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Rong Xiao said: "I just don't want to be restrained by drugs. I don't know that the consequences of stopping drugs are so serious."

Lin Zhishen and Rong's father and mother were reminding him to take medicine, thinking that Rong Xiao would be obedient in this matter, who knew that he would stop without saying a word.

Lin Zhishen thought, forget it, he can't blame him, he has been in pain recently, and he can't make a rational judgment.

Rong Xiao has not experienced systematic drug treatment for so many years, so he has no concept of taking medicine for a long time.This time it doesn't stop, and he may stop eating in the middle of the meal.

Then the situation will be more serious.

When the elevator reached the first floor, Lin Zhishen helped him pull away the suitcase, and the two walked towards the entrance of the community.

"Rong Xiao, I can accompany you for the rest of your life, but I can't protect you all the time. You must cooperate with treatment, maintain a good mood and living habits, and make yourself stronger inside, and resist all kinds of stimuli in the future society. You Only then may there be no relapse. Do you understand?"

Lin Zhishen took his hand, "I thought about protecting you forever and treating you with care for the rest of my life, but when I was in L City Hospital, I went to the psychiatry department for consultation, and the doctor told me that it was impossible, and you have to do it after all." return to society."

"My family and friends can do our best to help you, but what is more important is yourself." Lin Zhishen stared at him and warned, "I will take you to the hospital as soon as possible, and you'd better take the medicine obediently in the future, or I will lose my face .”

Rong Xiao nodded, saying that he didn't dare anymore.

After arriving at Lin's house, Lin Zhishen asked his sister-in-law on WeChat and told her about the current situation.

The sister-in-law replied: "If you stop the medicine, you should go to see the attending physician first, and then make the next step."

Lin Zhishen read it on the official account, and the expert only saw a doctor on Mondays recently.Rong Xiao was not well, he didn't dare to delay for a few more days, so he asked his sister-in-law if he could see another doctor.

"It is generally not recommended to change the attending physician frequently, because it is not good for the patient." She said.

Lin Zhishen talked about the overcrowding of the Seventh Hospital, the normal appointments for attending physicians usually have to be made a week or more in advance, and even the general psychiatrists have to wait until noon for prescriptions, as well as some of his own concerns.

If possible, he still wants to find a specialist who is easier to see a doctor.

"If this is the case, it might be better for you to come to Kangyuan at the beginning. Most of the people here are hospitalized, and there are fewer outpatients. It's a little far away, in the suburbs. But people can look at it when they go there. No appointment required."

"Sister-in-law, how is the doctor there?"

"The expert I wanted to recommend to you is of high standard and good medical ethics. He used to be a military doctor. If you really want to go, you can do it on Friday."

Lin Zhishen discussed with the Rong family, and they all thought they could go and have a look first.

On Friday morning, Lin Zhishen took Rong Xiao there. According to the navigation, he first took the subway and then transferred to a bus, and entered a village.

They got off at the stop sign, and saw the hospital after crossing the bridge. It looked a bit deserted, and they didn't see anyone asking for a doctor when they entered the hall.

The sister-in-law's former colleague is the head nurse, and she takes them to Director Su.

Anyway, it's another long self-report of medical history.

"You were so young when you got sick..." Director Su, with gray temples, said kindly, "Your biphasic condition is not getting better at all, it's just a two-year pause in the middle."

Director Su explained the disease to them in detail.They learned a lot—there were too many patients in the Seventh Hospital, and the experts didn't have time to tell them about it.

Rong Xiao showed Director Su the inspection list from the Seventh Hospital, so he only did part of the inspection.

Director Su didn't change the main drug he prescribed in the Seventh Hospital, but replaced the auxiliary drug with a better one, and enthusiastically left them a mobile phone number.

This doctor is completely different from the doctors Rong Xiao has seen, and he is very patient.

Lin Zhishen's brother-in-law works in Area B.

On that day, my sister-in-law just gave birth to a daughter, so they rushed to the hospital to visit and congratulated and thanked her by the way.

The sister-in-law's own name was based on the five elements, and she asked them to help find the baby's five elements and choose a name.

"I like single letter names," she said.

Lin Zhishen entered the date of birth on the website, because he was a little distrustful, he searched a few more, and finally said: "She lacks fire in five elements, I will check to see which words belong to fire."

Rong Xiao looked at the baby on the small bed, "Xi, the white dew is not yet shining, and the sun is not shining."

Lin Zhishen did some research and found that the word "Xi" does indeed belong to fire.

My sister-in-law liked this word, and my cousin didn't mind, saying, "Okay, then we'll call her 'Lin Xi' from now on."

He went to see the baby again, and called "Xiaoxi", with the joy of being a father for the first time on his face.

Rong Xiao didn't expect that the family would adopt it. For the first time, he chose a name for a certain child that was likely to follow her throughout her life, and he felt a strange feeling in his heart.

"She is so small, she looks so fragile, but she is full of hope." Rong Xiao said when she walked out of the ward, "She has the power of life."

"You must watch her grow up. You are the one who named her." Lin Zhishen said.

After returning home, Rong Xiao finally gave up on going to the summer camp because of her poor health and the fact that she couldn't move her mind.

Lin Zhishen suggested: "Take it easy, let's go to City H for a few days, my family has a house there."

"Ah?" Rong Xiao was slightly surprised.

"Isn't it normal for my family to have several suites? My parents like to buy houses." Lin Zhishen added, "I think it's troublesome to go to class, and I only live on campus when I'm in college, so does Lin Qingqing."

Lin Zhishen was very low-key, and Rong Xiao never asked about this kind of thing, but he didn't care too much, he just listened to Lin Zhishen's arrangement and went wherever he wanted.

They arrived in City H at two o'clock in the afternoon. After tidying up their rooms, they headed to the Wetland Park.

In the taxi, the enthusiastic driver chatted with them, but Lin Zhishen actually picked them up. They talked about everything from economic development to urban planning, and the driver also told about his family situation.

Rong Xiao heard the thoughts of many citizens of H City, and felt Lin Zhishen's talkativeness, he could talk about everything.

When they arrived at the park and bought desserts along the way, it was already very late, and they failed to make it in time to enter the park, so they only took a boat outside the park.

Lin Zhishen also chatted a lot with the grandfather who rocked the boat, from salary to industry environment, and even left him a piece of individually packaged cake to eat.

Grandpa rode the boat into a place full of lotus flowers and picked a lotus pod for them.Lin Zhishen peeled the lotus seeds for him to eat.

Lin Zhishen looked carefree, always smiling when facing Rong Xiao, he would be infected.

When he was at home, his parents lost face when they saw him.He knew that his parents were worried, but when he faced their expressions every day, he would only feel heavy in his heart, and it was useless to hate himself.

In the next few days, they went to various places, but the itinerary was not intensive. Lin Zhishen was afraid that his boyfriend would not be able to bear it.

Every time he went to a place, Lin Zhishen asked Rong Xiao to take pictures of himself and handed over the camera to him, obviously he didn't have this habit before.

"I don't care, you shoot for me."

Rong Xiao patted it, and suddenly felt that his face was still very good, but now he even felt his heartbeat was very weak, like a sprout of failure breaking through the ground.

He didn't dare to stop the medicine, so he knew that this numb feeling would last for a long time.After the treatment, he would not think about getting in touch with Lin Zhishen anymore.

He has no desires, and Lin Zhishen also respects him very much.

Everyone thought that Rong Xiao would get better.

Rong Xiao stayed at Lin's house, and Lin Zhishen had already done his best. Since summer, he watched Rong Xiao take medicine in the morning and evening, took him out for running or mountain climbing every day, and took him to see a doctor once a month.

All that could be done was done.

In the second half of the year, Rong Xiao's situation got worse and worse.

The counselor called Rong Xiao and asked him if he wanted to take part in the written test and interview of A University's insurance research institute. At that time, his brain was already rusted and his spirit was not normal, so he didn't go.

Lin Zhishen originally thought that if he was better, he would go for an internship with him, but later he planned to get a certificate from the company they had interned before.

Rong Xiao often feels very anxious and suffers from persecution paranoia, thinking that someone is going to kill him.

For example, he always felt that he would suffer from online violence, and suddenly wondered whether the music he composed and the lyrics he wrote were similar to the songs he had heard before.

Lin Zhishen often asks after comparison: "How does this look like?"

"Some people think it's Porcelain," he said.

Lin Zhishen sometimes couldn't understand why he insisted on digging into a dead end. He used to be a very proud person and didn't care much about other people's opinions, but now he would worry about this matter for a long time.

When Rong Xiao was really in a bad situation, Lin Zhishen would call the doctor to ask about it—he didn't dare to call often, for fear of disturbing the doctor.

Not good, the doctor added medicine.

Still not good, the doctor added medicine.

Later, Rong Xiao couldn't remember how many doses of each medicine he had to take in the morning and evening, but only knew that his brain was getting duller and duller.

He doesn't want to make songs, watch TV dramas, or communicate with people.

He originally wanted to watch the video posted by the bipolar patient, but when he opened the first one, the bullet screen was filled with dazzling "wealth codes".

The content of the video is normal.He thought the patient was faking it, but no one came out to beat her.

This is also the case in the video below.

He found some remarks-"depression per capita", "there's no depression these days, I'm too embarrassed to come out and hammer people", and some joked that they had depression, so as to irony.

He has two ideas.

Why do some people with non-mental diseases use these diseases as a cover, which leads to a decrease in the trust of some netizens.

Why do some netizens make jokes about mental illness? Is this something that can be joked about?

He told Lin Zhishen, but Lin Zhishen refused to let him read it.But when he was lying on the bed at night, those "wealth codes" floated in his mind, blood red, and he shuddered.

He was wondering whether the tolerance of people like them in the Internet society was too low, or they were too tolerant of themselves.

After Rong Xiao got sick, he couldn't escape the stigma at all. He didn't dare to tell outsiders that he was sick, and he didn't dare to post his status on social platforms.

He always felt that others would look at him in a different light, and felt that he was hypocritical and fragile.

He remembered Persimmon's words, uninstalled most of the software on the phone, and unplugged the phone card.

Lin Zhishen thought about teaching him calligraphy or traditional Chinese painting to divert his attention, but because of the increased dose of medicine, his hands trembled uncontrollably.

He can't write, can't play the piano, and even holds chopsticks with shaking hands.

And he was very thirsty and had to drink a lot of water.He drinks two bottles of the largest bottle of mineral water in the supermarket every day.

Lin Zhishen simply bought a box and came back.

Rong Xiao also wanted to drink a drink. After all, the taste of water was very weak, so he longed for something sweet.Lin Zhishen couldn't bear it and let him drink it once.

Good guy, three bottles of drinks, Sprite, Coke and orange juice, he drank them all in less than an hour.

This kind of shock is no less than seeing Kuafu drink the water of the Yellow River and Wei with his own eyes.Lin Zhishen was afraid that he would become addicted, so he still refused to let him drink.

Rong Xiao is always manic, he can't stay at home, so he wants to go out, Lin Zhishen can only take him to the shopping mall or park at any time.

When going out, he often stares at the water and drinks in the automatic cabinet or the store, and also checks to see if there is a toilet nearby, because he drinks too much water.

He doesn't like to eat very much, and he drinks enough water every day, but he always wants to eat watermelon, which has a lot of water.

The point is that the weather is getting colder.

He also vomits, every morning, throwing up everything he ate.The physical reaction made him more painful.

The doctor said: "Let him drink a bowl of salt soup every day, and add some salt to the hot water."

Lin Zhishen complied, but he felt that Rong Xiao didn't get any better because of it, and his anxiety was getting worse day by day.