Beyond friendship is love

The silence between the two of them was not broken until Ji Yiran's arrival.

"Famous words, why are you standing here?" Ji Yiran took off too many ornaments on his body as he walked, saw Shen Mingyan standing in front of him, and walked over, but when he approached, he saw another person on the opposite side. When alone, I couldn't help being taken aback.

"An Shixiao?"

Ji Yiran almost subconsciously blocked Shen Mingyan behind him. Ji Yiran used to know exactly what An Shixiao was like to Shen Mingyan, otherwise this fool would not have entered the hospital, nor will he now. Can't go home, drifting around.

Seeing An Shixiao is like seeing another self, and also deeply hurt the person who loves him deeply, Ji Yiran can't help but think, where will his Yu'er be at this time, what kind of life will he live? Isn't he also drifting around like Shen Mingyan?

An Shixiao smiled wryly. In the eyes of these people, he seemed to be a dangerous person.Who is to blame, everything is the cause and effect that I planted at the beginning, isn't it?

"I…"

"Yi Ran, Yi Ran..."

Before An Shixiao finished speaking, a group of Ji Yiran's fans poured out from the backstage, and immediately surrounded Ji Yiran and Shen Mingyan.The fans were enthusiastic and sad, and asked one after another, Ji Yiran had no choice but to answer and comfort him patiently.

It's just that Shen Mingyan, who was also surrounded, was obviously not used to being sought after by everyone, and was a little overwhelmed by the crowd, and even a little inexplicably embarrassed.

Although there are fans who fell in love with him because of his appearance just now, Shen Mingyan is not an insider after all. For a while, I really don't know how to answer those questions, although his pseudonym is really quite famous. , but I have never really appeared in front of the public, and I am afraid of such a situation.

"Yan Xi, I have read your published articles, and I really like you, can you sign for me?"

"Yanxi, you are Yiran's good friend. Do you know Yiran's lover? Could that person be you?"

"Yanxi, please persuade Yiran to let him stay."

"Yan Xi, will you consider developing in the entertainment industry in the future?"

"Yan Xi..."

Just when Shen Mingyan was dizzy from being asked by everyone, An Shixiao pushed aside the crowd, took Shen Mingyan's hand and quickly ran out of the backstage.

After running for an unknown distance, both of them stopped out of breath, looked at the unfamiliar place in front of them, both of them were dizzy, glanced at each other, and smiled at each other.

It was as if nothing had ever happened before, they were still the same as they were when they were children, they were still inseparable, childhood sweethearts.But after laughing it off, Shen Mingyan turned his gaze, and unnaturally tugged on the back of his backpack.

"Where do you live? I'll take you off." An Shixiao didn't know what to say, and was afraid that Shen Mingyan would suddenly tell him to leave, and he happened to borrow a car from a friend here, so he had to find such a car An excuse to break the embarrassing atmosphere that fell into silence for a while.

"Okay, I'll stay in a hotel." They came together in Ji Yiran's car in the afternoon, and now An Shixiao sent them off, which saved a lot of trouble.As for how to face An Shixiao, Shen Mingyan can only say that what should be faced must always be faced. He has avoided it for more than a year. Maybe it really should be settled. Some things can only be solved by talking to each other. Unleash and start over.

He followed An Shixiao to the garage, got in the car, and reported the address of the hotel, but the two actually lived in the same hotel.The hotel is not particularly far away, it takes about 15 minutes by car.It's just that in this short quarter of an hour, both of them remained silent, not knowing how to break the deadlock.

The intimacy that used to talk about everything seems to have really become a distance in these years of alienation.

Shen Mingyan turned his head and looked at the street lights that kept receding outside the car, his thoughts drifted.

How long has it been since the two of them got along so peacefully? Time always passes faster than imagined. Looking back on all these years, at this time, I don't even think it's so difficult. Although the pain is still there now, he has also learned to let go.

An Shixiao was the most important part of his life, a fact that could never be changed.During the journey of more than one year, he realized a sentence: To love someone is not to possess him, but to make him happy.

Although it is easy to say this sentence, there may be a few people who actually do it. The reason why he was in pain in the past may be because he wanted to have An Shixiao too much, and because he couldn't get it, he was in pain.

Walking around, taking and giving, he gradually understands, gain and loss, he gradually understands.

And the reason why he didn't refuse An Shixiao's farewell today was because he wanted to open up the conversation and give the other party an explanation for himself.

What Shen Mingyan didn't know was that when he was in a trance, An Shixiao thanked God countless times in his heart, and finally let him find it. He vowed that this time, he would cherish it.

After arriving at the hotel, An Shixiao followed Shen Mingyan into the room very naturally, as if he had originally lived in the same room as Shen Mingyan.

Shen Mingyan didn't stop him, let him sit down, and poured him a glass of water himself.

Then, two people, one sitting on a chair and the other sitting on a bed, were relatively silent.

"I…"

"I…"

The two spoke at the same time, only to find that the other wanted to speak too.

"You speak first…"

"You speak first…"

There was another unanimous voice, and both of them smiled in embarrassment.

"Okay, let me talk first."

As if making a big decision, An Shixiao took a deep breath, slowly stood up from the chair, walked to Shen Mingyan's side, and hugged him.

"Yanyan, I miss you so much." Originally, there were thousands of words, but when they touched the body temperature of this person, all the words became unimportant. I just wanted to tell this person the deepest thoughts in my heart.

I really want to, I really want to, so many days and nights, thinking about this person, my thoughts are about to overwhelm him, but no one can talk to him, isn't all of this caused by myself?

Real temperature, real touch, exhausting all his strength, only in this way can An Shixiao be sure that this person has really returned to his arms, not a dream.

Shen Mingyan didn't make a sound, Ren An showed Xiao his arms, and he didn't extend his hand to return the other party. He knew that if he responded to the other party, he would be able to get the person he had dreamed of for many years, but he also knew that he couldn't.

The love he wants is pure, no sympathy, no pity, no guilt, just pure I love you, you love me.The current An Shixiao, he doesn't know what kind of attitude the other party has towards these feelings. An Shixiao has always been a person who takes love very lightly. Except for Fang You, no one has ever gotten An Shixiao. More guarding.

An Shixiao's love, he desperately wants to have it, he is different from An Shixiao, he is an extremely infatuated person, if in the near future, An Shixiao suddenly says that he doesn't love him anymore, how will he get on at that time down life?

An Shixiao let go of Shen Mingyan with some disappointment. After all, it is different, and yes, after he hurt Shen Mingyan time and time again, how could he still ask the other party to treat him as before?

"Words..."

"Hey..." Shen Mingyan interrupted what An Shixiao wanted to say.

"Xiao, let me talk first."

"Okay." An Shixiao sat beside Shen Mingyan in a daze, like a loyal big dog, waiting for his master to speak.

"Actually, loving you is my own business and my own business. It has nothing to do with you. You don't have to force yourself to accept my feelings like this. Although I saved Fang You, you also know that I am a person. I can't see those things, even if the other party was a stranger at the time, I would go to save them without hesitation. Xiao, I don't want you to be burdened, and I don't want you to give up the love in your heart because of this. It's not good for you or me. The best choice. Over the past year or so, I have also thought about it, love does not have to be responded to, as long as you live well, it is enough."

Shen Mingyan kept his head down, looking at his tightly held hands. Only he knew how much courage it took to say these words. He was pushing the person he loved away.

With such a self, how much fragility would be revealed in his eyes, how dare such a self look at An Shixiao.

A big hand lightly rested on Shen Mingyan's clasped hands.

Shen Mingyan was startled, and silently raised his head to look at An Shixiao.But the other party just looked at him with an almost doting look.Such eyes never appeared even when An Shixiao and Fang You were in love.

Such eyes made Shen Mingyan a little flustered, he was afraid that he would fall into such tenderness.

Feeling that Shen Mingyan wanted to withdraw his hand, An Shixiao had no choice but to put more force into his embrace, put his chin on the top of Shen Mingyan's head, and said softly, "Are you stupid?"

After hearing this sentence, Shen Mingyan struggled even harder.

Yes, he is stupid. If he is not stupid, how can he love someone who doesn't love himself for so many years? He is stupid, but he still has self-esteem, so he doesn't need pity, let alone such charity.

Knowing that Shen Mingyan must be thinking wrong, An Shixiao had no choice but to turn the person around, clasped the other person's shoulders with both hands, and made him face to face with himself.

"Yanyan, don't you understand me yet? Am I the kind of person who would give me body and soul out of sympathy and gratitude? Of course not, right? I only say such embarrassing words once, so, Shen Mingyan, you Listen to me." Turning Shen Mingyan's head away, let his eyes meet her own.

"Yanyan, I love you. It has nothing to do with sympathy, nothing to thank you. It's just because An Shixiao loves Shen Mingyan."

An Shixiao's fiery eyes made Shen Mingyan speechless for a moment. Although he also heard his family members talk about An Shixiao's life during the study tour, and more or less mentioned An Shixiao's love for him, but he He didn't take it seriously all the time, just think about how a person who has been hanging around beautiful flowers all this time can suddenly fall in love with him, and he is still a man, no matter how you think about it, it is unbelievable.But now, at this moment, he was a little shaken by the determination he had made so hard over the past year.

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