it's dark, coax me

How could he not like someone like Gu Xiu?

More than just liking.

Just when Zhou Xing was about to answer, he suddenly heard Meng Ze's surprised voice, "Why do you two get up so early? Did you come out to watch the sunrise on purpose? Wait, you even lit a bonfire. Are you staying here?" All night, right?"

The floating love between Gu Xiu and Zhou Xing was suddenly interrupted by Meng Ze, and the two looked at Meng Ze at the same time.

Meng Ze was wearing a tracksuit. It looked like he got up early and went for a morning jog.

Even though he was out to play, he still got up early in the morning to go for a run. According to the past, Gu Xiu admired people like him, but now, he only felt irritable, and felt that Meng Ze appeared at the wrong time. .

With Meng Ze by his side, it was naturally impossible to continue the topic just now.

Meng Ze had already finished running a lap, and was also planning to come over to watch the sunrise. He stopped and said a few words to the two of them, and then he did not leave. He watched the sunrise process with the two of them, and then followed The two returned to the homestay together.

When the three of them returned to the homestay, the other people had already woken up one after another, and they were preparing to have breakfast at the moment.

Zhou Xing helped prepare breakfast for Gu Xiu and asked him to go back and wash up first.

After the three of them washed up, everyone had breakfast together.

After breakfast, the two returned to the room together, and finally had time to be alone.

Gu Xiu looked at Zhou Xing, he didn't get an answer to what he said in the morning, and his heart was in a state of turmoil.

"Just……"

Just as Gu Xiu opened his mouth, Meng Ze knocked on the door, "Brother Zhou, are you there? I need your help."

Zhou Xing smiled at Gu Xiu, "I'll go see what's up with him."

Gu Xiu watched silently as Zhou Xing left him and left.

He was somewhat irritable in his heart, and even felt a little bored with Meng Ze who repeatedly interrupted him.

He knew he wasn't feeling right.

He suppressed the irritability in his heart and fed Zhang Wanwan breakfast, but after Zhang Wanwan finished his breakfast, Zhou Xing still didn't come back.

At this moment, Gu Xiu's cell phone rang.

Gu Xiu moved his gaze to the phone, and saw the name displayed on the screen, Gong Lihua.

These three words seemed like a nightmare.

Gu Xiu didn't move.

After the phone rang for a while, it automatically hung up, but within a few seconds after the screen went off, the phone rang again, and then endlessly for the second and third time.

The other party seemed to have expressed his intention of not giving up if he didn't get through, and just called again and again.

Gu Xiu put his fingers on the phone screen, and it took a long time before he connected the call.

Immediately after the call was connected, Gong Lihua's voice came from the opposite side, "Are you deliberately not answering my call?"

"No, I was busy just now."

"Are you home now?"

"I'm traveling outside."

Gong Lihua raised her voice, "Travel? Where? When will you come back?"

Gu Xiu didn't speak.

Gong Lihua continued: "Gu Wenlin called you before, right?"

Gu Xiu responded.

Gong Lihua sneered and said, "I called me just now, and said that I was going to persuade you to go home, and that I would go with you and have a meal to celebrate. It's ridiculous. His son won the championship, and his son went abroad. What are you showing off here? What is there to show off, and what does it have to do with me?"

Gu Xiu got used to Gong Lihua's attitude, so he didn't speak, just listened to her venting.

He didn't treat Gong Lihua as dismissively as he did Gu Wenlin. When facing Gong Lihua, his mood was much more complicated.

Gu Wenlin acted as if his son had never existed in the past ten years, and even though he was picked up in his sophomore year of high school, he only gave him some living expenses after that, and cared almost nothing for him. Therefore, it can be said that he didn't pay much attention to this father.

Although Gu Wenlin is angry, he can ignore it or take it to heart, but Gong Lihua is completely different to him.

Gong Lihua had accompanied him through his entire infancy and childhood. Although she had a strong desire to control and was too strict with him, she really cared about him.

She once put him in a position more important than herself, and gave him the best within her ability.

But she was also the one who pushed him into a situation of eternal doom.

In the end, after she learned that he was ill, she gave up on him directly, almost breaking the mother-child relationship between the two.

Gong Lihua used to be so kind to him, and once was so bad to him.

She had paid so much for him, but in the end she turned around and abandoned him.

Gu Xiu didn't know how to evaluate her, nor how to describe her weight in his heart.

Sometimes he even felt that he hated Gong Lihua more than he hated Gu Wenlin.

If you don't give it in the first place, it will be less painful when you lose it later.

So much time has passed, and up to now, thinking about everything in the past still makes him feel a thorn in his back, and sometimes he even feels uncomfortable when he sees the name Gong Lihua.

He hasn't called her 'Mom' in the years since high school, but he dreamed of her again and again at midnight, and every time he hesitated to speak, he still yelled the phrase 'Mom'. '

Gu Xiu's thoughts drifted away, and he didn't come back to his senses until after a while.

Gong Lihua was still talking: "He still has the face to tell me that I didn't teach you well, that you didn't have a tutor, that you hung up the phone in the middle of that bitch's speech, and that I said that you hung up the phone." good."

When Gu Xiu heard her talk, he originally thought that she was calling to reprimand Gu Wenlin for his actions, but he didn't want her to change the subject after scolding for a while and said: "This must be that bitch's idea, his son is proud of himself, she wants to Hit me in the face right now."

"Does she really think I'm afraid of her? If you let me go, I'll go. I want to see who is blocking who after I pass."

"It's ridiculous, as if I was afraid of her. In the early years, you really couldn't do anything, your academic performance was not good, and you couldn't compare with her son in all aspects, so I didn't say anything, but now you are good at writing. It can be regarded as something accomplished, she has received a lot of money throughout the year, and she has gained fame, and she still dares to show off her might in front of me..."

"It seems arrogant to say that she is going abroad. Are there few people who have gone abroad these years? After he went abroad, he will not return to China. If he does not return to China, see how many times she can see her son throughout the year. , besides, what kind of research laboratory, it sounds good, how much can you earn half of what you earn in a year?"

"It's also time for me to show Gu Wenlin that my son is no worse than him and that mistress."

"As long as you are a man, give me back. Seduce a married man, so what if you get straightened up? You really think of yourself as something."

Endless insults, accusations, taunts.

Gu Xiu has already gotten used to it.

Although Gong Lihua said that now, it seemed to be praising him, but he could still feel Gong Lihua's disappointment in him and her envy for another child through his words.

Yes, who wouldn't be envious of having a genius son?

There is no way to compare people with themselves.

Sometimes I have to admit that some gaps in talent cannot be caught up no matter how hard I try.

Gong Lihua continued: "When Gu Wenlin called me, he said that the time was set at five o'clock tomorrow afternoon. Take a look, hurry up and come back tomorrow, and come with me tomorrow."

"I'm still traveling outside, and it's not convenient to go back for the time being."

Gong Lihua was dissatisfied and said, "What's the inconvenience? You don't have a serious job, you just write and write every day, can't you go on a trip at any time? If it's not possible, you can continue to travel after eating here, You come back first."

"No."

Gong Lihua's voice raised an octave for no reason, "I'm discussing with you carefully, who are you giving embarrassment to, come back to me immediately, or I..."

Gu Xiu took the phone away and stopped listening to her.

After so many years, her desire to control him is still the same.

It seems that nothing has changed in these years, only himself has changed.

Gu Xiu hung up the phone and walked out of the room.

He was eager to see Zhou Xing.

Gu Xiu walked towards Meng Ze's room.

To his surprise, only Zheng Yan was in Meng Ze's room, and neither Meng Ze nor Zhou Xing was here.

He walked through the corridor and was about to go downstairs to find someone, but he heard a faint voice coming from the end of the corridor.

Just as Gu Xiu was about to go there, he heard Meng Ze say, "I was nearby, and I vaguely heard you guys talking... It doesn't matter whether you like it or not... You two don't have that kind of relationship, do you?"

Gu Xiu's footsteps suddenly stopped.

He stood at the corner of the stairs, people over there couldn't see him, but he could hear the voices over there.

He stood where he was, waiting for Zhou Xing's answer.

Zhou Xing did not directly answer Meng Ze's words, he just lit a cigarette and asked, "Do you mind?"

Meng Ze felt a little complicated in his heart for a moment, and said he minded, brothers who have been brothers for so many years, it is impossible to break up because of such a trivial matter.

But if you say you don't mind, you will always feel some indescribable awkwardness in your heart.

He couldn't help but confirm: "You are really...a couple? You..."

"No."

Zhou Xing turned his eyes to the distance, "a couple", what an intimate word.

They are not.

Hearing Zhou Xing's categorical denial, Meng Ze breathed a sigh of relief.

He laughed and said, "It scared me to death, I thought..."

"I just said, you don't look like a homosexual..."

When Meng Ze said this, his tone of rejoicing was as if he had escaped some natural and man-made disaster.

At this moment, Zhou Xing couldn't help asking: "What's wrong with homosexuality?"

"It's that kind, you know, it's different from us, I heard that the gay circle is very chaotic, and many people have AIDS..."

Zhou Xing couldn't hear others say that about Gu Xiu, so he extinguished the cigarette in his hand and said abruptly, "I am."

He looked at Meng Ze, "I am, so are you going to break up with me?"

Shocked by Zhou Xing's words, Meng Ze froze in place for a moment.

Fortunately, he already had some guesses in his heart, and finally he didn't hear such words unprepared. He still held his breath. He slowed down for a while, and finally said: "I take it back before I take it back." In other words, after so many years of brothers, it is impossible to break up because of this, as long as you don't attack me, we can all talk."

His words were obviously intentional, and he wanted to relax the atmosphere between the two of them. Sure enough, after hearing these words, the murderous look in Zhou Xing's eyes faded, and a little smile was added, "Go away , I'm not interested in you."

Meng Ze laughed, and after a while he asked again: "Then Gu Xiu...does he like you?"

"No, don't talk nonsense."

He looked into the distance, "He...is not the same kind of person as us."

Gu Xiu was going to return to his own world after all, he shouldn't think too much about it, and he shouldn't let such speculation spread and drag down his reputation.

Hearing these words, Gu Xiu felt as if a switch knife had come crashing down, he clenched his hand tightly, and at this moment suddenly felt that he was ridiculous.

Why did he think that Zhou Xing liked him?

Just relying on that kiss?

But Zhou Xing just kissed his forehead, not his lips.

This kind of kiss is too soft, even without any lust, it can cover too many meanings, such a kiss between relatives will not appear abrupt.

What is he thinking, what is he wishing for?

Meng Ze nodded, "That's because I was thinking too much. I just think he is good-looking and has good conditions in all aspects. When you say that, it really doesn't feel right."

"Remember you told me that he has some kind of depression, right? I heard that depression has a high suicide rate, so it's better not to approach him, but is he really depressed?"

"Didn't it mean that when people suffer from depression, they will be depressed every day and have no happy time? I think he is quite normal... I often forget that he is sick..."

"Gu Xiu."

Holding the hospital certificate in his hand, the head teacher looked at him with a smile that was not a smile, and asked, "Where did you get this form?"

Gu Xiu didn't understand why he asked such a question, but he still replied, "From the hospital."

"It seems to be a little connected, but have you ever learned about the symptoms of depression?"

The head teacher scanned Gu Xiu from top to bottom, and said pointingly: "Look at yourself, from top to bottom, it's neat and tidy."

"Your hair has been washed and taken care of in the morning, right? Look at your clothes. They are also newly changed this morning, right? There is not even a wrinkle. Look at your face again, there is nothing wrong with it." You have dark circles under your eyes, didn’t you sleep well last night? Did you pretend to be sick as well?”

The head teacher's voice turned cold, and he directly slapped the diagnosis certificate on the table, and said angrily: "I have seen a lot of depression, and I have never heard of anyone who can't read or write because of this disease. Written. If you want to evade the exam and fail the exam, shouldn’t you come up with a decent reason?”

Gu Xiu suddenly felt ridiculous at this moment. He looked at the person in front of him and asked, "Tell me, if the doctor's diagnosis is useless and the hospital's certificate is useless, then what is useful? If a hospital's diagnosis certificate is useless If you can’t judge whether a person has depression, how can you judge?” [Note 1]

"What do you expect from depression? Because I'm sick, I can't be happy, and I can only appear in front of everyone in a mess, so that I can look like a hopeless patient ? Is it because I am struggling today, slurring my speech, and standing here crying bitterly, will you believe that I really have depression?" [Note 1]

"I've been diagnosed with depression since high school, do you know how hard it took me to get into this college? Do you think I'll use that as an excuse to avoid just one exam?" [Note 1]

"More than anyone else, I hope that I can successfully complete my studies and graduate smoothly. If not, do you think anyone would want to make their mental illness public?"

Gu Xiu picked up the diagnosis certificate on the table, tore it up, and slammed it on the face of the man in front of him, "But I don't need it now, I won't expect any understanding anymore, I will drop out of school."

On the day when he left school, many people whispered beside Gu Xiu.

"I heard that he was mentally ill, he was suffering from depression, and even beat the teacher, stay away from him."

"He's too fragile. He suffered from depression in the last university. How can he mess around in society after that?"

"Oh, it is said that only suffering can create a literary genius. When will I get depressed, and then I may become a great literary scholar."

"It's the first time I heard that depression can't read and write. I'm just kidding. I think he just didn't want to take the final exam. He made excuses, but the class teacher saw through him, so he became angry..."

Gu Xiu suddenly felt pain in his back for no reason, he looked away, did not look at them again, and did not listen to the two of them talking.

He staggered all the way back to the room.