lover's self-cultivation

Since that night, Si Xiangyan has never been to the hospital again like a tortoise re-entering its shell.Time passed quickly, and Weng Linran's vision returned to normal, and he began to rebuild his legs.Because it was a second fracture and it was in the same place, it was extremely difficult to return to a normal state.

Lying on the hospital bed after taking a bath, looking at the sky that had been overcast all morning but refused to rain, Weng Linran closed his eyes and leaned his head on the pillow behind him.She and her, long time no see.Such a thing was like a nightmare to my former self, but now it doesn't seem to be too important.

"What do you want to eat? If you don't want to eat something from the hospital, I'll buy it for you." At this time, someone broke into the quiet room, which also interrupted Weng Linran's memories.She looked up, and saw Zhong Jinlan walk in in a pretty dress.She has been taking care of herself for more than a month, and Weng Linran is somewhat embarrassed.Even though she can take care of herself now, Zhong Jinlan still finds time to come here every now and then.

"Don't bother, thank you." Out of politeness, Weng Linran said softly, and then stopped talking.Suddenly, her chin was touched by the other party, and she felt Zhong Jinlan provocatively scratching her neck with her fingertips.Weng Linran raised his head to look at her expressionlessly, and Zhong Jinlan lost his teasing mood because of his unresponsive look.

"Forget it, let's stop making trouble, the old you is more interesting. Hey, how did you become like this now?" Zhong Jinlan stood by the bed with arms folded, looking at the quiet Weng Linran with a sad face.A month ago, she thought that Weng Linran suddenly became quiet because of her body, but now she is still so honest, as if she was a different person, completely different from the person who seduced Si Xiangyan back then.

"Sister Lan, I want to see her." Weng Linran did not answer Zhong Jinlan's question, but started another topic.Even if she didn't tell the truth, Zhong Jinlan knew that the other party's talking about her could not be anyone else except Si Xiangyan.

"Okay, I'll call her over for you." After thinking for a long time, Zhong Jinlan replied in a low voice.Although she didn't want to care about the affairs between Weng Linran and Si Xiangyan for a long time, she saw one of them lying quietly in the hospital as if they were different people, and the other was madly planning revenge.Zhong Jinlan couldn't bear to see them go on like this, or forgive each other, or separate completely, the matter must be resolved.

"Thank you." Seeing Zhong Jinlan agree to himself, Weng Linran smiled slightly.She lowered her head and rubbed the ring on her ring finger with her hands habitually.Unknowingly, this action has already become her habit.But starting today, she will work hard to quit this habit.

"It's okay, you rest first, I will let Si Si come over as soon as possible." Taking Weng Linran's movements and the forcibly suppressed tenderness in her eyes into his eyes, Zhong Jinlan sighed in his heart, turned and left the room.

The waiting time was infinitely prolonged because of loneliness, watching the sky gradually darken, and the heavy rain came one after another.Picking up the crutch beside the bed, Weng Linran walked to the balcony with some difficulty.It rained heavily tonight, with a few drizzles dripping down the balcony.The wind is not too strong but it is bitingly cold, but Weng Linran likes this feeling very much.Even if the door was pushed open and the familiar smell came, she was unwilling to leave.

"You're here." Perhaps to make up for the silence of the last meeting, Weng Linran spoke first this time.She looked at the puddles deposited on the ground and whispered.

"Jinlan said that you want to see me. You are not in good health, so you better stay out of the rain." At first, when Zhong Jinlan told herself that Weng Linran wanted to see her, Si Xiangyan's emotions were extremely complicated.

The unhappy breakup of the last meeting made her dare not come to see Weng Linran again, and she only wanted to finish the Cheng family's affairs.Now, it's been a month since I saw him. Although we have long known that Weng Linran's vision has returned to normal, he is slowly rebuilding.But seeing her face to face, she felt much less worried, but somehow felt sad.Perhaps, the meeting tonight should be the end of their relationship?

"Si Xiangyan, let's break up."

It's not without psychological preparation, Si Xiangyan even thought about many possibilities and outcomes.But it's one thing to think in your heart, and another to hear it with your own ears.The rain was still falling, and the hospital gown Weng Linran was wearing was a little damp.Noticing that her long black hair had reached her waist, Si Xiangyan's vision became hazy, and then became clear again.She remembered very clearly that when the two of them first got together, she said she liked her long hair, so she always kept her hair and rarely cut it short.

It is clear that they have been together for less than a year, but when they close their eyes, what they dream about in their dreams and what they think of when they are in a daze are Weng Linran's face and the good times they spent with Weng Linran.This kind of feeling was stronger than ever before. If possible, Si Xiangyan really didn't want to let go, and even had the idea of ​​continuing even if it dragged on like this.But these days are really tiring, and Weng Linran is probably several times more tired than himself.

"At this time, I don't know what to say except to say yes. Maybe I did something wrong at the beginning, which made us become what we are now. It is because of me that you have suffered a lot of injuries. I know you are tired. I don’t want to go on anymore, and I, too. I’ve created a new identity for you, and when you recover, you can go wherever you want.”

As Si Xiangyan spoke, he realized that he was still standing at the door without moving a step.She took off her coat, walked over and put it on Weng Linran lightly.I don't know if I don't touch her, but after I touch her, I realize that Weng Linran's body is so thin. Her slender arms support a cane, leaning against the balcony door, and Si Xiang's shoulders are too narrow. Yan couldn't help but want to hug her tightly.But he had to forcibly restrain this desire, and forbearance stood behind Weng Linran.

"Yan Yan, you are like this now, which makes me feel that I am the bad guy. You have been bullying me all this time. For more than a month, I have been thinking about why I am working hard. It is for To get you, in order to cure my mother's illness, or my long-cherished wish? But the funny thing is, in the end I didn't protect anything, and I messed up everything."

"It's not just your fault, it may also be that I made our relationship like this. I thought I had a lot to say to you, but I found that I couldn't say it just by seeing you. You promised so simply, as if you were waiting for me to say goodbye. The last thing I want is that my love for you becomes your burden, but the reality is so cruel. "

Weng Linran still had a smile on his face. After hearing her words, Si Xiangyan's body froze in place, as if bound by vines.She can feel that she and Weng Linran still have each other in their hearts, but too many things have happened, they can't untie the knot in their hearts, and they can't face each other calmly.Tired is their only feeling, perhaps separation is the best choice.

"Weng Linran, I'm sorry." After thinking about it, Si Xiangyan had only this sentence to say.In their relationship, what they lost was their trust in love, but Weng Linran lost everything.

"You don't need to apologize, you have nothing to apologize to me. It's me, who clearly promised to make you happy and give you a safe home, but ended up making things so bad."

"Si Xiangyan, promise me one thing, don't go back to the way you were before, and don't deny love again because of me. I'm not good enough to make you go through those unpleasant experiences again. I lied to you and made you feel Tired. Now I am the one who proposed to break up, I am the one who gave up on you and the relationship between us."

"Weng Linran..." Si Xiangyan couldn't continue with these words. She clearly knew that this was not the case, but she didn't know how to refute it.Having been with Weng Linran for a year, she knows exactly what this woman is like. She loves herself very much and protects their feelings with everything. Even if she gives up now, she still wants to take the initiative to be that bad person.Weng Linran didn't cry, but Si Xiangyan hoped that she could cry.At least in that way, she can still have a little bit of venting, instead of holding back like she is now.

"It's okay, I know you don't want to talk, and you don't need to say anything. I always thought that I was the most suitable person for you, but now I realize that I was wrong. I can't forgive your hurt and distrust, so I chose to leave because I was too stingy, right?"

The room fell into silence again, Si Xiangyan didn't speak, just stood quietly, staring at the rain outside with Weng Linran.Gradually, the rain stopped falling, and the last little noise disappeared.Listening to Weng Linran's calm breathing, Si Xiangyan slowly stepped back, ready to leave.But the moment she turned around, her body was hugged tightly by Weng Linran, unable to move.

"It's the last reward for me, let me hug you again." Si Xiangyan didn't intend to struggle, but let Weng Linran hug him.Suddenly, she felt a soft object on the back of her neck, which was her slightly cool lips.Because of this kiss, Si Xiangyan's nose was sore.She turned back and wanted to touch Weng Linran's face, but the other party avoided him.

"Let's go, you should still have a lot of things to do, I'm not worried about you at all, because I know you can do well."

"En." After hearing Weng Linran's words, Si Xiangyan didn't look back, but went straight out of the ward.Hearing the sound of her footsteps gradually walking away, Weng Linran suddenly chased her out.But because of the inconvenience of her right leg, she could only walk staggeringly on crutches.Her steps were heavy and slow, and if she didn't pay attention, she fell to the ground, and Si Xiangyan's shadow disappeared.

After sitting for a long time, Weng Linran didn't get up, but she knew that no matter how long she waited, she couldn't wait for that person to come back.It was she who let go and chose to keep the secret between the two of them forever in her heart.She didn't have the courage to chase anymore, and she didn't want Si Xiangyan to be dragged down.The weak left hand was slowly raised, and with trembling fingers, he took off the ring on the ring finger of his right hand and held it in the palm of his hand.

"Yanyan, I'm actually the braver one. You don't know how difficult and painful it is for a person to give up her light."

I was afraid that you would be troubled, so I selfishly threw you away.I'm sorry, it's me... I didn't do what you expected.