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The author has something to say: All the cases mentioned in the whole novel are real, and they are not taken from the Internet.I still want to emphasize, [Don't learn], you must follow the doctor's advice and take medicine.In addition, many "exaggerated" plots are adapted from real events.

When Rong Xiao arrived at the community shown in the location, Bai Xun picked him up at the door and took him to his aunt's house.

They slept in the room of Bai Xun's cousin, who was working in another city and hadn't come back recently.

Rong Xiao told Lin Zhishen, Lin Zhishen said he knew, and suggested that he go out with Bai Xun.

Bai Xun's aunt and uncle didn't come home from get off work until evening, and made dinner for them.After the meal, they insisted not to entertain, and the two elders went out to play.

Bai Xun received a WeChat message from his friend, chatted a few words, and said to Rong Xiao: "A friend invited me to a bar, you can come with me."

Rong Xiao felt that his emotions were not stable yet, and his body was very uncomfortable, so he said, "No, you can go by yourself."

"You can sit over there. You don't need to drink, just order some food."

"I'm really uncomfortable, and it's hard to sit there, and now I just want to lie down."

Bai Xun immediately said: "If you don't go, I won't go either. I can't let you stay at home alone."

"I will feel very guilty if you do this. You go, I just want to lie down for a while." He declined.

Bai Xun thought for a while, and brought the topic back to the original point, "You should come with me, you can sit over there, it's fine."

He insisted on changing Rong Xiao's mind and kept persuading her.

Rong Xiao wanted to endure it, but he really couldn't, and said: "Can you respect me a little? I told you that I was very uncomfortable, can't you understand this sentence?"

He looked at Bai Xun's stunned expression, said "I'm sorry", went to the balcony to calm down, and closed the glass door.

Bai Xun was frightened to death, so he called Lin Zhishen and explained the situation.

Lin Zhishen was speechless for a while, and said: "At this time, you should say - 'Okay, then you have a good rest', why do you insist on letting him go with you? He can't drink too."

"I didn't think much about it. I was worried that he would be bored at home alone, and it would be better to go out to play. I didn't expect him to be angry."

"It's okay, I can't blame you. Because of his illness, his mood has not been stable for a while." Lin Zhishen said, "Don't make him feel guilty, just go and play by yourself. I'll call him later."

Bai Xun agreed, went to open the glass door, and said to Rong Xiao who was staring out of the balcony in a daze, "Xiaoxiao, I'll go by myself, if you need something, call me, is that okay?"

Rong Xiao turned around and said to Bai Xun, "Go, be careful."

Bai Xun left.

He went to take a hot shower, and when he returned to his room to pick up the mobile phone on the table, he realized that Lin Zhishen had made a voice call, and he called back.

After a few rings, Lin Zhishen answered it.

Rong Xiao explained: "I was taking a shower just now, so I didn't bring my phone into the bathroom."

"Good. Are you in a good mood?"

"I always wish my parents and friends would be more understanding, but my expectations seem to be too high."

Rong Xiao continued: "I don't expect my parents to add to my good times, and I don't expect them to give me help when I'm not good. I just hope that they hurt me less. Some negative emotions are brought by them."

"I understand, I will have a good chat with them." Lin Zhishen said.

Every time he heard Lin Zhishen's voice, he felt more at ease.He is now emotionally unstable, the main reason is that Lin Zhishen is not by his side.

They talked a lot.Rong Xiao asked about her grandmother, Lin Zhishen said that everything was fine, and she was very open-minded and did not object to their affairs.

Lin Zhishen said he was worried about him, and kept calling him tonight until he fell asleep, or Bai Xun came back.

Tired of chatting, Rong Xiao quietly swiped his phone for a while.

A question-and-answer software suggested bipolar-related content to him, probably because he had searched recently.He saw a girl's self-report.

She suffered from school violence in junior high school, first suffered from severe depression and then bipolar disorder.But when she was in high school, she met good friends and her condition began to ease.

In the second semester of her sophomore year, because her grandfather who loved her the most passed away, her bipolar relapse had always been serious, but no one in her family cared about her—her father was violent and addicted to gambling, and her mother also suffered from depression.

Later, the ex-boyfriend who had been talking for three years cheated on his ex-girlfriend. Now the boyfriend doesn't understand her at all, and they often quarrel.

She said: "I often doubt myself whether the problem is really big, and then I fall into the vicious circle of self-blame. I ask myself, every time I quarrel, is it really for the matter itself, or is it competing with my own expectations."

She also said: "People like us are cautious about dating, maybe it will be a disaster for the disease."

Rong Xiao thought, Lin Zhishen rarely troubled him, and most of the time he was his spiritual support.

But not everyone is Lin Zhishen, and many partners don't have this kind of patience.For people with mental illness, being alone and not understood is the norm.

He has really experienced the feeling of not being understood by anyone and fighting alone.

Until now, his parents don't understand him either.Lin Zhishen can't fully empathize with him, but he loves him very much.

The Lin family also cared about him. Father Lin helped to contact the doctor, and Mother Lin and Lin Qingqing often came to inquire about the current situation.At school, the counselor would call him in for a heart-to-heart talk.

Bai Xun also didn't understand, but he was very kind. As soon as he heard that he was not good, he immediately called him many times and wanted to come to him.

Compared with this girl, compared with his own back then, his current situation is really good.

"Brother Shen, if I knew at that time that my disease has a high recurrence rate and is so complicated, I would definitely stay away from you." Rong Xiao said, "Neither my family nor I have paid attention to this disease. Don't know what bipolar means."

"I didn't blame you. Don't always have the idea of ​​self-blame. Have you found that you always blame yourself after you get sick, which is not good for the disease. Moreover, no one said that people with mental illness must be love insulators .”

Lin Zhishen paused, "Tell me the truth, do you often feel anxious and insecure? I saw someone describe their symptoms like this."

"There will be."

"If you don't feel well at home, I'll pick you up after I return to City A. Can you stay at my house for a few months? I'll discuss it with my uncle and aunt."

Currently, only Lin Zhishen can make him feel better.

Later, Lin Zhishen urged him to take medicine, and soon he fell asleep, not even knowing when Bai Xun would come back.

In the next few days, Rong Xiao's parents called and sent WeChat messages to persuade him to go home, but he didn't think much of it.

The days at Bai Xun's aunt's house were also boring, so he went out with Bai Xun when his mood stabilized.

Bai Xun loves to play very much, so he took him to many online celebrity shops in City A to check in.

Lin Zhishen repeatedly emphasized that Rong Xiao should eat lightly, absolutely not let him drink carbonated drinks, wine, coffee and strong tea, and remind him to take medicine sooner or later.

Before at home, Father Rong would remind Rong Xiao.

Bai Xun said he knew it and remembered it, and he was still a little impatient, but Lin Zhishen was still worried, so he still called himself, one morning and one evening.

One night when he came back from playing, Bai Xun asked Rong Xiao, "Xiaoxiao, are you in a better mood?"

Rong Xiao answered honestly: "I can't feel happiness. I haven't felt happy for a long time."

It's strange, he thought that taking the medicine would relieve the pain, but it didn't, because the brain was slow, he couldn't do anything, and the condition made him anxious and miserable.

All he could feel was an unquenchable depression.

Before going to bed, he saw the news from Persimmon, and Persimmon asked him if he could take the song. He said that he was sick and had no interest in recording songs.

"Ah? How did this happen. Can you tell me what the disease is?"

"bipolar disorder."

Persimmon replied, "Me too. I didn't make a song for a year because of my bipolar disorder."

"Have you been on medication?"

"I didn't take medicine, I thought taking medicine would make my brain stupid, so I carried it for a year. During that year, I was afraid of any music, and I was afraid of social interaction, so I uninstalled all software... But don't learn Me, I'm often bad now, I just don't show it online."

Rong Xiao suddenly figured out why he always felt bad after taking the medicine, it was because the medicine was controlling his thinking.

The next day he received news that his mother said that she had learned a lot from Lin Zhishen, and she would never say such things again.

It's not easy for his mother to be submissive to this point.He also calmed down, he was embarrassed to disturb other people's house all the time, so he bid farewell to Bai Xun and went home.

After returning home, he was not good, very bad, the feeling of being so depressed that he couldn't vent, and he couldn't do anything to divert his attention, it was too painful-he was not interested in anything during this period, even playing with his mobile phone Don't want to.

Lin Zhishen could only comfort him, but could not hug him.

He would rather be manic, and would rather not be able to sleep at night, than not feel a little happiness like he is now.

It's more uncomfortable now than before.

Without telling everyone, he stopped the medicine without authorization.

In the two days after the drug was stopped, he felt that his thinking had returned to normal, and he was in a very good state, and even started planning to go to the S University summer camp.

In fact, he did all the preparations when he was in school.

However, in the next few days, his condition became more and more wrong. He couldn't sleep, his spirit was very poor, his headache was splitting, and his heart was beating very fast.

His parents looked worried.

At this time, his grandma found out about the situation and said that there might be "dirty things" on Rong Xiao, so she found a master for their family.

His grandma came from the countryside and had heard a lot of ghost stories, so she believed it more.

Because of his illness for so many years, Rong Xiao's parents have already weakened their psychological defenses, so they think it's just a matter of spending some money.

Mama Rong also heard that a person suffered from severe depression, and after getting rid of the "dirty things" by an experienced old man, he gradually got better.

Rong Xiao didn't believe this, and he didn't want to be "exorcized", so he had another fight with his parents, because he was too emotional and his head hurt, and he was exhausted.

He sent a message to Lin Zhishen, and Lin Zhishen said that he was coming to City A soon and would come over immediately.

Lin Zhishen also persuaded Rong's mother on the phone, and she insisted on watching it.

After the master entered the house, he checked Feng Shui first, saying that the full-length mirror on the cabinet in his room had to be covered, and then recited the scriptures for him many times, in front of, beside and behind him.

At that time, Rong Xiao had no strength to resist.

There was a knock on the door, and mother Rong went to answer it.

Lin Zhishen stood outside, said "Hello, Auntie", and "Hello, Uncle" after entering the door, but his expression was not at all grim.

The master collected the money and left, and his parents let him take him to the elevator, and then turned back.

Lin Zhishen almost laughed out of anger, "Uncle and Auntie, if exorcism is useful, why do you need a psychiatrist?"

"We are also concerned." Father Rong said.

"Uncles and aunts, I have always wanted to ask you, when he suffered from school violence in junior high school, and when he suffered from severe depression and bipolar disorder in the past five years, why couldn't you care more about him? Why did you say you wanted to give up when he was sick? Him? Now choosing to care in this way? I really don't understand."

Lin Zhishen had discussed with Rong's mother before letting Rong Xiao live in Lin's house for a period of time.

He accompanied Rong Xiao to pack his luggage, and when he left the room, he said to the two people sitting on the sofa: "I'm sorry, uncle and aunt, I offended you with what I said today, I know you all have your own difficulties, and it's not my turn to ask these words .I just wanted to say those words, sorry."

"Goodbye, uncle and aunt. If Xiaoxiao is not well, I will take him to see a doctor immediately. I will also keep in touch with you."

They left Rong's house and walked into the elevator.

Lin Zhishen looked at his poor spirit and said, "Why did the situation suddenly happen? Aren't you taking medicine all the time?"

Rong Xiao was silent for a while, and said, "Maybe it's because I stopped taking the medicine."

"You stopped the medicine?!" Lin Zhishen was so angry that he almost fainted, "Do you know that stopping the medicine may make the condition worse?! You must follow the doctor's advice when you add or reduce the medicine, don't you know?!"

"I'm sorry, I really don't know. It wasn't like this when I was sick last time, and the medicine didn't work like this. The doctor didn't emphasize this to me."