distant him

The ups and downs of the film and television industry are the fastest.

Because I lost the Golden Tripod Award before, there have been constant voices of doubts about my acting skills.Now because of the disastrous failure of Anxi's movie at the box office, the name of box office poison is also placed on my head.

All of a sudden, my reputation in the entertainment industry plummeted, and the newspapers were even more merciless, telling me to get out of the film industry.I don't know if I dug the ancestral graves of those media in my previous life and made them hate me so much and criticize me in words and in writing.Sister Ying didn't let me read those reports, she knew that I cared most about other people's comments.She is trying to help me get in touch with mainland film and television, and wants me to develop in the mainland.

The mainland market is huge, and film and television are still in their infancy, so she is very optimistic about it.

But with my level, it is also difficult to get access to the film resources there, and most of them are supporting roles.I was stalked of arrogance in my heart, and since the first play, I haven't done a supporting role for anyone, and I have always refused.

Later, Sister Ying asked me, do I want to take on a TV series?She can talk about the leading role in TV dramas, but they are still third-rate productions.

I still don't want to.Not to mention third-rate TV dramas, even TV dramas, I still don't want to bow my head to pick them up.There is a default rule in the circle, movies are higher than TV dramas.

So for a while, I was free like never before, went to dinners everywhere, and met Xie Songhe several times.

He's actually not as unsociable as the rumors make him out to be, I think.

We ate at the same table, I sat in the corner, and he sat on the right hand of the main seat.The main seat is Ludao film and television tycoon Yuan Shengchao, the owner of Yunheng Entertainment. He seems to appreciate Xie Songhe very much and intends to draw him into Yunheng.

The people at this table are all leaders of Green Island Films, including investors, producers, directors, well-known actors, all gathered together.People in Green Island like to talk about things at the dinner table, so they chat while eating, and the topics are also eclectic. They talk about entertainment and chat for a long time, and occasionally add a sentence or two of serious business, and these one or two sentences are the focus of the meal.

I wasn't qualified to appear at this dinner, but it was Sister Ying's connections who bridged me. She wanted to see if she could get on the line with Yunheng.

When it comes to such an occasion full of big shots, I am rather timid and just eat honestly.

But Xie Songhe still looked like a duck to water, as if he was careless.When others talk to him, he can also chat a few words.It's just that after the whole meal, he didn't say a word to me.

That's right, my current situation is something I can't avoid personally, the people in the entertainment industry are the most realistic.Two years ago, Xie Songhe and I were nominated for the Golden Tripod Award at the same time, but now we are sitting at the same table, but it is no longer the same situation as before.

He has just finished filming his fourth film, directed by Yi An, an internationally renowned Chinese director.It is said that Yi An is very satisfied with him, and if there are no accidents, the next best actor award must be planned.

My heart was sore from thinking about it, and I drank a few more glasses without paying attention.

My alcohol capacity is very poor, half a bottle of red wine can make me drunk, in the past, Ying sister would always ask the assistant to watch me order at the dinner, but today I can't bring the assistant over, so I just lost my composure and woke up lying on the table Not coming.

In the dimness, I heard someone say, "I'll take him back."

"You know him?"

"Ah."

I didn't recognize who it was, and my consciousness was getting farther and farther away. Before I completely fell asleep, my only thought was that Yun Heng was probably dead.

Thinking about it this way, I felt sad and simply gave up on myself, and fell into a dark sleep.

I don't know how long I slept, I just feel that I haven't slept so happily for a long time.Although I have a lot of free time every day now, I am so anxious that I always have insomnia.I'm only 29 this year, so if my career goes downhill from then on, what's the point?What's more, I haven't climbed to the top yet, so I feel unwilling.With such a state of mind, how can I sleep well!I can only smoke thoroughly and wait for the dawn, but there is still nowhere to go after dawn.

If you don’t want to wake up, you still need to open your eyes.

I got used to the darkness for a while, looking at the strange chandelier above my head, I couldn't figure out where it was.I turned my head and looked at the two sides. One side was covered with thick curtains, which blocked the light from the outside world, and the other side was blurry, so I couldn't see clearly.

I don't know where it is.I wasn't in a hurry to confirm, and I didn't get up until I was lying down enough.Open the curtains first, the sun is shining outside, and the mountains and the sea meet.

There is only one piece of sea on Green Island, and the sea view houses in this place are expensive, presumably the owner of this house is well-off.

Everything in the room was exposed to sunlight, and I saw a Golden Tripod Award trophy on the bedside table.I vaguely guessed whose home this was, and approached the trophy for a closer look, and it was indeed him.

This is the trophy that Xie Songhe won for me.I couldn't help staring at it, thinking: If I had won the prize at that time, maybe I wouldn't be in the situation I am in today.

When I lost my mind, the door opened.I turned around and saw Xie Songhe standing at the door of the room. He has a good figure, and the soft home clothes look good on him.A newspaper said before that there was a luxury brand in France that wanted him to speak for him.

But Xie Songhe didn't seem to agree, he was still the same, he didn't take commercials, endorsements, interviews, and even rarely filmed.But he has received so many awards, honors, and praises, and he can buy such a house in the most expensive place on Green Island.

I have to admit, at this moment, I am jealous of him.

He looked at me worriedly, "Liang Jianhui, are you okay?"

I came back to my senses, rubbed my face vigorously with both hands, returned to normal, forced a smile and said, "It's okay, I just overslept. You brought me back?"

Xie Songhe nodded.

I continued to laugh, "Thank you then, I will treat you to dinner another day."

He looked at me with a little sadness in his eyes and said to me, "If you don't want to laugh, then don't laugh."

I froze my face, turned my head slowly, and hung it down.You can't pretend to be high-spirited, and you can't hide your frustration.

There was no sound in the room, and the two were silent again.

Until I left, Xie Songhe didn't speak again.I really want to thank him for his silence, otherwise I am afraid I will really lose my composure if I speak again.

As an entertainer, you are most afraid of losing your composure in front of outsiders, and you have to keep looking good at all times.

But I don't think I can last long.If this situation continues, I will soon be on the street to the point where I don't know anyone, and who will show me how bright I am then?

I even imagined the worst scenario, nothing more than changing careers to work in an office building.At this moment, I feel a little fortunate that I studied hard and got a diploma from Ludao University, so I can be a stepping stone anyway.

Just when I was preparing for the worst, it suddenly became clear.

For some reason, Yunheng really took a fancy to me and gave me the leading role in a gangster movie.

Green Island's gangster films are world-renowned signs.This time it is still the production of the big cast. The director and screenwriter are all at the top level in the industry, and the actors are all capable. The media counted and counted nearly ten movie stars among the main actors. I don't have a single award.

Amidst the doubts, I went into battle and played Zhong Jianming, one of the leading actors in the movie "Undercover".

This is a two-male lead drama, and it is Xie Songhe who plays the other male lead, Liu Wenhui.

He didn't come on the day of the opening ceremony. Director Xu Fangtao told reporters that he was abroad and would directly join the team.

Xie Songhe didn't come, the reporters' enthusiasm was much less, and the questions were just plain.

Until a reporter asked me a question, he asked, "Is there any pressure to act opposite actor Xie?"

I recognize him, he is the reporter of the well-known paparazzi magazine in Ludao, and they often slander me.But if so, at this time, I still have to answer his question with a good voice, otherwise tomorrow's newspaper will make me bad again. "There is definitely pressure, but I will also carefully study the script and play this role well." I said humbly.

But the reporter still refused to let me go, "Everyone in this drama is at the level of actor, why do you think you should be the leading actor!"

His words were very rude, and the smile on my face couldn't hold back, but I still had to laugh.But I can't speak, why?I can't figure out why.The last time I had dinner with Yunheng, I was so drunk that I didn't have a word with Boss Yuan, so I still can't figure out why.

Fortunately, the host came to interrupt, interrupted the stagnant atmosphere, and brought the topic to the past.

But the story was widely reported the next day.There are many unbearable speculations about me playing the leading role, how ugly it is.

I read the newspaper at home, my eyes were red with anger!Tore up the newspaper and vowed to impress them.

I read the script over and over again, and I have memorized the lines by heart. I have exhausted all the techniques and methods I have learned to shape the role of Zhong Jianming in my heart.

But after turning it on, I found that some things can not be done without hard work.

Zhong Jianming and Xie Song, who I played, and Liu Wenhui, played by me, are characters like two mirrors.Zhong Jianming was born as a young and Dangerous boy, and was sent by his boss to enter the police academy as an undercover agent, while Liu Wenhui was born as a police officer, and went undercover to the police.

If we only talk about the role, the role of Zhong Jianming is more popular. After all, the setting of the young and Dangerous undercover to be a policeman is definitely new to the audience than the police undercover to be a young and Dangerous boy.When I first received the script, I wondered why Xie Songhe wasn't playing Zhong Jianming.

But Rao has a role bonus, when I face Xie Songhe, I still often feel struggling.

He is so good!You have to play against him to experience this kind of power.

Just a few days after starting the machine, I felt very stressed, made frequent mistakes, and was scolded bloody by the director.The directors of Ludao are all short-tempered, with one mouth they can swear more than a street shrew.I was so scolded that my face was flushed, and it was Xie Songhe who pulled me away in the end. When I saw him pulling me away, I turned around and made a gesture of "enough" to the director.

They are both actors, but they are very different.He dared to stop the director like this, but I could only blushed and listened to the director's scolding.

Xie Songhe gave me a bottle of iced Coke, I opened it and drank half of the bottle in one breath, and the hotness in my head gradually subsided.

We were silent for a while before I recovered and thanked him.