reunion is a cat

My sister's sacrifice, everything weighed me down, I was like a drowning person, desperately trying to get out of the water, but I couldn't swim to the shore, there are still three months, there are three months to go It's over, I can survive it, I will definitely survive it, come on.

August 3, Sunday, overcast

At noon today, I ran into Xu Jiayuan in the corridor. He greeted me happily and asked me if I wanted to play basketball with him.To be honest, I don’t know how much I envy him. In the first year of junior high school, our grades were about the same, but later on, the gap between us became bigger and bigger. Now he is firmly at the top of the school. Ten, and me?How I wish that person was me, and how I wish I could be like him. I have a wealthy family like his, and I don’t have to live on a budget, and I don’t have to worry about not getting into high school or farming.

God, you are so unfair, why do you give everyone a different runway, some people's runway is flat, but mine is a bumpy and rugged path.

I was very worried when I watched it, and I could see the squad leader's struggle in every word.The following diary time is getting closer and closer, and I write almost every day, and I turn to the latest one.

Saturday, March 3, heavy rain

In the first mock exam, my grades slipped out of the top [-]. I just felt my mind was buzzing, and my eyes were dark. I lay on the table for a long time, so that I didn’t even realize that the teacher’s blackboard eraser was thrown over me. , the pain on my forehead woke me up a bit, and I heard the teacher scolding mercilessly, "I didn't do well in the exam, and I slept in class. Many of the math problems this time were the original ones. I explained them in class." It’s been a hundred times, and you still have such a low score in the test. Who are you worthy of? You don’t know how to reflect on the exam. Are you worthy of your parents who worked so hard to support you? Stand up for me and listen to this class standing up. .”

I felt the disgusting gazes of my classmates piercing me like knives, and I was so ashamed. I remembered that my parents were still weeding in the vegetable field on a hot day. When I went to deliver water to them and picked up the hoe to help, I was beaten No matter how hard or tiring the work in the field is, they won't let me touch it. As long as I study hard and get a good high school and university, I will win glory for them and my ancestors.

I let them down again, maybe I’m really not the material for studying, parents, I’m sorry, I tried my best, and I worked hard. In the next life, I will repay you and this family well.

Closing the notebook, tears swirled in the eyes, wet the lines of heavy words.Compared with the monitor, I am much happier.

The summary meeting was held only two weeks after the mock exam. The vice principal was a little choked up on the stage. He warned us not to have any distracting thoughts in study. The more distracting thoughts, the more it will become the shackles of your progress.

"I once took a student. He complained to me after every exam. He was very confused. Why did he do well in the usual exams, but he would lose the chain in the final exam? Why can't he get the usual good grades? I told him that because what he values ​​is not study, but scores and rankings, the ranking table is the magic spell that controls him. I have been disappointed. Students, are scores important? You will say, isn’t this nonsense, what do you look at if you don’t look at scores? But, you can’t just look at scores. Why do some people perform supernormally, while others perform abnormally? The mentality is very important."

The thunderous applause from the audience lasted for a long time, louder than any summary meeting I heard.

Isn't that why I've been ignoring it?I value ranking too much. If I don’t remove this burden, I will always be led by it. If I go too far, I will forget what the purpose of my study is.Learning is a very pure thing, but we have imposed too much impurity on it.

32. Beyond the mountain is the sea

◎The four words that gushed out from the mouth freely fell back into the stomach like jumping off a building, Xu Jiayuan, you big fool◎

At the end of the street in the town, there is a slender asphalt road. At the end of the road, there is an embankment with a height of more than ten meters. No one can tell how long this embankment is. All they know is that the embankment was built to prevent flooding. For decades, it has been like a barrier, silently protecting the residents of several cities in this area.

I never went over the levee to see what was on the other side of the levee.Now, I have a strong urge to find out.

I rode my bicycle quickly, shuttled on the deserted asphalt road, with the wind blowing on my face, I imagined that I had a pair of wings and could fly freely in the sky.

Xu Jiayuan was left far behind by me, and he chased after me with all his might.I think he must have never seen me so crazy.

The slope of the embankment is covered with lush green grass, and several cattle are grazing aimlessly on the slope.At the end of the asphalt road, there is a crooked path leading to the embankment, which proves Mr. Lu Xun's saying: There is no road in the world, and if there are many people walking, it will become a road.

Xu Jiayuan finally caught up out of breath, and he blamed: "Xiaoxiao, do you know which planet you are on, riding so fast, you are going to the sky?"

"I don't want to go to the sky, I want to go to the embankment, so slow, kid, are you not full?"

"..."

We pushed our bicycles and climbed to the embankment along the crooked path. The view has never been so wide, and I have never seen such a far place. At the foot of the embankment, there are lush forests, very large and long forests. At the end of the woods, there is a looming village.I can't see how long the embankment is, because at the end of my sight, there are clouds and mist, the horizon.

I got on the bicycle, Xu Jiayuan was terrified by this action, "Are you going to rush down?"

"something wrong?"

"Miss, did you get the temperature wrong? It's so high, you dare to rush down?"

"Slanting, not straight, what are you afraid of?"

Xu Jiayuan didn't listen to my sophistry, I was dragged down abruptly by him, and I obediently pushed the cart down with him.

Thinking about that time, I was standing on the highest point of the Lianhua Bridge, trembling and not daring to go down, and I was laughed at by Xu Jiayuan. Now, I wonder if the two of us got the wrong script?

"It's a long road, are you ready?"

After climbing over the embankment, in order to know what was on the other side of the village, I said with firm eyes: "Let's go!"

After riding for four or ten minutes, both sides of the path are full of woods. If the two of us encounter robbers on the way, we will definitely be stripped clean in a place where there is no village or shop behind.

The village was within easy reach, and I was almost exhausted, so I stopped by the side of the road to have a rest.

"Little friend, did you not eat enough?" Now it was Xu Jiayuan's turn to gloat.

Use his own way to treat his own body, you cheapskate.

The village was built on a high soil slope. We slowly climbed up a long slope. At the end of the slope, there was a tree covered with withered yellow leaves. When the wind blew, it looked like a piece of paper. Yellow postcard.

Standing on the dirt slope and looking far away, there is another muddy path with no end in sight. I saw the path tempting me and waved to me: Come here, don’t you want to know what is at the end?

The downhill arc was not big, and Xu Jiayuan and I slid all the way down.

Sweating profusely, the scenery in front of me became clearer and clearer. At the end of the path was a very spacious river. On the opposite side of the river was another embankment with a height of more than ten meters. Vehicles occasionally galloped past on the embankment.

Is it the same levee we crossed when we came here?I have no idea.

"Do you have to go and see?"

A small boat wobbled from the opposite bank, and I answered him firmly, "We need to see it."

After getting on the boat, the boatman asked our two student children what they did in the past, did they visit relatives?

I stood at the bow of the boat and asked the boatman, "What's on the other side of the embankment?"

"The embankment is a dividing line, the dividing line between two cities."

It turned out to be the case.

After the bed touched the shore, the two of us stood on the high embankment again. It was still an endless forest. At the end of the forest, there were looming houses.

I am no longer attached, because I already have the answer in my heart.

In the first moment, the poem I read aloud with a blank face came to mind:

People, please believe--

After climbing countless mountains without stopping

After defeating disappointment again and again

You will eventually climb to the top of such a mountain

And on the other side of this mountain is the sea

is a whole new world

Light up your eyes for a moment...

The journey of life is still very long. On this long journey, there are still many scenery waiting for us to meet and many hopes waiting for us to pursue.The temporary unsatisfactoriness in front of us is just a drop in the ocean, and it is really not worth becoming an obstacle to our progress.

"Should we say something to the squad leader?" I shouted to the sky: "Squad leader, go all the way!"

There were a few birdsong in the woods.

Xu Jiayuan also shouted loudly: "Squad leader, you are the best squad leader, you will always live in our hearts."

The wind blew wildly, and my hair was messed up in the air. Xu Jiayuan helped me brush the strands of hair out of my eyes. My heart trembled. For a split second, I wanted to say those four words to him.

"What's the matter with you, do you have something to say to me?"

I didn't avoid his gaze, I looked at him without blinking, and the four words had already sprinted from the right brain to my mouth.

"Your eyes are a little red, did you get sand in?"

The four words gushed out of the mouth fell freely back into the stomach like jumping off a building, Xu Jiayuan, you big fool!

The countdown is 40 days, and the school holds the second mock exam.Facing the exam, I am no longer as frightened and uneasy as before, not only because my heart is numb because of taking too many exams, but because I try to break free from the shackles, the shackles called "ranking".

Tan Jingsi, No. 12 in the school, Xu Jiayuan No. [-], Yu Xiaoxiao, No.[-] in the school.

The class teacher held the report card and broke his heart on the podium, "Your scores are far from the previous ones. Compare the admission scores of previous years and see how many of them can be admitted to the first middle school, and how many can be admitted to the second middle school." Going to public school, alas, you are really the worst class of students I have ever supervised."

After the exam, the procedure for adjusting seats remains the same. When I saw that Xu Jiayuan and I were at the same table, I thought I had made a mistake and stayed where I was for a long time. Is it such a coincidence?We have adjusted seats so many times, but we have never sat together.

"I told the head teacher." Xu Jiayuan's eyes were as sincere as when Tuanyuan asked me to beg for food, "I said that I am poor in Chinese and English, and you are good in both subjects, which just made up for my shortcomings, so let the head teacher put us The two are tuned together."

Yu Xiaoxiao, admit it, you are already happy!

I pretended to be calm and said: "I am poor in chemistry and geography, and you have to make up for my shortcomings."

"No problem, you can make up anything you want me to do, as long as you think I can make it up." He showed a sunny and hearty smile.

Well, you are Shi Quan Da Bu Wan!

33. It's a nail in the coffin

◎If I were a general and led troops to fight, I would be wiped out◎

Anxiously, I flicked Xu Jiayuan's globe with my fingers, "If I were a general and led troops to fight, I would be wiped out."

Xu Jiayuan's expression moved slightly, "In this peaceful age, you don't need to go to war."

"What kind of map? A few contour lines require me to judge where is the cliff, what kind of crops, and the direction of the river."

"Be safe and don't be impatient, you are too impatient, otherwise this question is difficult, how can it stump you."

"Maybe I'm not good at doing graphics problems. When I see this black mass, I'll be one head and two big."

"That's it." Xu Jiayuan calmly flipped through his pile of exercise books a few times, then took out a white booklet and handed it to me.

I opened this "white paper" and couldn't help but gasped. It was full of various graphics questions, which made my scalp explode.Good partner, really is my good partner.

The countdown to the high school entrance examination is 10 days.

The atmosphere in the class is not as tense as it used to be, and the students are playing and playing more, and the class is writing graduation notes.At this time, many people have chosen to accept the facts in front of them.Probably everyone hopes to finish the exam quickly and die early.

The head teacher once said that at least the top [-] in the school can guarantee admission to No. [-] Middle School.

"Xu Jiayuan, what if I don't get into No. [-] Middle School, so we can't be in the same high school?"

"You still need to worry about this problem? You got tenth in the school in the mock exam this time, and it's a certainty to go to No. [-] Middle School."

You are third, you are a sure thing.

"What if, what if I don't pass the exam?" I still have lingering fears when I think of the [-]th grade that year.

"When did you lose confidence in yourself? This isn't like the Yu Xiaoxiao I know. The Yu Xiaoxiao I know doesn't look sideways all day long. She walks in a majestic manner, with four words written on her face: I am the only one."

Still majestic and high-spirited, should I walk the runway or goose!

The countdown to the high school entrance examination is 6 days.

"Xu Jiayuan, just now I ran into that fairy in the corridor, with white skin and a white dress." The closer the exam was, the more reluctant I was to let go of this warm and precious day bestowed by God at last.

"Which angel?"

"You transferred to our school in the second year of junior high school, you still went to see others, don't you remember?"

"Oh, you said that one, you must have read it wrong. She transferred away in the last semester of the third year of junior high school. It's been so long, and you don't know?"

Should I know?You still remember and pay attention to others, it's abominable!

"Hey, don't be so rude, my poor test paper was fucked by someone again."

"Heh, it's amazing, a perfect math test paper."

"I am over-flattered."

"Student Xu Jiayuan is really not an ordinary person."

"You are not an ordinary person."

"Then what am I?"

"A normal cat."

"..."

"Student Xu Jiayuan, do you know that you are very stupid sometimes?"

"Like, when?"

"Now."

"..."

The countdown to the high school entrance examination is 3 days.

In these three days, the school basically gave us a free range, and the teacher basically stopped giving lectures. The head teacher said that these three days are three days to adjust our mentality. For the big exam such as the senior high school entrance examination, we have to despise it tactically and strategically. Pay attention to.

I gave Xu Jiayuan a few pages of English writing templates, and asked him to recite them carefully, and then lick the Buddha's feet temporarily. He was very good this time, thanked him, and looked very seriously.I was fascinated by staring at his side face, Xu Jiayuan was really focused when he was studying, and his focused appearance was really attractive.

Someone next to me tugged on my sleeve, and that person pointed to the window in the corridor, where Jiang Xiaohan stood there smiling and beckoning to me.

I ran out and asked her in surprise, "Why are you here?"

"Are you free? If you are free, let's take a photoshoot. We have known each other for so long and we haven't taken a photo together yet. Just keep it as a souvenir."

"Okay!" I glanced at Xu Jiayuan, who was still concentrating on reading, and hesitated whether to call him.

"What's the matter? You don't want to review, do you?"

"It's okay, let's go."

Jiang Xiaohan took my hand and rushed downstairs.

There is a photo studio in the alley by the side entrance of the school. After entering the photo booth, I realized how ugly the clothes I was wearing today were white T-shirt, gray slacks, and a few pimples on my forehead. , It's so earthy.

"Jiang Xiaohan!" I cried, "I'm so ugly today, you didn't even give me time to prepare."

"Big head stickers, it's good to take pictures of your face, and you don't need to take pictures of your whole body."

She is fine, her bangs are fluffy, her hair is combed meticulously, her little face is white and clean, and her pink dress sets her off like a shining little princess.

"Come on." She took out a small comb from her satchel, straightened my slanted bangs, and took out a lipstick, "This lipstick has a little color, I promise to make you look good."

"A lip balm has so many functions, are you overestimating the lip balm, or overestimating me?"

"Oh, it seems that your Tsinghua class is not so 'hell on earth', you can still make jokes so lively."

It's not that you have been under the influence of your ears and eyes for the past three years.

After pressing the camera button, she pursed her lips, tilted her head, and blinked again. In comparison, there are a dozen Donald Ducks between us, but I am better than the wooden man, at least I can smile.

"Xiaoxiao, let me teach you. The face should be at a 45-degree angle so that the face looks smaller; the eyes are opened wide to make the eyes appear bigger; the tongue is pressed against the roof of the mouth so that the smile is natural."

Under Jiang Xiaohan's example, I got better and better. After a while, the two of us took a lot of photos of different styles, funny, gentle, intimate, gentle and quiet, monsters, and hatred.

I took enough shots of the style I wanted at once, and I was addicted to it. If I knew it was so fun, I should have called Xu Jiayuan.

Unfortunately, the squad leader is gone. Unfortunately, the four of us can no longer take a group photo.

After the boss cut out the photos with a paper knife, Jiang Xiaohan and I sat on a small bench and shared the photos.

"You took a good picture, I want it." I admired the photo of the beauty next to me.

"It looks good, so I have to keep it for myself, not give it to me."

"Then I want this group photo, how sweet the smiles of the two are, don't snatch it from me."

"Take it, take it."

"It's almost there."

After dividing the photos, Jiang Xiaohan bought two more marshmallows.We sat on the playground, under the twinkling stars, with marshmallows bigger than our own faces.

"Xiaoxiao, have you ever thought about what you want to do when you grow up?" She asked me seriously.

"Huh?" I kept turning the cotton candy swab. I never seemed to think about this problem. I only knew that I had to get into a good high school, a good university, and then find a good job.

She smiled, "Based on my grades, I'm sure I won't be able to get into high school."

What else can I do if I can't pass the high school entrance examination?My brain searched hard for an answer, but couldn't find it.

That night, Jiang Xiaohan's untimely silence and unavoidable eyes told me that she must have something to say to me, but she didn't say anything in the end.

After the high school entrance examination, I realized why she asked me to take pictures that night, and why she asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up.

The countdown to the high school entrance examination is 0 days.

34. Two worlds

◎A cat with folded ears can meet one ten thousandth of my reunion◎

When I was young, I thought my future would be shining, but when I grew up, I realized that you can't even afford a cat.

Five years after graduation, I have been in this strange city for five years.

This rental house is quite old, with a raw embroidered iron door, and the peeling skin can be clearly seen on the outer walls. The long corridors emit a musty and damp smell because the sun is not shining all year round.

In a room of eight square meters, there is a simple wooden bed, a simple table, and a simple window.

The rental housing was built on the edge of the old community, and I was surrounded by old houses that were only six stories high.

The meowing comes from the third floor opposite. According to my visual inspection, there is only an old couple living in this family. Every morning at seven o’clock, the old lady will chant scriptures and chant Buddha on time. Anyway, I can’t understand a word. wake up alarm clock.

I have already moved three times, and with the current trend, I plan to continue to move.

At twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, I was woken up by the sound of the intimate interaction of the young couple next door. I don't know if it was because of too much movement or the poor quality of the bed. The sound of "creaking and creaking" always gave me the feeling that the bed would collapse in a second illusion.

Earplugs, listening to music, etc., not only bother the ears, but also don’t work.I got up and closed the only window. The eight-square-meter space was like a big steamer, and it couldn't resist the horrible "action movie" next door.

When I arrived at the company the next day, I couldn't avoid yawning.The supervisor with a black line on his face threw me a folder, "Xiaoxiao, the client is not satisfied with this plan, you have to continue to make changes."

"Did you say where to change it? When will it be changed?"

"I have already marked out the place to be changed with a pen, and give it to me before I get off work today."

I turned a page. Hasn’t this logo been changed N times before? Isn’t it already confirmed, and now it’s going to be changed back?

When changing suppliers, I asked them before, didn’t they say that we should make the decision here, and now we have to listen to them again, are we deliberately finding fault?

Suppressing the raging fire in my heart, I replied with a smile, "Okay, supervisor."

Throwing the folder next to the computer, leaning back in the chair, looking at the ceiling helplessly, when will this be the end?

Colleague Li Tingting came over with a chair, "Xiaoxiao, help me."

I immediately became vigilant, "You want me to help you edit the excel sheet again?"

Li Tingting frowned, "Do I look like this kind of person?"

"picture."

"Speaking of business, hasn't my boyfriend always disliked me for having cats? No matter how hard I try, he just doesn't like cats. We have quarreled many times over this matter. This time it's more serious. We are going to break up, I know you are a cat lover, you will treat cats well, right?"

"so?"

"I'll give you my cat to raise, fold-eared cat, super beautiful and obedient."

It is very beautiful and obedient, but it is difficult to accommodate me in an eight-square-meter house. Can I accommodate an extra cat?In such a big city, I can barely raise myself, how can I raise another cat?

"No conditions, no support."

Can a folded-eared cat reach one ten-thousandth of my reunion?

On the day of the senior high school entrance examination, it rained heavily. After the examination, the rain did not stop at all. When I got home, I washed clothes, changed shoes, and cleaned up the bookcase. When I went in and out to do these things, Tuanyuan lay on the sofa On the bed, neither sleeping nor playing, just looking at me quietly.

Before going to bed at night, Tuanyuan walked around the room very restlessly. I suddenly had an ominous premonition that Tuanyuan would not come back after going out tonight.I quickly closed the door and locked the safety chain. Like countless times before, I hugged Tuanyuan in my arms and slept together.The reunion finally calmed down and began to doze off, and my hanging heart fell to the ground.

In the middle of the night, I was awakened by the sound of "meow meow meow" from Tuanyuan. I turned on the light and saw her squatting by the door and yelling at me. After seeing me get up, she stood up and slapped the door, and then looked back at me. The meaning couldn't be more obvious, asking me to open the door and let her out.

After going out, Tuanyuan would never come back again, and this premonition became stronger and stronger.I didn’t feel this way the last two times when she disappeared. I believe that this is a kind of tacit understanding that has arisen from my long-term relationship with Tuanyuan.

Sorry, Tuanyuan, I can't let you go.I hugged the reunion and turned off the lights again.This time, Tuanyuan was not obedient at all, she broke free from my arms and jumped down.

I was so cruel that I ignored her and didn't open the door.She barked for a long time, scratching my sheets and the door with her claws several times. In the dark, I could feel her restlessness, and her "meowing" sound became more and more miserable and hoarse.I really couldn't bear it, and while hesitating, I opened the door, and Tuanyuan jumped out like an elf. Standing outside the door, she looked back at me, and finally ran away.

The next day when it was bright, the first thing I did was to look for the reunion. The bamboo dustpan in the middle of the table, the haystack by the side of the house, the bamboo basket in the small yard, the small vegetable garden in front of the door, and the cabinet in the attic, nothing, nothing, nothing.

The next day, she didn't come back.

On the third day, I still didn't come back.

Day Four······

Day Five······

How I wish my instincts were wrong.

A month later, Tuanyuan still hadn't come back.During this period, I once saw a gray cat on the side of the road that looked like Tuanyuan. It was gray all over, with white paws, and a circle of white fur around its neck, as if wearing a string of white necklaces. I stared at the cat. After watching for a long time, the cat also stared at me for a long time. This is definitely not my reunion, and my reunion will not be so indifferent when seeing me.It's only been a month, she won't forget me, but how I wish it was a reunion!

Many years have passed, and I have regretted it countless times. If I didn't open the door that night, would Tuanyuan not have left? Would she still be by my side?

Before the results of the senior high school entrance examination came out, I heard the news from my grandmother that Jiang Xiaohan's parents divorced, Jiang Xiaohan belonged to her mother, and her younger brother belonged to her father. After the high school entrance examination, her mother took her away from this small town.

My heart sank heavily, "Where did they go?"

Grandma shook her head, "Who knows."

Later, I heard that her mother remarried, took Jiang Xiaohan to open a clothing store together, and lived a good life.In the year of my college entrance examination, I heard from people in the small town that Jiang Xiaohan got married, and married far to the north.

Later, the town never heard from her again, and Jiang Xiaohan completely disappeared from the town, as if this person never existed.

In the Spring Festival of my senior year, I went back to school from my hometown, and I was in a hurry to find my bus at the station. A young mother and son passed by me. I froze for a few seconds, and turned around in a hurry. , she looks much more mature than before, her thin face is still good-looking, but it has lost the brilliance she remembers, she is wearing a gray woolen coat, her hair is casually tied into a low ponytail, holding hands A four or five-year-old boy.

I remember that she never liked black and gray, she said that these two colors looked very dull.

"Can't get in the car? Hurry up, you're late, everyone in the car is waiting for you." The driver yelled at me impatiently.

I got in the car first, and I hurriedly dragged the suitcase to find a seat.

When I looked out the window again, the pair of figures were no longer there. I opened the window wider and looked around, but I still didn't see them except for the vehicles.

The car started slowly, I was still looking for the pair of figures, the car got out of the station, my face was pressed against the window, and I took a last look at the empty station, was it my eyesight, or was it an illusion?

At the back of a bus, the little boy looked up and asked his mother, "Is that beautiful sister just now a friend of my mother?"

Jiang Xiaohan stayed where he was and watched the bus going away, and smiled bitterly, "She was a good classmate of my mother."

"Then why don't you let her see us?"

"Because, mother and she are no longer from the same world."

35. Xiao Xiao Ban Maming

◎Waving away from here, Xiao Xiao's team mingled◎

The young couple next door who had been harassing me for months finally moved out.I secretly rejoiced, God finally opened his eyes.

Later, I found out that I was happy too early, God can't stand the praise.The young couple next door had left, replaced by a pair of little sisters, and this pair of little sisters was not a fuel-efficient lamp, even worse.Every night at ten o'clock, one of them starts video chatting with his family or friends on his mobile phone, intermittently using a dialect that I don't understand at all, like having a round table meeting every day. Three hours.

How can there be so many things to talk about? How can there be so many things to talk about every day?I grabbed the brick-thick book in my hand, and the words "intermediate professional title" on the cover seemed particularly ironic.

With a wall separated, the sound insulation effect of the rental room is not compromised at all.Where there are a lot of chickens and ducks, there will be a lot of shit; where there are a lot of women, there will be a lot of laughter. This comment in "The Besieged City" really hits the nail on the head.

Waiting for the green light at the intersection with panda eyes on, I found that there are a lot of traffic policemen on the road. They are protecting middle school students from crossing the road safely. It turns out that today is the day of the high school entrance examination!

That year, there was no suspense about the top scorer in the senior high school entrance examination, and it was still Tan Jingsi, but he didn't go to No. [-] middle school, and his family arranged for him to go to a foreign language middle school attached to a provincial capital.Xu Jiayuan got the second best grade in the school, and it was a sure thing for him to enter No. [-] Middle School.

Good luck did not come to me, and I missed the first middle school because of a one-point difference.

The only public high school in the small town offered very tempting conditions. With my score, the tuition fee was halved and the living expenses were halved.If it is Xu Jiayuan's score, the tuition fee is free, the living expenses are free, and there is a monthly subsidy of 300 yuan for living expenses.

On the day when I filled out my volunteer application, I saw the head teacher of the first grade of junior high school at the corner of the corner. She was walking towards me from a distance. Say hello, but today I don't have the courage. I hide in the corner, like a child who has done something wrong, and I feel ashamed to face the big sister who took good care of me in the past.

There was light rain in the dark sky, just so that no one could see my tears.

Sitting in front of the computer, without hesitation, I filled out the only public high school in the town as my first choice.Xu Jiayuan snatched my mouse, he didn't understand my behavior, "Why don't you fill in No. [-] Middle School, No. [-] High School is also good, why should you fill out a high school with the lowest ranking? And—" He hesitated to speak, whispered : "It's only three points short, and it can be solved with money."

I tried my best to hide the unwillingness and pain in my heart, "Because I would rather be a chicken head than a phoenix tail."

In fact, it is purely to save money and reduce the burden on the family.I have an urge to ask Xu Jiayuan to apply for the high school in the town like me, but with his score it is completely unnecessary, and his family is not short of money, so I can't be so selfish and hinder his bright future!

After filling out the application form, I thought I had persuaded myself to look away and accept it. However, when Xu Jiayuan opened the umbrella and we walked into the rain together, all defenses were broken, and tears poured out uncontrollably. Three years of hard work in exchange for such an ending, so what if I usually do well in the exam?No one is interested in the process, all people only care about the ending.I covered my mouth with my hand to keep myself from crying, I don't want to make a fool of myself in front of Xu Jiayuan, I don't want him to see my vulnerable side.

Xu Jiayuan touched the pockets of his trousers in bewilderment, and when they were empty, he hurriedly put down the sleeves of his shirt and wiped my tears awkwardly with the sleeves.

I bounced away like an electric shock, wiped my tears with the back of my hand, I looked at him stupidly, what a childish Xu Jiayuan, I don't want to dirty your sleeves.

I don't know where the impulse came from, "Xu Jiayuan, are you so nice to everyone?"

He was stunned, "In your eyes, am I such a person?"

My heart seems to be barren and no grass will grow. At this time, is this question still important?

I said bitterly: "Xu Jiayuan, three years later, I will definitely be admitted to the same university as you."

"Okay, I'll be waiting for you. We'll see you there. You have always been excellent. I believe that no matter where you go, you can learn well. It is gold and will always shine."

Xu Jiayuan, thank you, you can always give me the most practical comfort when I am not happy.I really want to throw myself into his arms and cry heartily.

But I hold back, maybe I shouldn't hold back.Because that was the last time we saw each other.

"Do you still want to change your plan?" The supervisor threw the document on my desk again.

"Aren't you satisfied? They were all changed according to their requirements."

"They feel that there are not enough sponsors, and they want to put this event in a newly opened shopping mall, so as to stimulate cooperation with the big group behind the shopping mall."

It was unreasonable, "Leader, we are too passive like this. This time it is not a small change, it is a big change, and many places have to be changed again."

"I know, Xiaoxiao, there's no way. No one is Party A. You have worked so hard. You have worked overtime these two days to change the plan."

What else can I do?I can only work overtime reluctantly.At ten o'clock in the evening, I dragged my tired body into the community, just in time to meet Li Tingting and her boyfriend out for a walk with the cat.

Li Tingting is a local, and her home is in this old community. She and her boyfriend live in a three-bedroom house. At first, she wanted me to rent her a room, but I refused. One reason is that the rent is too high. Expensive, and second, living with a couple is more or less awkward.

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