white gardenia

The message was not sent after all, I didn't know how to open it, and I was afraid of disturbing him.

He's just out of college, and now he's reaching a critical juncture, and if things go well, he'll be on the regular.

Turning to a full-time job means stability, and it means that his floating youth has a stable land for him to rest for a while.

I really couldn't bear it, I tried my best to refrain from sending him messages this year, except for the more important matters about Bai Zhizi, I hardly contacted him.

The last time I contacted him was because Bai Zhizi died. I said sorry to him a lot, and then he came back and buried Bai Zhizi with me.

The Pomeranian next to me barked softly, bringing me back to reality.

We rented this house together. His grandparents lived with me after they died. We lived together for five years.

We have so many memories here, every piece of furniture and every decoration is chosen by us together.Sometimes when I look at him, I always feel that he is no different from a husband and wife, except for the wall separating the two rooms.

It was also after the death of his grandparents that his temperament began to change drastically. He used to be able to talk nonsense with me, talking about wild ideas and visions for the future.It's just that every time he talks about the future with me, I'm not sure if he has me in his future.

But in the past five years, he has been silent when he sees me, and there is always a little sadness and anxiety in his eyes.

I wanted to hug him several times and tell him that as long as he doesn't bother me, I will always be there.But what am I to him?

My parents divorced and started their own families, so I am a superfluous one for everyone.But life is good, isn't it?There are small flowers everywhere in spring, iced watermelons in summer, digging sweet potatoes with my aunt in autumn, and watching the snow around the stove in winter.

Life is really wonderful, especially the moment Bai Zhizi and Wei Obituary entered my life, life was extremely beautiful.

As the old saying goes, prosperity must decline.

My father wanted to take me back, and I became a well-known eldest son of the Ji family, so when life opened the door for me, I had to close my window.

My white gardenia is dead, and my Wei obituary will also leave me behind.

I would rather not have this door, I want to guard my window, guard the man in the window, but he is always unhappy, and being with me seems to make him uncomfortable, I think it's time to let go.

After class that day, Wei Ouyan came to me with the cat, and I fulfilled my promise, we will raise the cat together.

We kept it in a family who didn't come back all year round.His house is quite grand here, at least the outside is all built with cement and painted with a layer of white paint.

A few clusters of bamboo were planted outside the east yard, and a hut was built there for dogs.

Everything inside is readily available and you can move in directly.

The iron door was locked. We were young at the time, and we didn’t care whether it was right or not. For the sake of the cat’s better life, we broke the lock open and refitted the lock.

So this place became our secret base, and we ran here after school to feed, bathe and smooth the cat.

We even built a small home here.

For the renovation of the school, we moved two relatively new sets of desks and chairs out of those discarded ones, and placed them under the shed not far from the low house where the cat lived.

To add something new, after a rainstorm I dug some mud from the fields and made a vase, thinking that when it dries it would look like the ceramic vase I saw on TV, but it didn't.It was so dry that it felt like it was going to drop a few pieces of dirt at any moment.

Wei Ouyan seemed to like this vase very much. He put the vase in the middle of the table where we were together, and turned the engraved one to face him, and the engraved one to face me.

We inserted the gardenias we picked, and the shed was filled with the scent of gardenias for a while.

I really know how to live, Wei Ouyan said.

Day by day, we still go to that school in high school, after all, there is no other school in this place except that one school.

It happened that we were assigned to the same class, so we could always make an appointment to go to our secret base together.

The kitten has grown up and has white hair without any variegation.I think I just found a treasure.

The gardenias in the vase are big and lush, and we deliberately picked the one with the most petals.

I don't know who first mentioned the idea of ​​naming the cat, but in the end we had a tacit understanding and named it Bai Zhizi.

Because the soil bottle cannot hold water, the gardenias will wither within two days. Whenever we can't pick the flowers, we will insert the low bamboo branches into them.

It doesn't have any charm.

Later our secret base was discovered, and the neighborhood kids brought a bunch of people to my secret base to play. Bai Zhizi had never seen strangers screaming in fright.

The child threw stones wildly when he saw a cat in the low house. Bai Zhizi was really frightened at the time, but when he saw the child later, he raised his tail in fear and became vigilant.

An older child took a hammer from nowhere and hammered the lock, and then someone went in and tried to grab Bai Zhizi and come out.

At that time, Bai Zhizi was already three years old, her teeth and claws were very sharp, and she could bite with precision.

When we went to see Bai Zhizi after class, Bai Zhizi was already dying and was beaten by the child's adults.Those grown-ups scolded who raised the stray cat and slapped it hard with a shovel.

It is said that cats have nine lives, and I think Bai Zhizi had lost eight by then.

When my aunt found out about this, she beat me up.After going to various houses to apologize and pay for the vaccination of the children, they said that they would throw the white gardenia out.

Wei Ouyan's family does not allow cats. His grandparents are old, and they are afraid that if something goes wrong, they will be tripped by cats and dogs. It will not be easy for the elderly to get up if they fall.

I can only beg my aunt, who is a very soft-hearted person, and she agreed after I knelt down for a long time.

Wei Ouyan always came to my house to watch the cats at this time, and he became familiar with my family members after coming and going.

But we still often go to the secret base, where we have a lot of memories.

The clay bottle was broken when the kids invaded, and we saved some of the money we spent on cat food for the cat and bought a real ceramic bottle with the word Ruyan engraved on it.

The bottle was able to hold water, and the most beautiful gardenias, which I deliberately got up early to pick before dawn, were inserted in it.Under the gaze of this bottle of gardenia, we picked up our homework and started writing as usual.

But this time, within two days, the gardenia and the ceramic bottle disappeared together.

I don't know which kid looked good and stole it, maybe it was an adult.

Anyway, I never had the chance to selfishly engrave our names on anything afterwards.