burial

I don't know what Chu Zhi'an told his parents when he went back. Aunt Chu never came to see me after that day.Once I met downstairs, she stood there and looked at me with complicated eyes, which made me almost run away.

After the start of the university term, Chu Zhian and I chose to live on campus. He made his own decision, and I simply wanted to stay with him at school.

We are not in the same major, but the dormitory is not far away, and we basically stay together when we are not in class.

This kind of beautiful day makes me feel that the nightmare some time ago has never happened.I am willing to trust Chu Zhian completely, if he wants me to be brave, then I will always be brave.

This Saturday, Chu Zhian has an experiment report to rush, so I thought about it and planned to go home to get some clothes.

Before I got downstairs, I heard a commotion, mixed with cursing, crying and shouting, and the people who heard it were inexplicably flustered.It seems to have been passed down from the third floor, and the upstairs and downstairs stretched their necks to look there.I didn't pay much attention and went straight home.

I didn't go home for two weeks. My mother complained that I would not be home now, and prepared a big table of good food for me.Even my dad turned off his beloved TV, expressing his concern for me awkwardly.

"Son, have you seen your Auntie Chu recently?" At the dinner table, my mother asked while serving me food.

I paused for a meal and grabbed a piece of ribs for her: "No, I haven't come out of school all this time."

My mother sighed: "I don't know what happened recently. Your Auntie Chu doesn't come to our house anymore. It's always something to ask her to go out with. Is there something wrong at home?"

"What's the matter?" My dad frowned disapprovingly, "I'm talking nonsense all day long, so I can't do my own business, ah, is it normal to just come and chat with you all day, go out and dance in the square or something like that?" ah."

My mother gave my father a dissatisfied look: "You old man will sing against me every day. She hasn't come for a long time. Is this normal?"

I always felt uncomfortable listening to them talking about Aunt Chu. Seeing that they were about to quarrel, I quickly changed the topic and interrupted them: "When I came back, I heard the third floor was very noisy. What happened?"

Hearing what I said, the two of them looked at each other and didn't even speak, and the atmosphere suddenly fell silent.

I looked at the two of them suspiciously, only to see my dad sighed: "It's a crime."

My mother also shook her head: "Aunt Lu, do you still remember? It's the one that always gave you candy when you were young."

I thought about it, and a serious and smiling face appeared in my mind. She used to be a colleague of my dad, a high school teacher, and later retired like my dad. She was very kind to me when I was young, and often gave me sweets. Sometimes even Chu Zhi'an is involved, she is a stern but kind-hearted aunt.

"Remember, that voice came from Aunt Lu's house?"

My mother nodded, she opened her mouth, and said after a while, as if it was difficult to say: "Doesn't her family have a son? You met him several times when you were young, and you called him Brother Xiaofei. I don't know how to answer it." It's about the man's dating... The other's family knew about it, but they disagreed with life and death, so they locked him in the house, and then took Lu Fei to his house, and told your aunt Lu that Lu Fei seduced his son and took him away. How did your Aunt Lu know about this? She was so angry that she almost had high blood pressure on the spot. She picked up the broom and started beating. More or less it's just a joke..."

Suddenly, a hand waved in front of me, "An'an, An'an, what's wrong with you kid?"

I looked up to meet my mother's puzzled eyes and realized that I had lost my mind at some point and the chopsticks fell on the table.

I twitched the corners of my mouth and said it was all right, then picked up the chopsticks and found that my hands were shaking uncontrollably, I tried my best to make my voice normal, and pretended to be nonchalant: "What do you think about this?"

"What do you think?" My mother suddenly raised her voice, and said in disbelief: "Is it worth watching? This kind of thing is not normal at all! Why are two boys together?!"

My dad is also very serious: "It's other people's business, we don't want to talk about it, but your mother is right, aren't the two boys messing around? It's ruining the atmosphere."

Abnormal, nonsense, ruining the atmosphere... When these words come from the mouth of my dearest and favorite person, I feel like I was hit by a tamping machine, and my internal organs shrank into a ball in pain .

Maybe I found that my language was a bit extreme, so my mother took it easy and continued: "Parents all hope that their children will grow up safely, start a family smoothly, have a stable job, and live in peace and stability. , no one would want their children to mess around. Besides, your Aunt Lu has always been alone. Did you work so hard to bring him up to let him talk to men? Don’t talk about this kind of thing, Aunt Lu, I Neither can your father accept it."

I opened my mouth, not knowing what expression or reaction I should make, and after a while I lowered my head and said in a low voice: "Many countries now allow same-sex marriage, and our country's laws also..."

Before I finished speaking, my mother interrupted directly: "Don't tell me those things, I know you young people are open-minded, and no matter how open you are, it doesn't mean you can mess around."

"What's the matter with you today, why are you always messing with us on this matter?" My dad put down his chopsticks and said in a deep voice.

As soon as I looked up, I realized that my dad was staring at me for an unknown amount of time. His eyes were sharp and penetrating, as if he was probing for something.

"I'm just..." My heart trembled, I licked my lips subconsciously, and tried to be as calm as possible, "I just found it quite surprising, I just saw the news about this, so I said a few more words."

"I don't care what you young people think," he frowned slightly, and picked up his chopsticks again, "I and your mother have been waiting for you to quickly find a girlfriend to marry, so that we can enjoy life in peace, and watch less mess s things."

I nodded and breathed a sigh of relief, but my mood couldn't calm down. I lowered my head and took a few mouthfuls of rice before putting down the bowl: "I'm full, and I have to go back to school first, and I'll come back when I'm free."

"Hey, you've only eaten so much, why are you going back in a hurry..." I hurriedly changed my shoes and went out, leaving my mother's nagging voice behind.

I didn't feel the oppressive and suffocating feeling better until I went out the door.

I remember Lu Fei, that good-looking and good-looking brother who is seven years older than me. I only met him a few times. In my memory, he was clean and gentle. After he went to study and work in other places, I never saw him again. .

The movement on the third floor has become a lot quieter, and people upstairs and downstairs are talking about it.

"I really didn't expect that kid from the Lu family to like a man. Is this a disease or a pervert?"

"Let's see if Wang Lan can still be proud in the future. The man died early, and the son is gay again. Huh..."

"That kid Lu Fei is praised by his mother every day. Look at it now, his parents have found his home. It's a shame."

"I also said that her boy is handsome and has a good job. How come he hasn't gotten married until now. His relationship is because he likes men. Isn't this perverted..."

"I really don't understand how the two men are together. Just thinking about it makes me get goosebumps. It's so disgusting."

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I ran out as if fleeing, and every word of those words pierced my heart like a knife.I never knew language could be so vicious, people could kill with gossip if they wanted to.

I have never been so eager to see Chu Zhian immediately like this moment, I took a taxi and ran to school.The wind was blowing through my heart all the time, and my limbs and bones were all cold.

I opened the door and walked in only to find that he was sleeping. The curtains in the dormitory were drawn and the lights were not turned on.I remember he said that his roommate had gone home and he was the only one left in the dormitory.

I walked to his bed with dim eyesight, quietly took off my shoes, lifted his quilt and lay sideways beside him, and only when I held his sleeves tightly did I feel a sense of reality. Belonging, down to earth.

It may be that my movement was a little loud and woke him up. As soon as I lay down, I heard his inquiry, his voice was hoarse after waking up: "An'an?"

I didn't say a word, and silently got into his arms and hugged him tightly.

He patted my head and laughed happily: "It's been a long time since I saw you and you miss me so much, huh?"

I didn't refute, and hummed in a low voice: "I really think about it, I think about it all the time."

Chu Zhian let out a "tsk", lowered his head, cupped my face in both hands and looked at me: "When I go back at noon, what did my aunt cook for you? Your mouth is so sweet."

I looked at him in a daze, and suddenly thought of Brother Xiaofei, and remembered the discussions of those people, uneasy emotions kept coming up, and a little bit of fear began to emerge from the bottom of my heart.

Chu Zhi'an felt something was wrong, he frowned, his eyes were filled with worry, and he gently rubbed the corners of my eyes with his fingers beside my face: "What happened?"

I shook my head, broke away from his hand and buried him in his arms.I didn't want to say it, and Chu Zhi'an didn't ask any more questions, and stroked my back one after another.

He hugged me quietly, and the sound of his shallow breathing sprayed on the top of my head.It should be a very tender scene, but those fears and anxieties are still running rampant in the chest and can't find an exit. There is an urgent need to do something to relieve it.

After a long time, I took his hand and put it on my lips and kissed: "Brother, let's do it."

Chu Zhian froze, lowered his head, his eyes were dark, deep and restrained: "Do you know what you are talking about?"

Facing his aggressive eyes, I raised my head and kissed his Adam's apple and chin in a random way, and repeated: "Brother, let's do it."

His breath stagnates, his Adam's apple slides up and down, he wraps around my waist and kisses me.