Unforgivable

Nan Che remembered that two years after bringing Nan Shu back to City C, a jumping incident occurred near their house. He heard a loud noise, like a gas tank explosion, and then screamed. He went to the balcony and saw A bunch of people stood not far away, but he couldn't see what happened.

Nan Shu appeared behind him, and suddenly said, "Someone jumped off the building."

Nan Che was taken aback by him, turned to look at him, and said hesitantly, "...what?"

"I saw it." Nan Shu said calmly, "The process of her falling from a high altitude."

Nan Che was stunned for a long time, looked up at the tall building in front of him, and murmured: "It's so tall...why can't you think about it?"

Nan Shu suddenly smiled: "Why can't you think about it?"

"There are many meaningful things in life, why choose to end your life because of a momentary impulse? Isn't it good to live?" Nan Che said, "It's really stupid."

Nan Shu lowered his head and said, "I think she is very brave."

Nan Che thought that if he had been more careful at that time, he would have felt Nan Shu's attitude towards life. Since then, he has looked down on many things. Perhaps since then, he has been planning to die.

Nan Shu's family had a grand birthday for Nan Shu that day, his parents gave gifts, and he was no exception, but he didn't know until now that on that day, Nan Shu also gave him a gift. As a gift, he registered the organ donation form and got the China Human Organ Donation Volunteer Registration Card.

The first person who found Nanshu was a cleaning man. He started working before dawn. The area around the main entrance of the hospital needed to be cleaned. After he was done, he went to the building behind. When he turned around, he saw the corner of the wall inadvertently. There was a person sitting there. Seeing that the person looked young, he thought it was just a deep sleep, but he ignored it. When he approached, he gradually felt that something was wrong.

The little boy had his eyes closed, his face was horribly white, and his palms were spread out, pressing a piece of paper and a card.

The card is a physical organ donation card, and there is only one sentence written on the paper: I have been here, and I am free.

Nan Che's grandfather died of illness when he was 15 years old. Before that, he was sent to the ICU for rescue five times. Their whole family was waiting outside the operating room. Nan Che stared at the three bright words, silently in his heart Pray, I hope Grandpa can survive.

He was very happy when he was temporarily out of danger a few times before, thinking that he would be fine, but he still lost to the fragility of life.During the fifth rescue, he was crying outside the operating room, not daring to cry out. He only hoped that the doctor would come out and tell him that his grandfather was out of danger again.

But when the doctor came out, he brought the news of death. His expectations were in vain, his prayers were useless, and he couldn't help crying loudly.

Everything has a process, his heart raised and fell several times, and finally lost his grandfather, but for Nan Shu's suicide, he seemed to have been hit hard, without any warning.

He didn't even cry at first.

He stared at a certain place for a long time, and heard the uncle talking about how he found Nan Shu, and when he said which building he was in, Nan Che instantly understood why Nan Shu chose to end his life there.

Very few people pass by there.

Nan Che felt the pain and covered his face with his hands.

He suddenly hated himself for being inconsiderate, hated for not taking good care of himself, hated for not discovering the clues of the matter. After taking care of Nan Shu for so many years, he took care of him like this. He thought, maybe he shouldn't let Nan Shu from the very beginning. Excuse me for going back to City A, but he suddenly realized that no matter which way, Nan Shu had already made his choice.

This time he still did not interfere with Nanshu's decision.

Standing outside the office door, he saw Shi Zhiyuan in a busy state, wearing a light-colored shirt, with a focused expression, and did not notice his arrival.

The assistant seemed to recognize that he had just come here a while ago, and said, "Are you looking for Mr. Shi?"

Nan Che glanced at him, pushed the door open and walked in. Shi Zhiyuan frowned and looked up.

The two were silent for a long time, Shi Zhiyuan put down the document in his hand, closed the curtains, rubbed between his brows: "What's the matter?"

Nan Che stood in front of his desk and said, "I think I need to tell you, after all, you were his brother before."

Shi Zhiyuan raised his head and looked straight at him. Nan Che said seriously, "The heart transplant operation will be performed this afternoon."

"what are you saying?"

"I thought he was stupid more than once, living so painfully for a person who no longer cared about me." Nan Che propped his hands on the table, bent down to look at him, "Shi Zhiyuan, Nan Jianming's fate is not fate, What about Nan Shu? Can his life be exchanged for your forgiveness?"

Shi Zhiyuan's fingers holding the pen froze, and he squinted his eyes. He heard the meaning of Nan Che's words. He was eloquent and his brain was running fast in the business field, but at this moment he suddenly became dull.

Nan Che said coldly: "Five days ago, Nan Shu committed suicide by taking medicine and voluntarily donated his organs, leaving only a pair of eyes."

"This afternoon, his heart will be transplanted to someone else."

Shi Zhiyuan's fingertips turned white, and the pen was almost crushed by him. His eyes flashed, as if he was digesting Nan Che's words. After a while, his voice was so low that he could hardly hear him: "...Impossible."

Nan Che stood up straight: "It's impossible, just go to the hospital and see."

He turned around to leave, but when he heard noises behind him, Shi Zhiyuan suddenly stood up and shouted at him: "Nan Che! How old are you still playing this trick? Are you childish?"

Nan Che was silent for a while before saying, "I also hope it's just a joke."

"You don't want to see him, but I want to make sure that he is safe every moment. Shi Zhiyuan, someone you don't cherish will naturally want to cherish it. No one will lie about it." Nan Che held the doorknob , "If you really regret it, go see him more in the future, it's best to pick a day when I'm not around, because I don't want to meet you."

Shi Zhiyuan sat back on the chair heavily, as if his soul had come out of his body, he stared blankly at a certain place, and didn't come back to his senses until the assistant walked in.

The assistant saw that his expression was very bad, and hesitantly said: "I have an appointment with Mr. Zhao from Enlightenment Construction for lunch at noon, and we can leave now."

"Oh..." Shi Zhiyuan didn't know if he was listening, or if he responded subconsciously because someone spoke. He looked at the information in front of him, and suddenly didn't know what to do next.

He closed his eyes, and the assistant waited beside him.

After a while, he picked up his coat and said, "Let's go."

The operation went on for a long time and went smoothly, and it stopped in the evening.

A patient was pushed out of the operating room, who looked like a boy about the same age as Nan Shu. Nan Che's eyes turned red when he saw Nan Shu's body lying there quietly, and he turned his back and couldn't hold back the tears.

He remembered Nan Shu saying that the man who jumped off the building was brave, but Nan Che thought he was braver.

He didn't know what kind of mentality he used to fill out the organ donation form. Now when he saw Nan Shu's internal organs were stripped and hollowed out, leaving only a shell, he could only feel the pain that penetrated into the bone marrow. It was heartbreaking like never before.

Nan Shu is no longer complete, and Nan Che doesn't want to understand the meaning of his leaving only a pair of eyes.

He stopped suppressing himself and finally cried bitterly.

A few days later, another boy woke up. He lived in the best ward, but in these few days, there was hardly anyone around him, and no one waited for him to wake up.

The autumn sun shone in, and the boy touched his heart, feeling the powerful beating of a heart.He sat up with difficulty, leaning his back against the pillow, his frail face softened a little under the sunlight.

Hearing the sound of footsteps, he looked out the door and saw a man in a suit standing there, staring at him deeply, he couldn't understand.

The man didn't stay for long, closed the door and left.

Not long after, another person came, who looked younger than the one just now, but his complexion was not very good, but he was very polite, and even smiled at him.

The boy looked at him, stopped his hand at the place where his heart was beating, and said, "Are you here for it too?"

Nan Che looked at him for a while, with a gentle smile, and pushed the door open.He saw the boy's name, Ye Xi.

When the spring of the next year came, Shi Zhiyuan bought a lot of sunflower seeds, and sprinkled the yards all over the place where he usually lived and Shili’an’s villa. When he was busy with work, he would drive alone to Shili’an to water and fertilize the seeds. It grows changes.

A month later, the seeds sprouted small buds. Nan Shu pulled him with a happy face, and Shi Zhiyuan touched his head, saying that it would grow taller and taller.

Nan Shu began to observe it every day. As long as it grew a little taller, he would run back to the house to share the news with Shi Zhiyuan. Another month later, Nan Shu touched the soft leaves with a smile full of anticipation.

In June, the sunflowers had already grown very tall, and the tallest one was even taller than them. Nan Shu stood on tiptoe to look at its buds, hoping that it would bloom beautifully and enthusiastically.

It didn't take long. Four days later, the bright yellow petals bloomed. Seeing the sunflowers all over the yard, Nan Shu was very happy. Although he didn't understand why his brother liked sunflowers so much, he witnessed its flowering process with his own eyes and planted it himself. The seeds thrived and he was very proud.

At that time, Nan Shu asked Shi Zhiyuan why he liked sunflowers.

Shi Zhiyuan didn't think about this question carefully, he looked at the sun and said, maybe it's because it's always facing the sun.

Today's flowers are blooming all over the courtyard, and the person who regards him as sunshine will not come back again.

I don't know if he can see the sunflowers as warm as his life.

I don't know if he can see into his heart, but he allows him to peek into the secret that has been hidden in his heart all along.

If possible, he hopes that people will always remember him, this brother who ended his own life, saved four lives, and continues to live in this world in another way.

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