching at home. She had no idea what happened.

It was five days before I saw one of them again, Xu Weiqiang.

It turned out that An Jing agreed to all of Chen Dong's requests that night, and even traded herself for Xiao Yu.Chen Dong never thought that he could get out of Shanghai alive.

He was tired of the days of mice crossing the streets.For a vicious person like him, death would not make others happy.

During the gunfight, Chen Dong fell to the ground and died, and An Jing also fell.

This person killed An's father, An's mother, this person killed countless brothers of the gang.

Three years ago, An Jing promised Xu Weiqiang that he would take Chen Dong's life for him.Three years later, she had paid off everything she owed Xu Weiqiang.

……

After An Jing was shot, she struggled several times. Xu Weiqiang obeyed An Jing's wishes and blocked the news of her serious injury.

Xu Weiqiang told me: "A Jing once told me that if one day she is dying, don't let you see her dying and after death. I'm sorry, Miss Tang. This is my last promise to her. "

Xu Weiqiang will always fulfill her every request.

My head was buzzing and I couldn't say a word.This must be a dream, I think about it every day and dream at night, why I started to think wildly before nightfall.

"You are different from Hongying. I can tell you the truth, but Hongying, please keep it a secret. I'm afraid she won't be able to survive."

Can't survive?

What is the reason why Yu Yinxia can't survive?

I slumped on the sofa, shaking uncontrollably all over my body.

"She left you two words, Peiping."

My sky is falling.Fu Wenjing, why are you not here, why don't you help me hold up the sky?

I never thought that one day I would be so eager for a woman to be my God.

I haven't seen An Jing's last face.

For several days, I had the same terrible dream. In the dream, An Jing was lying on the ground covered in blood, and in the distance, the back of Fu Wenjing disappeared step by step.

Of the two women I loved deeply, one was pushed away by me and went away to another country, and the other was implicated by me and said goodbye to the life of my sweetheart.

I became the sinner who killed An Jing, and I had no face to face her beloved girl.

What's worse than concealing it is that I have to endure the pain of making up words to slander her to make Yu Yinxia give up on her.

Yu Yinxia had died for her more than once, and once she knew that her hero was no longer alive, she would let her go without hesitation.

She is such a strong woman who dares to love, hate, and die. She is someone I can't match, so she walked into An Jing's heart easily and became her sweetheart in a very short time.

Only she deserves her.Only she deserves to die with her.

……

Half a year later, Xu Weiqiang found me with An Jing's ashes, and we buried her next to An Xi, and their siblings met again in Anzhai.

Xu Weiqiang hired someone to guard the house, except for him and me, no one else was allowed to enter.

I knelt in front of An Jing's tomb. It was the first time in my life that I knelt down to someone.She is my friend, my relative, and my benefactor.

The one who made the most mistakes is me, and the one who should be the most damned should be me.

All these tragedies were caused by me alone.

If I keep Fu Wenjing, if I confess my heart, the following things will not happen.

Peiping.

There was no news of her from Peking.I had no face, so I went looking for her.

……

This year, it snowed in Shanghai.In the early morning after the snowfall, the woman named Aunt Hong stumbled to my house.

She cried and fell at the gate, refusing to come in.

I went to see her with an umbrella.

In her icy hand, tightly clutched a letter: Sister Yunqing personally opened the letter.

I had a very bad premonition, so I quickly threw away the umbrella and opened it. One page, not long.

-

Sister Yunqing, I know I can't wait for Ah Jing.

Without her in this world, even the sun is bitingly cold.It snowed last night, and I stood in the snow, laughing and crying, crying and laughing.

Regrettably, I have never celebrated her birthday with her, nor have I said "Happy Birthday" to her personally.

I should have died a long time ago.

Sister Yunqing, Anxi has recognized me as his sister-in-law, so please be sure to bury me beside Ah Jing.

That photo, that piece of paper that I glued together, are also buried together.please.

——Sound and sound

After reading her letter, I fell into the snow just like Aunt Hong.Yinyin, I will do as you wish.

As far as I can remember, that piece of writing read: Daughter-in-law of the An family.

……

I buried Yinyin in An Jing's tomb, replaced it with a new tombstone, and added an extra sentence on it: Wife, Yinyin, the tomb of the joint burial.

After dealing with Yinyin's last wish, my health went from bad to worse.

Probably sinful, self-punishment.I refused to go to the hospital, refused to take medicine, and refused to see outsiders.

Thinking of dying of illness like this is the only way I can feel at ease.Anyway, no one will feel sorry for you, and no one will love you anymore.

God has no eyes, let me survive year after year.Until Xiao Ning's tenth birthday, Xu Weiqiang, who hadn't seen me for many years, sent me a photo.

The photo shows Fu Wenjing in a hospital gown, sitting in a wheelchair, being pushed by a nurse to bask in the sun on the grass.

An address is written on the back of the photo: Beiping Middle Road City Hospital

That day, since Yinyin and An Jing were buried together, I once again tasted the taste of tears and the heart-wrenching feeling that I had been away for a long time.

I earnestly asked Xiao Yu and Xiao Ning for their opinions, and asked them if they wanted Dad?Would you rather live with your grandparents, or live with your dad in Tianjin?

Xiaoyu is already a 16-year-old girl.She asked if I was going out?

I nodded: "Mommy is going to see your Auntie Fu."

Xiao Yu's eyes lit up: "I miss Aunt Fu too, can Mommy take me with me?"

In her memory, she should be deeply dependent on Aunt Fu.

In the end, both of them chose to stay with their grandparents and wait for my return.But they never waited.

Afterwards, I called Chen Fangyuan: "I will give you the position of wife, please help us finish our divorce procedures as soon as possible."

……

When I arrived at the ward, my beloved girl was still asleep.

The nurse asked me who I belong to Dr. Fu?I said, I am her family in Shanghai, and I know there is a birthmark on her back.

Only then did the nurse let me stay in front of her bed, and briefly explained her condition to me: advanced gastric cancer.

Chemotherapy is unnecessary.

I sat on the accompanying chair by the bed, held her hand without needle holes, and kissed her again and again.

Fu Wenjing.

I let you go and give you freedom, not for you to torture yourself, nor for you to suffer alone outside.Why don't you come back when you're so sick?

Fu Wenjing.

I owe you time and affection, and I will pay you back.

She woke up.

With a movement of my fingers, I grabbed her hand and pressed it to my face.

"Tang Yunqing, is that you?"

"It's me. Is it too late for me to love you?"

In the ward, the two women wept uncontrollably.I didn't know that I still had so many tears to shed.

"Tang Yunqing, you are so ugly. Are you the Miss Tang family I like?"

"I was uglier in the worst times of my life than I am now, and you never thought I was ugly then."

"One moment and another, I don't like you now. Thinking of that time, I feel pitifully stupid. Tang Yunqing, go back."

I have already asked the nurse, she is in Peiping and has no family.

Fu Wenjing, you don't want to drive me away.You don't have the strength to drive me away.Just treat me as a patient who bullies you.

……

She is a doctor in this hospital, and she has enough savings. Xu Weiqiang also came to the hospital to say hello, so she lives in the best ward here, and also has special care.

But here I am.

Fu Wenjing obeyed my arrangement very much, but she seldom talked to me.

We went back to her home in Peiping, a small bachelor apartment with only one bedroom and one living room.

I took good care of her daily life, breathed fresh air with her, ate the same food with her, scrubbed her skinny body, and then hugged her to sleep.

On the days when her physical condition improved slightly, I would take the initiative to kiss her, hold her hand, and do things that she liked and wanted to do but always tried to restrain herself.

Fu Wenjing, what you want, in fact, I am willing to give.

She has a good colleague, a female doctor, whom she met during medical school.

At first she came to see her, and the two talked and laughed, talking about a lot of topics and past events that I didn't understand or participated in.What she said to her can be worth ten days to me.

That woman is born beautiful, and every time she comes, she also wears beautiful makeup.

No wonder Fu Wenjing said I was so ugly.

I am not ugly.I just messed with myself for a few years.

On the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival, I took advantage of her rest to dress up carefully.When she woke up, I held her in my arms and looked at the full moon in the sky through the window of the living room.

She whispered in my ear: "Tang Yunqing, you should live as beautifully as this moment every day."

At that moment, I finally understood what Yinyin said, if there is no her in the world, no matter how strong the sun shines on my body, it will be bitingly cold.

Just like tonight's night, the moon is foggy and hairy, and there is no bright starry sky, which is ordinary.But I feel extremely beautiful because she is by my side.

I kissed her forehead: "A woman is the one who pleases herself. Every day with you in the future, I will live so beautifully."

"If there is a next life, don't get married and have children so early, and wait for me?"

"Okay. If there is a next life, I will wait for you and marry me."

What I didn't ask or say was: Fu Wenjing, do I deserve to die with you?Sorry for this answer, I'm going to make up my own mind.

……

end.don't cry.

The author has something to say:

In the past and present, there must have been abuse.

Accidentally wrote a long-winded article, and the code words are not easy!