Jellyfish under cherry blossoms

On the morning of the New Year's Eve, the business district has already begun to be lively. Red lanterns are hung in an orderly manner on the side of the road, swaying in the breeze, and the streets are full of elements full of New Year's flavor. Lin Liunian looked at everyone who passed by him , with smiles on their faces.

Some parts of his body are still uncomfortable. He should have been lying on the bed. The matter of buying new year's goods is not so urgent, but he let himself out for this reason and came here.

He didn't enter any shopping malls, but just walked aimlessly, completely opposite to the hurried pedestrians on the road, and the images of last night did not flash in his mind.

They all drank and kept arguing until late at night. This was the first time he and Lu Chuyuan had sex.He laughed self-deprecatingly, no one would believe what he said, the two of them have lived together for so many years, the worst thing they did was just kiss.

What happened last night made all the difference, not between the two of them, but something inside him that he wouldn't admit to.

There was nothing to regret, they were all adults, they did what they did, and what really occupied Lin Liunian's mind was not those intertwined images, but the person who was briefly mentioned once last night.

Gu Kong.

This made Lin Liunian even more guilty.

Lu Chuyuan was right, maybe, he chose to audit this industry, precisely because he heard that this industry is 365 days a year, minus the odds, he travels on business.

He wanted to hide from Lu Chuyuan, to escape from something.

Because of Gu Kong, he loves Gu Kong.

This is what Lu Chuyuan said.

But Lin Liunian didn't think he was still in love with anyone, maybe he never loved in the first place, he didn't love Gu Kong, that's what Lu Chuyuan told him.

Before he knew it, Lin Liunian had already sat down on a bench by the street, next to a couple who were arguing about buying new year's goods.

He closed his eyes and didn't want to think about it any more. He felt that his brain could figure out the knowledge points of all the compulsory subjects of ACCA, but he couldn't figure out the complicated lines between people. Whether it exists or not, whether it is true or not, whether you like it or not, whether you love it or not, it is too difficult to define.

Even so, he still couldn't completely forget the name.

He is such a person, love and letting go are not thorough.

Lin Liunian cast his eyes on the crowd as if in a daze, and attracted passers-by to look back. The phone rang suddenly, and he remembered that Lu Chuyuan was still awake when he went out in the morning. He didn't know that he was out shopping, and he forgot Leave him a note.

Lin Liunian quickly connected, "Chuyuan—"

"Hello? Liunian, where are you?" Lu Chuyuan's voice was urgent, and Lin Liunian could feel how anxious and frightened he was at this moment.

Liu Nian said: "It's in the commercial street. It's Chinese New Year's Eve today. Let's go out and buy some New Year's goods."

On the other side of the phone, Lu Chuyuan breathed a sigh of relief, lowered his voice, and said, "Why didn't you wake me up together? I thought you..."

Lin Liunian smiled: "What do you think? Do you think I left without saying goodbye? Am I so heartless?"

When Lu Chuyuan heard him joking, his tone really relaxed, and he said, "Don't make trouble."

Lin Liunian said: "Okay, I apologize to you, I should wake you up, without you, I don't know how many sympathetic looks I have received from passers-by."

Lu Chuyuan said: "Are you sure it's not a salivating gaze?"

Lin Liunian smiled.

Lu Chuyuan said, "Where are you? I'll come here now."

Lin Liunian refused: "No, I'll be back soon, you cook something first, I'm hungry."

Lu Chuyuan said: "If you haven't bought it yet, don't buy it. I'll accompany you in the afternoon. Come back and have a rest and eat something."

Lin Liunian recalled the scene from last night, nodded, "Yeah."

"Call me if you need anything, and wait for you to come back."

Lin Liunian hung up the phone and was about to go back. When he got up, his eyes were dark and his blood sugar was a little low. He thought it was better to go back directly.

It was obvious that he was going back the same way, but Lin Liunian still felt that he had gone the wrong way again. There were not so many people here. He looked up and saw a cafe. The logo was a jellyfish pattern drawn with one stroke, and there were only two words next to it—— Empty, year.

In an instant, memories rushed to him like a tide, and he felt the palpitations that he hadn't experienced for many years again, and all the strength in his body was drained in an instant, and he became inexplicably nervous.

The first time he met Gu Kong was during the swearing-in meeting in high school. He was a sophomore in high school that year. The swearing-in meeting had nothing to do with him, but he followed him to the playground out of curiosity that day. I don't know which profession is a chicken blood expert, but I am curious, let the girls in my class, the class next door, and the class next door push tables and pull stools and rush to the playground to watch.

This kind of group action is very contagious. He was still thinking about whether to continue to catch up on sleep or to find out, but he was dragged away by curious babies in the class who didn't know the truth.

They, the non-graduating class, mixed in with the third-year crowd, followed them to the playground, and when all the third-year students were seated, the rest of the unorganized ones were blown away by the grade director, so there were many more heads outside the fence of the playground.

Lin Liunian heard a few words on the way, probably because in this swearing-in meeting, in addition to the preacher, there is also a senior who graduated from the school and is now studying at the university to come and give a speech, encouraging the juniors to study hard.

This is Lin Liunian's own summary. Most of what he actually heard were extremely exaggerated and nymphomaniac compliments to that senior. He probably knew what was going on, but even though he knew it was such a boring thing, But it had already been pulled out, and he didn't bother to turn back halfway, it was just an exercise between classes.

The curious baby who didn't know the truth and pulled him out was Lu Chuyuan, and he didn't know what was going on yet.

No, maybe Chuyuan knew, Lin Liunian thought, he came here because he knew, Chuyuan liked boys, he had told him already.

He thinks it's nothing, Lu Chuyuan is his best friend, even if he likes a dog, he can bite the bullet...Wake him up.

Emotional matters are indifferent to him. One day, Lu Chuyuan suddenly told him that his so-called weak emotional perception ability made sense to him, otherwise there would be no reasonable explanation.

This does not prevent him from understanding some things. After all, the book says that love is the mutual attraction between two souls, so he fully supports Lu Chuyuan's choice.

No matter what, the swearing-in meeting is very important for senior high school students. It is an important time point, which means that they are only [-] days away from the college entrance examination, which means that life is about to enter the next stage of the journey, and it means that parting is coming soon. On this day, they will temporarily forget their heavy schoolwork, join the crowd, vent loudly the complex emotions accumulated in their hearts, make a promise for themselves, promise to work hard, and never let it down.

Lin Liunian only saw the dull aura floating over the venue.

Could it be that his third year of high school is also coming to participate in such boring activities?

In his trance, the opening remarks were over, and a boy slowly walked out of the rostrum. He was tall, wearing a white shirt and black trousers. The approaching sun is dazzling.

There was a commotion inside and outside the arena, and the eyes of the audience were all staring at the dazzling reflected light falling on him. Lin Liunian turned his eyes away and thought to himself that today is the incandescent sun, which is very dazzling. Why does this man have to wear a suit? White shirt, do you want to blind people's eyes? Isn't Master Chicken Blood wearing an amiable black suit?

After that, he never looked at the rostrum again, but when he left the playground, he heard the clean voice of the man on the radio.

"A person's life is really too short. It is so short that we are already controlled by fate before we have time to grasp it. We move forward in a hurry, always putting the most important things aside, thinking that turning around is just a matter of time." I can see, but when I stop again, I can’t grasp anything. What I do in life is to try to feel everything that is real and far away..."

On the stage, Gu Kong's eyes followed a person behind the fence who turned around and walked towards the teaching building, and that person never looked back from the beginning to the end.

"Hi, what do you need?"

Lin Liunian couldn't help walking in. There were very few people in the coffee shop. There were a few people sitting in twos and typing facing each other, sipping coffee from time to time. There was only one man at the front desk, in his thirties, with a light beard and a sharp silhouette. Hard, with very gentle eyes, probably the boss here.

Lin Liunian said, "Let's espresso."

After speaking, he wanted to find a place to sit down, but the man cast his gaze on him again.

"Lin Liunian?"

Lin Liunian turned to look at him: "You know me?"

The boss mixed a glass of espresso, sat opposite Lin Liunian, and said, "You may not know me, but I have seen your photo. My name is Zhou Sheng, and I am Gu Kong's college classmate."

Lin Liunian took the coffee and twirled the porcelain cup with his fingers, lowered his eyes and said, "Sorry, I don't remember clearly, I probably haven't seen you before."

After all, the time he spent with Gu Kong was too short, so that they didn't have time to get to know each other's relatives and friends.

Zhou Sheng smiled: "It's okay, it's been so many years, are you married?"

"Huh?" Lin Liunian didn't know why, so he followed Zhou Sheng's gaze to look at his left ring finger, and there was an elegant and simple ring on his finger, and he only saw it now.

Lin Liunian pressed the ring with his right hand and turned it around. Lu Chuyuan should have put it on for him last night. He didn't answer this question. He looked around and asked, "Do you own this store?"

Zhou Sheng smiled and said, "How should I put it, I am the current owner of this store, but in the beginning, Brother Kong opened it, otherwise I am an outsider, and using your two names as the store name is somewhat perverted."

Seeing Lin Liunian's gaze paused, Zhou Sheng said again: "Sorry, I won't mention this. Although we haven't met, we are also alumni after all. I'm still your senior. I bought coffee, so I'll treat it as—"

"He, is he okay?"

Lin Liunian lowered his head and stirred the coffee in his hand, interrupted him, and looked up to see a slight shock in Zhou Sheng's eyes.

Zhou Sheng paused, and asked, "You mean Gu Kong?"

Lin Liunian was a little puzzled by his rhetorical question, but he still nodded and said, "Yes."

Zhou Sheng took a deep breath, and his voice was a little heavy: "He passed away a long time ago."

"Bam—"

The handle of the cup was not steady, and the coffee spilled all over the table. Lin Liunian frantically took out a paper towel to wipe it, and said to himself, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Zhou Sheng stood up to help him tidy up. He saw Lin Liunian's hands trembling slightly. Lin Liunian stopped slowly, put his hands under the table, and asked, "What did you just say?"

Looking at him, Zhou Sheng felt distressed and surprised, and asked, "You don't know? Didn't Lu Chuyuan tell you?"

Lin Liunian opened his eyes wide: "Did he already know?"

Zhou Sheng probably understood, and felt uncomfortable for a moment, and finally he sighed and said, "Don't blame him, you know that the person he cares about most is you, and he chose not to tell you because he didn't want you to be sad. "

Afterwards, Lin Liunian didn't remember how to get out of that cafe, but kept replaying some scenes in his mind.

He asked Zhou Sheng, "Did his condition worsen?"

Zhou Sheng shook his head: "It was an accident. There was a car accident and he died on the spot."

What Gu Kong himself said was all played out on him. His life had already been taken back more than half, and he was still controlled by fate. Before the incurable disease could kill him, he lost to an accident.

Looking at the sky, he suddenly felt that he was ridiculous, everything in the past was ridiculous, or in other words, fate itself was ridiculous.