Ten thousand people think gloom is reborn

I didn't look any further, and took the broom to another place to sweep the floor.Who Lin Chongtan is with and what he does is not what I care about. Now I only care about the upcoming second big exam.

When the results of the second major exam were announced, I was still the last one.Li Dianxue called me to his study room, but he didn't rush to speak, he stared at me for a long time before saying: "Lin Chundi, if you really can't do it, go home."

When I heard his words, I raised my head immediately, "Li Dianxue, I..."

Li Dianxue didn't let me finish, so he interrupted me, "I know what you want to say, you want to say that you are working hard, and you will work harder in the future, right? But look for yourself, what is the result of your hard work, Lin Chundi, if you can’t do it, you can’t do it.”

He seemed to see the grievance and despair in my eyes, and he softened his tone in the following words, "Not everyone is suitable for this road. I remember you came from the Lin family in Gusu. Although it is only a collateral child, the Lin family is willing to send you You come to Taixue to study, which proves that they are good to you. Even if you can't study, the Lin family can still support you when you go back, so you can find something you like to do, don't do it because you know what you can't do."

I can't go back like this, my father won't want me!

I didn't care about face, so I went up to Li Dianxue, "Li Dianxue, I will really improve next time, I won't be the last one in the exam, give me another chance."

"I have given you many opportunities. In the first big exam, there was a child with similar grades to yours. He made great progress this time. Forget it, think about it carefully. If you continue like this, you are destined to be a bamboo basket." It's empty to fetch water."

After Li Dianxue said this, he walked away first. After standing in his study for a long time, I turned around and went to the place where the grades were posted.

The red list of the first big exam is still on it, and I found the name of the student above me——

Duan Xinting.

I also looked for Duan Xinting's ranking in this exam, and he has improved by a full twenty places.

I wanted to ask Duan Xinting how he studied, but unfortunately I didn't know many people in Taixue, let alone Duan Xinting.For a moment, I wanted to find Lin Chongtan and ask him if he knew who Duan Xinting was, but in the end I held back.

Lin Chongtan was slapped by me, he definitely doesn't want to see me now, besides, he probably doesn't have time to talk to me.I can't ask Lin Chongtan for help with everything, he is not mine.

I can only ask Liangji to help me find out, Liangji has always been relatively well-informed in such matters.It's just that I didn't expect that Duan Xinting took the initiative to find me on the second day after I asked Liangji to inquire.What I didn't expect was that Duan Xinting was the boy I saw in Osmanthus Garden that day.

Duan Xinting has a pair of cat eyes, round and round when looking at people, looking childish and cute beyond his age.He tilted his head to look at me for a while, then smiled slightly, "I heard you were looking for me?"

I pursed my lower lip, and the words I wanted to ask him about how he studied were suddenly speechless, but he saw that I hadn't spoken for a long time, so he put away the smile on his face, "You were peeking from the side last time, right? You are peeking again, and you are asking who I am and what do you want to do?"

Did Duan Xinting actually see me that day?

"I... didn't... want to see it on purpose, I didn't want to do anything, really." I hurriedly defended, but because I did something impolite after all, I stuttered when I spoke.

And my stuttering fell in his eyes, as if I had a guilty conscience.

"I didn't want to do anything, why are you stuttering. To be honest, I have seen a lot of people like you in my father's backyard." Even though Duan Xinting was saying vicious words, his expression was still innocent and charming, "Do you want to climb up the sandalwood?" The bed where I gave birth to my brother?"

The sudden humiliation stunned my brain for a moment, and I didn't understand why he would say such a thing.

"I didn't!" Because I was humiliated, I couldn't help but turn red. "I really ran into it by accident. I didn't want to peek at anything. I asked you to ask how you improved in the final exam. I have no other thoughts. If it is not convenient for you to tell me, it is I who interrupted."

Duan Xinting laughed, "So you wanted to ask this, it's okay, I can tell you that I made progress because of brother Tansheng's daily tutoring. I thought you knew, but you didn't. It seems that you I haven't been in touch with brother Tansheng for a long time. It's okay, people like you shouldn't have contact with him. "

He always said that I am such a person, who am I?

I don't know where my eyes provoked Duan Xinting, he looked at me suddenly with a ferocious expression, "You little slave, who allows you to look at me like this!"

He shouted to the left, and immediately two people dressed as book boys appeared.Duan Xinting told them: "Hold him down, I will take care of his disobedient eyes today."

Two bookboys came forward to catch me. Although I resisted with all my strength, I lost because of their numbers.I was pinned to the ground, watching Duan Xinting walking towards me step by step.

Duan Xinting pulled out the ruler of classics to punish people from his sleeve, as if he was going to use that thing to slap my eyes.When I saw the ruler, I couldn't help struggling desperately.Unable to free the hands of the two bookboys, I could only turn my head and bite.

"what!"

The bitten book boy screamed, and the other one immediately grabbed my hair, trying to force me to let go.There was a piercing pain in my scalp, but I still didn't let go, I just wanted to force the book boy to let go.

"This lowly slave, dare to bite my man!"

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw the ruler waving down by Duan Xinting, and just as I was about to close my eyes, there was the sound of footsteps.

When Duan Xinting heard the footsteps, he hid the ruler in his sleeve, and turned his head with normal expression.And in the next breath, I heard his panicked voice, "Brother Tan... Brother Sheng, you...how do you..."

Lin Chongtan is here?

I couldn't help but let go of my mouth, and the pain in my head disappeared.The two bookboys didn't dare to grab my hair anymore, but they still didn't let go of me, looking at Lin Chongtan anxiously.

Duan Xinting was also very disturbed, as we can tell from his reaction as he looked back and forth between Lin Chongtan and me.He hesitated for a long time, and finally said aggrievedly: "Brother Tansheng, he was the one who humiliated me first. I couldn't get angry so I let the book boy hold him down, trying to reason with him, but he still bit my book boy. You Look, my book boy's hand is almost bleeding from the bite."

I wanted to say that Duan Xinting was lying, but I couldn't say it out because Lin Chongtan didn't even look at me, he just hummed to Duan Xinting, then turned and left.

When Duan Xinting saw Lin Chongtan walking away, he didn't bother to trouble me, so he hurriedly chased after him.I saw him hugging Lin Chongtan's arm, and his tone became the weak and pitiful one before Lin Chongtan, "Brother Tansheng, wait for me."

His two bookboys looked at each other for a while, then let go of me and ran away.

I froze in place for a while before getting up from the ground.The clothes on my body were dirty, and I tried to pat them clean, but they were stained with mud, so I couldn't pat them clean.I can only manage to put my hair back up so that I don't look so embarrassed.

Fortunately, there was no one on the way back to the dormitory. As soon as I entered the house, I heard Liangji's voice, "Master Chun, there is a letter from the house."

When I heard the letter, I walked up to Liangji, "Really? Is it a letter from my mother or my father? Or is it my elder brother?"

Liangji laughed at me, "Master Chun, I see you are happy. It's a letter from my wife. I put it on the table. Go and read it."

Mother finally wrote to me again.

The exhaustion on my body seemed to be swept away. I walked into the room quickly and picked up the letter on the desk.This time the envelope was much thicker than last time. I pressed the letter to my chest for a while before carefully opening it with a letter opener.

Sure enough, it was a letter written by my mother, and I knew her handwriting.

My mother asked me if I was doing well in studying in Taitai, whether I had enough food and clothing, and told me about the family situation. First, my father opened a shop on the street; Can't go home; told me that the twins went to a private school, very mischievous, and often made the master blow his beard and stare.

My mother’s family letter was full of pearls and pieces of jade. Following her description, the distance between Gusu and me seemed not that far away.

At the end of the letter, my mother said that my father asked her to ask me about my grades in Taixue, and if possible, I would send a copy of the grades to my family.

The joy in my heart because of my mother's letter disappeared little by little, and was replaced by despair.Li Dianxue's words flashed in my mind for a while, and I seemed to hear Duan Xinting's voice for a while.

- "Lin Chundi, if you can't do it, you can't do it."

-"If you go on like this, you'll be nothing but a bamboo basket."

- "People like you shouldn't be associated with him."

And Yue Feiguang and Nie Wenle.

They said that I should go to the Qinlou Chu Pavilion to hang a sign.

Finally, Lin Chongtan came to my mind.He didn't speak, and didn't look at me, he gently stroked the head of Duan Xinting who kept calling me a lowly slave.

I seemed to see how Duan Xinting acted like a baby in front of him, and how Lin Chongtan kissed Duan Xinting's lips, just like he kissed me on my birthday.

"Master Chun, why are you crying?" Liangji didn't know when he ran in, he wanted to pull me up who was sitting on the ground, "It's cold on the ground, Master Chun, get up quickly."

I turned my head to look at Liangji in a daze, and wanted to tell him that I was fine, but I couldn't say a word.

"Master Chun, don't scare me. Why are you so pale? Didn't you feel fine just now? Didn't you always expect your wife to send a letter?"

I don't know what's wrong with me, Liangji actually showed a scared expression.

I looked up at the wall.

The painting on the wall is "Night Journey to Qiqiao Festival". I hung it there, hoping that I could draw this kind of painting as soon as possible, so as to be worthy of the praise of Mingdianxue.

The coldness of the floor tiles came up and climbed up my body.In addition to the cold, there are other things in my body, they are like Gu insects, burrowing into my body——

Greed and anger.

Buddhism says: "The eight sufferings in life are: birth suffering, old age suffering, sickness suffering, death suffering, love and separation suffering, resentment and hatred meeting suffering, not getting what one wants, suffering of blazing five shades."

I can't see through it, and I'm stuck in it.In this life, greed, hatred and ignorance follow me like a shadow.

On a rainy night, I went to find Lin Chongtan.When Bai Chi and Qingqiu saw me, they were surprised, and then they wanted to change me with dry clothes. I declined them and went straight into Lin Chongtan's room.

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Buddhism says: "The eight sufferings in life are: birth suffering, old age suffering, sickness suffering, death suffering, love and separation suffering, resentment and hatred meeting suffering, not getting what one wants, suffering of blazing five shades."