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In the afternoon, Fang Yi accompanied Yan Qinsheng to rest at home for half a day. He was usually too busy with business, so taking a break once in a while made him feel relaxed.

When the evening was approaching, Fang Yi answered a phone call. The bosses of several suppliers made an appointment to go to the entertainment club for entertainment in the evening.

In fact, Fang Yi was very annoyed by this kind of entertainment, and he couldn't push it away. Those bosses and executives ordered a row of girls when they went in. They were beautiful, but they were not good at it, and they had to bite the bullet to get one to appear gregarious.

After hanging up the phone, Fang Yi went inside to change clothes, and said to Yan Qinsheng: "I'm going out soon, I can't send you to night school."

"Go ahead, I'll take the subway by myself." Yan Qinsheng packed his books and stuffed them into his handbag.

Fang Yi was very touched that Yan Qinsheng understood and supported his work without making noise. Although he never said it, he knew that he had treated Yan Qinsheng too badly in many ways.

Before going out, Fang Yi stretched out his arms to hug Yan Qinsheng, and kissed his forehead: "Thank you for your hard work."

"Why did you say that suddenly?" Yan Qinsheng was overwhelmed by his sudden gentleness, raised his face and smiled at him, "You're under so much pressure, I don't work as hard as you."

Fang Yi hugged Yan Qinsheng tightly, patted his thin back, "I really want to stay with you at home."

"Okay, let's go, if you're late, you'll be forced to drink." Yan Qinsheng gently broke away from his embrace, and stuffed the briefcase into Fang Yi's hand.

Evening school usually ends at ten o'clock, Yan Qinsheng arrived home almost ten forty o'clock, the room is still dark, it seems that Fang Yi has not come back yet.

After 11:30, Assistant Lin brought the drunk Fang Yi over. Yan Qinsheng helped him to sit on the sofa, put on a coat over his pajamas, and hurried to the bathroom to fill Fang Yi with water.

Fang Yi was so drunk that he couldn't even stand upright, Yan Qinsheng frantically undressed him and helped him into the bathtub, but he suddenly slipped into the water and sat there, splashing water all over Yan Qinsheng.

Yan Qinsheng sighed helplessly, so he had no choice but to go out and take off his wet coat.

He packed up the changed clothes and took them to the washing machine, and checked Fang Yi's trouser pockets and jacket pockets to prevent some receipts from being washed away.

Fang Yi didn't put his phone in his purse today, but put it in his coat pocket. Yan Qinsheng was glad he checked it, otherwise it would be troublesome to throw the phone in the washing machine.

At this moment, Fang Yi's cell phone vibrated, and the caller ID was: Xiao Qi.

Yan Qinsheng came to the bathroom with his mobile phone and pushed Fang Yi, "Pick up the phone."

With a towel over his eyes, Fang Yi leaned his face up against the edge of the bathtub and fell asleep. Yan Qinsheng didn't even respond to his calls, and the phone just hung up.

Not long after, Fang Yi's cell phone vibrated again. Yan Qinsheng, who was washing Fang Yi's hair, washed the foam off his hands and wiped off the water stains. He picked up the cell phone and took a look.

The other party called twice in a row, it must be something important, Yan Qinsheng glanced at the sleeping Fang Yi, hesitated for a moment before answering.

As soon as the mobile phone was close to the ear, there was a complaint from the phone: "Brother Yi, when are you coming back?"

The way this person asked made Yan Qinsheng baffled, as if Xiao Qi was living with Fang Yi when he would come back.

Yan Qinsheng could tell from the voice that the caller was a young man. He guessed that it might be some relative or younger brother of Fang Yi's family, so he politely replied: "Fang Yi, he drank too much. Is there something important waiting for you tomorrow? Let me know."

The voice on the other end of the phone instantly cooled down: "Who are you?"

"I...I am..." Yan Qinsheng was at a loss for words. He didn't know if Fang Yi had come out to his family. If he answered that he was Fang Yi's boyfriend, wouldn't it be harming him.

Yan Qinsheng kept his hands aside, and asked his identity first: "May I ask who are you?"

The young man on the other end of the phone sneered: "I'm his boyfriend, I want to ask who are you?"

Holding the phone, Yan Qinsheng felt as if struck by lightning, from the top of his head to his toes.

The young man on the other end of the phone was also silent for a moment, and then muttered to himself: "I seem to have heard your voice somewhere... I have a little impression, why can't I remember..."

The man couldn't remember, but Yan Qinsheng did. It was the voice of that baby-faced boy, Fang Yi's college roommate Xie Qi.

Neither of them hung up the phone, they were deadlocked in silence, obviously Xie Qi also guessed him.

Yan Qinsheng's throat rolled with difficulty, and it took a lot of effort to open his mouth to say a word: "You just said that you are Fang Yi's boyfriend..."

Xie Qi was also angry, and his voice was raised several degrees suddenly, which made Yan Qinsheng's ears hurt.

"Where is Fang Yi! Let him answer the phone!"

Yan Qinsheng was stunned by the series of blows, he didn't know what to say, the hand holding the phone trembled uncontrollably, finally he pressed the hang up button, and then turned off the phone.

His head was in a mess, and he needed to calm down and sort it out. The more he thought about it, the tighter and uncomfortable he felt.

Compared with Xie Qi's aggressive questioning, what Yan Qinsheng couldn't accept was that there was really someone outside Fang Yi.Although he also vaguely had this kind of conjecture before, he always comforted himself that he was thinking too much, and the fact came too fast, which caught him off guard.

Yan Qinsheng sat alone on the sofa for a while, his whole body strength seemed to be exhausted, even breathing was painful, when he stood up his body wobbled and almost fell down.

Even so, he still thought that the water in the bathtub was going to be cold, so he had to get Fang Yi out quickly to avoid catching a cold.

Pushing open the bathroom door again, Fang Yi had already woken up, sitting in the cold water with drooping eyelids and eyesight, he was woken up by the cold, but he was still awake from the wine.

Yan Qinsheng wrapped Fang Yi in a bath towel and dried his hair as usual, then stuffed him under the blanket.

As soon as he sat by the bed and turned off the light in the bedroom, Fang Yi immediately stretched out his arms and pulled him into the quilt tightly. Yan Qinsheng couldn't help sniffing, and tears fell on Fang Yi's arms.

Fang Yi dazedly touched his face in the dark, his palm was wet, and then drunkenly kissed Yan Qinsheng's eyes.

"Xiaoqi...I'm sorry...brother made you cry again."

That night Yan Qinsheng stood alone on the balcony facing the dark night sky and shed a lot of tears. The cold wind at night quickly dried the tears on his face.

In Yan Qinsheng's memory, it seems that the last time he cried like this was when his parents divorced, and then Fang Yi came to him and gave him courage and hope.

He still remembered that Fang Yi hugged him tightly at that time, and the two of them squeezed into a small bed.

Fang Yi said, your mother doesn't want you, but brother wants you.

As soon as I think about the past, I will sink deeper and deeper, and a hole will be torn in my heart, pouring out all the gentleness of Fang Yi before, and then the cold wind of the night will pour in again, freezing my whole body.

Yan Qinsheng always has the idea of ​​giving up on himself, why am I so unlucky, I will always miss it for half my life.

If he could have discovered Fang Yi's feelings earlier in high school, or if he had not hesitated when Fang Yi confessed, but had nodded decisively, perhaps Fang Yi would not have changed.

But after all, there are more regrets in this world. How many people can be so lucky. When you love me, I also happen to secretly like you.It's not always until the other party turns around and leaves in frustration, and then suddenly realizes that I love him so much, it's hard to let go, and I regret it.

To fall in love requires meeting the right person at the right time. Yan Qinsheng is used to being timid, and it will be a lifetime thing if he misses it. Now, no matter how much Fang Yi messes around behind his back, Yan Qinsheng regrets it and can't blame others.

The next morning, when Fang Yi opened his eyes, the bedside was empty. He drank too much wine last night, and now his forehead still hurts. He raised his hand and beat his forehead. .

He habitually reached out to the bedside to get clothes, but today Yan Qinsheng didn't prepare any clothes for him, and his physical discomfort made him extremely irritable, so he lifted the quilt and got out of bed, went to the closet, took out his clothes and put them on before opening the door and going out.

The living room was also cold, and Yan Qinsheng didn't make breakfast outside.

"Qin Sheng?" Fang Yi turned around the room, and finally saw a sleeping man in thin pajamas sitting on a chair on the balcony.

"Why did you sleep outside in such a cold day?" Fang Yi looked contemptuous, as if he was looking at a psychopath.

Yan Qinsheng slightly opened his eyelids, his eyes were bloodshot: "Call Xie Qi back, he called you last night."

Yan Qinsheng spoke in a very light tone, but his voice was a little hoarse. He staggered up from the rattan chair, pushed Fang Yi who was standing in front of him, and entered the room alone.

Yan Qinsheng hid in the room and heard Fang Yi calling on the balcony, and then hurriedly slammed the door and left. He sat down on the edge of the bed, lowered his head and smiled self-deprecatingly. Fang Yi immediately chose to go to Xie Qi to explain.

Fang Yi's warmth still remained on the pillow where Fang Yi slept. Yan Qinsheng reached out and touched the shallow depression in the center of the pillow, and sighed quietly: "I am such a coaxable person, as long as you come and hug me and say something that you are wrong I will forgive you, but you don't even bother to give me an explanation."

No matter how sad he was, Yan Qinsheng still went to work with his exhausted body. He didn't know how much value he had for Fang Yi besides settling accounts for the company.

Perhaps Fang Yi is not short of an accountant who settles accounts, but he just pities him and rewards him with a bowl of food.

In the morning, Assistant Lin came to the financial office to send a message: "Manager Fang said, if you are tired, you can go back and rest for a few days before returning to work. You don't have to carry it hard."

He would rather let Assistant Lin send a message than call to care about it, Yan Qinsheng leaned on the office chair, his expression couldn't hide his injury: "Where's Fang Yi, he didn't come to the company?"

"Oh, Manager Fang has gone out to discuss business." Assistant Lin is very familiar with telling lies to the boss.

Yan Qinsheng smiled bleakly: "Assistant Lin, you know that Fang Yi has someone outside, right?"

Assistant Lin's expression was a bit complicated, he moved the corner of his mouth, and he said after a long time: "Manager Fang said that he will take care of his affairs by himself, and he's been busy recently and probably won't be able to spare time to accompany you, so don't think too much about it. "

After completing the task of passing the message, Assistant Lin quietly left the financial room.Naturally, it was impossible for Yan Qinsheng to go back to rest. He didn't have the courage to let himself stop. Once he was free, his whole body would be overwhelmed by overwhelming sadness.

At the beginning of the year, the company didn't have too many things to calculate. If there was nothing to do, he would recalculate the accounts that had been processed before.

Yan Qinsheng was very obedient, Fang Yi told him not to think too much and he didn't think too much. He put the accounts and figures into his mind like self-hypnosis, and didn't leave himself a chance to think.

In the past few days, Yan Qinsheng faced the empty house every day, and felt lonely for a long time. He overestimated himself, no matter how introverted and withdrawn, he would long for someone to accompany him at a certain moment, especially on rest days, this loneliness It will be infinitely stretched and magnified by time, and the days are like years.

He had no appetite to eat, but his stomach was clamoring and uncomfortable, so he grabbed a small handful of rice, put it in a pot, washed it, added water, and stood next to the gas stove to feel the warmth of the flame.

When Yan Qinsheng heard the doorbell, he still couldn't react. He was stunned for a moment and hurried to the bathroom to check in the mirror whether he had a dejected face. Fang Yi didn't like seeing him with a sour face, saying that he would be in trouble.

When he opened the door and saw Xie Qi, Yan Qinsheng felt awkward for a moment. He didn't know why he felt such a humble feeling. Maybe it was because Xie Qi slightly raised his chin and looked at him with too mocking eyes, suppressing Yan Qinsheng to death in his aura. Living.

Xie Qi was still the same as when he was in college, with a harmless baby face, and the chill on his face disappeared instantly when Yan Qinsheng opened the door, completing the seamless switch with the innocent smile.

"Hi."

Yan Qinsheng stood blankly at the door, and before the master could speak, Xie Qi smiled and pushed Yan Qinsheng away, walked into the room and walked around to inspect it.

"It's impolite for you to be like this in my house." Yan Qinsheng complained weakly, and he didn't forget to bend down to take out a glass and pour a cup of hot tea on the living room table, "Please sit down."

Even if he was forced to come to the door by Xiaosan, Yan Qinsheng felt that he could not lose his manners. This matter was originally Fang Yi's fault.

Xie Qi didn't sit down either, and walked around in front of Yan Qinsheng again, obviously unable to put on a decent smile.

If the other party was just an ordinary little lover, Xie Qi wouldn't even bother to find her in person, lowering her self-worth, like a jerk who was abandoned by others.

But the other party is Yan Qinsheng, the first love that Fang Yi can't get, and the most difficult heart disease for Fang Yi.

The Yan Qinsheng scandal at the beginning completely distorted Fang Yi's mentality, from an optimistic and cheerful person to the current state of indulgence.

Fang Yi probably didn't even notice these things, but Xie Qi could see clearly from the beginning to the end, Fang Yi subconsciously imitated the boss who was caught for rape, he thought he could get Yan Qinsheng by doing so.

And now Fang Yi really took care of Yan Qinsheng.

ridiculous.

The more Xie Qi thought about it, the more pressure he felt was suffocating. Yan Qinsheng was a threat he had finally kicked away. He knew more about Yan Qinsheng's weight in Fang Yi's heart than anyone else.

"When did you hook up with him?" Xie Qi asked.

Hook up?Yan Qinsheng frowned in dissatisfaction, "Fang Yi and I are in a normal relationship, please don't insult me ​​with such words."

"Normal relationship?" Xie Qi sneered, and the bitch wanted to set up a memorial archway when she stole someone, so she laughed out loud: "I'm curious what confidence you have to say these words to me."

"Isn't it?" Yan Qinsheng stared at him blankly.

Xie Qi seemed to have seen through his psychology, sitting on the chair and putting on an original air, her tone was haughty and disdainful.

"Fang Yi and I have been together since university. It has been three years now. You are the one who meddles in our relationship. Don't look at me with the compassionate eyes that look at Xiaosan. You should look in the mirror and take pity on yourself." .”

Yan Qinsheng was in a daze for a moment, standing there at a loss, apparently having difficulty accepting what he said just now, but he had to accept this fact.

He had only dated Fang Yi for a few months, and those short months were so small compared to the long three years, so small that he was ashamed to say it.

Yan Qinsheng couldn't help but felt sad for a while, it turned out that I was the most shady person, it turned out that I was the one who was kept outside.

"Don't you believe me?" Xie Qi stood up and asked him provocatively: "Do you dare to come and see my house?" After he finished speaking, he quickly changed his words and said word by word: "No, it's Fang Yi and I's home. "

"Please show me." Yan Qinsheng raised his heavy eyelids slightly, went to the kitchen and turned off the gas stove.

There is nothing to be afraid of until now, take me to see your warm home, and then poke a few knives into my heart, it is best to goug out my heart, so that I have a reason to convince myself to leave Fang Yi .