The omega I was eyeing turned out to be A

Turning to the first page, there is no name, only a big year in the date.

It was four years ago.

In other words, this diary was written four years ago.

Turning to the second page is the official diary.

3 month 7 day.

Xu Yu brought another alpha back home today, they were really noisy, I couldn't sleep all night because of the noise! ! !

She is so stupid!Why do you always pin your hopes on alpha, this is already the fourth one, just wait and see, this one will definitely get rid of her soon!

...

4 month 7 day.

Sure enough, she was dumped.

She is ill again.

She started hitting me again.

Started crying again.

To die to die to die to die.

...

4 month 15 day.

I didn't expect that she would find another alpha so quickly. The eyes of this alpha were really disgusting, sticking to me all the time, like a snake staring at its prey.

I really want to pick out his eyeballs!

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5 month 7 day.

He actually wanted to marry Xu Yu.

I knew his purpose was not pure, as long as Xu Yu didn't see it, his eyes would stick to me.

While eating, he even touched my thigh.

Sooner or later, he will be killed.

...

7 month 10 day.

Xu Yu wasn't at home today, yet he wanted to hug me.

I almost did it.

It's a pity that Xu Yu is back.

Let him die next time.

...

10 month 9 day.

He didn't expect him to reveal his true nature so quickly, when Xu Yu captured his sleeping omega, he even dared to beat her.

Xu Yu, this stupid woman, why did you stop me.

If she was killed, she deserved it! ! !

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12 month 25 day.

I knew she wasn't giving up.

She actually went to find Lin Yu again, and she was still dreaming of going back to Lin's house.

Did she really not know that Lin Yu was just playing with her?

...

Qi Yuehuai looked at it, her face gradually became solemn. From this diary, it can be seen that Xu Yu should be Lin Xingqiu's mother.

According to the little uncle, Xu Yu was from the south, and later, in order to find Lin Yu, he came to Yuandong alone. When Lin Xingqiu was young, Xu Yu took Lin Xingqiu to guard the door of Lin's house almost every day.

Later, the Lin family refused to admit it alive or dead, and Xu Yu gradually stopped going, and finally disappeared completely.

From this point of view, Xu Yu should have given up for the time being. She found one alpha after another to commit herself to, but those alphas were not good friends, and they broke up soon after the dewy love affair.

At that time, Lin Xingqiu was forced to hear a lot of unpleasant things.

Later, Xu Yu finally found an alpha who was willing to marry her, but this alpha seemed to have some ulterior motives for Lin Xingqiu.

That alpha should be what Chen Jin said, Lin Xingqiu's stepfather.

In the end, his stepfather also cheated, and even raped Lin Xingqiu's mother. It was the first time that Qi Yuehuai knew that Lin Yu had never been in touch with Lin Xingqiu's mother.

Obviously Xue Yuan and Lin Yu are a model couple on the surface.

It was the first time Qi Yuehuai learned about Lin Xingqiu's world. Although it can't be called a honeypot, Qi Yuehuai's childhood and youth were sunny and smooth sailing.

But Lin Xingqiu's youth is full of obscure, dark, and full of despair, and his paranoia and hostility can be seen between the lines.

Enduring the sadness in his heart, he picked up the next book, which was from three years ago.

2 month 18 day.

She started going out more and more frequently, and I knew she was looking for Lin Yu.

Why not divorce?

...

3 month 14 day.

When I was taking a shower today, there was a figure at the door.

I know it's him.

He lingered outside the door for half an hour.

I'm really at my limit.

Alphas should all die!

...

5 month 6 day.

He finally found out.

Xu Yu was almost beaten to death.

Obviously he cheated himself too!

Why can't Xu Yu live without Alpha?

Neither divorce, nor do I fight back.

Did she really think Lin Yu would marry her?

...

6 month 9 day.

He even ran to blackmail Lin Yu.

Haha, did he really think that the Lin family was so easy to blackmail?

Sure enough, Xu Yu was the unlucky one.

This stupid woman, I don't want to care about her anymore, anyway, they will only take their anger on me in the end.

It hurts!

...

6 month 23 day.

She was dumped by Lin Yu again.

It's the second time, how could someone fall twice in one place?

...

6 month 29 day.

It’s over.

She is ill again.

...

7 month 15 day.

Sure enough, he couldn't take it anymore and wanted to divorce Xu Yu.

If this continues, Xu Yu will die sooner or later.

...

8 month 1 day.

I swore that I would never go to the Lin family again.

But I went anyway.

This is the last time I will work for Xu Yu.

After waiting for a day, I didn't wait for Lin Yu to come, but I saw Lin Mingyuan, he was still so arrogant and stupid.

...

8 month 2 day.

Still didn't wait for Lin Yu to come.

...

8 month 3 day.

Still didn't wait for Lin Yu to come.

...

8 month 4 day.

Still didn't wait for Lin Yu to come, but saw an interesting thing.

Lin Mingyuan clings to an alpha like a dog, but that alpha completely ignores him.

really interesting.

I deliberately took a photo.

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8 month 7 day.

Xu Yu is dead.

...

8 month 9 day.

Before Xu Yu was buried, he had already started to touch me.

I'm not going to put up with it.

I'm going to kill him.

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9 month 14 day.

I spent a day looking at federal laws.

Although I am not yet an adult, I will go to jail for killing him.

I have a plan.

...

9 month 6 day.

Sure enough, he was hooked.

I just came out of the shower and hung around the house in a t-shirt and he started drooling like a dog.

...

10 month 19 day.

Very good!

He finally did it today. Before that, I deliberately put the fruit knife on the coffee table.

I gave him a knife, but I know I don't have to go to jail.

Those cameras were clearly installed by him to spy on me, but now they are the evidence for him to go to jail.

Hahahahaha! !

...

12 month 23 day.

He won't be coming back.

This book contains more information than the previous one, and it seems to be related to him. Qi Yuehuai took a breath and turned his gaze back to the photo with the earliest date.

Now that I looked carefully, I found that the photo seemed to have been cropped. In the corner of the photo, there was an elbow.

If he guessed correctly, it should be Lin Mingyuan's elbow.

Lin Xingqiu went to squat Lin Yu at the gate of Lin's house for Xu Yu, but he didn't squat Lin Yu, but saw the picture of Lin Mingyuan pestering him. At that time, he took this photo because it was interesting.

Later, probably because he developed feelings for himself, Lin Xingqiu cut off Lin Mingyuan and left this photo.

Lin Xingqiu took the initiative to seduce his stepfather. When the stepfather couldn't help but want to do it, he stabbed his stepfather with a knife, and then called the police.

And the cameras installed by his stepfather to spy on him have also become evidence.

In the federal government, sexual crimes are felonies, especially those of minors, but Lin Xingqiu was only acting in self-defense.

Reminiscent of Chen Jin's words, Lin Xingqiu's stepfather is in prison, probably because of this.

This diary is even more desperate to read than the last one.

The mother is stubborn, pinning all the value of life on one alpha after another, falling down again and again, and finally going around and going around, pinning her hope again on Lin Yu who abandoned her.

Xu Yu was already ill, and under several blows, he chose to commit suicide.

What was Lin Xingqiu, who was only 15 years old at that time, thinking?

Although his diary is full of dissatisfaction with Xu Yu, for Xu Yu's sake, he still chooses to go to Lin Yu's home, which he hates the most. If he didn't have feelings for Xu Yu, it would be impossible to do so.

Qi Yuehuai picked up the next diary.

2 month 5 day.

Today I was kicked out of that house, damn it, I thought I could live forever.

People in the community wanted to take me away, so I ran away.

I hate being controlled the most in my life.

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2 month 6 day.

Today is a hungry day.

Why are minors not allowed to work?

So let them starve to death?

...

2 month 15 day.

Got a job and started selling alcohol at a bar.

I know that the boss wants me to betray my appearance, as long as it can fill my stomach, it doesn't matter if I get a few more glances.

Anyway, alpha looks the same.

Look, there will be no less meat.

...

3 month 2 day.

Today, I saw the alpha I met at the door of Lin's house last time at the bar where I worked.

There are several alphas, who seem to be his friends, with several beautiful omega.

But there was no omega sitting next to him.

...

3 month 20 day.

Saw him again at the bar, they didn't bring omega today.

But there were several beautiful omegas who went to strike up a conversation, and I knew they were all targeting him.

After all, he is really handsome.

He ignored none of them, but his friend took them all.

Do alphas really come here just to drink?

See you for the first time.

...

4 month 15 day.

Today is my birthday.

I actually forgot about it.

But when I went to buy cigarettes today, I saw him buying cakes in a cake shop, holding a bouquet of flowers and a gift box in his hand.

I have been hiding in the convenience store opposite to observe him, completely forgetting about buying cigarettes.

I thought he bought it for his lover, after all, those flowers and gifts are so beautiful, it looks like they are for Omega.

After he left, I went to the store and pretended to buy a cake, which was what the owner said.

It turned out he bought it for his brother.

I inquired about the price, probably I can afford it if I don't eat for three months.

Obviously I didn't celebrate my birthday, but for some reason, I still bought myself a small cake in that surprisingly expensive cake shop.

...

4 month 20 day.

I beat someone while selling wine today, and that person touched me, reminding me of that old man.

He deserves to be beaten to death by me.

The bar owner handed me over to the police, and then a man bailed me out.

He asked me if I wanted to fuck him, and I said yes.

Anyway, you can do whatever you want, as long as you can eat.

...

5 month 30 day.

I've been very busy with work recently, beating people everywhere, and haven't had time to write a diary.

I fell into a trap today, fighting alone with a dozen people, but fortunately I won in the end.

But I also suffered a lot of injuries, and this is the first time I have suffered such serious injuries.

When Chen Jin and the others came, it started to rain like hell. I really didn't have any strength, so I lay on the ground.

As a result, a dead child ran over thinking I was dead and yelled. I wanted him to go away, but an alpha came, and it turned out to be the person I had been meeting in the bar before.

It turned out that he was the brother of the dead child.

He was surprised to find that I wasn't dead. The dead kid was so timid and kept letting him go. He said I might need help and asked if I needed to call an ambulance.

He was squatting in front of me.

Finally I got up and ran.

I didn't seem to want him to see me covered in blood and mud.

really weird.

...

6 month 20 day.

I saw him again today, and for some reason I followed him.

It turns out that he went to Yuandong University, isn't that the best university in Yuandong?

Then would he hate people who haven't studied?

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6 month 27 day.

I followed him for several days and took many photos.

Today he suddenly received a call and drove away in a hurry. I almost lost him.

In the end, it seemed that the dead child was bullied last time.

He beat the man half to death.

It was the first time I saw him beating someone, and he was pretty good.

He also saw Lin Mingyuan, and Lin Mingyuan posted it again. He only looked at his brother and ignored Lin Mingyuan.

I suddenly wanted to have a brother.

...

6 month 28 day.

I found out his name today.

It's called Qi Yuehuai.

I suddenly remembered one thing.

When Xu Yu took me to the Lin family when I was young, Lin Mingyuan beat me up. When I wanted to fight back, someone gave Lin Mingyuan a lesson and said he would marry me.

Xu Yu said that Lin Mingyuan was going to marry that person in the future, and she said that that person was the young master of a very prominent family, even more prominent than the Lin family.

That person seems to be called that name.

Then he still wants to marry me?

...

6 month 29 day.

Today he went to catch the doll, I deliberately pretended to pass him by.

He didn't notice me at all.

I heard him say that because his brother wanted a doll but couldn't get one, so he was going to get it for him.

How old is that dead kid?Are you in high school?I'm not ashamed!

...

7 month 8 day.

What, that dead child named Qi Ruoyan is really ignorant.

It seems that he is too lenient.

What a fool!

...

7 month 9 day.

Today, I didn't know what to do and wanted to sleep with me again, and I peed my pants because of my beating.

But suddenly I'm a little annoyed.

If I also have an older brother, will someone help me out like a dead child?

7 month 10 day.

I also want a brother.

7 month 11 day.

want a brother.

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7 month 28 day.

Last night I had a somewhat embarrassing dream.

I dreamed about him, and something happened that I can't tell.

And I even called him brother.

What's wrong with me?

...

8 month 15 day.

I think there is something wrong with me.

So I haven't followed Qi Yuehuai recently.

9 month 16 day.

Yesterday Chen Jin said that an alpha had taken a fancy to me and wanted to introduce him to me.

I beat Chen Jin up.

...

12 month 15 day.

The boss's business is getting busier and he has bought several nightclubs and let Chen Jin and I take care of them.

Too busy to write a diary.

...

2 month 11 day.

It's been weird lately.

The mood swings seem to be bigger than before, and I want to hit someone at every turn.

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2 month 17 day.

Almost killed a man yesterday.

In the end, the boss came forward to solve the matter.

He asked me what was wrong.

I said I didn't control the intensity.

In fact, what I was thinking at the time was.

kill him.

...

3 month 1 day.

Things seem to be getting worse.

My mind was in a mess, and I didn't even know what I was thinking.

It was as if someone was whispering something in my ear all the time, even when there was no one around.

...

3 month 14 day.

Always want to kill during the day.

At night, I want to die again.

But I don't know why.

...

4 month 10 day.

I couldn't help but scratched my hand yesterday.

But it didn't take long for it to solidify.

...

4 month 25 day.

There are more and more wounds on the body.

4 month 26 day.

The boss finally found out.

He took me to the hospital.

It turns out that I have the same disease as Xu Yu.

I'm going to the hospital tomorrow.

...

5 month 25 day.

I was discharged from the hospital today.

There were needle holes and knife wounds all over his body.

The boss asked me to wear long clothes.

really hot.

...

6 month 1 day.

I saw Lin Mingyuan at Venus today.

He even boasted brazenly to those idiots that he was going to marry Qi Yuehuai in the future.

Does he fit too?

I am also Lin Yu's seed, and if you want to marry, I will marry you.

...

6 month 15 day.

After having people follow the Lin family for a few days, they discovered something about Lin Mingye.

She took some means to threaten him in the name of Xu Yu.

He did come to see me.

When I saw the look in his eyes, I knew it was all right.

...

7 month 1 day.

The Lin family sent someone to pick me up.

How can this family be surprisingly consistent in being stupid and bad.

I suspect that Xu Yu made a mistake. I shouldn't be the seed planted by Lin Yu, am I?

But forget it, I didn't come back for these idiots.

...

7 month 25 day.

I followed Qi Yuehuai for a few more days.

I found out that he went to a nightclub today, and it happened that the bitch in the class wanted to drag me there.

So I went back and used a little trick.

I finally managed to talk to Qi Yuehuai, lucky.

When he leaned over, I actually wanted to fuck him.

Fortunately, I held back.

Xu Yu said that the ones that get easily are the cheapest.

She clearly knows this truth.

How did it end up like this?

...

Qi Yuehuai saw this in one breath, then temporarily closed the diary and took a breath.

So far, it should be the first time he saw Lin Xingqiu, of course, it was the first time he thought.

Before that, he and Lin Xingqiu had met countless times, but he never noticed it.

Since Lin Xingqiu can come back from the rainforest, he naturally has a way to follow him so that he won't find out.

He thought that the chance encounter was artificially created by Lin Xingqiu who spent so much thought and energy.

He was terrified.

No one will not feel scared after being missed by someone who is extremely extreme for so long.

He should have let go and left, said goodbye to Lin Xingqiu, and then hid away.

But at the same time, Qi Yuehuai had another wonderful emotion in his heart.

Through these slightly yellowed papers, Qi Yuehuai seemed to pass through the years, and saw the young, desperate Lin Xingqiu with thorns all over his body.

When he was a teenager full of stars, there was a person who would have such a close relationship with him in the future, struggling in the quagmire.

She was not expected to be born, and was taken around by a mentally ill mother, sent to live in another family, and coveted by her stepfather.

Qi Yuehuai has always thought highly of himself, but he doesn't know what kind of life he will live if he is replaced by Lin Xingqiu.

He flipped through the diary again, and saw Lin Xingqiu's secret and desperate tricks after they met.

The latest chapter of the diary is the previous two weeks.

11 month 30 day.

I know he won't forgive me.

My illness seems to be getting worse again.

In fact, before going to Carraso, there was already a tendency to relapse.

When Chen Mengqiu was in the rainforest, he asked me how I knew who asked Chen Zhe and the others to find me.

I said because I was missing only one person would come to me.

My moon pulled me out of the abyss.

But I cannot take the moon into the abyss.

I shouldn't hurt him anymore.

When the last word of this diary was written, Lin Xingqiu didn't know what happened, the end of the word was extremely long and deep, as if someone hit him and was out of control.

Qi Yuehuai frowned and turned to the next page.

No diary was written on the next page.

But the whole article is full of death.

And there are some bloodstains.

This will be the case for the next few pages.

Then it's over.

Qi Yuehuai looked at the last page and did not move for a long time.

It took a long time before he closed the diary and took it out.

The Lin family is in turmoil right now, and people are in a state of panic. No one stops him at all.

Instead of looking for Lin Xingqiu, he went straight home, locked himself in the room, and didn't go out for several days.

On the seventh day, someone slammed the door of his room open.

At that time, Qi Yuehuai was slashing his arm with a razor blade, and the blood dripped onto the floor, looking horrific.

It was Tang Lan and Qi Mengbai who opened the door.

Probably because he didn't go to the company or ask for leave these days, the second uncle told Tang Lan.

Tang Lan's eyes turned red instantly when she saw this scene, and tears dripped down the arm holding him, mixing with the blood.

"Ah Huai, why are you so hard to think about it? Is it because your mother won't let you be with Lin Xingqiu? Don't be stupid, you can be with whoever you want, as long as you are happy, I'll be with your father." Go ahead and talk, okay?"

Qi Yuehuai moved her lips, feeling a little helpless.

How would he explain to Tang Lan that he cut himself not because Tang Lan wouldn't let him be with Lin Xingqiu.

During this week, he locked himself in the room and kept flipping through Lin Xingqiu's diary.

He's almost on his back.

He tried to understand Lin Xingqiu's thinking. After a long time, even he seemed to be assimilated by Lin Xingqiu's thinking.

This is very dangerous, rationality tells him that he should draw a clear line with Lin Xingqiu immediately, leave these diaries far away, and then live a normal life, the same as before meeting Lin Xingqiu.

But he's like a demon.

The deepest voice in his heart told him that he could not give up Lin Xingqiu.

If you say you like it, you can't do without it.

Then he should have fallen in love with Lin Xingqiu.

Qi Yuehuai asked herself, is it okay if it's not Lin Xingqiu?

the answer is negative.

Not crazy, not live.

There was no way he could get away.

Cutting myself with a blade just now was on a whim.

He suddenly wanted to know how Lin Xingqiu felt at that time.

He's probably gone crazy too.

But no way.

Qi Yuehuai sighed.

He looked at Tang Lan who was crying so badly.

"Mom, I'm fine."

Tang Lan looked at him with teary eyes.

Qi Yuehuai smiled: "It won't happen in the future, don't worry."

He comforted the frightened Tang Lan well, and asked Qi Mengbai to take good care of Tang Lan.

Sending the two of them away, Qi Yuehuai made a decision.

He drove all the way to the hospital where Lin Xingqiu lived.

When he saw Lin Xingqiu, he probably took a nap again, lying on the bed and sleeping soundly, with a beautiful sleeping face like an angel.

Only Qi Yuehuai knew what kind of extreme soul was hidden under this beautiful face.

Lin Xingqiu was already so skinny that his exposed arms were full of marks from knives.

Qi Yuehuai took his hand, held it, and stroked it lightly.

These injuries will probably leave many scars.

It doesn't matter though.

Take good care of it in the future.

Qi Yuehuai just held Lin Xingqiu's hand and sat beside the hospital bed.

I do not know how long it has been.

Lin Xingqiu's eyelashes moved slightly, and then slowly opened his eyes.

"elder brother?"

Lin Xingqiu's eyes were full of panic, he struggled to sit up.

Qi Yuehuai didn't let him sit up.

"do not move."

Lin Xingqiu was full of uneasiness, like a death row prisoner waiting for trial.

Qi Yuehuai took his hand back again.

"Heal well."

He paused and added.

"I'll accompany you."

Can't get out.

You are in the abyss, then I will fall into the abyss.

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-08-0722:47:32~2021-08-1313:50:36期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: BBBig-Se, Uncle Yin, please wake up one;

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: 40 bottles of cloud turn clear; 20 bottles of BBBig-Se; 10 bottles of Linyuan and Mozi; 1 bottle of Baji Baji;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!