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Lin Zhishen wanted to take Rong Xiao to the Seventh Hospital.

He had checked that the Seventh Hospital was a top three psychiatric hospital in city A, and it was still authoritative.

But he saw in the official account that the expert account was fully booked in the past week, and it was impossible to see an expert clinic as soon as possible.

He asked at home, and his father said that he could ask a friend to ask, and finally found an expert to add, and the time to see a doctor is Friday.

It was Rong Xiao's birthday that day.

Lin Zhishen persuaded the stubborn Rong Xiao to go to the Seventh Courtyard.

"That's a doctor, not a devil. They won't want to harm you. They are the only ones who can save you in this world." Lin Zhishen's expression was full of worry, "Would you like to go and see with me? It's just for me. I don't want to The fear went on. Do you know how much you scare me."

Rong Xiao was silent for a long time, and finally agreed to take a look.

It has to be said that his condition has indeed exceeded his imagination, not only depression, but also persecution paranoia, he often feels that others are trying to harm him.

Lin Zhishen also has contact with Rong Ma.He said they were going to the hospital. She supported her and offered to pay him some medical expenses.

He didn't have the nerve to refuse directly, and only said that he had been to the hospital.

The night before going, Bai Xun came over, and Rong Xiao was lying in bed unable to get up.

Bai Xun walked under his bed and said, "Xiaoxiao, what's the matter with you recently, you look very listless, and you're going to bed so early now?"

Rong Xiao opened the bed curtain to look at him, and said weakly, "I've been really bad lately."

In fact, during the winter vacation, Rong Xiao mentioned his illness to him on WeChat, and Bai Xun said that he would get better, and sent an emoji of stroking the cat's head.

Rong Xiao felt that he couldn't understand, so he understated it so lightly.Of course he can't ask everyone to understand.

Bai Xun was still so full of vigor, and said: "You can't be so pessimistic, you have to cheer up and live hard. Many depression patients have come out of it by their own efforts. You have to believe that the world is still very beautiful."

Rong Xiao felt that the phrase "the world is beautiful" was harsh.

Lin Zhishen gave Bai Xun a wink, telling him to stop talking.

They took the subway and took a taxi there on Friday afternoon.

Rong Xiao probably also knew that he had to see a doctor because of his condition, he was not as resistant as before, but he seemed a little anxious when he was sitting in the lobby waiting for his number to be called.

He went for a few laps in the park outside the outpatient building.

People from the Seventh Academy came and went, and the entire hall was full of people.A patient screamed suddenly at the stairs and was taken away by medical staff.

Lin Zhishen thought that there were only a few mentally ill patients, but when he came to the hospital, he realized that there were really many of them, and many of them were young people.

Finally it was their turn, Lin Zhishen called Rong Xiao back and went to the consulting room.

When Rong Xiao told the doctor about his medical history and illness, he seemed very relaxed, and even seemed to open up the chatterbox, giving Lin Zhishen the feeling that "someone can finally understand my illness".

He was in a state of excitement again.

At this moment, Lin Zhishen suddenly felt that he might not be able to understand Rong Xiao with the thinking of a normal person.

Experts believe that Rong Xiao is not depression, but bipolar disorder, and it is a rapid cycle type-they are assigned to the depression department, but she also happens to be good at treating bipolar disorder.

She asked Rong Xiao to stay in the hospital for a week of observation and do various physical examinations, but Rong Xiao didn't really want to.

"Can you listen to what the doctor said?! Don't you know how sick you are?" Lin Zhishen became angry immediately, and dragged him to the first floor to go through the hospitalization procedures.

It was during the observation period, so Rong Xiao lived in an ordinary single room, which was open and relatively free.The condition is also good, clean and tidy.

Sitting on the hospital bed, Rong Xiao looked at the white walls and the green windows, and felt a sense of peace and security for a long time.

Lin Zhishen called Rong's mother to explain the situation. Rong's mother was very anxious, and immediately said that she had asked for leave, and said that she had to go home to pack her luggage.

He also helped Rong Xiao take five days off, and wanted to take it for himself, but the counselor refused and asked him to go back to class, saying that Rong Xiao's family would take care of him.

He thought about it, there was only one accompanying bed, and after Rong's mother came, he really had to go back to school to live.

Although he only stayed for a week, he still helped Rong Xiao buy some daily necessities in the form of "ordering takeaway".

In the afternoon, the doctor next to the expert came to inquire about the situation, and Lin Zhishen asked a more concerned question: "Doctor, how long will it take for him to be cured?"

"Let's take the medicine for two years to see the situation." The doctor said, "Only when the condition is stable can we consider reducing the medicine slowly."

Lin Zhishen thought, two years is already long enough.

Soon after, Rong Xiao's parents rushed to the hospital together.

Lin Zhishen chatted with them for more than half an hour, clearly expressing his thoughts, asking them to think twice before speaking, and not to be impulsive, Rong Xiao is very sensitive and fragile now.

They said yes.

Rong Xiao's five-year medical history and what he learned from Lin Zhishen had already prepared them mentally, but Rong's mother still couldn't help crying.

Rong Xiao took out a tissue and gave it to her, surprisingly calm.

In the evening, they ate meals from the hospital cafeteria, which were ordered by scanning the QR code and delivered.

After eating, Lin Zhishen went out for a while, brought back a fruit cake, put it on the foldable plastic table of the hospital bed, and inserted electronic birthday candles.

"Xiaoxiao, happy 21st birthday."

"So I'm only 21 years old." Rong Xiao murmured, with the light of the candles in his eyes.

Lin Zhishen couldn't see whether there was light in his eyes, and promised: "I will spend every birthday with you. You need to get well soon."

The four of them definitely couldn't finish eating the cake, and Lin Zhishen also sent it to the nurses.

Open wards also have visiting hours, Lin Zhishen can't stay too late.When he left with Dad Rong, he said to Rong Xiao: "If you have anything to do, you can send me a message, and I will come to see you if I have nothing to do."

Rong Xiao nodded and said "OK".

After Lin Zhishen went back, he saw that Rong Xiao had transferred him more than 3000 yuan, which should be for medical expenses, and obviously gave a little more.He thought about it and accepted it.

Lin Chang asked him where he was, where was Rong Xiao?

He only said that Rong Xiao was not in good health and was temporarily hospitalized, but he would be back in a week.

He tossed and turned at night and couldn't sleep, so he read the Q&A and information about bipolar disorder, and the more he read it, the more he felt heavy in his heart.

This disease is far more serious than he imagined - high recurrence rate, high suicide rate, patients have to endure unimaginable pain.

Some people call this disease "genius disease", because many people with this disease are very talented in art.Composers like Schumann and painters Van Gogh suffered from this disease.

Bipolar disorder is also called manic depression.

Rong Xiao made plans desperately, not because he was very self-disciplined, but because of a manic episode.He had both mania and depression.

The doctor said that Rong Xiao is a fast-cycling type because his depression and mania are alternating rapidly.

It is said on the Internet that the treatment time varies from person to person, and it is difficult to say an exact time.No wonder the doctor only said to take medicine for two years to see.

And it may relapse even if it is cured.It means that even if the disease is cured, Rong Xiao will be closely watched.

He shouldn't have indulged Xiao Xiao, he should have taken Rong Xiao to a specialist hospital long ago.His understanding of mental illness is too shallow.

He was a little depressed, so he called his mother the next morning and talked to her a lot.

He has always been an optimistic character who reports good news but not bad news, but for so many years, he still trusts his mother, and will talk to his mother when he feels lost and helpless.

Lin's mother said: "Son, as your mother, I hope you can think clearly. If you choose to continue to be with him, you will be under a lot of psychological pressure. You are you first, and then you are Rong Xiao's boyfriend. "

"Also, if you give up on him halfway because you can't bear the pressure, it will hurt him more than giving up now. But whether you choose to stay together or break up, your father and I support you."

"Thank you mom, you know my choice." Lin Zhishen said, "I'm not overwhelmed with sympathy, I really love him. Even if he becomes a porcelain doll that needs to be taken care of in the future, I will not regret it."

After that, he went to the hospital every day.

Bai Xun and Lin Qingqing originally wanted to come together, but because the visit process was a bit troublesome, and Rong Xiao needed to rest, the Rong family had already declined visits from relatives and friends.

Lin Zhishen told them: "When chatting with him online, you'd better be more cautious. Don't always try to comfort him. You can't understand his world at all, and you might irritate him instead."

For the first three days, Rong Xiao's emotions were normal.

He gets up and goes to bed on time every day, takes medicine and drips, communicates with experts and doctors who make ward rounds, and listens to arrangements for physical examinations.

He was able to sleep normally, and his high-speed brain slowed down.Lin Zhishen felt that his condition had finally stabilized, thank God.

Who knows that he will be bad again later.

Rong Xiao suddenly didn't want to stay in the hospital anymore.This closed environment made him feel depressed, and he wanted to be discharged from the hospital.Mother Rong was helpless.

When Lin Zhishen received the news from Rong's mother, he rushed to the hospital immediately. After coaxing him for a long time, he finally recovered.

One day after the expert's ward rounds, he said that a seminar would be held in the intensive care unit in the afternoon, and suggested that Rong Xiao also come.

Lin Zhishen accompanied him to the door, and he followed the expert inside.

The expert led him through several doors to the interior. He felt that the whole atmosphere was oppressive. The fluorescent lamps on the ceiling brightened the dim space, and there was a small TV set high above.

He has heard that people in the intensive care unit are not allowed to bring mobile phones.

Walking along the way, Rong Xiao found that each ward was very large, with multiple beds in it.

The experts took him to a large room, asked him to sit among a group of critically ill patients in hospital gowns, and guided everyone to communicate together.

The girl next to Rong Xiao kept smiling at him, gloomily.She said he looked familiar, was it someone from the previous intensive care unit.

She talked a lot and kept interrupting the expert, who had to remind her to be quiet for a while.

She agreed, but couldn't help but talk later.

Some patients' speeches were either extreme, sad, gloomy, or hopeless.Among them are students from key universities, as well as mothers of children.

The rest remained silent.

At that time, he was in a trance and couldn't tell what mood he was in. He just thought that he was at least better than their situation.

After Rong Xiao was sent out by the experts, he saw Lin Zhishen sitting on a chair in the corridor waiting for him, already falling asleep.

For the first time, he noticed that Lin Zhishen was pale and haggard, so he pushed him lightly, Lin Zhishen woke up quickly, and hugged his waist tightly.

"Recently, I have seen a lot of cases, and I was too scared. I had a dream. I watched you jump from the [-]th floor, and I couldn't catch you."

"Can you live well? I really don't ask you to be cured or act like a normal person. I just hope you live well."

Lin Zhishen hugged him tightly in the corridor without anyone else, weeping silently.