burial

Under the guidance of Chu Zhian, my study has made a qualitative leap.

This is obviously the result of my unremitting efforts, but Chu Zhian wanted to say that it was because of the blessing of his boyfriend's aura, and said that he would kiss me if I refuted him, and after I said a few words unconvinced, I ...I'm resigned.

He is still the same as before, but he is not a dog, but a hooligan.

Under his one-on-one tutoring, I performed exceptionally well in the college entrance examination, at least it is not a problem for me to apply for a good school with Chu Zhian.

My parents were so happy to set up a few tables of banquets, and then changed to set up a table at home to celebrate under my strong suggestion.

Of course, I also invited Chu Zhian's family. From my parents' point of view, Chu Zhian's contribution to improving my grades so much is indisputable.

But Chu Zhian didn't come that day, and he didn't tell me beforehand. I took out my phone and found that I couldn't contact anyone at all.

Before the meal, when the two families were chatting about family affairs, my mother asked: "What about Zhi'an, his performance this year is a blockbuster, it's fine if you are not at home and set a table for others, and An An will not let others come over for a meal when he sets a table?"

Aunt Chu smiled and said: "He has something to do today, he went back to his hometown, and he won't be back until a few days later."

I don't know if it's my illusion, but I always feel that Auntie Chu's smile is a bit stiff, and Uncle Chu is too silent, even more serious, even during the dinner, Auntie Chu looked at me several times.

Suddenly, a possibility flashed in my mind, which instantly made my hands and feet feel cold, like a person who has stepped on the ground and can't find a point to focus on. I just sit there mechanically and deal with the occasional inquiries during the banquet.

Fortunately, Uncle Chu and Aunt Chu left after eating, and gave me a red envelope before leaving.It may be that I have a guilty conscience, I always feel that Aunt Chu is hesitant to speak to me.

After that, Chu Zhian lost contact for a whole week, and I couldn't contact him no matter what, I wanted to go to his house to look for him, but when I remembered the look in Aunt Chu's eyes that day, I stopped abruptly.

When I couldn't wait any longer and planned to go to his house with all my might, Chu Zhi'an came back, looking the same as before except for a little pale face.

He explained to me that he had something urgent to go back to his hometown, and he was in a hurry so he didn't say hello to me.

I was angry and aggrieved, and opened my mouth to scold him: "Chu Zhi'an, my lord!"

Days of cranky thinking, fear and fear all turned into a punch that hit him hard on the shoulder, but he heard a muffled grunt.

I watched coldly and remained unmoved, and learned to pretend to be pitiful. Although I exerted a lot of strength, to Chu Zhian, this little pain was far from nothing.

I was about to punch me a few more times when he pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly. He touched my head and apologized in a low voice.

After hearing a few words, my heart softened, and I mumbled in his arms: "Where are you going in the future, can you tell me, at least let me know..." The more I said, the more wronged I became, and I was so angry that I wanted to give him another blow punch.

Chu Zhi'an didn't answer me, just pressed me in his arms, and called my name softly and affectionately in my ear, over and over again.

The anger in my heart instantly felt like a leaky balloon. I couldn't resist Chu Zhian who was showing weakness and acting like a baby.

Later, when I mentioned to him that his parents were strange that day, he just rubbed my head and said that I was thinking too much.

Seeing that his expression didn't change from usual, I felt relieved, maybe I was too careless.

After Chu Zhian came back, he seemed to be even busier, not to mention seeing each other, he didn't even have time to send a message, and he only passed the phone once.

This situation is too abnormal, and when he called, his voice was extremely tired. When I asked him, he only said that he was too tired, so don't worry.

I hung up the phone anxiously, always feeling very uneasy.

It didn’t take long for the admission results to come out, and we were successfully admitted to the same A-level university in this city. Originally, Chu Zhi’an had more and better choices, but he insisted on going to the same school with me for no reason. After careful consideration, we chose this school.

I called him immediately to share the good news, but again I couldn't get through to him.

What surprised me even more was that he didn't even go to school to get the notice.I didn't know until I got to school that his notification letter had been taken back by my family early in the morning.

The abnormalities of these days flashed before my eyes, and my anxiety became more intense, and my heart became heavy. My mind was like a mess, which even diluted the joy of being admitted.

The uneasiness reached its peak when I went home and saw Aunt Chu with a haggard face.

I greeted her stiffly when I entered the door, and when I moved my eyes to the right, I was quietly relieved to see my mother sitting aside with her usual expression.

"An'an, Auntie, Auntie has something to ask for your help, can you go home with Auntie?" Auntie Chu looked at me and said, the complexity in her eyes made me uneasy.

I subconsciously twitched the corners of my mouth and nodded: "Of course."

To my surprise, Auntie Chu didn't take me to their home, but took me to the hospital instead. The smell of disinfectant around me made my heart feel heavier.

Through the glass window, I clearly saw Uncle Chu lying on the hospital bed.My heart sank, as if I had expected something.

"An'an, Auntie watched you grow up. When you were a child, you were always afraid that you would not grow tall. In a blink of an eye, you grew so tall..." Auntie Chu looked at me who was a head taller than her, and stretched out my hand to gesture. At the corner of his mouth, tears kept rolling down his cheeks, "You are a good boy... An An, you are obedient, let him go, huh? You separate, it's good for everyone..."

My heart seemed to stop beating, and there was a screeching sound in my ears, like a broken radio, and my mind went blank, with no ability to think at all.I couldn't even hear what she said again, I just felt my lips open and close, but I couldn't utter a word.

When I slowed down, I saw Aunt Chu burst into tears: "Your uncle and I knew about your college entrance examination results. That night your uncle asked him to kneel down and admit his mistakes. He knelt down, but he refused to admit his mistakes. He He said he was right, but in the end, his father beat him to pieces, and he had to lie down for a week before he could get out of bed..."

My hands and feet were cold, my fingertips twitched uncontrollably, and I tried to recall the day when the results of the college entrance examination came out in my messy mind. We went to the park that night, and then...then kissed in the shadow of the woods...

That's why Chu Zhi'an lost contact for a week, and when he reappeared, even my punching him could make him grunt...

I lowered my head, not daring to look at Aunt Chu's red eyes, the deep sense of guilt almost made me collapse.It took a long time before he spoke with difficulty: "Uncle Chu..."

"Later his father took his mobile phone away and asked him to reflect on himself, when to admit his mistakes and when to let him go out. We had already arranged for him to study abroad. Who knows when he secretly changed his choice? A few days ago When the admission results came out, it was found that he was still in the same school as you... Later, his father was so angry that he discounted a broom on the spot, and he was so angry that he went to the hospital with high blood pressure..."

Speaking of this, Aunt Chu suddenly grabbed my arm like a life-saving straw: "An'an, Auntie, I beg you, we really can't do anything about him... Your parents will definitely not be able to accept it. Don't know yet, huh? Hurry up and break it, it's not normal at all! This is a disease, An'an! Auntie please, please change it and separate, please, let him go, let him go... "

The arm held by Aunt Chu seemed to lose consciousness, and there was a buzzing in his ears, as if a knife had smashed the flesh and blood in his heart, and even the blood vessels began to burst inch by inch.

I took a deep breath, my face was pale, like a child who had done something wrong, my eyes were drooping uncomfortably, my body stood there stiff and speechless.

"Mom..." During the stalemate between the two sides, Chu Zhian's deep voice suddenly sounded from behind me.

I turned to look at him, my eyes were red, dazed and helpless.

Chu Zhian was much thinner than I remembered, and his face was paler than when we met last time. I knew that there were more wounds under his clothes that I couldn't see.

He pursed his lips, stepped forward and pulled my arm out and held my hand openly.

Seeing this, Aunt Chu cried even harder, as if she would be out of breath the next moment. The heavy sadness in her eyes made me suffocate.

I hurriedly lowered my head and didn't dare to look any more. I subconsciously wanted to pull my hand out, but the next moment it was held even tighter. Chu Zhian's strength seemed to crush my bones.

"You promised me not to look for him." Chu Zhian left these words and pulled me away.

I was led away by him in a daze like a puppet, my whole body was in a daze, and Aunt Chu's depressed and broken cry seemed to be ringing in my ears all the time.

Chu Zhian let go of my hand only after standing in the safe passage, touched the pinched red mark on my wrist, and asked me "Does it hurt?"

I was silent and did not speak.

He raised his eyes and looked at me, and said word by word: "If I didn't go there, would you agree to her?"

I was still silent and didn't speak, he repeated it again, his voice began to tremble imperceptibly, and his eyes were even flushed: "Will you agree?"

This time, without waiting for my answer, he grabbed my hand again, and every word seemed to be squeezed out between his teeth: "Don't even think about it, we are bound together like this for the rest of our lives!"

His tone was obviously so fierce, but his voice trembled uncontrollably, his eyes were red, like a threatened wild animal, guarding against every unsafe factor that might take away his prey.

He was worried and scared, and warned me harshly on the outside and on the inside.

I watched his red eye sockets and nose tip feel sour, and my heart felt as if I had been punched hard, sore and swollen.

"Does it hurt?" I looked into his eyes and answered irrelevantly

Then, under his dazed gaze, I lightly touched his shoulder with the other hand, where I punched it last time, and I asked again: "Does it still hurt?"

After a long while, he laughed out loud, the ferocious aura just now was completely concealed, like a lion that is very coaxable after being angry.

He carefully rubbed the red mark on the back of my hand, then leaned over and kissed my face preciously, and asked inappropriately: "An'an, I was very scared just now."

The lips that kissed my cheek were warm and soft, clearly conveying his fear to me.

Looking at his pale face, my eyes suddenly turned red, and I couldn't help scolding him angrily and distressedly, "Chu Zhi'an, you idiot, you won't be beaten up like this if you give in a little softly, you Don't tell me anything, don't tell me next time, try..."

Before I could finish speaking, Chu Zhian hugged me in his arms: "I can't give in to this matter."

I opened my mouth, and finally laughed out loud, scolding him with tears in my eyes, "Stupid."

He hugged me quietly, smiled and said along with me: "Well, I'm stupid"

I wiped away my tears and was overjoyed, then suddenly thought of something and paused, and asked him softly, "What are you going to do, your parents already know."

His chin rubbed against the top of my head, and he hugged me even tighter, "Take it easy, they won't be able to accept it for a while, I'll try to communicate with them first, and I'll handle it well..."

"But An'an..." He changed the subject, "If something happens, you must tell me, don't be afraid, I have everything, you know? They won't look for you... As long as you are still here, I will have the courage. "

I rested my head on his neck, hummed lightly, hooked his hand with my fingers and shook it gently, trying to suppress the panic and anxiety in my heart.

I know that Chu Zhian was frightened by the scene just now. Even now, when I think of Aunt Chu’s eyes, I feel that there is light on my back. Although I have expected it, when this day comes, I find it is still difficult for me to deal with it. .

I can't imagine what I would have done if my parents found out about this, just thinking about it makes me feel unbearable.