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Before Xu Zheng went to Tang Xibai, he sent Fu Yue a message.

-I'm still in City B today, going out with an old classmate.

- That old classmate confessed his love to me before, and he should let it go now, but I still want to tell you.

Fu Yue's news came back very quickly.

-Okay, show him my mugshot if he still hasn't put it down.

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- When he sees that you have such a handsome and compelling boyfriend, he must give up immediately hahaha.

Xu Zheng clicked on the photo sent by Fu Yue. Fu Yue is actually not afraid of the cold, but he still listened to Xu Zheng's words. He was dressed tightly. The black sweater hat covered half of his face. His eyebrows and eyes were curved, like a college student.

But why in the photo, there is half of someone else's face next to Fu Yue.

Xu Zheng edited the picture, specially circled the small half of the face with a red pen, and sent it to Fu Yue again.

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- who is this

-Brother, let me introduce you, this is a new designer from our office, named Nie Haohuai, and he is on a business trip with me.

Xu Zheng's fingers hovered over the screen without typing.

After a while.

-Brother, I won't tell you now.I'm going to work, I hope you have a good time with your old classmates.

-Remember to tell him that you have a master! !

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The silly kid in the family went on a business trip with another man for a month, separated by a long distance, and because he wanted to calm down with each other, he could only use WeChat to say a few words in such a casual way.

I didn't dare to chat too often, and I didn't dare to buy a plane ticket to fly over to see him, for fear that my desire to control and possess would continue to affect their relationship.

It is clear that it is not a breakup, there is no quarrel, and there is no cold war. You can often be jealous and act like a baby, but you are still afraid after all.

Xu Zheng made up his mind that when Fu Yue came back, they should have a good chat.

Be open and honest, without reservations.

Xu Zheng came to Tang Xibai's ward again. Tang Xibai had already changed into regular clothes. When he saw Xu Zheng coming, he said, "I asked the nurse for leave, and the infusion was finished ahead of time. I will take the medicine with me. Be sure." Time to eat, just come back to the hospital before eight o'clock in the evening."

Tang Xibai has lost a lot of weight, especially when wearing regular clothes.

Xu Zheng looked away and asked, "Where do you want to go?"

Tang Xibai said: "There is no place in particular that I want to go, just go for a walk, follow the fate."

"Row."

When the two left the hospital, Tang Xibai took a deep breath of the air outside the hospital, and said: "I stayed in the hospital for more than a week, and I was still very uneasy when I went in. When I came out, I was already an old patient who looked down on life. Let's go, I want to have some breakfast outside first."

Xu Zheng followed him slowly, and asked, "After graduation, have you been staying in City B?"

Tang Xibai was originally from City B. Hearing this, he nodded and said, "I'm familiar with this place. I think it's better to be in a familiar place. I don't want to work hard in an unfamiliar place. My hometown complex is strong."

Xu Zheng put his hands in his pockets and asked, "What are your plans next?" What he asked was after Tang Xibai was discharged from the hospital.

After the acute phase of AIDS, there will generally be an asymptomatic period of six to eight years.During this period, Tang Xibai can live like a normal person.

Tang Xibai gestured with his hands, spread the distance between them, and said, "I originally thought I could live for so long." Then he pressed the upper hand down a lot, and said, "Now I know that I probably only I have been able to live for so long, and the upper limit of my life has been shortened so much. I no longer want to live a nine-to-five life. live once."

"Now that the medical level is more and more developed, how do you conclude that this disease will harm your body faster than the medical level?" Xu Zheng said, "Xibai, if you work hard to live longer, you may be able to recover." Wait until the day you can be cured."

Although unlikely.

"Just eat here." Tang Xibai sat in front of a small stall, did not respond to Xu Zheng's words just now, and said: "I know you don't eat these, but I am self-willed now, you can eat some with me. "

Xu Zheng asked for a bowl of beef noodles and said, "No, I will eat these now. Influenced by my boyfriend, I think the roadside stalls are quite delicious."

Tang Xibai looked at Xu Zheng for a few seconds, and said, "I'm not mistaken, you really like boys. It's just that you don't like me."

"Why are you bringing this up again?" Xu Zheng said, "Didn't you put it all down?"

Tang Xibai asked: "Can I see your boyfriend?"

Xu Zheng showed Tang Xibai the mugshot of Fu Yuefa just now. After Tang Xibai finished watching it, he gave Xu Zheng a complicated look and said, "I can't tell, you like someone who is younger than you. Handsome He's handsome, but has your boyfriend graduated from college?"

"Graduated, you're quite young." Xu Zheng looked at Fu Yue's photo, his brows and eyes softened unconsciously.

Tang Xibai looked at his appearance and said, "Okay, I really let go this time. I have never seen you look at others with such eyes, and you just look at a photo. Brother Zheng, I think Water instead of wine, I propose a toast to you, I wish you a long life together."

"Thank you." Xu Zheng clinked glasses with him and drank the water in the glass.

After breakfast, Tang Xibai suddenly said, "Why don't we go back to T University and have a look?"

Xu Zheng paused and said, "Okay."

T University is stricter than most universities, but Xu Zheng and Tang Xibai both have photo versions of their graduation certificates, and the security guards took a look at them and let them in.

"After graduation, have you come back to see it?" Tang Xibai asked Xu Zheng.

Xu Zheng shook his head and said, "Graduation is graduation. I prefer to look forward."

Tang Xibai said, "Yes, you didn't come to the class reunion."

"There are a few friends who are still in touch, and there is no need to have that meal together for those who haven't been in touch." Xu Zheng said.

Tang Xibai said: "I think I understand you quite well. You usually don't take anything seriously, but if you really take it to heart, you care more than anyone else."

He was right, so Xu Zheng pretended to be Fu Yue in his heart, and he was so heavy that he couldn't hold anyone else anymore.

When the two walked to the playground, Tang Xibai said, "I'm a little tired, let's sit here for a while."

Xu Zheng sat next to him, with half a person's space between them.

Tang Xibai looked at the gap between the seats, and joked: "Your family education is so strict, is your boyfriend very possessive?"

Xu Zheng shook his head: "I'm more possessive of him."

"Then can he bear it?" Tang Xibai unscrewed the mineral water bottle and took a sip, "Brother Zheng, I'm not prying into your privacy, it doesn't matter if you don't tell me."

Xu Zheng didn't answer, but instead asked: "The desire to possess and control is too strong, will it make the other party very uncomfortable?"

Tang Xibai thought for a while and said, "Let's divide people and look at the scale. I really like my boyfriend to be possessive of me, so I can feel his care and concern. But if it's the kind of love that is very much Intimate couples can still have possessiveness, but the sense of security is enough, if the possessiveness is too strong, it may hurt each other." He glanced at the thoughtful Xu Zheng, and said, "Brother Zheng, will you two get married? Are you fighting?"

Xu Zheng shook his head.

Tang Xibai said: "Do you know how I got this disease?"

How AIDS was acquired is considered common sense, and Xu Zheng can probably guess how it came about.But he didn't ask, and he also respected Tang Xibai's privacy. Tang Xibai mentioned it himself, and he continued, "How did you get here?"

Tang Xibai said: "Not long after you rejected me, a nice man chased me. I still liked you very much at that time, but I knew it was impossible for us, so I agreed to him, thinking that I would have a new love, Maybe we can forget the old love."

"It's not the old love." Xu Zheng corrected.

"That's right, that's right, I haven't started it, it's my unrequited love." Tang Xi gave Xu Zheng a blank look, and said, "After I was with him for more than a year, we broke up. We broke up when we graduated. It wasn't because of graduation. It's probably because I'm bored, he was the one who brought up the breakup, and I don't feel much about it, so let's break up."

Xu Zheng hummed, gave the listener the response he deserved, and asked him to continue talking.

Tang Xibai went on to say: "After the breakup, I downloaded an app, which is the kind...you know, everyone in the gay circle knows it. Although I don't feel much about the breakup, I still feel very self-defeating. If you can’t find true love, then just be casual. Then I often go to see people nearby, and when I see someone who is suitable and good-looking, I go on a date for a night, and it’s over when I’m happy, and I don’t think too much about it.”

"I'm not that stupid. There are safety measures when I do it, but I can't guarantee 100% safety. I don't even know who passed it on to me. Anyway, I got infected." Tang Xibai Sucking his nose, he said: "But I didn't know that at that time, I just gave up on myself for a while, and I found a nice guy, he had dimples in his smile, I really liked him, he just happened to like me too, we together."

"After we were together, he treated me very well. To be honest, my parents didn't spoil me with him. I even felt that I met true love this time. But God the fuck made a joke for me at this time, fever, Fatigue, diarrhea, loss of appetite, I thought I just had a cold, so I went to the hospital for a check-up. The doctor asked me some questions, and then suggested that I go for an AIDS test. Damn, I’m afraid, I have to go if I’m afraid. After the test, I didn’t dare to have close contact with him. I originally wanted to wait for the test results to come out before telling him, but he noticed it and kept asking me. I couldn’t hold back, so I said it first , and then let him also go to the hospital for a checkup."

"As a result, my true love left before the result came out. Damn it, it seems that my previous thoughts were very stupid, and I was also very stupid. I actually thought that someone could accept me without reservation." Tang Xi sighed. He took a deep breath and said, "Before the result came out, I had already prepared for the worst, so after the result came out, I didn't feel particularly uncomfortable, so I went to the hospital to live."

He said that going to the hospital to live is the same as going to a hotel, very plain.

Xu Zheng said: "He left, it proves that it's not your true love, nothing more."

Tang Xibai said: "Brother Zheng, you are not me, you can definitely say it so calmly. Why don't you put yourself in your shoes, if your boyfriend knows you have AIDS, if if I mean if, I Knowing that you will definitely not go on a date, just assume that if he thinks you have AIDS, do you think he will leave you?"

waited for so long.

Xu Zhengcai said: "I can't imagine the possibility of him leaving me, I can't think of such an if."

Tang Xi was dumbfounded.

"What if he has AIDS?" Tang Xibai asked unwillingly.

Xu Zheng thought for a long time before saying, "Then he might choose to leave me. And I won't leave him."

The two went to the student canteen to have lunch on the way, and then went to the library and the teaching building for a stroll. In the afternoon, they sat by the lake and watched the sunset slowly take away the light.

Tang Xibai likes sunset more than sunrise.

The earth staggered away from the sun, a great parting.

Both magnificent and majestic.

Tang Xibai said to Xu Zheng: "Didn't you ask me about my future plans this morning? I didn't give you a very clear answer back then."

Xu Zheng hummed.

Tang Xibai compared his hand to a gun, and fired a shot far into the sky, saying, "I want to learn to fly a helicopter and soar into the sky."

He wants to meet the sky, sing in the ups and downs, and it doesn't matter if he falls to death.

Salute to every tomorrow.