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"I lied to you."

I saw that Yang Chen was a little dazed with his mouth open, so I couldn't help but burst out laughing.

"There are so many beautiful men in the world, how can you let me be willing to die?" I said with a smile, "Just kidding, don't take it seriously."

"You said it as if it were true. It scared me." He stood up and walked to my side, "Why would you want to die if you are living well? It is not considered unlucky to say these words that curse yourself."

Actually... I really thought about it.I know that my life is better than many people's. The Xu family has never treated my food and clothing harshly, and I don't even have to worry about my future work.It's just—I don't want a future that is so tightly bound, where all other possibilities are wiped out, leaving only one path they've arranged.

Obviously I can only live once, and obviously I don't want the comfort of food and clothing given by them, why can't I let myself choose?

At that time, Yang Chen suddenly broke into my planned life, acting like no one else and acting recklessly.I once had an almost absurd hope that he would fall in love with me too, and then I could use the power of this love to break the shackles, and we would be together well, and have a bright future worth looking forward to and different.

I have also thought more than once, what it will be like when Yang Chen loves me.

I can only piece together a Yang Chen who is gentle to me from a few extremely rare touches, who only loves me and will kiss me tenderly. Someone like me can also become a treasure in his heart.But I clearly know that I am no different from other people who come and go around him, and I know that his friends don't even bother to remember my name.My family background, mind, face, everything about me is far inferior to Xue Keming, and I am still a man that cannot be tolerated by the world.How could it be my turn?

"What are you thinking about?"

He put his hands on my shoulders, and when he was talking, the night breeze stirred his forehead hair, and his bangs drooped slightly.There was a relaxed smile on the corner of his mouth, and for a moment I almost thought I saw the high school student who was smirking back then.

I turned my head to look at his handsome side face, with clean outlines, flirtatious and beautiful eyebrows, and a bright smile, all of which I like.How can it be so good-looking... so good that just looking at him makes me tremble, and I am about to fall into this abyss called Yang Chen.

"I was thinking about when they will finish class." I raised my hand and looked at my watch, "At ten o'clock, the students are going to finish class soon, do you want to go down?"

"Time flies so fast?" Yang Chen was a little surprised, "Come on, the inspector teacher used to come to check that the roof door is not locked before the evening self-study is over, so let's spend the night on the roof."

"If you want to spend the night on the roof, I have to take off your coat and cover it up." I said jokingly as I followed him down the stairs, probably because the get out of class was about to end, and the noisy conversations in the downstairs class had already spread to the top floor.Yang Chen nimbly fastened the lock to the door again, and the two of us pretended to be calm and passed by the inspecting teacher with armbands in the corridor.

"It's dangerous..." I breathed a sigh of relief when I got out of the stairs, "Fortunately, I got down in time."

"Actually, it's nothing to spend the night on the rooftop." Yang Chen leaned over and said in an ambiguous tone, "We still have a lot to do."

I glanced at him: "This is school, we'll be on social news the next day, are you serious?"

"It's not like it hasn't been done before."

He shrugged and was about to say something when the bell rang for the end of get out of class.The whole school seemed to be boiling, and students poured out of the class, and because it was a holiday, each of them looked very happy.Yang Chen and I, who were obviously dressed differently, stood out in the crowd, because of Yang Chen's amazing appearance, many girls stopped there and looked at him shyly, and some even took pictures.I was infected by the cheerful atmosphere of the students chatting and chatting, and said to Yang Chen: "Let's go, some students will ask you for your phone number later, maybe we can develop a relationship?"

"What do a bunch of kids know?"

He curled his lips, and I walked out of the school side by side with him, and I said funnyly: "You were also this kind of kid at the time, so you are also naive?"

"I'm different from them." Yang Chen didn't say anything until he opened the car door and sat in. I realized that he was retorting me that he was naive before, "I know if I really like it."

"Really?" I smiled and didn't answer.

It was warm in the car, and after a while, I became so sleepy that my eyelids were fighting again, and I yawned several times, "I want to sleep."

"Just so sleepy?" He started the car helplessly, "It's such a good night, it's a waste—I've convinced you, do you want to sleep in the back?"

"no need……"

It's not that I don't understand the style, it's that I'm really sleepy, and everything has to be leaned back in front of the essential physiological needs of sleep.I wanted to defend myself, but I fell asleep without saying a word.

I had a dream, dreaming that I fell into the deep, deep sea, the surroundings were black, only the faint light above my head.I couldn't breathe, and managed to swim to a place with light by a little wave of water. While swimming, someone pushed me suddenly from nowhere, and I sank in despair——

Yang Chen pushed me awake, he had already opened the car door on my side, I rubbed my eyes, and looked at him squatting in front of me with a little unconsciousness: "I'll carry you up."

"what?"

My shoulders were sore and painful, probably because of the posture just now. I blinked desperately to regain my senses, but Yang Chen turned around impatiently and pulled my arm, letting me lean against him.I was pulled by him and almost fell to the ground head-on. Fortunately, he had good balance and managed to pull me back on his back.

"Don't tighten it so tightly, do you want me to die?" He complained, but his movements were steady.I'm not afraid of him being boring. After all, Yang Chen has practiced Sanda for so many years, and his strength is amazing. The main reason is that he will throw me down if he gets bored with carrying it on his back. I really don't want to trust Yang Chen's patience at all, so I said : "Put me down, I can walk by myself, and I'm very sober now..."

Can I not be sober, I can't feel the warmth at all, I always pay attention to his movements with trepidation, and get ready in advance if there is any sign of letting go.

"I'm willing to carry it on my back, do you care about me?" He hit my small thoughts with one blow, "Are you afraid that I will throw you down?"

"No, why would I think so." I was terrified to death, and said politely, "I'm afraid you will feel tired."

Yang Chen snorted lightly, but he didn't know if he believed it or not.I lay on his back, and suddenly realized that this was not the entrance of the hotel, the surrounding was quiet, and the surrounding scenery could be vaguely seen under the moonlight, it seemed to be an ordinary neighborhood.I looked at it for a while before asking, "Where is this? A B&B?"

"My home." He lifted me up a little, and his voice came to my ears lightly, "My own home."