madness

When Li Kairui came, Su Zhiyun was still wiping the blood from his nose, the sweet blood trickled down his throat, and spread to the tip of his tongue, smelling like rust.

It was grossly salty.

Su Zhiyun didn't have any paper either, so he wiped it with his hand, and the blood was all over his cheeks. Li Kairui looked very guilty, pitiful, as if he was the one who was beaten to the point of being out of shape.

"I'm sorry... I should have told you earlier. I was called by the instructor, so I should have told you earlier."

It hurts so much, it hurts like a fever all over the body.

"You guys just think it's funny" - when Su Zhiyun said this, the other party's expression was ugly, and then he was slammed against the sink in the bathroom.

He couldn't blink his eyes, and the pain made him a little tired.

Li Kairui was still talking non-stop, but Su Zhiyun's thoughts were distracted, and he drifted to other places, and the boy's voice could hardly enter his ears.

He kind of wanted Carrie Lee to shut up.

Because it is very noisy.

But he didn't have the strength to speak anymore, so Su Zhiyun could only curl up half dead in the dirty bathroom, seeing the small moon outside the window.

Li Kairui's voice became smaller and smaller. He was about to fall asleep, but suddenly he felt a pain in the back of his palm.

Su Zhiyun opened his eyes again, but Li Kairui didn't speak. He really couldn't see clearly, so he tried to open his eyes wide, and his foggy vision gradually became clear.

After a while, Li Kairui stammered and said: "I think you seem to be... If you want to fall asleep, I will pinch you. If you can't sleep here, you have to go back."

"you go first."

Su Zhiyun didn't even have the energy to say a few more words.

"That won't work, you are so weak, what if you fall down here and can't get up again?" Li Kairui bit the word "weak" seriously, and then said: "I will carry you back."

Su Zhiyun frowned, his brows were not obvious, but a little curved, which made his temperament not sharp, but soft.

Otherwise, he should have a hostile appearance, and the contours of the facial features are mostly sharp angles. Where it should be black is jet black, and where it should be white is snow white. The color contrast is too obvious, but the eyebrows and eyes are abruptly removed. Most of the spirit.

He looked really ugly, with a bruised nose and swollen face, panting like a wild animal, and Li Kairui treated him too much as if he saw some rare treasure.

Su Zhiyun's intuition made Su Zhiyun not like such an excessive intimacy, he recovered from the emptiness, and also recovered from the burning pain.

"No."

But Carrey Lee insisted.

"Let me carry you on my back. It's not shameful. Besides, you're injured and need a good rest."

It's like a chicken talking to a duck.

In the end, Su Zhiyun didn't hold back Li Kairui, the other party insisted on carrying him, and directly put him on the body, the boy's shadow stretched very long, he was really thin, only a thin layer of muscle was wrapped around the skeleton, which pierced Su Zhiyun's injured place It hurts more.

Especially Li Kairui is not very strong, walking staggeringly, the corridor is silent, Su Zhiyun heard Li Kairui singing in the swaying moon shadow.

It was probably a nonsense song made up by myself, it didn't even have lyrics, only a long tune, maybe it was really hard for Li Kairui to carry Su Zhiyun on his back, the voice was broken into many pieces like Moon Shadow.

Su Zhiyun was too tired, too tired.

He blinked his eyelashes, and vaguely heard Li Kairui talking to him.

"You're so stupid, just accept it, why make them unhappy... Things that can be solved by letting go, even if you lie to them, at least make yourself feel better."

Su Zhiyun opened his mouth.

"I……"

At first Li Kairui thought he heard it wrong, because the other party's voice was very low, so he listened carefully, and then he heard the next few words.

"I swore before that I would never lie to myself from now on."

The bell in the corridor rang, and it was time to turn off the lights. Li Kairui found that he stopped at some point, and the bell woke him up from that dazed state.

He pulled up the leg that Su Zhiyun wanted to slide down.

From now on, I will not lie to myself.

Thinking of this sentence, he suddenly smiled, then continued humming to the room with Su Zhiyun on his back as if nothing had happened.

After that, it was like this for several days, and it was a carnival and a feast at night.

Su Zhiyun's injury is always healed and there will be new ones, and there will be new ones after healed. Li Kairui never mentioned what happened that night again.

He will not stand up and tell everyone not to beat him.

That's something beyond our control.

In the end, it would only turn into two people falling to the ground covered in bruises.

"I don't want to act in that kind of bitter scene." Li Kairui wrinkled his nose, showing a rare willful and disdainful expression.

Su Zhiyun didn't say a word, of course he knew that Li Kairui did the right thing, in fact the other party could totally ignore him, but Li Kairui didn't, he would always pick Su Zhiyun back after the atrocities were over.

Just like picking up a tattered doll that has been cut by someone, Carrey Lee is always thinking about how to mend those wounds.He didn't even know where he got alcohol-iodine bandages and cotton swabs.

Now the dormitory is no different from a small infirmary.

"Why did you come in?"

Many people have asked Su Zhiyun this question. Those people were curious about what crime he committed to be locked up here. Sometimes they were also curious about why he refused to let go.

Su Zhiyun never admitted his guilt.

Someone was looking at him. Of course Su Zhiyun knew that their interest in him hadn't disappeared for the time being. Li Kairui told him that there were still three days, after which those people would no longer be able to bully him recklessly like this.

"Is this also the order written by the dean?"

Li Kairui nodded, and then took a bite of the bread in his hand. The wind made his hair flutter, and Su Zhiyun noticed a large scar on his forehead.

"I've had surgery before." Noticing Su Zhiyun's gaze, he explained this way, and even turned his head generously to let Su Zhiyun look.

They got too close, and the hot air they exhaled hit their eyelashes. Su Zhiyun subconsciously backed away, but Li Kairui still shrugged indifferently and smiled.

Not at all offended.

"It's too close, sorry."

Li Kairui is really a good-tempered person, I'm afraid even Su Zhiyun has to admit this.Although his good temper is more of a kind of irresistibility against atrocities, a subconscious protection of his own weakness.

When Su Zhiyun didn't speak, he just talked to himself, and he could talk happily.

This kind of person who has never been heartless and happy is too rare, as if he doesn't have the nerve of pain, it seems that he can only hold very few things in his mind.

For example, the white clouds he saw today, the random small flowers that bloomed on the road, and so on, he was so familiar with everything in this nursing home, and he couldn't hear any disgust in his tone.

"Why did you come in again?"

Su Zhiyun spoke for the first time.

Li Kairui was stunned for a second, and then he grinned, showing his teeth. He had two small canine teeth, which were pointed, and he had a youthful look when he smiled, which made his lackluster face a bit radiant.

"Didn't I tell you, because I'm gay."

Su Zhiyun didn't speak, but Li Kairui seemed to be aroused, and he started talking endlessly: "You saw the scar on my forehead, actually, I had an operation, and I don't remember when it was done. Because The doctor said that after I was done, my brain became less intelligent and my memory was messed up."

"My parents regretted coming, and they kept hugging me and crying. I heard them arguing in the middle of the night. My mother said it was all my father's bad idea. I knew that I shouldn't have the operation. I thought it was too noisy, and then I I went out. But my mother seemed to be very scared when she saw me. It’s so strange.” Li Kairui muttered to himself: “I am obviously their child, why do you look at me like that? It’s like you don’t know me. same."

The boy didn't eat any bread either, and he couldn't see much sadness from his expression, as if he was just calmly narrating something that had nothing to do with him.

Su Zhiyun did not continue to ask.

But at night, Li Kairui became happy again. He familiarly changed Su Zhiyun's dressing, rolled up his cuffs and exposed his arms. There were many, many, large and small bruises on it.

Although Su Zhiyun never asked Li Kairui where those medicines came from, he also knew that the medicines here were very precious things, but Li Kairui didn't talk about it himself, and Su Zhiyun tacitly didn't ask.

Li Kairui took Su Zhiyun's hand, and there was a bruise on the back of his hand - that was when Li Kairui pinched him a few days ago to prevent him from sleeping.

Li Kairui treated that bruise very carefully and cautiously, or in other words, he treated any wound on Su Zhiyun's body with such care, he even blew about it in a serious manner.

The warm wind fell on the back of his hand, and Su Zhiyun unconsciously got goosebumps, but he didn't move.

"Don't you take care of your own injuries?"

Li Kairui shook his head indifferently: "Anyway, it will be fine soon."

Su Zhiyun guessed that it was probably because the medicine was not enough, so he pursed his lips tightly and remained silent for a while.

"You hurt your shoulder too, take off your clothes."

Li Kairui said softly and delicately.

Su Zhiyun froze for a while, but still unbuttoned it and took it off to the side.

Knowing that the other party was embarrassed, Li Kairui didn't look elsewhere, but only paid attention to the wound.

Very white, this is Li Kairui's first thought, Su Zhiyun is very white, the kind of white that can be seen to be pampered, and also the white that does not see the light of day.

It is bright and bright in the night, as if the lake light is reflected on the body.

Those wounds looked particularly piercing and bloody, and Li Kairui moved a little lighter.

He has always felt that Su Zhiyun is like a piece of porcelain, or can be described as jade. In short, in his poor imagination, Su Zhiyun should belong to the kind of noble and fragile things that need to be carefully cared for.

But Su Zhiyun's temperament is not quite like this, he seems to always intentionally and intentionally let himself get hurt and degenerate, smashing himself to pieces for others to see, he seems to want something, his palms are full of blood, pain Can't make him let go.

This kind of Su Zhiyun is very different from his appearance, his stubbornness makes him look very pitiful, sad and humble, he crushes himself, squeezes out blood, and falls into the dust.

He became dirty and tattered.

But he still stood there, refusing to let go or go.

So contradictory.

Li Kairui thought, he could feel that Su Zhiyun didn't give up, he still had expectations, like a naked traveler walking in the ice and snow, stubbornly guarding the candle in his hand.

That was the last straw.

Li Kairui narrowed his eyes slightly, and there was also a candle lit in the dormitory, the flame was blown to and fro, and he looked like he was going to disappear into nothingness at any time.

Even the bedroom became flickering.

"I have someone I like, like very much."

Su Zhiyun said so suddenly.

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