reunion is a cat

Bottle, try not to let some thoughts show on the face, "For you, your birthday present."

It took me a while before I dared to look up at him. He should be very happy, otherwise why would his eyes be smiling.

27. Let me borrow your cat

◎I continued to play my temper in front of him without hesitation, "Don't go, sit down."◎

Half a day off on weekends, three test papers for mathematics, physics, and chemistry, and a set of exercises in a foreign language. This is the homework to be completed during the half day off.

Xu Jiayuan came to me and said, "Lend me your cat for a long time."

"doing what?"

"It looks like a mouse has entered my room."

"Let's go, go home and meet the reunion."

When I got home, I picked up Tuanyuan who was taking a nap, stuffed her into my arms, and zipped her coat so that Tuanyuan only showed a small head.

This look was laughed at by Xu Jiayuan for a long time, "Grandma, you should make a box for Tuanyuan anyway."

"Just kidding, I'm here, do you still need a box? Let's go."

Xu Jiayuan pressed the bell, "Sit still."

"Don't ride too fast, don't scare my cat."

The lush and verdant trees on both sides of the path retreated leisurely in the field of vision, the cool breeze caressed the trunk lightly, and the yellow-red maple leaves fluttered in the air like a butterfly. I hugged my favorite cat and sat on the back seat of Xu Jiayuan , the red leaves all over the world brighten my eyes, and even breathing is a beautiful taste.

I took a blown maple leaf in my hand and put it on Tuanyuan's little head. Tuanyuan was dissatisfied and shook his head. I quietly transferred the maple leaf to Xu Jiayuan's head, but he didn't notice it. The prank succeeded. I covered my mouth and laughed .

When we got home, Xu Jiayuan opened the door, I let the cat out, and Tuanyuan quickly got under the cabinet.

I ordered: "Close the door and open the window on the balcony."

"Do you want to make Tuanyuan call twice, or I'm afraid that the mouse will hide?"

"Don't question Tuanyuan's professional ability. If there is a mouse, she can smell it immediately. Even if Tuanyuan doesn't find it, the mouse will be scared and run away from the window when it smells the cat."

"It's fun, I want to see how Tuanyuan catches mice."

I pulled up his sleeves, "Let's go out, don't affect the performance of the reunion."

The curtains and windows were all wide open, and Xu Jiayuan and I were sitting in the living room doing homework.It's really annoying, he finished the same math paper, and I was still dawdling on the penultimate big question, and I couldn't write the last additional question.

"Do you want to support?" Xu Jiayuan moved his head closer. He had already started doing the physics test paper.

"No." I couldn't lose my spirit.

After biting my pen for a long time, I finally finished the penultimate big question, but I didn’t feel any sense of accomplishment at all. If this was an exam, I would have exceeded the time limit. I would get zero points for these two big questions.

Xu Jiayuan didn't know when the fruit was cut, so he put the fruit plate in the middle of the desk, "Eat it first, and I will tell you the final additional question after eating."

"No, let's talk now."

He said with a good temper: "Okay, okay, it's up to you."

I'm satisfied, "That's more or less."

"Shaded area, this question is about the knowledge of trigonometric functions..."

His face is very close to me, I can almost see the tiny pores on his face, there is still an unformed beard on his chin, his eyebrows are very thick, and his bright eyes are black and full of energy. The terrible thing is that he is actually He has a more standard oval face than mine, and I don't know when his chin became sharper. I touched my fleshy chin, and I will eat less every meal in the future.

The mind is no longer on the topic, come back, come back, Yu Xiaoxiao actually deserted, you are dead!

Xu Jiayuan's explanation is very clear, and I almost understand it, but why do I feel that I will still not be able to meet similar questions next time?

I picked up a piece of apple, vented my anger on the apple, and took a few bites.

"You are too good at enjoying it." Not to be outdone, Xu Jiayuan picked up a piece of apple and bit it hard like me.

I snorted, two childish ghosts.

Unable to be attracted by his face anymore, I picked up his physics test paper and had already done ten multiple-choice questions. I put down the test paper and looked at him solemnly, "Tell my sister, how did you get through the second line of Ren and Du? so smart?"

This guy is also not humble, "It's not a day or two since I was smart, did you know?"

Xu Jiayuan, you deserve a beating!

But he also pointed out my problem, "You have to learn to choose and choose. You always want to answer all the questions correctly. When you encounter difficult problems, you like to die, first easy and then difficult, otherwise it will waste too much time and affect your later work. It is easy to lose points if you have a problem mentality, so tactics are also very important.”

"It makes sense." But in the final analysis, I still don't have the knowledge points, otherwise I wouldn't be slow.

"You wait for me first. After I finish the multiple choice questions of the ten physics papers, we will compete again."

"No problem." Xu Jiayuan picked up the fruit, raised his legs and ate it leisurely on the sofa.

I gave him an annoyed look, and he stood up consciously, "Okay, okay, I'll go to the balcony, it won't affect you."

Yes, I can already read my micro-expressions.

I have finished fifteen questions, I deliberately did not call him, he walked in, sat on the stool, "Where is my test paper?"

I pretended to be dazed, "Didn't I just put it on your side?"

He rummaged up and down seriously, and looked under the table, "Didn't see it?"

I couldn't help grinning, and I pressed his test paper under mine.Seeing my smile, he immediately understood, "Give it to me."

"No." There was a provocative tone in her coquetry, and I didn't even know that I had this side.

He had a half-smile, "Will you give it?"

With a mischievous smile, "No."

He stood up with a look of being bullied, "Then I'll go and see the reunion."

I continued to play petty temper in front of him without shy away, "No, sit down."

He sat down obediently, and resisted me with pitiful eyes, "You are so overbearing, you will bully me."

My heart was beating wildly in an instant, and the blush on my face and the deer in my heart made me unable to sit still any longer. I lowered my head and put the test paper in front of him, got up and turned my back to him, "I'm going to see the reunion."

I opened the door and yelled "Tuanyuan", "Meow" Tuanyuan came out from under the cabinet, I picked her up and stroked the hair on her back, "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

Xu Jiayuan followed, "How, how, is the mouse still there?"

"You should be scared away." I stroked the round hair again, and scattered the hair that fell off my hands to every corner of the room.

"What do you mean?"

"Leave the smell of the cat, and the mice will not dare to come if they smell it. Just don't mop the floor for a few days."

"Can it still be like this?" Xu Jiayuan looked in disbelief, "Then I'll stroke it too."

I dodged away with Tuanyuan in my arms, "It's almost there, and the hair will fall off if I touch it any more."

In order to avoid unnecessary trouble, before Xu Jiayuan's mother came back in the evening, I packed my things and found an excuse to leave first.The last time I came to his house, I felt that the expression of that "Queen Empress" was wrong. She looked at me like she was looking at a thief. I was wronged. I didn't steal anything from her precious son.

It's almost as if his precious son stole someone else's heart.

On the way back, when the path was about to end, an old man came across, holding a big wolf dog in his hand, and barked at me twice fiercely. , she broke free from my coat and hid in the jungle by the side of the road.

"Beast, don't bark." The dog owner walked away cursing and leading the dog.

"Reunion, reunion." I shouted anxiously.

When he came back, he didn't ask Xu Jiayuan to see him off, because he was worried that he would be asked by his mother if he went back late.It's all my fault, why I only zipped the jacket halfway, if I had been smarter and caught the reunion in time, she would not have run away.

"Reunion, reunion." I shouted all the way home.

I searched for a long time, shouted for a long time, my voice became hoarse, and it was completely dark, I comforted myself, this place is not far from home, Tuanyuan is so obedient, she will go home by herself, she will go home by herself, I Comfort yourself over and over again.

28. Don't talk to him

◎My heart is like ice◎

Three days passed, and the reunion still disappeared.

Xu Jiayuan blamed himself very much, "If I sent you home that day, Tuanyuan wouldn't get lost."

I forced a smile, "I don't blame you, who can predict the future? Don't worry, the reunion will come back."

"It's evening self-study today, I'll accompany you to find it again."

"It's not necessary. I've found all the places I need to look for. She must have gone to hide somewhere I don't know."

Xu Jiayuan saw that I was in a bad mood and stopped insisting.

A week later, the school held the second unified examination. My grades fell to No. 17 in the class and 42 in the grade. The bottomless fear and anxiety, as well as the sense of shame, were like an invisible net, strangling me tightly. , my world is about to collapse.

Tan Jingsi is still the first in the class and the first in the grade.

Xu Jiayuan, fifth in class and eighth in grade.He has been making steady progress, and he is the leader of the potential stock with rapid momentum.

The tears in my eyes fell on the report card. I was afraid of being seen by my classmates, so I quickly wiped away the tears. I crumpled the report card and stuffed it into the drawer. It is posted in the most conspicuous position on the right side of the blackboard, even more conspicuous than the banner of "Knowledge Changes Destiny" directly above the blackboard.

I don't have the mind to listen to the class, I don't have the mind to do the questions, and I don't have the mind to analyze where this mistake is. I feel that sitting in the classroom is a joke. My mind is a mess. Every second, I want to escape from the classroom, escape from school, and go home Covered in bed and cried a lot.

"Ring, ring, ring." The long-lost bell finally rang, and the teacher had just announced that "get out of class is over", and I was the first in history to rush out of the classroom.

When I got home, I pulled out the key, closed the door, and a group of gray furry ran over to rub my feet. It was Tuanyuan who had disappeared for ten days and finally came back.

I hugged Tuanyuan and put my face on her head, "Tuanyuan, I did poorly in the exam, what should I do?" All the grievances and sorrows hit me deeply, and I burst into tears.

There is a collar on Tuanyuan's neck, and the material feels good. With swollen eyes, I found a pair of large scissors in the drawer and cut off the collar.I checked Tuanyuan carefully again, there was no wound on her body, her hair was smooth and shiny, and her four paws were also clean. The only explanation was that Tuanyuan was picked up by some family, fed for ten days, and then Tuanyuan found a chance by herself Sneaked back.

"So cute, I still remember where my home is." I patted Tuanyuan's little head and hugged her to sleep.

Some things cannot be escaped. The test papers that were avoided yesterday still have to be filled up today.

There are three main subjects, Chinese and mathematics have no problems, and they are performing normally. For the first time in English, I am hindered. My cloze fills in the blanks. Almost all of the multiple choice questions are wrong.

I summed up my experience: Politics, history, geography, when you take the exam, you should pay attention to reviewing the questions. You must read the materials carefully to determine which knowledge points you will be tested, so that the general direction will not be wrong. Chemistry is my weakness and I just passed.

Helplessly hammering my temples with both hands, what is wrong? In the usual quiz, my chemistry is more than just a passing grade. Doesn’t it mean that physics and chemistry are twin brothers? Why can I do well in physics, but not in chemistry? So bad? Others failed the exam, so it can be said that they like to play and don’t study hard, but I don’t. I have never slackened in my studies.Sure enough, what is more terrible than having a problem is not being able to find the problem.

"Let's go, the exam is over, relax and play basketball."

"Okay."

I turned my head and saw that No.3 in our class was playing basketball with Xu Jiayuan.

I tightly held the pen in my hand and buried my head very low.

At the school summary meeting, the vice-principal reported the results of the unified examination, "Compared with the high school admission scores in previous years, our test results this time are very optimistic, and our city's ranking has improved a lot compared to last time. I hope the students will continue to work hard. , to create another success.”

There was warm applause from the audience.

My heart is as cold as water.

Immediately afterwards the principal spoke, "Students, now is a very critical moment for your junior high school. What you need is to study without distractions and study wholeheartedly. There are not many moments in life that determine your destiny. Each of you must seize this opportunity. , you have worked hard, and you will definitely gain something. Also, although your class teacher has emphasized it many times in class, but here, I still want to emphasize again, don’t fall in love, don’t fall in love, junior high school is not about falling in love When you are in love, you have to know that falling in love is useless to you now, it will only affect your studies, especially girls..."

There was warm applause from the audience.

My heart is as cold as ice.

I didn't dare to look up, the principal's words were as poisonous as hell, and every single word made me extremely ashamed.How could I make such a mistake?I don't allow myself to make such low-level mistakes.

Xu Jiayuan, I'm sorry, I decided not to talk to you again!

After summarizing the meeting, the homeroom teacher still adjusts the seats according to the grades. Tan Jingsi, the first row of the second group, has not moved at all. Xu Jiayuan is in the second row of the second group. I am very satisfied, because no matter from which angle I look at it, I can hardly see Xu Jiayuan anymore, there are many figures between us.

I set a new goal for myself. In addition to filling in the blanks every day, I will also do chemistry test questions. I will compete with chemistry.

For a whole week, I didn't say a word in school, I only had grades in my mind, and I didn't want to talk to others, let alone disturb me.

On the bulletin board of the school, there is a list of the top [-] students in the school. In the summary meeting, only the names of the top [-] students are always read, so I don’t know how the monitor’s grades are. This time, I saw that the bulletin board was crowded with people , I suddenly wanted to know the rank of the monitor.

I quickly glanced up from the bottom 80, and the squad leader ranked No. [-].When I was wondering whether the monitor had made progress or regressed, someone next to me patted me on the shoulder.

"Xiao Xiao."

"Squad leader."

The two of us withdrew from the crowd and walked towards the teaching building.It seems to have been walking for a long time, I didn't speak, and he didn't speak.

I was the first to say, "You seem to have improved?"

"No, I feel so tired. No matter how good or bad the exam is, I'm under pressure."

Sympathetic, we are all dying people on the verge of danger.On the same runway, there are people who can overtake in curves, like Xu Jiayuan, while others are losing ground, like me, like the squad leader.

The class monitor continued to sigh, "If you failed the exam this time, you will be sad because you are afraid that you will do worse next time; if you pass the exam this time, you will not be too happy because you are afraid that you will fail the next exam. Infinite loop."

You are so right, I don't know whether to sympathize with the monitor or myself.

"Xiaoxiao, have you ever thought about what to do if you can't get into high school?" He immediately laughed at himself: "Oh, this is something I have to consider, with your grades, you won't fail to get into high school."

The squad leader seemed to be crushed by ten thousand mountains, his tense face was bloodless, and there seemed to be something unspeakable hidden in his dark and unpredictable eyes that I didn't realize.

29. A shame

◎Yu Xiaoxiao, you are being passionate. ◎

The third unified examination is about to take place, and I secretly compete with myself: my best result is the eighth grade, and I must achieve this goal to reverse the situation.

During this period, I tried my best to avoid meeting Xu Jiayuan and forced myself not to think about him. Sometimes when I passed the podium, I knew he had seen me, so I deliberately lowered my head and walked quickly, pretending not to see him.There was another time when I was at the playground of the school, I clearly heard him calling my name from behind, I stubbornly didn't look back, and deliberately took a long way to go to the classroom on the other side of the stairs.Yesterday was even more outrageous. I was about to enter through the front door of the classroom, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw a familiar figure. I changed my way without any trace, and entered through the back door of the classroom. Didn't you go out through the front door of the classroom?

I could only bite the bullet and pretend nothing happened, smiled lightly, "Hi", it was a simple greeting, and ran away no matter what his reaction was.Fortunately, I didn't catch up, otherwise I really don't know how to explain it. Sitting on the seat, I let out a long sigh of relief.

After the evening self-study, I was still struggling with a chemistry problem, completely unaware that the classroom was already busy.

"wrong."

I raised my head, Xu Jiayuan was standing next to me at some point, he seemed to have stood there for more than a while.

"The chemical reaction equation is wrong. This question is about the reaction between carbon dioxide and metal sodium."

Xu Jiayuan wrote me an equation on the draft paper, and it dawned on me that it was not because I made a mistake in the middle process, but because I used the wrong equation at the beginning.

"It's done, let's go together?"

what?

I had an idea, "I suddenly feel very hungry, and want to go to the cafeteria for supper, you go first, don't wait for me."

"One of my neighbor's cats just gave birth to a few cats recently. Would you like to go with me to see which one you like to bring back?"

"What?" I just remembered that I didn't tell Xu Jiayuan that Tuanyuan had returned.

I felt a little sorry for him, and said embarrassingly: "Reunion, later, I ran back by myself."

"Really? That's great. If you didn't tell me sooner, I thought—" He lowered his voice, "You've been mad at me for this all this time."

It turned out that he thought I ignored him because the reunion was lost.

Xu Jiayuan, you big fool, sure enough, you don't know anything, fortunately you don't know anything!

It's not your problem, it's always been my problem!

In the third unified examination, I took the tenth exam in the class, grade No. 20.Tan Jingsi was still number one, and Xu Jiayuan was a little behind last time, sixth in his class and tenth in his grade.

Not satisfied, not only dissatisfied with my own grades, but also Xu Jiayuan's grades.

Last time it was English and chemistry that were holding you back, this time it was math and geography, my god, God, are you kidding me? ?Or, in fact, I am not outstanding in every subject, but I just happened to be lucky. This time the question type I am good at, so I can get a high score, and the next time I am not good at the question type, so I failed the test?I really want to know what is the structure of Tan Jingsi's brain, why he can perform so steadily every time, and can take the first place in the test every time.

Looking at the "100-day countdown to the senior high school entrance examination" on the blackboard, I began to doubt myself, did I only have this ability, and I could only pass the exam like this?

Suddenly I really want to ask Xu Jiayuan to take me to play basketball, no, I have to hold back, I must not go to him.However, looking at the class ranking table, his Chinese score, a total score of 120 points, actually only scored 96 points, I couldn't bear it.

After class, I stretched my neck to see that his deskmate was not there, so I walked over and sat down next to him, "Where are the Chinese test papers, show me."

He was probably a little surprised. After a second or two, he opened the binder, flipped through a stack of test papers a few times, and handed it to me.

Sure enough, the first three questions of the multiple-choice questions were all wrong, and only one question was correct in the ancient poetry dictation, and the composition just passed the passing mark.

"You don't take Chinese seriously again, do you?" I scolded him like before.

"Absolutely not. I'm poor at Chinese, and it's not like you don't know it." He immediately returned to his previous grin.

The familiar feeling between us is back again, I am very nostalgic, but I can't indulge.

"This is obviously a matter of taking time to memorize. With your smart mind, these three multiple-choice questions, as well as the ancient poems, can easily add ten points, and you can enter the top four in the school."

He chuckled, "OK."

I was surprised that he didn't have a hundred thousand reluctance like before, half-believing and half-doubting: "This time, so obedient?"

He didn't speak, but just looked at me with a smile and doting on his face, which made me feel guilty and hairy, I don't know what he was thinking, or, he suddenly became enlightened, and he knew my youthfulness And immature little thoughts, thinking of this, I was shocked.It happened that the class bell rescued me, so I didn't dare to stay for a second, and fled after leaving the three words "I'm leaving".

Hey, what am I running for? My body is upright and I am not afraid of the shadow slanting. My purpose is very simple, okay? I just want to remind him, I just want him to pay attention to Chinese, I just want him to improve his score, what is there to be shameful? ?

Admit it, Yu Xiaoxiao, don't you want to see him at all?

As usual, the seats are adjusted according to the ranking. Xu Jiayuan is in the second row of the second group, and I am in the third row of the third group. I switched places with him, and this time I squinted at the back of his head.

I haven't solved my knot yet, and I'm still hesitating whether to find a reason to tell the head teacher to change seats, when I saw Xu Jiayuan and his female deskmate chatting and laughing in whispers.

Yu Xiaoxiao, you are being passionate.People are heartless, what are you struggling with?

The countdown on the blackboard, the number is getting smaller every day, our rest day has changed from two days to one day, and now we can only rest on Friday evening self-study. There are more and more parents in the school cafeteria, many of them carrying Most of the insulated boxes deliver meals to their children, and most of them are migrant workers all year round. At this critical moment, they take time to come back to accompany their children.

My mother also had this plan, but I stopped it. I don't want her to add unnecessary pressure to me.

The countdown to the high school entrance examination is 70 days, the first mock exam, my grades are eighth in the class, and I am ranked twenty in the grade.

Tan Jingsi is still the "Millennium Boss", Xu Jiayuan is fourth in class and eighth in age.

At this time of year, candidates are most prone to emotional breakdown, because many people can no longer hold on.The school invited the famous student of Crazy English Li Yang to give a lecture, hoping that his passionate speech can inspire the students' fighting spirit.

At the venue, I heard the students around me discuss the parallel class downstairs. Several students had dropped out of school. I didn't care. Anyway, Jiang Xiaohan can't, and the others have nothing to do with me.

30 - jump

◎If possible, she wished she could exchange her own life for her son's. ◎

During the study where every second counts, I heard a news that surprised me. My class teacher in the first grade of junior high school, that young and beautiful big sister, got divorced. With whom?My class teacher in the third grade of junior high school, I didn't expect them to be a couple!

After thinking about it, they were not a good match at first. The eldest sister is gentle and generous, soft on the outside and strong on the inside, and gets along well with the students. My current head teacher, with thorns in his words from time to time, looks like a person with a deep heart, especially a person who can bring See people through colored glasses.

So, it's not that people all the way don't enter a house!

After I came out of the bathroom, I wanted to try my luck and go back to my old junior high school class to see if I could bump into the former head teacher, even if I had a look at her from a distance. There was a male teacher I didn’t know standing on the podium. It’s a pity. ,she is not here.

The first-year class is on the first floor, and the third-year class is on the fourth floor. When I was walking from the corridor on the first floor to the stairs, there was a sound of falling objects behind me. When I turned around, many people had already surrounded me. Going up, it was so crowded that I couldn’t see what it was. I have never been in the habit of joining in the fun, so I went upstairs without thinking. When I got to the second floor, I saw many people rushing down. I vaguely heard someone say The word "jump off a building".

What a pity!I continued to walk up against the crowd, and finally squeezed to the fourth floor. At this moment, I saw Xu Jiayuan running out of the classroom in a panic. I had never seen him so panicked before, "Xiaoxiao, it's the class monitor, the class monitor, he jumped off the building! "

As if I was slammed by someone, my brain went blank for an instant. I couldn't believe that the voice just now came from my good friend.

Xu Jiayuan shook me vigorously, "Xiaoxiao, Xiaoxiao."

"Ah?" After I came back to my senses, Xu Jiayuan pulled my sleeve and ran downstairs, please don't have an accident, please don't have an accident, these words kept popping up in my mind.

The two of us squeezed forward in the crowd. The ambulance came. The squad leader covered in blood was carried on a stretcher by the ambulance personnel. The back of his head was still bleeding. I saw his painful expression. He seemed to want to see us. What to say, but he didn't have the strength to speak out, and I saw despair in those eyes.

My tears fell instantly!

"Squad leader, you must get well, there is nothing difficult." Xu Jiayuan shouted.

The ambulance stopped all the students, only the head teacher of the second class got into the ambulance.

This class is the class of the homeroom teacher, as if nothing happened, he still scolded someone in the back row not to desert, still warned that classmate not to overemphasize theory, still warned everyone next to him to be stupid, and still told us Instill the idea that scores are money, and high scores in the exam are to save money for the family.

When class was about to end, the head teacher said earnestly, "Students, life is above all else. You are still young. Nothing is more important than life. If anyone feels tired and wants to ask for leave, please come to me at any time. I can help you." If it is approved, it will be approved, and if it cannot be approved, it will be approved."

Now I really want to throw the fake note in the head teacher's face!

After class, Xu Jiayuan and I rushed to the hospital, and the squad leader was still in the emergency room.His elderly parents were slumped on the bench. They were clearly in their thirties, and there were clearly visible wrinkles on their foreheads.

"Uncle, aunt, how is the monitor?" I asked anxiously.

The squad leader's father raised his head, his cloudy eyes were filled with fear and despair.

Remembering that Xu Jiayuan and I had never been to the monitor's house, they didn't know us yet, so I quickly explained, "We are the monitor's classmates."

"Oh." There seemed to be a glimmer of hope in the empty eyes, but it soon dimmed. "This is the third critical illness notice."

When the monitor's mother heard this, she began to cry, "Why did he jump off the building? I don't understand why he jumped off the building. Baby, you jumped off the building. What should we do?"

Xu Jiayuan and I leaned against the corner without saying a word. At this time, any words of comfort were useless. We could only pray silently in our hearts that this sensible, filial, and well-behaved boy would be a blessing in his own right!

The door of the operating room opened, a light shot out, and all of us surrounded it.The squad leader's father rushed up first, "Doctor, what's the matter, baby, is my baby okay?"

"Multiple fractures throughout the body, multiple ruptures of internal organs, brain contusion, cerebral hemorrhage, the situation is not optimistic, and he is still in a deep coma."

The squad leader's father couldn't stand still, so Xu Jiayuan immediately supported him.

"When will my son wake up?" The monitor's mother was on the verge of collapse.

"It's not clear yet. We will do our best to rescue him. However, you must be mentally prepared. Even if you wake up, there is a high probability of high paraplegia."

The life and death of the squad leader in the operating room is uncertain, and the parents outside the operating room hug each other and cry!

On the way back to school, Xu Jiayuan and I didn't speak all the way.I know that the squad leader is under a lot of pressure. He has been working hard to improve and always wanted to get a good grade in the exam, but often things go against his wishes and his grades are not satisfactory. I can understand this kind of feeling, but I don’t understand why he jumped off the building?How desperate a person must be to commit suicide.He couldn't make it through, why didn't he talk to us, if Xu Jiayuan and I could find some clues earlier, would the ending be different?

"Xiaoxiao." Xu Jiayuan's voice was a little hoarse.

I looked up at him with sad eyes.

"If you have any grievances in the future, you must tell me, and don't be bored in your heart."

Looking at Xu Jiayuan with a serious face in front of him, his words seemed to melt into my heart in the drizzle of March, with gratitude and joy, this is not very good, he doesn't know anything, we can continue to care for each other and accompany each other in the name of friends , progress together, I should feel content, I sniffed and said softly: "Okay."

God has no eyes, and the miracle did not happen. Three days later, the squad leader left, left us forever, and left this world.

The one who asked me to borrow English test papers, read my good words and sentences, ran blackboard newspapers with us, drew chalk on their faces, swayed youthful dances on the skating rink, flew kites together, reviewed exams together, and stood in the lotus flower together. The squad leader who made a wish on the bridge will never appear again.

There are still two months to take the senior high school entrance examination, and the high school entrance examination is only two months away!

In the ward, the mother threw herself on the squad leader, trying to prevent her son from being pushed away. She couldn't accept it. The son she had raised for 15 years was gone. He just fell asleep. Woke up, must have fallen asleep, must have been.How regretful she was, if she could, how she wished she could exchange her life for her son's.

Outside the ward, a wild goose flew in the gray sky. I, Xu Jiayuan, Jiang Xiaohan, looked at the sky weakly. I heard that after death, the soul will go to the sky. That gentle and white cloud, monitor, is that you?

31. The secret in the diary

◎Because what he values ​​is not learning, but scores and rankings◎

In the empty classroom, I sat on the monitor's seat, the second-to-last row. At this distance, I could no longer see the densely packed formulas on the blackboard.

I neatly put the books on the monitor’s desk into cardboard boxes one by one. The monitor is a neat and clean person, and he certainly doesn’t like to see his beloved books get messed up in heaven.

A dark red notebook attracted my attention. It lay quietly in the innermost layer of the drawer. I found it after removing a few thick exercise books. After a little thought, I opened the notebook.

October 1, Thursday, sunny.

The eldest sister sent back 500 yuan today. My parents were very happy and cooked a large table of dishes. They kept picking up meat for me, but I refused to eat a piece. I gave it to them. They said I was tired from studying and consumed a lot. I'm growing up again, I should eat more, it's a waste for them to eat, and it's useless to make up for it, why bother wasting that money.I feel very guilty and feel sorry for my parents. My parents have paid so much for me, but I am so disappointing. No matter how hard I try, I can't improve my ranking. Why can't I be smarter?

Friday, January 1, drizzle

When I got home at night, it was almost twelve o’clock. The second sister cried to her mother on the phone. The supervisor of the workshop always likes to scold them and try their best to deduct their wages. She remembers clearly that she was not late this month. The attendance record It was recorded in the newspaper that she was late three times. She refused to accept it and went to the supervisor to reason.So what?The second sister was crying with anger. She had a high fever of 100 degrees and did not go to the hospital for the 39 yuan attendance bonus this month. Now let alone the attendance bonus, even the basic salary will be deducted.The supervisor is unmoved, what kind of evidence is it?This is something you should consider. Besides, it's a matter of attendance records. What can I do? It's not me who made you late?With one word from the supervisor, the problem was completely wiped out.

I hate the damn supervisor, and I hate myself, I can't help, I'm useless.I thought that my second sister’s grades were better than mine, but the family’s income was only enough for one person to go to school. After the second sister found out, she gave up the opportunity to go to junior high school without saying a word, and went to work in other places by herself.I think, if the second sister is sitting here, she must be better than me.

Monday, February 2th, Thunderstorm

In the third entrance exam, my grades were still unsatisfactory. I didn't know what to do. I kept doing questions every day, memorizing knowledge points, and checking for omissions, but I didn't know why. I'm like an elm head. Those topics look familiar, but they are strange when they are done.Now I am very afraid of exams, grades, going home, and school. I even go to the cafeteria to eat, and I feel that people around me are laughing at me when I am at the back of the queue.Parents' hope, the two sisters