white gardenia

I didn't immediately promise my dad to go home, but I just said that I wanted to make my own way, and I didn't want to be a moth.

My dad agreed, and he gave me a fund to do whatever I wanted.But I have to go back and see him every holiday.

I didn't agree to this either, because I can't abandon Wei Ouyan, he can only spend holidays with me now.Maybe only temporarily.

My dad didn't embarrass me, it's just that I haven't forgiven him yet.

After seeing him off, I washed up briefly and then went back to the little house Wei Ouyan and I shared.

As soon as I opened the door, I saw him sitting in the living room with a dejected face waiting for me.

I was startled and asked him what was wrong.

He stared at me blankly for a moment, his eyes slightly sharper than when he was a child.

I drank a lot last night, even though my dad forced the proprietress to hand over the best anti-alcoholic medicine, but because I talked to my dad all night, my head was still a little dizzy.

"Don't worry, I'm fine. I drank too much last night and stayed somewhere else."

I tried to look as if I was okay, so that he could feel at ease.

"Slept in a man's arms all night?" There was disgust in his eyes, and then it became more obvious, as if he had touched something unclean, and he didn't hide it at all, and finally went straight into his room, The sound of closing the door startled Bai Zhizi.

Look, I'm being sentimental again.Why is Wei Obituary worried that something will happen to a waiter who laughs with me?He was only worried about whether I would sleep in someone else's bed and whether I would dirty his eyes.

I want to drink. Alcohol may make me less sober, and make me deceive myself into thinking that Wei Ouyan is worried about me.

My relationship with him became tense and he never gave me another chance to explain my night out.It's just that my dad's clothes that I changed from washing up at the downtown house that day are missing.

My dad thought he would stay here for two more days, so he brought a change of clothes and disposable underwear. He always does this when he goes out, so he doesn't need to wash it for convenience.

I think he lost it.How could he bear the fact that his co-living roommate had been fooling around with a man all night and came back wearing the other's clothes?I was a little wronged, he didn't even ask, he just thought that I slept with others, in his mind I was an uneducated and casual person.

I don't want to explain, explain what?Explain that I was drunk that night, if I hadn't met my dad, it would have been exactly what you imagined.This is almost the same as not saying it. In short, if it wasn't a coincidence that day, I would just do what he thought.So be it, no explanation.

And I don't want to tell him yet, my dad wants to take me back.I still can't help but think about him.If I tell him that I will go back with my dad, he will be sad.

Of course, it's because he doesn't want me to be sad, he just doesn't want a companion, whether it's me or not, he will be reluctant.

But I still don't want to make him uncomfortable.

Wei Ou said that grandpa and grandma passed away one after another in the third year of high school. Grandma went there without any pain. She didn't sleep well. Grandpa may have been too sad and hurt his heart, so he went with him within two days.Wei Obituary became an orphan in the true sense.

My aunt kept him with me, she was such a nice person.

When I was about to take the college entrance examination, my grades were not good, and I felt that there was no hope, so I kept feeding the white gardenia in my spare time.

But Wei's obituary was different, he was going to college, so in order not to disturb him, I deliberately didn't talk to him much.

Two weeks before the college entrance examination, the class began to pass on the enrollment of classmates.At this time, I felt as if I was really about to graduate.

I also bought a classmate record, took down the first page and gave it to Wei Obituary.

After he finished writing, I couldn't wait to read it. I didn't read the basic information filled in before, because I didn't need him to write it.

I didn't write a lot of what I wanted to say later, but I still blush after reading it.

"Ji Ru, I want to accompany you to watch the gardenias bloom every year. I want to pick the biggest and most beautiful one with you and put them in a bottle engraved with the word Ruyan. We hold white gardenias and look at the sky Looking at the sunset glow in the lake, looking at the light and shadow in the lake, watching the birds standing on the branches dancing in the distance, perhaps, we can do the same.

You will tell me everything that happened today. It is strange that a little thing in your eyes can make you sigh the beauty of life.

Life is not beautiful for me, but after you, I feel that all the things you said through you are really something to be happy about.

You are different to me, you are the sum of all the good things in my life, only because of you, I think those happy things are happy things.do you understand?

I want to stay, stay where you are if you don't go anywhere else, as long as you want, so will you? "

Before I had time to think about the meaning of these words, I almost subconsciously said in my heart that I didn't want to.

He wants to stay in this small village?How could this be?His grades are so good, and he has studied so hard for so many years just to pass the exam, how can he say that staying here is so irresponsible to him.

I brought that classmate record to look for him, but I don't want to, don't be so irrational.

In the end, he said, "I don't pay attention to me these days, but I just want to get rid of me, and I want to let me pass the exam so that I won't be in your eyes from now on?

So you just pity me, pity that I lost my parents when I was born, and finally survived until I went to college and lost my grandparents, so you treat me just because of sympathy, right?Or do you also think that I am a broom star, whoever is next to me will be unlucky? !You want to get rid of me, don't you? "

I was intimidated by him, he has always been a reserved person, I have never seen him lose his temper so much.

In order to calm his emotions, I softened my tone, "I didn't mean that, I just think you can't give up your studies and stay in this dilapidated little place, don't be willful."

As if he didn't believe it, he snatched back the classmate record and kneaded it into a ball, "Of course, I just don't want a companion. Yes, I'm too impulsive. Do I want a few companions when I go to university in C city? I figured it out, you just pretend I didn’t say anything.”

Then he took out the lighter from the drawer, and as the flames ignited, the ball of paper slowly burned to ashes in front of me.

I stood there without moving, still immersed in what he just said.For him, the difference between me is that I just played with him for a few years, and I can change it if I say it, and it's the same for anyone else except me.

I really want to read the passage he wrote again, and want to confirm whether I am being sentimental again, but what else do I need to confirm with the ashes of the waste paper and his indifferent expression?

In the end, I followed him to City C.I said that since I don't have any books anyway, I might as well go out and see the world, and Bai Zhizi is used to the two of us being around, can you take me with you.

Maybe it was my humble tone that pleased him, but he just dropped two words "up to you" and I started to pack it up as if I had been gifted a baby.

I really can't bear him to wander outside alone. If I really let him go, he might never come back again.