dancer on the knife

After resigning from the hotel, chasing my dream, being shattered by reality, and becoming a training specialist for 107 days and nights, I have a better understanding of the meaning of this job to me.Just like the time I experienced in Wuchang before university, it made me cherish the feeling of university life.There is no way out but struggle.No longer obsessed with being an editor, nor extravagantly expecting to be a reporter, let alone a freelance writer, but more focused on doing the current job well.

When I joined the job, I was a training specialist, with a monthly salary of 600 yuan. The outstanding employees selected every month can get a performance award of 50 yuan, but the company only has a few places each month.In order to obtain higher returns and earn more opportunities, I started a crazy work mode.

The company has an unwritten rule, that is, those who work overtime can get a free dinner coupon to eat in the cafeteria on the first floor.Thinking that when I returned to my residence, I would not have a computer, could not search information on the Internet, and would have nothing to do by myself, so I would stay and work overtime if I had nothing special to do.For a person like me who has just graduated for more than a year, my foundation is very weak and I have no other background, so I can only make up for my lack of work and financial deficiencies by working overtime, that is, to solve the problem Dinner, because Chinese food is also borne by the company, basically only need to pay a little for breakfast every month.

At the end of the first month, I got my wish and won a few performance appraisal rewards of 50 yuan. 50 yuan is also equivalent to a month's breakfast fee. This kind of reward is very motivating to me, and it arouses my enthusiasm for work.Although the salary in the hotel is higher than here, and it also includes food and lodging, but for me who is trying to transform, to have a foothold and a platform that I like, the things carried by such a job are far greater than those in the hotel. work in the hotel.I thought about applying for job transfer three times in the hotel, but failed again and again, which crushed my last nerve, so that I was so determined to resign at that time.But it is different here. Although the scale of the company is not as large as that of a hotel, it can quickly find its own value. This value is enough for me to find a meaning of existence, and it also ignites my passion.

My colleagues regard me as a workaholic, but they don't know the story that happened before I took this job, nor do they know that I regard this job as so important.I am not like some people who can be free and easy to regard work as just an experience of life, nor can I regard work as a way to enrich life.Taking work as life experience and enriching life requires a certain amount of confidence. I have nothing to back me, so work is everything to me, and it is the only way I can prove myself. The way to change your destiny.

After joining the company, I stayed with a classmate for the first half month. What moved me was that he let me sleep on the bed.At that time, Yangjiashan was not so congested, and it took at least half an hour to take the No. 103 bus every day.Sometimes there is no bus when I work overtime late, which is somewhat inconvenient.In order to carry out the work better, he moved to the family area of ​​Wuling Electric Power near the company.At that time, I rented a small study room with an alumnus who was a reporter, Brother Liu, a doctoral student studying abroad. The alumni lived in the bed, and I slept on the sofa.However, the rent of only more than 200 months a month is quite a bargain, and the two of them only need to pay more than 100 months a month.You only need to walk for 10 minutes to go to work. With such a short distance, you will spend more time on work every day, at least saving the time of commuting by car every day.No matter how late you work overtime at night, you don’t have to worry, after all, you will arrive at your residence in 10 minutes.Since moving to the vicinity of the company, overtime work has entered a crazier state.

Huang Ge, the department manager, was transferred from another position. Xiao Song and I are also new recruits. In a new department and new people, we can only cross the river by feeling the stones.In order to understand how to better carry out training work, we can only spend more time to understand, investigate, and learn relevant knowledge.At that time, I was unfamiliar with the profession of HR. I only knew that the salary was usually calculated by recruitment, and I knew nothing about the rest.Since then, I have been in contact with the recruitment of some qualification certification. In order to find a suitable training institution, I need to comprehensively find the most suitable certification training institution. After all, we do not have training qualifications and can only act as an agent for recruitment.In order to introduce more suitable items, you need to check the information on the website.These undoubtedly take a lot of time. During the day, sometimes you need to meet with the other party to discuss cooperation. It is very suitable to do some such work after get off work.In addition to recruiting students, you also need to know how to write various copywriting, how to write admission brochures, etc. These also need to be learned by yourself.Although I am a piece of blank paper in training, the splendor of the content written on the blank paper and the speed of time can be completely controlled by myself. Get it fast.In addition, I am not very proficient in office software, and sometimes it takes several nights to make some chart data.What's more, what you learn in school is only the basics, and you need to use it flexibly at work, and the premise of flexible use requires a lot of experience to achieve it.

When the National Day comes, the company requires the recruitment front desk staff to be on duty, and other important positions also require staff on duty. For our training department, we can arrange or not.I thought about how uncomfortable it would be to not do anything for 7 long days, not to mention that I don’t have enough money in my wallet, I can’t go out to play, and my classmates and friends can’t afford others when they come to Changsha. It’s better to work overtime and eat for free. You can use this time period to handle some work.So, I took the initiative to apply for overtime.

During the National Day, there are many people who come to the company to apply for jobs.After all, our talent market is located in the bustling downtown area. Some students come to ask if there are any part-time jobs; some workers ask if there are any electricians, welders or related jobs; , Wait, there are many people coming to consult one after another every day.At that time, we had already printed a lot of recruitment brochures for training, and posted promotional materials in a conspicuous place in the lobby. Some people would come to my desk for consultation. Every time I met such a person, I was very excited. Carefully explain to them the registration conditions, learning content, fees and pass rate of the training.Due to my short working time and limited consulting experience, few people will sign up on the spot, but I will try my best to get them to leave their phone numbers.Then record these numbers in my consultation book, and record some of the other party's situation, so that I can contact and follow up later.

The company works 5 and a half days a week, and after the job fair on Saturday morning, it is generally possible to rest.But there is nothing special, I will also stay overtime.In my life, it seems that besides sleeping and eating, I have to work, and I don’t feel tired, but I work very happily.Sitting in front of the computer again and again, I am glad that I have found such a job that I can devote myself to.Once sorting out customer information collected by dozens of part-timers, more than half of them hadn't been entered after working overtime until 10 o'clock in the evening.In order to finish this work, Xin Yiheng decided to stay up late and work overtime.In a company of several thousand square meters, the whole floor is completely dark, and I am the only one sitting at the desk, and I feel a little nervous when I go to the bathroom.When drowsiness comes, go to the bathroom and wash your face with cold water.It was not until after six o'clock in the morning that the data entry of more than 1000 customers was completed. Thinking that I would go to work again in more than an hour, I simply squatted on the table and squinted for a while.I was still in the spirit of work that day, I think this is a kind of magic brought by the work I like!It's worth it no matter how tired you are.

Every day at two o'clock and one line, residence, company, repeated every day.Working overtime has become a norm, but what happened later gave me a chance to turn my life around.I remember one night, I stayed in the office to work overtime after dinner as usual.At that time, I was writing a copy, thinking hard, completely entering the state, ignoring the external environment.When the boss appeared behind me, I was taken aback for a moment.After pausing for a while, I immediately stood up and greeted the boss. The boss asked me why I was still in the office, and I said I was working on a copywriting.He said that he just returned to the company's document, and he came over to take a look when he saw the lights in our training department office.Then told me to go back and rest early.

After the boss left the office, I felt very excited. After all, this was the first time he spoke to me alone, and I was also moved by his concern for me.As a result, the whole person continued to devote himself to overtime work as if he had been beaten with chicken blood.In an instant, I felt that the overtime work in the past few months was worth it.I never thought that the boss would show up at the company at such a late hour, nor did I expect to have such a conversation with him.

After going through this incident, I heard the boss tell the company executives by chance later that they should pay more attention to me and give me more opportunities.After learning such a message, I was full of strength, and suddenly felt that I must live up to the expectations of my boss and work harder to do my job well.Because of such desperate work, the monthly outstanding employee performance appraisal award will be in my pocket.

At that time, I finally understood that it is difficult to do a good job in 8 hours, especially for people with mediocre qualifications like us.It is impossible to regard work as a part of life. To have such a mentality of dealing with the world requires confidence. Undoubtedly, I lack confidence in this aspect. I can only prove myself through work and make achievements, and only achievements can give me dignity. live, and the rest is bullshit.Working overtime again and again has made me gradually become a qualified trainer from a recruit in the training industry. My ability to speak has been greatly improved, and I have a certain ability to write market copywriting. More importantly, I have begun to accumulate my belongings With my own contacts, I have my first batch of customers.

The department manager Huang Ge is very considerate to us. When we work overtime or finish a job, he will take us to a dinner party, order delicious meals, and open a few bottles of beer.Every meal is a time to improve life, and it is also a kind of relaxation.The relationship between colleagues in the department is very harmonious. Everyone is called brother or sister, and Xiao Song and I are also taken care of by them.Because I am different from them, I have a short working time and lack of social experience, so I can only keep up with them by working overtime, so as not to hold everyone back.It is this energy that makes me feel that I am growing rapidly every day.For young people, they have no money, are not handsome, have no family background, and lack experience. Only by working hard and overtime can they win some opportunities and have the possibility to change their destiny.