white gardenia

I dreamed a lot of things that night. I dreamed that he said that he was just reluctant to have a companion, and it turned out to be true.

He went to college, made new friends, and didn't go home once for the first few weeks.After he got the social software, all he posted was about going out with his classmates, and he seemed really happy.

I also thought of him calling Li Ningze crying, what should he do.

Li Ningze is gay, I often see him at the bar on weekends, and he comes to strike up a conversation with me from time to time, I don't give him a good face every time.He just wanted to inquire about Wei's obituary from me, how could I let him do what he wanted.

Every time I would say, "I'm just his roommate. To put it more closely, I'm a partner who raises cats together. I really don't know him well. Aren't you his classmate? I keep asking me why."

Then he always implied that I was cold-blooded and ruthless. Once I told him that he wanted to hit me. Maybe it was because he was exposed as incompetent and furious.

He said to me at the time, "Didn't you raise white gardenias together since junior high school? It's been five or six years, and you're still not familiar with them?"

I was very angry, Wei Obituary told him all this, this is to show off your relationship in front of me, okay?

"Please tell him, next time, don't use other people's stories to engage in interpersonal relationships. If you like him, just tell him directly, and don't come to trouble me."

He looked at me strangely, "You said I liked him, but you didn't act hard to accept it, so you don't mind being gay?"

I simply broke the jar and said, "Yes, not only do I not mind, I like men myself. But I don't want to know anything about him in college, please don't bother me."

I really don't want to know what kind of new partner Wei Ouyan has in college, and maybe even the kind of partner who will rise to a position that I can't even hope to reach.

"You don't like him and you still follow him. After five or six years of getting along, you are used to pretending to be affectionate in front of him, but telling others that you don't know him well. You are really acting and standing up."

It seems that Wei Ouyan told him everything, and he may even feel that I like him.Otherwise, how would Li Ningze, who is a third party, know that he is pretending to be affectionate in front of Wei Ouyan, so does Wei Ouyan think that I am pretending to be affectionate?Does he feel awkward?

It's nonsense to get close to the water and the moon first. I have been with him for so long, but I can't compare with the new Li Ningze. At least he is willing to tell this Li Ningze everything and nothing to me.

Li Ningze still didn't make it, but after this time, I began to deliberately keep a distance from Wei Ouyan, even though the distance was not small.

He felt my liking, but felt that I was pretending, and he was very silent when he came back every day. I had nothing to talk about with him except cats.

He probably hates me, but he didn't drive me out because of his past affection.

As I thought about it, I burst into tears again.Wei Ouyan's phone call came again, his voice was a little hoarse, probably because he cried and called Li Ningze too loudly last night and broke his throat.

I didn't say anything and just waited for him to speak. He seemed a little impatient and finally opened his mouth first, "I was drunk and made the wrong call yesterday. Did I tell you anything?" His tone was obviously weak when he spoke the second half of the sentence three points.

"Ah, yesterday you were crying and asking what to do." I ignored the part where he called Li Ningze, and felt very unwilling to say, "I don't want to know what happened, so don't worry, I didn't ask anything, You didn't say anything."

"Ha, okay." Then the phone beeped and hung up.

I took a deep breath, and dialed back after confirming that the voice was normal.

He picked it up at the last second when it was about to hang up automatically.

This time I said first, "I found a house, and I'm moving out tomorrow. Why don't you take some time to come back and check it out today, lest you say you lost something after I left, which is hard to tell."

"I knew that Bai Zhizi is gone, so you don't have to worry about it anymore, right? It's hard to stay with me, so you want to leave quickly?"

I kept silent to his sudden anger, thinking to myself: Isn't this what you wished?

Minutes passed, and neither of us spoke first.

In the end, I compromised and planned to continue talking about buying him a Pomeranian. I think he will be happy, at least he will have a dog to accompany him.

In the end, before I could organize my words, he replied with two words, "It's up to you."

This means I don't care anymore. I looked at the Pomeranian and thought you have to follow me.

Unexpectedly, Wei Ouyan came back that night.

The moment I saw him, I stopped packing the box for a moment.

The first time he entered the door, he kicked over the boxes I had just packed.I suppressed my anger and asked, "What are you doing?"

Unexpectedly, he grabbed me and pushed me against the wall, then asked me "Why can't I?"

I was a little confused and didn't understand what he meant.

"Why can't I be the only one?" He asked louder, and I seemed to understand a little bit.Does this mean I can sleep with other men, why can't he?

Sure enough, the next second, he kissed her.

I think it's an opportunity to explain that I didn't sleep with someone else, but why, he misunderstood me and I have to rush to explain, why can't he believe me?

But I was a little puzzled, why did he ask such a question, does he want to sleep with me?

Didn't you say I'm just a companion?

Am I not dispensable?

Don't you look down on me?

Now kiss again, why?

"you like me."

I pushed him away with my hands, trying to calm down my panting.

He didn't speak, just looked a little hurt, and then hugged me harder, trying to prove that sentence with his actions.

I didn't follow and struggled with him.

When I heard him say "I like you", my whole body softened, and I hugged him desperately, saying "Me too."

Maybe it's because I've had a crush on him for too long, even though his skills are terrible, whether it's kissing or something.

Either his teeth kept hitting mine, or he couldn't find the right position.

In short, I was in pain, but I was also very emotionally teased by him.