i want to see the sun

2019. 9, 8

Insomnia for the first time.

2019. 10, 1

Happy National day!However, I still have insomnia.

2019. 10, 7

Thanks to the blessing of the motherland, I slept soundly last night! ! !

"It turns out that I have suffered from insomnia at this time." Liu Wanzhi blamed herself inwardly.

Qin Yin sent her WeChat a few times in the early morning: Mom, I miss you, I can't sleep.

She got up in the morning and replied: Did you stay up too late?You suffer from insomnia at such a young age?

The key turned into the lock, and with a click, the door opened.

"You are back! Yinyin is like this!"

"What? It's all my fault? I'm busy every day, so why don't you take care of the child at home? Besides, she's already twenty and still so disobedient!" Qin Xian's angry voice was still mixed with exhaustion.

He waved his hand: "I'm too lazy to argue with you!"

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The wind stopped, He Min stood silently for a while, raised her hand and wiped away her tears: "I don't want to, I don't want to." Then she closed the curtains and said "goodbye" softly.

Lin Yuansheng turned around and saw Qin Yin walking towards her, she said in a deliberate way: "Are you okay?" Lin Yuansheng nodded, not forgetting to taunt her: "To your house?"

Qin Yin's eyes widened slightly, and she hurriedly replied, "Why do you still want to go!"

Lin Yuansheng put his hands in his pockets, squinted his eyes and looked at the sky, and said slowly: "You saw it too, I really want to live, so I don't understand why you can't think about committing suicide."

Qin Yin took a deep breath: "I'm different from you. Your life is happy, and you want to be with your mother. As for me, I'm too depressed, and my life is painful. Why? Even after death Face?" Lin Yuansheng looked at her slightly surprised after finishing so many words in one breath.

"it is good."

"Ah? What's the matter?"

Lin Yuansheng approached her suddenly, and whispered something in her ear: "In this case, let's get to know each other." Strange, everyone died.Why does it seem that there is still warm gas spraying on the ear, itching.If I'm still alive, my heart must be beating fast.

Qin Yin blinked.

"Then, Miss Qin Yin, welcome to my life." Lin Yuansheng grabbed Qin Yin's wrist and walked through the crowds and traffic.

On the subway, Qin Yin glared at him angrily.Lin Yuansheng chose to ignore it, put his arms around Qin Yin's shoulders, and said with a smile, "First stop: my childhood."

"The train is about to arrive at Yingchun Road Station, please be careful of the gap between the train and the platform."

Lin Yuansheng approached Qin Yin and asked: Are you ready? "

When the car door opened, Lin Yuansheng directly pulled Qin Yin away.He has long legs and walks fast, his steps are brisk, with the fibers of the wind.This made Qin Yin suffer, and trotted all the way.

Arriving at City No. [-], Qin Yin felt light all over her body, and her soul was about to be torn apart by him.However, Lin Yuansheng showed off excitedly: "How, how, is this not bad?"

On campus, on the playground, children running and frolicking are the most exciting and joyful—that is the youth I can never return to.

Qin Yin read this sentence when she was watching Jane's "Water Questions": "It's like every drop of wine can't return to the original grape, and I can't return to my youth."

"I didn't have this playground when I was in school. The children are so happy now."

Lin Yuansheng looked enviously at the boys playing football.Their school uniforms were bulging by the wind, and there were smiles on the corners of their mouths and brows.

Looking down, he found a small stone at his feet, and Lin Yuansheng wanted to kick it for no reason.Yeah, it's been through.

Qin Yin said in a muffled voice, "You're dead."

"Each each other."

Lin Yuansheng pouted towards the classroom on the first floor to the west: "I was studying there at the time. It's so fun to be a child!"

"Kids are sad too."

Lin Yuansheng turned to look at Qin Yin in doubt: "Look at how happy they are. Children always have a lot of love." After he finished speaking, he couldn't help laughing.

Qin Yin shook her head without saying a word, and walked straight into a small classroom.

The teacher on the podium told the stories in the textbook vividly, and the children in the audience listened attentively, and raised their hands from time to time to speak: "Teacher, teacher, I know!"

Qin Yin noticed that there was a little girl in the corner who was secretly wiping her tears, she didn't dare to cry out loud, and didn't dare to make too much noise, so she could only deal with her emotions quietly.

Lin Yuansheng looked at the little girl and then at the teacher, and said with a smile, "Is she moved?"

Qin Yin shook her head, staring at the little girl who was crying silently.

"Mom and Dad may have had a fight."

Lin Yuansheng felt that Qin Yin was a little sad, subconsciously pulled her to the playground, and said, "Let's watch something happy. Hey, we scored a goal!"

Qin Yin didn't speak, Lin Yuansheng simply recalled his childhood.

"My father left early, so I don't have much impression of him. My mother is the kind of brave and strong woman who earns money at work and takes care of me after get off work. My classmates will laugh at me when they know that I don't have a father."

He paused, then continued: "Children's malice is the purest form of malice. They are not bad people themselves, but in their world, good is good and evil is evil." Hold grudges. I have to play with them in spite of myself, I can't have no friends. Over time, they accepted me."

Lin Yuansheng turned his head and glanced at Qin Yin who was beside him. She was still very quiet, her eyes were drooping, and her eyelashes trembled slightly.

"Qin Yin, are you unhappy?"

Qin Yin froze for a moment, and slightly tugged at the skirt with her fingers.

After a long silence, she replied: "I try to be happy, but most of the time I am sad."

Lin Yuan smiled and stroked her hair.

"Don't think too much, they're all dead. Come on, look at me and smile. Qin Yin, look at me."

Qin Yin couldn't resist him, she raised her head and stared at him, pulling out a faint smile.

"You look so pretty when you smile, like a spring flower."

Qin Yin's face was covered with black lines.

How long has it been since I laughed, I don't know.