I'm poor

I'm Poor and Fearful

Xie Qi really took Yan Qinsheng to his home. While driving, he glanced at the person in the passenger seat out of the corner of his eye. Judging by Yan Qinsheng's pale face, he was almost unable to hold on.

Xie Qi felt refreshed in his heart. He thought Yan Qinsheng would be stern and unmoved, but he never expected to be so vulnerable.

He won't give Yan Qinsheng any face by softening his heart. Only when Yan Qinsheng is completely squeezed out can he and Fang Yi have the possibility to continue.

The car drove into the underground garage of a high-end apartment near the shopping mall, and the two entered the elevator one after the other.

Although Yan Qinsheng was mentally prepared on the way here, the moment Xie Qi opened the door, his heart still felt a dull pain.

You don't need to look closely to feel that this is the place where Fang Yi really lived for a long time, and there are traces of him everywhere.

The shoe cabinet in the entrance is full of his shoes, the couple mugs on the dining table, Fang Yi’s TF ebony aloes, and the bedroom closet is full of men’s clothing...

It turned out that Fang Yi's real home was like this, Yan Qinsheng felt a bitterness in his heart, compared to the so-called home he and Fang Yi had, it was nothing more than a small hotel where they lived temporarily.

It's just that there are a few more changes of clothes than the hotel, and one more servant who is busy serving him.

After the sadness came to an end, Yan Qinsheng couldn't help being sad anymore, he didn't even feel a sore nose, he just felt disheartened and didn't even have the strength to speak.

His eyes fell on the photos placed on the bookshelf in the living room, so he walked slowly over and took off the table to stare silently.

In the photo, Fang Yi and Xie Qi are wearing dark blue and silver-white ski suits, grinning on the snow-covered ski resort.

Yan Qinsheng's thumb lightly touched Fang Yi's cheek through the cold glass. In the photo, Fang Yi was just like in college. He was handsome and sunny, and his smile was radiant, which could dispel all the haze in people's hearts.

Yan Qinsheng was so sad that he wanted to cry, it turned out that Fang Yi faced Xie Qi with this expression.

Fang Yi is like a piece of ice when it is cold, and it is like a fire when it is hot. If he really cares about someone, he is really considerate and thoughtful. You can feel the warmth from him all the time, which makes people feel helpless Because Yan Qinsheng fell into the trap in such a daze at the beginning, it is no wonder that Xie Qi came to him aggressively, because no one would be willing to let go of such an outstanding man.

"Have you seen enough?" Xie Qi stood behind him and patted the floor impatiently with his toes, "If you have seen enough, don't touch my things. I brought you here just to let you see clearly. In fact, you are in Fang Yi's heart." It's nothing, brother Yi is just because I'm lonely after studying abroad, and I don't care about raising you like a dog for fun."

Xie Qi's beautiful and harmless doll's face was full of arrogance and arrogance. He walked over, reached out and grabbed the table, put it back on the bookshelf, raised his chin and squinted at him slightly.

"Brother Yi and I were clean and tidy. He had a strong sense of responsibility for me and hurt me to death. But you are different. You have been taken care of by others, and it's too late for him to dislike you. Yan Qinsheng, how can you What are you fighting with me for?"

Yan Qinsheng's throat choked up, and the bitter taste spread from his mouth to his internal organs. Yes, he is a widow, and his body is broken. Fang Yi is so picky, and he doesn't even take a bite of old rice. Looking at him is already thinking about the friendship between classmates in the past.

It turns out that Fang Yi never let him set foot in his real life. Fang Yi has not changed, but he has given all his tenderness and patience to others.

After seeing everything clearly, Yan Qinsheng was finally willing to give up. He pursed his lips and said in a slightly trembling voice after a long time: "I'm sorry, I didn't know it would be like this...I will return Fang Yi to you."

Xie Qi tilted his head and disdained to look at the trembling man in front of him, and sneered: "You don't need to pay it back, Fang Yi's heart is with me from the beginning to the end. Serve as a dish."

Xie Qi had achieved his goal, so it was naturally impossible to kindly drive him back.Before Yan Qin stepped out of their house, the door behind him closed with a "bang".

Yan Qinsheng dragged his heavy steps along the way, he didn't want to go back, that place was not home.During the more than two hours of walking, he gradually calmed down and made up his mind to leave.

It was already dark when he walked back to the apartment, Yan Qinsheng opened the door and began to pack his luggage.

After sorting it out, I found that there were very few things that really belonged to me. Fang Yi lost all his old clothes when he moved, leaving only a pair of jeans and two sweaters, and Fang Yi asked Assistant Lin to buy everything else.

Yan Qinsheng smiled wryly, and kept saying that he didn't want Fang Yi to spend money, but unknowingly he accepted so many things from him.

No wonder Assistant Lin and Xu Jinhao always looked at him with pitiful and disgusting eyes. It turned out that everyone knew that he was raised by Fang Yi.

Only he himself was so stupid that he didn't know, and thought that he would spend his life with Fang Yi after all the hardships.

Yan Qinsheng opened the cabinet doors and drawers, and stuffed his own things into the suitcase bit by bit.

The golden commemorative coin lay quietly in the corner of the suitcase. He held the commemorative coin in his hand and looked at it for a long time. He obviously got gold coins after eating glutinous rice balls. Mr. Liang said that he would be lucky this year, but it was all fake.

Yan Qinsheng watched so engrossed that he didn't even notice when Fang Yi opened the door and came in.

Fang Yi also just came back from a business trip in other provinces, so he drove to Yan Qinsheng's place without having dinner.

He knew that Yan Qinsheng was easy to coax, even if he didn't need to say anything, as long as he came, Yan Qinsheng would hug him without complaint as before.

As a result, as soon as Fang Yi entered the door, he saw Yan Qinsheng squatting next to the suitcase, holding a gold coin and watching intently.

Without saying a word, he walked over and took the gold coin from Yan Qinsheng's hand and took a look.

It is impossible for Yan Qinsheng to be willing to spend money on pure gold commemorative coins issued by the bank. This kind of trashy and boring thing is only collected by middle-aged and elderly men who have money and have nothing to spend.

Fang Yi turned cold and kicked the half-packed suitcase on the ground, "What do you mean?"

Yan Qinsheng zipped up the suitcase and lifted it up, "It's not interesting, let's break it."

"Broken?" Fang Yi suddenly became angry, raised his foot and kicked Yan Qinsheng's suitcase and asked in a bad mood: "Find a next home and prepare to run? Liang Yushu gave you a little favor and you can't wait to climb into his bed, right? "

"Why do you question me, what right do you have to say such things to me?" Yan Qinsheng was very wronged, he thought he could not cry anymore, but he still couldn't hold back two drops when he spoke.

He casually grabbed the cushion on the sofa and threw it on Fang Yi's face, shouting: "You tricked me like this and I can't bear to scold you, and you turn around and speak ill at me, Fang Yi, I'll ask you Man! You hate me for being like this and insist on driving me to death, don’t you!"

Yan Qinsheng's uncharacteristically fierce words made Fang Yi furious, and he pushed him directly on the coffee table in the living room and yelled: "Have you fucked up enough?"

Yan Qinsheng was oppressed by a strong force, and his abdomen slammed against the corner of the coffee table, his face turned pale with a scream of pain.He struggled to kick Fang Yi with his foot. He had never fought in such a big age, and this time he almost put his life on the line to gamble.

At the beginning, Fang Yi gave him some leeway, but Yan Qinsheng dropped all the tea utensils on the coffee table, and that posture was close to dying with him.

Originally, Fang Yi was fed up with Xie Qi, who was coaxing and playing petty temper in a low voice these days, but Yan Qinsheng dared to lose his temper with him.He finally couldn't suppress the rage rolling in his chest, grabbed Yan Qinsheng and slapped Yan Qinsheng across the face, and the crisp slap echoed in the living room for a long time.

That slap directly stunned Yan Qinsheng, he stopped his movements and stared at Fang Yi with wide eyes, his ears were still buzzing, the pain on his left cheek rushed up one step later, it was burning hot.

Fang Yi tightened Yan Qinsheng's collar, and looked down at him with cold eyes: "I don't spend money to support you so that you can get angry with me and wear a cuckold. You need money anyway if you sleep with anyone. If you take care of me, you need money." If I don't give you anything, do you think I want to beat you because of my hand?"

Yan Qinsheng hung his head back like a dying person, and suddenly giggled, his dark eyes were full of bleak despair.

"You think I'm living with you just for money..."

Yan Qinsheng was extremely sad, the two spent too much time together, worked hard for the same goal, shared joy and sorrow, thought they were the people who knew each other best, why now you don't even know what I want.

He pushed Fang Yi away violently, got up from the ground and rushed into the room with his arms staggering, pulled out the drawer at the head of the bed, grabbed the bank cards given by Fang Yi and threw them on him.

"Xie Qi is rich, he and you are just selfless sacrifices for love, I am poor, I just have bad intentions to see money, you care about him so much, you have a good time with him, why come to spoil me again! Fang Yi, you are drinking What a brain, I really thought I couldn’t live without you, didn’t you!”

After the roar, Yan Qinsheng leaned against the bedroom door and gasped for breath. He hit the corner of the table just now and his stomach was still hurting. He forced himself to go to the living room and bent down to pick up the suitcase on the floor, returning to his usual indifferent attitude. Tone: "I don't take any of what you give, but save some face for each other, so let's get together and break up."

Fang Yi clenched his teeth and his eyes were scarlet. The look of Yan Qinsheng's decision to go made him start to worry a little. He already regretted beating Yan Qinsheng.

No matter how much I dislike and insult Yan Qinsheng, I still don't want to lose him from the bottom of my heart.Otherwise, he wouldn't have sneaked towards Yan Qinsheng under Xie Qi's pressure. After all, he still couldn't bear to break up with Yan Qinsheng.

From Fang Yi's point of view, it is enough for Yan Qinsheng to save face if he can still come here. As long as Yan Qinsheng is obedient and does not make trouble, he is still capable of protecting this little lover.

But Yan Qinsheng was not only ungrateful, but also lost his temper and wanted to leave, saying that he didn't want a penny, obviously he was fearless because of Liang Yushu's backing.

Fang Yi gritted his teeth and swallowed his burning anger, pointed to the bedroom and said, "I can't tolerate your losing your temper every time. This is the last time. Now get out and stay in the room."

put up with me?Yan Qinsheng only thought it was ridiculous, but he actually laughed out loud, his stomach throbbed and hurt from laughing, and his eyes blurred from the pain.

He clenched the handle of the suitcase and walked to the door, his throat choked up and said: "Fang Yi, I can't tolerate you every time, so I won't bear it anymore."

Fang Yi was so angry that he grabbed Yan Qinsheng by the arm and threw him and the box out of the room.

"You're fucking capable, get out if you want, no one is stopping you!"

The door of the house was slammed down by Fang Yi from the inside, and the loud sound shook the voice-activated lights on several floors.

Yan Qinsheng looked down at the slippers on his feet, dragged his suitcase and didn't go back into the elevator.

When he walked out of the apartment, Yan Qinsheng's abdominal spasms were already severe, and he couldn't straighten his upper body due to the pain. He covered his stomach with one hand and dragged the suitcase with the other, and walked under the streetlight with his slippers.

The cramping pain in his abdomen made him ignore the discomfort in his heart for a short time, and his mind was filled with only one thought, which was so painful, it hurt so badly that he was about to die.

The body felt chills intermittently, and the intestines seemed to be churning together, and the internal organs were all cold.He dropped his suitcase and squatted on the side of the road, with cold sweat dripping from his forehead, and his lips were frighteningly pale.

Before he had time to bring his mobile phone and wallet, Yan Qinsheng walked so freely, and now he is in such a mess.

The more prosperous the big city, the more indifferent the human relationship. Even though Yan Qinsheng curled up in pain and shivered under the street lamp, the passers-by just glanced at him and walked away. No one came up to ask if he needed help.

The pain spread from the abdomen to the whole body in waves. Yan Qinsheng was so painful that his pupils almost slackened. He leaned on the electric pole by the roadside and slowly fell to the ground.

Before he lost consciousness, he was still laughing at himself. He had no future in this life. He died on the side of the road. He wondered if he could make a sensation and be published in a small corner of the newspaper or website.

The light in the living room was always on, and Fang Yi's feet had already been covered with cigarette ashes. He couldn't sit still anymore, and with trembling fingers, he took out a new cigarette from the cigarette case and stuffed it into his mouth, feeling tangled up in his heart.

Although Fang Yi is impatient, it is not the first time he has waited for someone. He used to wait calmly outside the daily food store for Yan Qinsheng to get off work, and he once waited for Yan Qinsheng to deliver a scarf in the school dormitory with great anticipation. That kind of waiting is sweet, no Like now, every second is suffering, and my heart is eaten away by sorrow and anxiety.

At the beginning, he was very sure that Yan Qinsheng was just losing his temper and would not really leave. What's more, Yan Qinsheng didn't bring anything except a box of old clothes, and his wallet, mobile phone, ID card, and bank cards were all in the house.

In the past two years, he has been working hard outside, earning a lot of money, drinking a lot, and smoking a lot. Fang Yi knows that he is vulgar. Whether he looks at people or things, he always uses money as a measure. Xu Jinhao said That's right, dealing with a group of businessmen every day, he has indeed unknowingly acquired the temper of the boss.

The two quarreled just now, and Fang Yi only felt angry when he was angry. Now he calmed down and thought about it carefully, Yan Qinsheng's words were like knives.

The house without Yan Qinsheng was frighteningly deserted, like a container without a soul.Although Yan Qinsheng usually doesn't talk much at home, as soon as Fang Yi opens the door and sees his busy figure in the room, his heart will be full.

Fang Yi had already made up his mind, as long as Yan Qinsheng came back to get his things, he would rush to hug him and kiss him, at worst, put down his face and say a few soft words to beg him not to leave.Fang Yi knew that Yan Qinsheng couldn't bear to see him wronged, and would not leave him behind.

He waited in the living room for about a quarter of an hour. As time went by, the panic gradually expanded, spreading the blood of his body like quicksand.He stood up from the sofa and stood helplessly in the middle of the living room. He didn't even hear a knock on the door, and the room was eerily silent.

Fang Yi firmly pressed the cigarette in his hand into the ashtray on the coffee table, opened the door and rushed out.

He wanted to get Yan Qinsheng back, he didn't even have any money on him, how far could he walk in a pair of slippers at night, maybe he was wandering around like a lonely ghost on the road.

"Qin Sheng!" Fang Yi anxiously looked for Yan Qinsheng along the street, his heart was tormented like a fire.

He ran all over the nearby streets but found nothing. He drove to the subway station and the station to search around, but he still did not see Yan Qinsheng.

Fang Yi's heart skipped a beat suddenly, and he collapsed on the steering wheel in a daze.

Yan Qinsheng really left him.