i want to see the sun

Qin Yin's body froze, and her face felt a little hot.Lin Yuansheng stretched out his hand towards her and grinned: "Let's go, Miss Qin Yin, go to the third stop."

Qin Yin put her hand in his palm without hesitation, and he gently held it.

"Where?"

Lin Yuansheng rarely answered, and led her to the destination.

They were leaning against the traffic light, and the flower shop was just across the road from where they were. "My mother is a gentle and strong woman. She likes flowers very much. Every birthday, I buy her a bouquet of carnations."

Lin Yuansheng's voice was low and deep, obviously mixed with sadness.

"Three years ago, it was her birthday. As usual, I bought a bouquet of carnations, and when I came out, there was a car accident."

Lin Yuan stomped on the ground next to him, and said in a muffled voice, "I'm here, I'm dead." Qin Yin pressed his palm, not knowing what to say, and suddenly understood what he said by the seaside, "I'm not with you." Same, I was an accident", understood why he said to He Min, "It's okay to buy flowers, you like it".

Qin Yin's eyes were moist, and she held Lin Yuansheng's hand tightly.

What kind of gentleness and strength, he chose to forgive the world, chose to tell his mother "it's okay" with a smile with these memories.

Qin Yin couldn't help apologizing: "I'm sorry." However, her heart was even more bitter, and she felt sorry for him.

"Why, you didn't hit me." Lin Yuansheng felt a little funny.

"No, I apologize to you on behalf of this world. You, you should have lived a good life, what a good person you are." Qin Yin bit her lip, a tear fell down, and wet the front of her clothes.

Lin Yuansheng turned his head away, closed his eyes, and choked up: "You know, how much I want to live well. My mother, my mother is alone, and I really can't bear it. Qin Yin, I really want to live. I hate him , killed me. I also envy those fresh lives."

As soon as Qin Yin let go of her hand, she hugged Lin Yuansheng directly.Both of them stopped talking, hugged silently, and waited silently for the passage of time.

After a long time, Lin Yuansheng withdrew his hand, recovered his emotions, and joked, "Hands are sore."

"Qin Yin, let's go back."

"it is good."

Walked over the Naihe Bridge again, this time, Qin Yin had to hold Lin Yuansheng's hand.

"what?"

"Hold hands."

After walking into the Fushen Building, Lin Yuansheng turned his face slightly and said to Qin Yin: "I have to see my mother."

"what?"

The two walked into that room, and the middle-aged uncle was still sitting at the table.Seeing the scene of the two holding hands, he joked: "Lin Yuansheng is fine, he can make a girlfriend."

Qin Yin was slightly embarrassed, but still didn't take back her hand.

Lin Yuansheng cleared his throat and said to him: "We agreed at the beginning that I will work with you for three years. You promise me that I will see my mother again."

The middle-aged uncle sat up straight and nodded: "There is such a thing, exactly three years."

*******

It was nine o'clock in the evening, He Min came back from chatting at the house next door, opened the door and saw the empty house, feeling empty in her heart.Take off your shoes, change them, pack your bags, wash up and get ready for bed.Passing by his son's room, He Min still felt sad and sad.Three years later, I still can't get out of that grief.

"Good night, Yuansheng."

He Min entered her bedroom, turned on the light, climbed into bed, turned off the light, closed her eyes, and fell asleep.After some time, I fell asleep.

"Mom, are you there?" There was a voice in the dream that sounded very familiar.In the dream, He Min walked forward, surrounded by a vast expanse of whiteness.

He Min searched for the source of that voice, and suddenly found his son's figure.He was still tall and thin, wearing a white T-shirt, looking at himself with a smile.

"Yuansheng!" He Min ran over and hugged Lin Yuansheng, tears filled his eyes.Lin Yuansheng rested his chin lightly on He Min's shoulder, and said with a choked voice, "Mom, are you okay?"

"What do you think? Mom misses you every day. Mom really misses you."

He Min hammered his son's chest and cried loudly, "Why are you willing to leave mom alone?"

Lin Yuansheng didn't dodge, and let He Min vent.He Min's heart ached within a few strokes, sobbing and crying.Lin Yuansheng took He Min's hand and said with a smile: "Mom, listen to me. You must take care of your health and be healthy. If you want to travel, you can travel. It's fine to spend all your pension when the time comes. When you buy flowers, buy them, don’t make trouble with them because of me. Chat more with your neighbors, and uncles and aunts will take good care of you. Do more things you like and live for yourself. My son is not filial and cannot accompany you. Son I kneel down for you."

Lin Yuansheng knelt down in front of He Min and bowed three times.Firstly, I would like to thank my mother for giving birth, secondly, I would like to thank my mother for her upbringing, and thirdly, I wish my mother a healthy and peaceful life.

Holding back tears, He Min helped Lin Yuansheng up.Lin Yuansheng raised his hand to wipe away the tears from the corners of He Min's eyes, leaned into her ear and whispered, "Also, I met a girl..."

He Min didn't wake up until the morning light came in through the curtains and sprinkled on He Min's face.Touching the pillow with his hand, it was wet, only to realize that tears were streaming down his face.

******

Qin Yin waited for Lin Yuansheng outside, pacing lightly.The door opened, and Lin Yuansheng came out, looking at Qin Yin who was waiting, his heart warmed slightly.

"How is it? Did you see Auntie?" Qin Yin stepped forward to ask, staring at Lin Yuansheng without blinking.

Lin Yuansheng rubbed Qin Yin's head and nodded.

"You wait for me at the gate first, and I'll get something."

"Oh. Come quickly then."

Qin Yin leaned against the door frame, recalling the scene when Lin Yuansheng was leaning here and joking with herself.Ah, I was really scared of him.With her toes lightly tapping the ground, she waited quietly for him.

The sound of "Ding Lingling" caught Qin Yin's attention, and Lin Yuansheng pushed a bicycle towards him.He seems to be able to shine, he seems to walk with the wind, his whole body is full of youthful vigor, and there are smiles on the corners of his brows and eyes.

This kind of him moved her heart the most.

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