madness

The sun was very good today, which is rare in early winter. Gu Zehuan was pushed to the lawn by the nurse to bask in the sun, holding a large bouquet of white perfume lilies in his arms.

Cui Qingqing saw Gu Zehuan's bandaged leg, and the words she wanted to say got stuck in her throat, and she couldn't get up or down.

The sunlight made Gu Zehuan's skin turn pale, and his eyelashes were thick and beautiful, probably due to the cold wind, after a while, the tips of his ears turned a faint red.

"You go away for a while."

Gu Zehuan said.

The nurse also left obediently, without getting in the way.

"Sorry, I didn't expect...he would be so extreme." Cui Qingqing had inquired clearly before coming here that comminuted fractures caused by heavy blows have a high probability of leaving sequelae. I misunderstood you, I thought you would hurt him, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, if I knew he would do that..."

Gu Zehuan just looked at her quietly, and the girl gradually choked up as she spoke, and the tears in her eyes dripped down in big ones.

Of course she knew that Su Tianhe would not let Gu Zehuan call the police. Although Gu Zehuan was injured and hospitalized now, Cui Qingqing was shamefully relieved to know that Su Zhiyun would not go to jail for this matter.

"I... I have the same thoughts as Su Zhiyun's father, I hope you don't call the police." The girl whispered: "I can help you contact your grandparents, don't you really want to know about your father... ...I have to add a premise before that."

She wiped away her tears, but she couldn't look directly into Gu Zehuan's eyes, because the request was too despicable and ruthless: "You can't call the police, and you can't tell your grandparents that Su Zhiyun once imprisoned you."

"If you promise me, after your leg is healed, I will find a way to help you contact them."

The perfume lily given by the other party was a bit cloying.

Gu Zehuan put it aside.

Seeing that Gu Zehuan did not refute, Cui Qingqing bit the bullet and continued: "I know our agreement at the beginning was not like this, I really wanted you to leave Su Zhiyun at the beginning, I thought he would get better if he did that... ..."

"Sorry." In the silence, Cui Qingqing wanted to cry again, speaking incoherently: "I'm really sorry."

Gu Zehuan said: "Okay, I promise you."

Cui Qingqing, who didn't expect to get an answer so easily, was stunned, tears were still hanging on her slender eyelashes, she couldn't fall off, she was so pitiful.

Gu Zehuan raised his head to look at Cui Qingqing, without blinking his eyes: "I will know everything about my father, right?"

Cui Qingqing suddenly realized that Gu Zehuan didn't care about those conditions at all, he was only interested in things that could attract his attention, he didn't care what he would pay and what the result would be, he just wanted to know the answer he could get.

Under Gu Zehuan's gaze, Cui Qingqing couldn't even shake her head. She faintly noticed a huge shadow hiding behind Gu Zehuan, almost like a vicious dog looking for it by smell, drooling, as if only Cui Qingqing Qingqing shook her head, showing a tendency to hesitate, and the other party would rush up and bite her throat.

Cui Qingqing nodded stiffly.

"Yes, you will learn all about your father from your grandparents."

So Gu Zehuan nodded.

The gloomy and oppressive atmosphere disappeared without a trace.

"By the way, do you know where Su Zhiyun was sent to school? I went to Su Zhiyun's house once before, and his father said that he went to study abroad." Cui Qingqing wiped away the tears, the water stains still stuck to her cheeks, and the wind As soon as he blew, he said coldly, "I want to see him one last time."

Gu Zehuan lowered his eyelashes, and after a while, he said, "You can't go to the place he went to."

"why?"

Cui Qingqing was puzzled.

Gu Zehuan didn't answer her, but called the nurse and politely refused: "I'm tired."

Cui Qingqing looked at him eagerly for a while, and after confirming that the other party was not going to tell her anything, she nodded in despair: "You have a good rest."

After all, Su Tianhe did not agree to dismiss the nurse completely, but replaced him with a tall man who usually took care of Gu Zehuan during the day and slept in the ward next to him at night.

"We are disorderly and sinful, so we should be born to suffer. We should follow the dean's will, repent for our ignorance and dirty self, and sing praises for suffering."

Gu Zehuan's voice was very soft, and he read this passage like humming.

The nurse hesitated for a while, then leaned down and asked, "What did you just say?"

"The dean taught me to read it when I was a child." Gu Zehuan said, he smiled slightly when he said this, his lips were vermilion, and there was a rose stud on his earlobe.

It is an eternal flower.

"There is an aunt who has taken me with me for a long time and is very good at making cakes."

The nurse has seen many patients, most of them look like they are sick and broken, and they are tortured badly by the pain, but they have never seen anyone like Gu Zehuan. Nutrients were absorbed.

The nurse had also taken care of a patient with a comminuted fracture before, who was often panting and crying in pain at night.

But Gu Zehuan was not like that.

To be honest, the nurse really felt that this beautiful employer didn't feel good to others. More than once, he saw all kinds of nurse patients trying to enter the ward with strange excuses, but they were rejected by him every time. outside the gate.

He even once saw a doctor stroking the boy's leg, laughing and saying something. The doctor's rough fingers held the boy's ankle and placed it on his knee.

It stands to reason that this should be a very normal scene that should not make people have reverie or evil thoughts.

It was undeniable that the other party was checking Gu Zehuan's legs.

But the nurse felt it was weird, probably because the doctor had a strange expression, his eyes were sticky like a snake, slowly, almost reluctantly, moving inch by inch from Gu Zehuan's intact right foot to the nurse's face , and then his expression returned to normal, and he began to explain: "Ze Huan said that his right leg is a little uncomfortable."

He firmly believed that if he hadn't arrived in time at that time, the other party would have continued to maintain that intimacy and frivolity.

And Gu Zehuan seemed to have no feeling at all, he was still reading in this situation, and he was not even affected at all.

"Is that right?"

The nurse looked suspicious, obviously not trusting the doctor.

"If you don't believe me, ask Zehuan."

The doctor was still smiling, very sure of Gu Zehuan's answer.

The boy whose name was called suddenly raised his head, not knowing anything about it, but when he put down the book and looked at the nurse, it made the nurse feel that he already knew everything.

He just did it on purpose.

In order to see the doctor can't help it, frivolous and obscene.

It's such a horrible thought.The nurse thought about it and got goosebumps all over her body.

"Ah."

He gave an affirmative answer.

It was almost a casual tone, uttered from the nasal cavity, with a long tail, as if just waking up.

The doctor became very happy and his smile deepened.

These memories only flashed in his mind for a moment, and the nurse's face remained motionless, but his gaze stayed on Gu Zehuan's ear for a moment.

The small red roses are delicate and lovely.

looming.

It's pretty, pretty tacky.

Gu Zehuan wore it but it seemed to complement each other.

It’s weird.

The nurse was thinking, but what he said was something irrelevant to cattle and horses.

"To find such a small rose."

Gu Zehuan didn't answer, but glanced at the electronic clock in the hospital lobby: "It's getting dark soon."

Seeing this, the nurse asked, "Do you want to go back to the ward?"

"Parties are only interesting when it's dark." Gu Zehuan said suddenly: "In the past, when it was dark, there were always many activities in the courtyard."

The nurse didn't know why Gu Zehuan said this, and he didn't quite understand where the courtyard he was talking about was, but he continued dutifully: "When we were young, we all lived in the same courtyard, but we usually went out during the day. At night, the alley is too dark at night, and our family members do not allow us to stay out too late, fearing that it will be unsafe."

Gu Zehuan said: "We are different, we only have activities at night."

Where is there no activity during the day, but activity at night?

The nurse was in a fog.

"Usually only when new partners come, there are activities at night."

"It's like a welcome party or something, right?"

At first, the nurse thought that Gu Zehuan would not speak again, but he didn't expect the other party to say after a long time—"It's almost like a welcome party."

"Is it interesting?"

The nurse asked casually.

Gu Zehuan nodded directly this time: "It's very interesting."

……

The fishy smell is so heavy, and the palm is sticky, wet and slippery, I don't know what it is.

Is it sweat or blood.

Whose sweat, whose blood.

It was like returning to a bizarre dream again, the pain grew from the limbs, grew bigger and bigger, sucked blood and became a towering tree. After being hit on the temple, it was impossible to get up for a long time. Su Zhiyun told someone to lift his hair He pulled back, choked on a mouthful of blood, and spat it out.

There were so many voices, chirping at night, that his brows were wrinkled.

There are no patrols outside tonight.

Weak, strong, hard, and soft, he couldn't even judge the number of people from these punches and kicks coming from all directions, let alone who it was.

In the dimness, the lights in the corridor were still flickering, one was broken, the walls were mottled and yellowed, and the word order was like dried blood. It was too cold at night, and the paint had condensed a thin layer of water droplets. trickle down.

Su Zhiyun was dragged through the entire corridor, he didn't even bother to struggle, the smooth floor rubbed against his thin pants, his bruised and swollen skin, and he couldn't open his red and swollen eyes.

The bright red characters in the whole corridor came into his vision indistinctly.

We are disordered, we are sinful, so we should be born to suffer, we should follow the dean's will, repent for our ignorance and dirty self, and sing praises for suffering.

Someone said: "Do you know why the dean has repeatedly emphasized order? Because this is how the world without order is. If you don't obey the order, you will be abandoned by the orderly world. So we will punish you."

"Until you understand what order is."

"Atone for yourself." The man who pushed Su Zhiyun into the pool still had a smile on his face. He didn't seem to think it was too much at all. Came this way."

Countless dense figures stood behind him, and the small bathroom was actually full of teenagers of the same age. They silently watched this dripping atrocity, their eyes were as bright as torches lit in the night, shining brightly. Brighten.

After letting go, Su Zhiyun fell on the dirty ground, blood and sweat made his hair sticky and wet.

It was tragic, and scarred would be superficial.

Someone next to him saw Su Zhiyun whispering something, so he lowered his head and heard his voice, which was weak because of the pain, like thunder.

"You... are not asking me to make atonement."

"You're just having fun."

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