what!Is this protagonist a scumbag?

the next day.

Shi Xun told me that he might not be with me in the future.

I said frankly, it's all right.

Although the answer is completely opposite in my heart, as long as she is happy and feels good; although I like her, she has her own choices and her own life, and she can afford it and let it go.

Empathy, don't fall in love, well, you fall in love with your person, I will practice mine.

When Si Yu went out, he met Jiudong who was standing alone in front of the fence of the teaching building.

Jiudong glanced at her, and said helplessly, "I really fell for your evil words."

"Nonsense, how can I say it's a lie, I'm so open-mouthed, and it hits the nail on the head!"

There was a smile on Jiudong's face, "Bewitching words to confuse the crowd", but his eyes wandered away.

Since then, Jiu Dong has returned to her life alone. Shi Xun often goes on dates with her boyfriend, and usually does not go back to the dormitory except at night, and the number of times they meet is counted.

Jiudong is also much more relaxed by himself, and he doesn't need to take care of anyone or care about anyone. The kind of free and carefree life is the life he yearned for the most when he was with Shi Xun.

But now I feel a little lonely and unbearable. From two people to one person is far more difficult than from one person to two people, and it takes a long time to adapt.

Si Yu once invited Jiudong to go to and from school with the two of them, but Jiudong didn't agree, because after all, the two of them are used to it, and with Jiudong, the three of them would feel awkward together, not to mention Jiudong would also be uncomfortable.

But after a meal of persuasion.

"What's the matter, Ban Yue is also very cheerful, let's go together," Si Yu said.

Ban Yue also smiled, "I often go to help the teacher, so Si Yu is often alone, so you can accompany her too."

After that, Jiudong agreed.

Si Yu said: "Don't worry, follow me from now on, I'm sure no one will dare to bully you, right 'little ghost'!"

"Ghost... you! Yaoyan!".

"Little devil!"

"fallacy!"

Ban Yue smiled and said: "Okay, okay, you two are a monster and a ghost, just make a couple!"

Si Yu said: "Ban Yue is right!"

Naturally, he fell for Si Yu's words again, and would follow her sooner or later.

In the dark night, a middle-aged man sat in front of the bed in great pain, hugging his head and feeling sad. The woman on the bed behind him was already so tired that he fell asleep...

But that wasn't her wife, but a woman whose name she couldn't even name, and who didn't even know her age, and she was only called here for physiological needs...

And afterwards, he was full of guilt for his dead wife...

Jiudong and Siyu went shopping on weekends, and they went out at eight o'clock in the morning. They went shopping in the pedestrian street, food street, side by side, from the small street to the main street, and from the main street to the shopping mall.

When Jiudong buys a cup, Si Yu buys a relatively large one, which is a pair at first glance; Grilled squid is the same, even if you don't eat it, you have to accompany it.

When eating skewers of taro tofu, Bai Siyu also took a bite one by one, he could bite out a string of hearts, and asked Jiudong with raised eyebrows if he liked it, making Jiudong amused.

On the tree-lined road back, Jiu Dong and Si Yu were walking side by side. Suddenly, a middle-aged man on the main road grabbed Si Yu. He had gray temples and looked older, but his appearance was not similar to hers. He only heard Si Yu address him as "Sir", and saw Si Yu's attitude and expression towards him, showing great respect. Jiudong knew that Si Yu's family was well-off and he had his own property under his hands, so he must be the butler of his family.

The housekeeper looked worried: "Si Yu, you should go home and see the chairman, he is just a child like you, and he has worked so hard for so many years, isn't it all for you."

"For me? Are you sure he is for me?!" Si Yu sneered, "He will go to hotels every few days, and every time he will date young women; you say he is for me?! How ridiculous Extremely, I thank him for his kindness, and you don’t need to say anything more, just tell him for me, help him have a son early, and inherit the family business.”

After Si Yu finished speaking, he took Jiudong and left.Seeing Si Yu's displeasure, Jiudong must be unhappy, so why bother to ask.

That day the school asked him to fill out a personal questionnaire, and Jiudong filled it out and gave it to the outermost students.

It gradually became noisy over there.

"Wow, Brother Dong, you still have a previous name!"

"Let me see, let me see, what is it called?" Another student also looked there.

Jiudong's heart was beating fast, her parents divorced, so she naturally had a former name, although she had gotten used to the fact of her parents' divorce for so many years, but after all, it was still a shadow in her heart that could not be erased for a long time.

After Bai Siyu heard it, he immediately grabbed the piece of paper and gave it to the monitor: "What are you looking at! What are you looking at! What's wrong with having a previous name? They all look like old aunts, ignorant village women, Gossip!"

Si Yu was protecting me; Jiudong's heart immediately warmed up a lot.

Jiu Dong met her eyes, shook his head, and calmly said: "Nothing".

That afternoon, Shi Xun had a date, and Ban Yue went to sort out the files for the teacher. Only Jiu Dong and Si Yu were in the dormitory.

"Don't worry about what happened today, they have no other intentions, they are just used to gossip." Hearing Si Yu's words, Jiu Dong looked at her.

"It's okay, I'm used to it."

"Actually, you can tell me when you encounter these unpleasant things, or if you are unhappy in your heart. I am so cold and low-key. Naturally, others will not know, and you need a spiritual trash can to dump the trash in your heart." , Bai Siyu spoke in an orderly and arrogant tone.

Jiu Dong also looked at Si Yu with an arrogant look, "Yes, I see."

Si Yu casually flipped through the book in his hand, looked at Jiudong sitting on the bed, put down the book again, shook his clothes, and looked at Jiudong again.

"Why are you always so cold lately, especially since Shi Xun has a boyfriend, and you are left alone, and you don't often joke, and you don't talk much. I ask you a few questions, but you don't answer well," said Then came over.

Although Jiudong is quite strong, but sometimes he was timid. He was sitting on the bed, but as soon as Si Yu came over, Jiudong stood up. First, he was afraid that she would press himself on the bed, and second, he was afraid that she would do something else .

Standing there staring at Si Yu panicked Jiu Dong made Si Yu feel a little funny, just looked at her, opened the door and went out.

Jiudong blushed immediately: She didn't come after me, what's wrong with me.

After getting along, Si Yu gradually walked into Jiudong's life. Because of being together, Jiudong would often notice Si Yu. When she can't fight back.

The last time I went to the laboratory with Si Yu, Jiudong helped her titrate the medicine and write down the data. Maybe it was because she had to walk around when doing the experiment. The stool was too obstructive. There was no stool in the huge laboratory except the table. It is the instrument.

Jiudong's legs were sore from standing for a long time, so he bent down and lay down on the table to write the data and analyze the size of the data.

Si Yu came over, looked at what Jiu Dong had written, then got down on the knees and supported her body with one elbow, and put the other hand on her body.

"Do you like my ass that much?" Jiu Dong asked calmly.

"Yeah!" Si Yu smiled, with a look of air on his face, showing the appearance of a local rascal to the fullest.

This made Jiudong, who was calm by himself, instantly become restless.

"Could you pay attention, this is a laboratory!" Jiudong hurriedly moved away.

Ban Yue was a cadre in the class, often in the teacher's office, and became more and more busy later on, so it could be said that Jiu Dong and Si Yu became "little buddies" who went to school together.

In the daily life of the two of them, Si Yu called Jiu Dong mostly. Si Yu has a very straightforward personality, he can say anything without hiding anything, and Jiu Dong also likes Si Yu's straight-talking temper.

Jiu Dong has no problem with procrastination, and so does Si Yu.

Every time he goes out to class, Si Yu always calls Jiu Dong.

"Let's go, the last ten seconds!"

Si Yu held the lock and shouted behind Jiu Dong, and Jiu Dong was not slow, always rushed out of the dormitory before she finished shouting, and then let Si Yu lock the door.

Jiudong still understands in her heart, Si Yu knows that she has a neat personality, and she doesn't procrastinate, otherwise she will never wait behind her to count; Si Yu disrupted Jiudong's previous life, and everything is done in an orderly manner, Although they were all arranged by her, they didn't feel bored at all, and most of them coincided with Jiudong.

And Jiu Dong gradually got used to this feeling.

Usually in the morning, I would hear Shi Xun and her boyfriend on the phone. They kept the speakerphone on. You must know that the voice of a girl when she is on the phone with her boyfriend is different from the normal voice.

Shi Xun always talks to that boy with a long voice, and her procrastination always makes that boy wait impatiently.

"Could you hurry up...Are you an idiot...Why are you so grumpy..."

Although Jiudong has already broken up with Shixun, after all, the feelings that have already arisen will not be removed immediately.

These are words that Jiudong has never said before, and they are even worse than she used to. I don't know how to describe it. Whenever Jiudong said something about her, Shi Xun would still talk back, thinking about her, and her boyfriend When talking about her, she just listened, and the words were many times worse, and she only said "yes" and never answered back, maybe this is because she really likes it...

None of Jiudong's expressions could escape Si Yu's eyes, and Si Yu naturally understood how Jiudong was feeling right now.

Stretched out that warm hand to hold Jiudong's hand, and only then did Jiudong, who was wandering in awe, come back to his senses and stop thinking about it.

It’s another summer, it’s a bit hot, wake up early and there is class in the first period, Jiu Dong lazily gets up, Si Yu buys food, Jiu Dong starts to grab and eat without washing up, it’s like a dumb wood, and it’s like Beggars wake up when they are full.

Since yesterday was Sunday, I watched a movie in the evening, and it was already midnight when I went to sleep, so I didn't feel refreshed at all when I got up early.

Jiudong got up like a zombie, first got a glass of water, his hair seemed to explode, and he said in a daze: "It's time to take a bath, it's time to take a bath."

Ban Yue bent over laughing: "Haha, you, it's true, get up, you haven't woken up yet, haha...".

"Hurry up, ancestor, class is about to begin!" Si Yu smiled helplessly.

Jiudong hurriedly put on his clothes, and went to class together in a daze.

After class, Si Yu said that something happened in the laboratory and asked Jiu Dong to go back first.

Jiudong hummed and walked back.

After going back, I cleaned up and went to take a shower.

In summer weather, even cold water will not be too cold.

Fortunately, there is a place to take a shower in the school dormitory, so I am content.

After washing, Jiudong took out the popsicle bought on the way from the incubator.

It is full of childhood memories.

My mother always buys a lot, and my brother and I share one each time. Although those days are a bit bitter, my heart is still sweet.

It doesn't matter whether my father will still think of us, or whether he will change his mind, at least, the three of us are still a happy family now.

Taking a bath can relieve fatigue. After coming out of the bathroom, Jiudong tidied up the room without worrying about other things, and started to eat after sitting down.

I didn't expect Si Yu to come back so early.

The scene Si Yu saw as soon as he entered the door was Jiu Dong wrapped in only a bath towel. Although the bath towel was not wrapped tightly, it still showed Jiu Dong's figure.

Si Yu, who came in suddenly, also startled Jiu Dong. Although the whole dormitory building is full of girls, she still cares more or less.

Jiu Dong looked at Si Yu, and Si Yu also looked at Jiu Dong who was staring with a dazed expression.

They looked at each other speechlessly, yet seemed to have said a million words.

Si Yu turned his gaze first, Jiudong also lowered his head, and picked up the phone.

Although Jiu Dong took a bath, he still felt a little sweaty. From the corner of his eyes, he saw that Si Yu had also changed his clothes, so he probably felt hot too. The window that was closed before taking a bath, let's open it now.

Jiudong simply put on a shirt, with a popsicle in his mouth, and a towel that was about to slide off in one hand, walked past Si Yu, came to the window, and opened it a little.

Si Yu looked at the "tofu" half-wrapped in "package", and thought in his heart, this is delivered to the door, so it is a waste to dry it like this!

Jiudong's loose hair blocked his sight, and he didn't notice Bai Siyu who was already staring at him and ready to move.

While turning around, Si Yu grabbed Jiu Dong's arm, and the bath towel slid down, completely naked, and fell on the bed unavoidably.

Si Yu lifted up her shirt, tied it to the railing at the head of the bed, covered Jiudong's eyes, and pressed down one of her legs.

With a popsicle in his mouth, Jiudong couldn't say anything, he could only be anxious.

Jiudong kicked and entangled for a while, Bai Siyu only thought this person was really interesting, tied up like this, knowing that he couldn't break free, but still struggling so desperately, he couldn't stop laughing, "I can't eat you again!" , what are you doing so hard|struggling?"

Jiudong's legs were already numb, and he didn't feel any sensation. He just felt like a lot of bugs were crawling, and he didn't have any strength. His hands were still tied, and his eyes were covered with a towel, so he couldn't see anything.

Si Yu covered her whole body with the sheet, whether it was her body or the messy bed after struggling.

Untied Jiudong's bound hands, but did not open the covered eyes.

Jiudongyitongstruggle | Zha was already exhausted, motionless, just panting, and could only pant...

She knew that Si Yu didn't do anything, she was just afraid of the unknown.

Suddenly there was a light kiss on the face, and he said with a smile, "Take a break~hahaha~"

Jiudong lay there for a long time, he had never been so tired after a day of physical work in his mother's company, but this... finally got up and put on some usual clothes.

But Si Yu had already gone out after saying that sentence, without saying where he was going, only heard the sound of the door opening, and then there was silence.

When Jiudong got up and walked through the mirror, he saw his own appearance; the once neat and smooth hair had become messy due to struggle.

Cursing in my heart; I'm not a fucking woman!Why is it so weak now... What is this, it was pushed down...

Going back to the bed again, what caught my eye was a messy bed, a mess, and I knew how crazy it was; Jiudong dragged his tired body to tidy up casually, then sat there and drank some water.

Si Yu just opened the door and came in.

"Are you up?"

Jiudong didn't look at her, and didn't make a sound.

"Heh, really like a little bitch," Si Yu said with a smile.

Jiu Dong glanced at her impatiently, Si Yu looked playful and teased, "Do you want to kill me instantly with your eyes? Come and eat!"

"Need not!"

"Then I'll hey you, come on, ah, open your mouth, ah..." Si Yu walked over with something.

Jiudong glanced at her, then looked at the food, and then ate it, feeding it mouthful by mouthful. At the fifth mouthful, Jiudong took the food and started to do it himself.

Afterwards, Jiu Dong often noticed Si Yu, Si Yu always looked at him, and every time he passed by, he would pat his butt, and sometimes he would "eat tofu" unscrupulously when he went to the separate bathroom in the dormitory; brushing his teeth, Washing clothes, fetching water... Even when Shi Xun and Ban Yue are outside, it will be like this.

"Don't make a sound, if you don't want them to hear it." With a heavy breath in his ear, Si Yu wrapped his arms around Jiudong's waist from behind.

But usually I still have to go to class and eat with her, Jiu Dong once tried to refuse, but...

"I don't want to go with you!" Jiudong said angrily.

"Why? Isn't it good to go to and from school together?" Bai Siyu looked nonchalant, as if he didn't know what was going on.

Jiu Dong was furious, "Not good! It's not good at all!"

Si Yu said to Ban Yue with a cold and aggrieved face, "Ban Yue, look at her bullying me and abandoning me!"

Ban Yue just had fun: "Then you go and cling to her, like her lover!"

Jiudong shouted unconvinced: "Ban Yue! Why are you still facing her!"

"Then tell me, why don't you go with her," Ban Yue asked.

I!It's because... I really can't say it, Si Yu is very smooth, and there is nothing wrong with him in his daily work.

Ban Yuexin said: "It's okay, if she makes you unhappy, you can hit her, beat her hard."

"If it wasn't because I couldn't beat her, how could she stand here safe and sound?" Jiu Dong glanced at Si Yu.

Si Yu was smiling happily.

After getting along for a long time, I got used to it, and Si Yu gradually walked into Jiudong's heart.

Jiudong also felt that Si Yu's character was very courageous, a person who was not that troublesome, she said what she said, many things, before she did it, she had already done it, she didn't procrastinate, she said she would do it, and she didn't. She doesn't stop when she finishes, and she has a sense of responsibility, probably because her father is a businessman, and he is also a very powerful businessman.

After a while, it came to winter, and the coldness of winter made the world much quieter.

Shi Xun asked Jiu Dong to have a meal with her in a restaurant outside, Jiu Dong refused to go, but was still defeated by her half-hour-long coquetry.

"Eat? What are you going to eat, Jiu'er! You can't go! What will I do if you go, and at night, Shi Xun will sell you for snacks!" Si Yu joked to himself with a serious face, It seems to be sarcasm.

Jiudong, on the other hand, had a troubled expression on his face, and smiled stiffly, with no joy on his face.

Shi Xun smiled, "Then, Si Yu, you can come too, so that she won't be afraid of embarrassment."

"So good!" Si Yu turned to Jiudong again, "Jiu'er, go! Let's go! Give her a hard time, after all, the opportunity is rare!" Seeing her blinking at him, Jiudong smiled and turned around It's quick to flip through the book, but Jiudong only feels that with Si Yu in everything, he will feel more at ease.

Jiu Dong could see what she meant from Si Yu's eyes, and this time he should also settle it, so he agreed.

Shi Xun tugged her: "Let's go, let's go, together".

In this way, Jiudong went.

Si Yu is cold on the surface, but he is very talkative in this kind of social occasion. He chatted about this and that when he got there, and he quickly integrated into the environment, but Jiu Dong didn't know what to say. Awkward.

"Are you thirsty, what do you want to drink? I'll get it," said Shi Xun.

"We two, orange juice, Coke", Jiudong seemed to have lost his soul, and before opening his mouth dullly, Si Yu finished speaking, which was also in line with Jiudong's taste, Jiudong nodded in approval.

Shi Xun has never taken care of others like this, and has never been so considerate, at least he has never treated himself like this.

Under the table, Si Yu gently put his hand on Jiudong's lap, Jiudong looked at her, she looked at herself with a smile, as if she knew what she was thinking, and comforted her with her eyes, Jiudong also put her hand and Si Yu held them together.

To be honest, Jiudong and Shixun are both in the past, and I won’t mention the past. Now the two live in peace, have their own lives, belong to their own circles, and have no intersection. This meal has no reason. It made people feel very uncomfortable, but it happened to be a complete break with Shi Xun through this meal.

When Shi Xun went to get a drink, her boyfriend spoke.

"I heard from Shi Xun that you used to be with her often?" the boy said to Jiudong.

"Well, yes", Jiudong said very little, and he no longer cared about these things.

"She's confused and a bit clumsy, I'm sorry to trouble you", this sounds like provocation, and maybe it is really provocative.

"No, it's okay." Facing this man, Jiudong could only squeeze out a smile stiffly.

"I won't bother you in the future, just let me take care of her," he said with a smile.

Si Yu looked at it and laughed, "We can rest assured that she can find you. We were a little worried about her introverted personality at the beginning!"

"Well, she is introverted and doesn't like to talk much." The boy showed no expression.

"Jiu Dong had the same attitude towards everyone before. The classmates just helped each other. Now that you are here, we don't need to worry too much about Shi Xun. By the way, I forgot to ask which major you are in. You look like a talented person. Science and engineering temperament!"

"Hahaha, yes, I'm a science student..." The boy smiled and started chatting.

For the rest of the time, Si Yu was mostly responding to the boy's words, Jiudong didn't say anything, just responded with a few words.

And the sentence, "I'll just take care of her in the future", what came to mind was the past with Shi Xun. Everyone said that after breaking up, you can't be friends, especially two people who used to have a lot of affection.

Remember, the last time they met a hooligan, it was in the evening, and they didn't protect her well, and they were still seriously injured. If Si Yu hadn't come running later, they would have been beaten badly.

When I went back that night, Shi Xun didn't rest, but put down her things and went out. Jiudong guessed that she must have gone to find him, and then she must have told this boy. Don't worry about her.

It wasn't too late after dinner, it was very early in the winter night, and it was only 07:30 when we left the hotel. Shi Xun and the others went on a date, and Jiu Dong and Si Yu walked back.

The temperature of the winter night makes people calm, calm, and quiet. Maybe only this cold can really calm everything down.

Jiu Dong and Si Yu walked under the old yellow street lamp without saying a word, even Si Yu, who was talking just now, was also silent.

Si Yu could see that during the whole process, Jiudong didn't eat much or say much.

Jiudong stopped and looked at Bai Siyu, "Siyu, I'm going to the playground, you go back first." Although he couldn't squeeze a smile, his face was calm.

"Let's go together, but wait for me." Bai Siyu ran to the milk tea shop and bought milk tea, which was Jiu Dong's favorite flavor.

Walking on the road to the playground together, few people come here in winter, and who likes to be frozen outside.

"What, are you sad?" Si Yu was the first to break the silence.

Jiudong took a deep breath, and the heat gradually dissipated in the cold night through the white lights of the playground, "Fortunately, I'm not sad, but I just don't think it's relevant. She has a very clear attitude, but she dragged me into it again, too. Deliberately".

"You man! You are too fond of people who don't need to have feelings, and you are too introverted for people you like, you don't express, you are indecisive, hesitant!"

At that moment, Jiudong suddenly understood.

It turned out that Si Yu gradually entered her life and made her forget about Shi Xun.

"Jiu'er! You don't like her, but you want to protect her. Just like when you see a child fall down, you want to run to help him up. The reason why you hold her in your heart is because of her dependence. The essence of being a woman makes you feel that she is a weak person, and you want to help her more and more, and then approach her to protect her, forming a habitual companionship. This is not liking, but habit, and it is not love. All phenomena can only show that you are too lonely, lonely, and you want to find someone to accompany yourself, even if you are a passive person, always taking care of others."

Jiudong asked: "Then, what about you? What are we?"

"You finally asked me." Si Yu seemed to have been waiting for a long time, "I know you have always wanted to ask me since you wanted to follow me."

Jiudong heard this: "I! Follow you?! Am I going to follow you?!"

"Okay, that's not the point here. Since we are in this kind of relationship now, do we still care about the past?" Si Yu held Jiudong's shoulder with his hand and said solemnly: "Jiudong, the first time we met was you When I first came, what I liked was your temperament, kind personality, tolerance, humor, and a clear heart, as if the ugliness in the world would never tarnish it, and what I valued more, It is your pursuit of self, self-improvement and self-reliance. What I like most is your heart that is still surging in the face of any setbacks and sufferings. It is like a tree full of energy. The vigorous vitality is what impresses me the most. Therefore, I only believe You, only you are here, I can rest assured."