lover's self-cultivation

After talking with Zhong Jinlan, Si Xiangyan returned to Weng Linran's room.Because she is out of the tense period, she has a lot less medical equipment on her body, and she can breathe without wearing an oxygen mask.However, seeing her cheeks and the overly thin body under the quilt, Si Xiangyan still frowned uncomfortably.

For more than half a month, she thought about coming to the hospital to see Weng Linran many times, but it wasn't because she had to deal with the Cheng family's affairs that delayed her trip, or she didn't dare to come up when she drove to the hospital.If they were the closest lovers before, their relationship now is extremely embarrassing.I couldn't face Weng Linran, and I didn't even know what to say when I met him.

I thought it would be uncomfortable to see it again, but at this moment, sitting on the chair and looking at Weng Linran's sleeping face, Si Xiangyan found that there was only pity and regret in his heart.She lifted one foot of the quilt, took out Weng Linran's cold hand and held it in her hand.The tired nerves were relieved and relaxed at this moment, and Si Xiangyan fell asleep lying on the side of the bed like this. It was the most peaceful sleep she had had in such a long time.

Time slipped away unknowingly, and when Si Xiangyan got up again, she found that the hand she was holding had disappeared, and she seemed to have run back into the quilt again.Shocked by this discovery, she raised her head to look at Weng Linran, only to find that he was looking at her blankly, her brown eyes lost their light, and were gray and black as if covered by smog.

"You're awake." Si Xiangyan didn't intend to hide anything, but also knew that because of Weng Linran's familiarity with him, even if he couldn't see his face, he would know it was him.However, after Si Xiangyan finished speaking, the ward was still as quiet as usual.Seeing that Weng Linran had no intention of answering at all, he just quietly turned his head to look at the ceiling. No one had ever dared to ignore Si Xiangyan like this, and now that he had tasted this kind of feeling, Si Xiangyan could only smile wryly.

"You haven't eaten for a long time, just infusing nutrient solution is not an option. I bought porridge, so you can drink some." Weng Linran was able to wake up, and Si Xiangyan was naturally happy.She didn't care if the other party was still ignoring her, so she poured out the porridge that had been kept in the heat preservation box.Porridge is the most common millet porridge, although it is light, it is very suitable for Weng Linran to drink.

"The temperature is okay, let me pick you up." Putting the porridge beside the bed, Si Xiangyan turned around, only to find that Weng Linran was no longer looking at the ceiling, but closed his eyes.Such ignorance can also be explained in another way, which is rejection.Although he felt uncomfortable in his heart, Si Xiangyan felt that he deserved it.Almost every time Weng Linran was injured was because of himself, and now she was lying here, it was also his fault.It would be impossible to say neither blame nor resentment.

After Si Xiangyan's words fell to the ground, Weng Linran still didn't reply.Seeing her ignoring herself with silence, as if she was air.Si Xiangyan frowned, gently touched her thin cheek, and leaned his head on her shoulder.

"Weng Linran, I know you are blaming me, blaming me, maybe even hating me. Yes, I also hate being suspicious and hurting yourself. It may be too late to say anything now, but I still want to be with you You say sorry. You should ignore me, and you have enough reasons to hate me. But I hope you don't make trouble with your body, eat something, okay?"

It was rare for Si Xiangyan to say such a long paragraph, and he had never used such a tone that was almost pleading.After listening to her, Weng Linran's expression finally changed.Seeing her slowly opening her eyes and staring blankly at the roof, Si Xiangyan heaved a sigh of relief.She got up and hugged Weng Linran's body in her arms, trying not to move her right leg.Touching the other's slender waist, she found that Weng Linran's body was trembling and her breathing was a little short.

Surprised by this abnormality, her first reaction was not to call a doctor, but to take the pillow next to Weng Linran and put it under Weng Linran's waist.She knew that such a reaction might be due to lying on the bed for a long time without moving, and when she moved suddenly, her body would definitely be sore and unbearable.Even ordinary people would feel uncomfortable, let alone Weng Linran who was injured all over his body.

"Will this be better? Just tell me where you feel uncomfortable, don't hold back." Seeing that Weng Linran's breathing calmed down, Si Xiangyan put his hands under her waist and gently rubbed her waist.I have touched this place countless times before, but this time it is much thinner than before, so weak and slender, it seems that it will break if I touch it hard.

"The doctor said that if you haven't eaten for a long time, your stomach may feel uncomfortable, and it will be better if you drink it slowly." I took a small amount of porridge with a spoon and sent it to Weng Linran's mouth. Seeing that the other party opened his mouth, he obediently drank it.At first Si Xiangyan felt relieved, but later on he became more and more discouraged.There was no expression on Weng Linran's face, and even his body was stiff.She is like a machine that runs automatically without emotion, swallowing the porridge she gives formulaically.

"Weng Linran, don't be like this, okay?" In a blink of an eye, half a bowl of porridge had already run out, and Si Xiangyan didn't dare to feed him any more, he just hugged Weng Linran and massaged her body.From the beginning to the end, Weng Linran didn't close his eyes, but her emotions and thoughts were hidden by her as if consciously.Si Xiangyan never thought that Weng Linran would become like this one day. Apart from being able to breathe, what is the difference between him and a vegetable?

"I know you probably don't want to see me, and if so, I'll reduce the frequency of my visits. I'm sorry I couldn't be of any help with your mother's matter, but I definitely didn't mean to hide it from you, I'm just afraid of your health. Can't take too much of a blow. I hope you get better and not like this."

The words have come to this point, but Weng Linran still has no intention of opening his mouth.Seeing her close her eyes again, Si Xiangyan sighed helplessly.She gently put the person back on the bed, went to the bathroom to get a towel, and then slowly untied the blue and white hospital gown on Weng Linran's body.After half a month of recuperation, the trauma on his body has almost healed, but Weng Linran's most serious injuries are internal organs and right leg injuries.

Wiping her fair body, unconsciously, this once clean body was covered with many scars.Slowly down her collarbone, over the plumpness of women, to her lower abdomen.The depression here is obvious, and the knife mark several centimeters long on the left is even more dazzling.Seeing the injury, Si Xiangyan's hands trembled, quickly wiped his front body, helped Weng Linran sit up, and wiped her back.

If the injuries in the front are relatively few, then Weng Linran's back can only be described as terrifying at the moment.Except for the scar at the beginning, the back was covered with a lot of gore and bruises.Red and purple traces are intricately intertwined on the back, and Weng Linran's body will tremble when he touches it lightly.One can imagine how uncomfortable it would be for her to bear these injuries all the time when she was lying on the bed.

"Why didn't you tell Zhong Jinlan? What are you doing to torture yourself like this?" The anger in her heart made Si Xiangyan's voice turn cold again. She really didn't understand what happened to Weng Linran now. If she hated herself , she can ignore herself or express her dissatisfaction like now.But Weng Linran didn't quarrel or quarrel, just endured her own discomfort and didn't talk about it, so why bother?

"Why don't you talk?" Weng Linran's silence made Si Xiangyan helpless, she hugged him tightly, trying to make Weng Linran stop ignoring her, but what she got was resistance.When the body was slightly pushed away by light force, Si Xiangyan smiled wryly, put Weng Linran's clothes back on, and supported her body to let her lie on the bed.

"I will cure you." After saying this, Si Xiangyan turned around and left the ward.Hearing the sound of closing the door, Weng Linran opened his eyes again, and slowly stretched out his hands in front of him, looking at the darkness.

"I'm not angry with you, it doesn't matter if it's cured or not."