Unforgivable

After the official start of school, Nan Che didn’t have much time to go to Nan Shu’s campus, but he would send messages to Nan Shu every day, and sometimes he didn’t care if Nan Shu didn’t reply, and took him to eat and discuss with him when he was not busy. Regarding learning matters, although Nan Shu's response was only a few sentences.

He was very worried about Nanshu's mental state.

In the past five years, he has thoroughly seen Nan Shu's heart. He is good at closing himself up, with a strong personality, paranoid, dark, negative, strong desire to control, erratic temper, and will yell when he is upset. Knowing how to fight, not eating or drinking, if he hadn't been in charge, Nan Shu didn't know what would have happened.

Of course, he never asked about him and Shi Zhiyuan. He was just afraid that Nan Shu would not be able to control his emotions on the spur of the moment and do something. After all, after returning to City A, many things were out of his control.

Just like he couldn't hold back every time he wanted to find Shi Zhiyuan's Nan Shu.

It was raining in city A in autumn, and the wind was blowing with a hint of coolness. Nan Shu was wearing a thin shirt and stood by the flower bed downstairs of the company. He had been waiting for Shi Zhiyuan to come out. Been waiting for hours.

Gradually getting wet from the rain, Nan Shu walked to the other side, with his back against the road sign, and looked up at a certain floor.

And at the place he was looking at, there were two figures standing by the window at this time, Xu Ming still held the document to be signed in his hand, looked up at Shi Zhiyuan, and saw him staring at the figure below without saying a word , silently retracted his gaze.

He didn't read a word of the document, and threw it directly on the desk with a loud voice, which attracted Shi Zhiyuan's gaze.

Shi Zhiyuan glanced at him, walked over to look through it, and then signed.

"You go first."

Xu Ming showed no expression: "Why, drive me away when you don't need me?"

Shi Zhiyuan looked at him, as if he was looking at a vexatious person.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the figure was still standing downstairs. Xu Ming went to the sofa and sat down, crossing his long legs: "Let's go together and take you to dinner."

Shi Zhiyuan sat back at the desk: "I have no appetite."

"Then you have to eat. If you have a bad stomach, you can't mess around."

Shi Zhiyuan was looking at the information, and asked after a few minutes: "Is your company not busy?"

"Busy, how can you not be busy." Xu Ming looked at him, "My brother is in charge, don't worry about it, the only one I want to worry about is you."

Shi Zhiyuan's writing hand stopped, and he looked at the nib of the pen. This pen was given to him by Xu Ming, and he used it smoothly, and it has been used for several years.

Just like Xu Ming's help and companionship, he has never left these years. He knows Xu Ming's intentions, but unfortunately, he cannot give a response.

After finishing his work, he and Xu Ming went down to the first floor. The Maybach was parked at the entrance of the company. The driver got out of the car, took out an umbrella and handed it to Xu Ming.Shi Zhiyuan was pulled under the umbrella by Xu Ming and walked into the rain curtain. Out of the corner of his eye, he could see the figure not far away. He didn't leave until he got into the car and gradually moved away.

Shi Zhiyuan looked at the glass wetted by rain, and said, "Is this the reason why you asked the driver to drive the car to the door?"

Xu Ming pulled off his tie and said after listening, "I'm tired."

Shi Zhiyuan remained silent, leaned his head on the back chair and closed his eyes, noncommittal about what he did.

After the tragedy five years ago, he had no choice but to take over his own company without even having a good cry. Under the eyes of other shareholders, it was Xu Ming who helped him through many difficulties, and Xu Ming who accompanied him Pulling him to stand up, Xu Ming supported the broken him, and only then did he have the stable development now.

In the past few years, he has not had a good rest in order to maintain his family's company, and his nerves have been in a state of tension. Sometimes he stays up all night, sometimes he wakes up at his desk. The busy work makes him have no time to think about the past. He gradually got used to this Himself, after Nanshu came back, it was not only his life that was disrupted, but also his own heart that he had been resisting to recognize.

Nan Shu makes the past come alive again in his heart, as long as he sees that face, the scenes from five years ago will continue to emerge.He drove away his younger brother with his own hands. At that moment, he went crazy and fell into a demon. He didn't remember that this person was his pet since he was a child. He only knew that his mother died tragically at the hands of that man. He couldn't accept Nan Shu's continued Stay with him.

In the past five years, he has collapsed more than once, but he also understands that some things in the world can't be sorted out after all. Now he doesn't want his emotions to be dragged by Nan Shu and hurt the people around him, and he doesn't want Xu Ming to join this ridiculous entanglement.

The dinner ended early due to a phone call from Xu Ming's brother. It was dark outside, the sky was full of dark clouds, and the rain hadn't stopped yet. Shi Zhiyuan got out of the car and held up the umbrella that Xu Ming handed him.

Xu Ming looked at him: "Go back quickly, it's cold."

The car was driven back by the assistant, Shi Zhiyuan went to the car to get a document, and when he entered the corridor, he saw Nan Shu sitting at the door. The wet marks on his body were still wet, and his hair was also wet. The door, I don't know if I fell asleep.

Nan Shu was 13 years old when they separated. At that time, he was no longer short, his facial features were not developed, and he was immature everywhere, but his character was just the opposite. Sometimes he was very willful, and he lost his temper when he wanted to. I want to get it, and what is even more overbearing is that he is not allowed to be nice to other people. Once when he saw him taking care of the neighbor's children, he was so angry that he went home and locked him in the room, and he didn't want to say anything to him.

But at that time he was not angry, he just coaxed and apologized again and again.

Looking at Nan Shu, who looked the same as five years ago, Shi Zhiyuan remembered that he was impulsive and ruthless now, but he changed his appearance in front of him, not as obedient as the one in his memory. people.

In retrospect, Nan Shu opened his eyes.

He had a bad headache and sat for a while to rest. He opened his eyes and saw Shi Zhiyuan's cold gaze. He spoke in a hoarse voice: "Brother..."

His complexion is not good, and he is not energetic. Shi Zhiyuan just looked at him like that, with alienation in his words: "If you are willing to leave from my house, I can consider calling an ambulance for you."

Nan Shu didn't know that he was sick, so he looked up at him: "Brother, where have you been?"

Shi Zhiyuan frowned and said, "What qualifications do you have to ask?"

His head was in pain like a pinprick, and Nan Shu's eyes were a little wandering, as if he was not sober: "...I just want to see you."

"See? You can go." Shi Zhiyuan waited for a few seconds, saw that he was not moving, and suddenly squatted down and grabbed his collar, "Can't you understand people's words? Don't take yourself too seriously Nan Excuse me, don't get in my way, you will only make me bore you more."

Nan Shu was thrown aside heavily by him, watching him enter the room, the sound of the door closing made one's heart tremble.

With the patter of rain, the entire window was wet, Shi Zhiyuan took off his coat and threw it on the sofa, and saw a figure walking slowly in the rain outside, step by step, as weak as if he didn't know the direction.

After taking a shower, the doorbell rang several times, Shi Zhiyuan frowned, thinking it was Nan Shu again, but when he opened the door, he saw the aunt in the community.

The aunt was still holding the vegetables in her hand, and when she saw him, she said: "When I was young, who is that from your family? He was lying on the side of the road, and his body was very hot. I remember you took him home that day. You should go and see him." look!"

The aunt looked very anxious, Shi Zhiyuan paused for a few seconds, and followed with the key.

The heavy rain made it difficult for people to see the road, and Nan Shu's figure was very clear under the illumination of the street lamps. He was lying on the lawn, his whole body was soaked, and he closed his eyes without any response.

The aunt called the old man who passed by and helped Shi Zhiyuan to send Nan Shu back to his home. Before leaving, the aunt told him: "This kid has a fever, why don't you drive him to the hospital, he's drenched all over the rain..."

Shi Zhiyuan stood in front of the door, looked away from Nan Shu's face, and said "I know."

The entrance was wet, and Shi Zhiyuan's pajamas were not much better. He looked at Nan Shu, feeling at a loss for a moment.

It’s not that Nan Shu didn’t get sick when he was a child. His mother was busy at work, and his stepfather was away. He was the only one who took care of Nan Shu, accompanied him to the hospital to fetch water, and guarded him until he recovered.

Shi Zhiyuan looked at him for a moment, then knelt down and touched his forehead.

Like taking care of Nan Shu when he was a child, he first put bath water for him, put him in the bathtub, and found a clean suit of clothes for him to put on, but the grown-up Nan Shu was already a little too small to wear his clothes. It fit well, Shi Zhiyuan found a bathrobe and put it on for him with great effort.

He wiped Nan Shu's body and forehead with a towel over and over again. There was a medicine box prepared by Xu Ming at home. He found antipyretics, naturally held Nan Shu's head, and gently fed him to drink.

Nan Shu was in a deep sleep, Shi Zhiyuan stared at his eyebrows and eyes, vaguely remembering the time when Nan Shu was ill when he was a child, he lost his temper and refused to take medicine, but he complained of a headache. Seeing that he was angry, Nanshu took the medicine in one gulp.

Although Nan Shu liked to have a small temper when he was a child, there was also the thing that he was most afraid of, which was getting angry.As long as he sees him angry, he will immediately become good.

Maybe it was uncomfortable, Nan Shu moved suddenly, frowned and turned over, holding him tightly, muttering: "Brother..."

Shi Zhiyuan's brain was buzzing.

He found that in taking care of Nan Shu, even after five years, he was still as proficient as before.

The rain outside seems to be getting heavier. He and Nan Shu have also experienced many rainy days. The carefree and cheerful child who used to be has disappeared, and the person who will treat Nan Shu well will never come back.

Time does not allow.

The passage of time will not make any changes to what has happened, love and hate will not disappear completely with time, love will fade, love will undergo qualitative changes, and become mixed with hate. It diffused in an unthinkable night, deepened in confession, and became more and more concentrated in the state of being unable to break through the cage.The original love finally turned into a sharp weapon, hurting Nan Shu and stabbing himself.

Shi Zhiyuan shook off his hand, put him back on the bed, and walked out of the room.

When Nan Shu woke up, it was already the next morning, and he had no strength in his body. He sat up and looked at this strange room. The mobile phone was put aside, which showed that Nan Che had called him a lot.

Nan Shu saw the message that Nan Che sent in the morning: I have asked you for leave, please send me a message after seeing it.

Nan Shu replied: Thank you, I'm fine

As soon as she sent Nan Che's call, she called back. Nan Shu said hello and cleared her throat.

Nan Che heard that his voice was wrong, and asked, "are you sick? Where are you?"

"I'm fine, I'm much better." Nan Shu glanced at the room, recalling what happened last night, if he didn't guess wrong, this should be Shi Zhiyuan's home.

Nan Che asked: "Where are you?"

Nanshu was silent.

Nan Che knew the answer from his silence: "Where is Shi Zhiyuan?"

"Thank you for asking for leave for me. I will go back in the afternoon."

The bathrobe on his body was loose, and Nan Shu saw half a glass of water and some medicine on the table beside him, his heart moved slightly, and after pushing open the door, he saw Shi Zhiyuan sitting in the living room.

He was speechless for a while, and he froze in place, feeling like a dream.

Shi Zhiyuan was busy with work, typing in front of the computer, raised his head and glanced at him faintly: "The clothes are on the balcony, put them on and leave here."

Nan Shu's mind was full of the fact that he spent the night at Shi Zhiyuan's house, so he didn't care about this sentence, as if asking for a certificate, he asked, "Brother, did you take care of me last night?"

Shi Zhiyuan didn't want to admit it, so he chose not to speak.

"It was you who took me..."

"Others have come to your door. I can't let you die by the side of the road. It will have a bad impact on the community." Shi Zhiyuan stopped typing, and said coldly, "Put on your clothes and get out."

Of course, Nan Shu couldn't remember how he came back here, but the clothes and the medicine on his body were enough to prove that Shi Zhiyuan took care of him all night, just like when he was sick when he was a child.

Thinking of this, Nan Shu lowered his head, letting bitterness fill his chest.

Brother should be his brother.

Seeing his expression, Shi Zhiyuan didn't want to guess what he was thinking, got up and went to the balcony to take off the dried clothes, threw them directly on him, and looked at him a few steps away: "Get lost."

"Brother." Nan Shu asked, "Who is that man...to you?"

Shi Zhiyuan closed his eyes, as if he was about to reach the limit of his patience.

"Are you nice to him too?" Nan Shu really thought a lot in the few minutes just now, his thoughts turned wildly, from Shi Zhiyuan's kindness to him before to Shi Zhiyuan's current indifference, and then thinking of Seeing the man who talked and laughed happily with him, he couldn't suppress his jealousy, his eyes were red, and he asked again, "Why are you so kind to him?"

Shi Zhiyuan gritted his teeth and said, "Don't think that you can interfere with my life just because you sleep here for one night."

During the stalemate, the door was opened from the outside, the two of them looked over at the same time, and Xu Ming walked in with the rice he just bought in his hand.

It's just that the steps stopped just after stepping in, Xu Ming's gaze stayed on Nan Shu, squinted at the bathrobe on his body, turned his eyes, and looked straight at Shi Zhiyuan.

Shi Zhiyuan didn't catch his gaze, picked up the clothes on the ground, and dragged Nan Shu back to the room.

"If you don't want to be kicked out by me dressed like this, change your clothes now and get out."

"Does he also know that you are picky eater?" While asking, Nan Shu pressed on step by step, staring into Shi Zhiyuan's eyes, "Does he know what you like and dislike, and all your living habits? Brother, you What's the relationship with him?"

As soon as he changed from being weak and obedient before, and his tone became colder, Shi Zhiyuan retreated to the corner, startled by his reaction: "You..."

"Does he know where your sensitivity is?"

After the words fell, Nan Shu's hand had already wrapped around his waist, and he squeezed it ruthlessly.

"Snapped--"

This slap almost used all the strength of Shi Zhiyuan's body, Nan Shu's face was turned to one side, and the fingerprints of his fingers were clearly visible.

Shi Zhiyuan's voice trembled, and he looked at him with red eyes: "Are you crazy?"

After Nan Shu walked out of the room, he looked at Xu Ming for a while. When he left Zhiyuan's house, within a minute, Xu Ming caught up with him and pushed him against the wall, grabbed him by the neck, and the cigarette butt at his fingertips was in contact with him. The skin is only a little away.

Nan Shu could feel the scorching heat, just like Xu Ming's anger.

"Did I say he didn't want to see you?"

Nan Shu smiled: "Your words are worthless to me."

Xu Ming looked at him for a few seconds: "At least for him, what he needs is me, not you."

The cigarette butt fell on his shoulder, Xu Ming patted it clean for him, and stood up straight: "You know who you are, and you also understand how he feels about you now. He finally survived the most painful days. If Your appearance made him lose control again, and I will not let you go."

"It's so touching, will my brother be moved when he hears it?" Nan Shu took the almost burnt cigarette in his hand, threw it on the ground and stomped it out, with provocation in his eyes.

"I want to see what you, an outsider, can do to me."