I want to have a relationship with you

It's autumn again.

Su Jingming was arranged by Chen Feng to be in the best high school in the area, the best class.

This team is all at the top level, so seeing Su Jingming, who transferred from another school midway, is not too much of a novelty.

Here, strength speaks.

In the monthly exam of the first month, Su Jingming won the first place in the grade.

On the ranking bulletin board, his name is written at the top.

Su Jingming just looked at it for a few seconds, pursed his lips, and returned to the classroom with no extra expression on his face.

This time, he has a sense of presence in this class.

For the sudden top student, more people wanted to know about Su Jingming's learning style and why he was able to securely win the first place in a different place.

Su Jingming's new deskmate is also a boy. Unlike Ren Wei, he is very quiet, not talkative, and has a withdrawn personality.

The two have been at the same table for a month, and the number of times they talk can be counted on one hand.

Until the day when the grades were announced, his deskmate asked him in a low voice, "Why are you so good at studying?"

Su Jingming was slightly taken aback, he saw the light in his deskmate's eyes, and worshiped with anticipation.

"...No, it's not that great." Su Jingming smiled lightly, "It's just luck."

Su Jingming's so-called good luck lasted until he graduated from high school, and it was turned into a notice and sent to the Chen family.

Cheng Hui wept with joy when she saw the notification letter from a national key university.

Even Chen Feng, who usually seemed cold, had a smile on his face.

"Jingming, you did well in the exam." Chen Feng gave a rare compliment, and then said to Chen Yue: "In the future, you should study hard with your brother, your brother is your role model."

After Su Jingming came to Chen's house, he rarely heard Chen Feng praise himself like this.There was a touch of gentleness between his brows and eyes, and he nodded.

Cheng Hui was so excited that she didn't know what to say. She read the notice several times, and finally took a photo with her mobile phone and posted it on Moments.

It was only then that she remembered to ask Su Jingming, "Have you thought about what major to study?"

Su Jingming was silent for a moment, "Psychology."

"Huh?" Cheng Hui was obviously a little disappointed, "Will psychology be difficult to find a job in the future?"

In today's society, most people look at psychology as they look at neurosis.

Su Jingming raised his eyebrows, "I really like it."

Cheng Hui originally wanted Su Jingming to study finance in the future, but just wanted to open his mouth to continue persuading him.Chen Yue pulled Su Jingming, "Brother, from now on I will also be admitted to the same university as you, okay?"

Hearing this, Su Jingming bent down and pinched Chen Yue's face. He said softly, "Okay. Then I'll wait for you at University A."

Seeing this scene, Cheng Hui swallowed back what she wanted to persuade.

This autumn, Su Jingming refused Cheng Hui and Chen Feng's offer to send him, and dragged a suitcase to A University.

Cheng Hui looked at the back of her son dragging his luggage away, thinking of all the changes in Su Jingming over the past year.

Su Jingming would laugh, and accept everything calmly.He will chat with you calmly, tell you what happened recently, and will take the initiative to get close to Chen Yue, fulfilling the responsibility of a big brother.He will also do what a son should do.

Cheng Hui gradually burst into tears, she wanted to open her mouth to call Su Jingming, she wanted Su Jingming to look back at her.

Chen Feng held her hand and shook his head lightly, "He has done very well this year."

When Cheng Hui heard this, tears welled up in her eyes, and the slightly trembling corners of her mouth betrayed her current emotions. She said, "He is a good son, but I am not a competent mother."

Su Jingming got off the plane and went straight to University A.

This is a strange city, three hours' flight away from Cheng Hui, and six hours away from Liangcheng.

With a strong local accent, the driver looked at Su Jingming through the rearview mirror, "The young man is a student of University A this year?"

"Yes."

"It's terrible. To be admitted to University A, in my hometown, I have to hold a big banquet and inform the whole village to come." The driver is over sixty years old, and his sideburns are dyed with gray hair.

Su Jingming nodded with a smile, "You're flattering yourself."

The driver added: "University A is a good school. You should study hard in it. When you come out, many companies will rush to ask for it. Hey, by the way, young man, what major did you choose?"

"psychology."

As soon as Su Jingming finished speaking, the driver was silent for a few seconds, and quickly boasted: "Psychology, I will definitely be a doctor when I come out in the future. It's amazing."

Su Jingming didn't care about the driver's sudden change of attitude, got out of the car, took the luggage and paid, thanked the driver, in a trance, he seemed to hear the driver say regretfully: "It's not good to choose a major if you can get into University A, you must If you want to learn this, there is no future..."

Su Jingming paused slightly, and he looked up. There were many people gathered at the gate of University A, and a boy wearing a volunteer hat walked up to Su Jingming.

"Student, are you a freshman this year, which department are you from?"

"psychology."

The man was surprised for a few seconds, and he said, "Then I'll take you to the psychology side to report."

"Thank you, senior."

Su Jingming followed the man forward, and the man shouted a few times in the crowd in front: "Sheng Nian, take this junior to your psychology report!!"

Su Jingming heard the sound and followed, a boy came out slowly from the crowd in front of him.

He yawned and walked over with a sleepy look on his face. "Senior Liu Liang, stop shouting, I'm afraid others won't know my name is Shengnian."

Liu Liang looked like he hated iron for being weak, "This is a junior from your department, take him to report carefully, remember to lead him to the dormitory, don't get lost."

Sheng Nian answered a few words perfunctorily, and then he stopped his eyes on Su Jingming. Liu Liang said again: "And when will your hair be done? You are going to be an intern soon. Be careful what the hospital puts on you." You get out."

Sheng Nian frowned, "We'll talk about it on the day of the internship."

It was only then that Su Jingming discovered that this man named Sheng Nian had a few silver strands under his black hair.

He didn't understand these hairstyles, and he wasn't too curious.

Sheng Nian brought Su Jingming back and forth across the campus, when suddenly he stopped and looked at the young man behind him.

The boy also looked at him in surprise, and finally smiled at him.

Sheng Nian clicked his tongue, "What's your name?"

"Su Jingming."

"How did you learn this major?"

Before Su Jingming could answer, Sheng Nian said, "No dog can learn this major."

It was rare for Su Jingming to come up with an idea, could it be that I really chose the wrong major?

No matter what the outside world thinks about psychology, being here with Su Jingming is like opening the door to a new world.

He wanted to understand human psychology.

I also want to know why Su Qicheng treated him like this back then, and why he made such a decision.

In the end, he still wanted to ask himself whether the decision that year was right or wrong.

In the end, Su Jingming just wanted to give himself an answer, and also give Su Qicheng an answer.

In order to find such an answer, Su Jingming immersed himself in this city for four full years.

In the past four years, he never returned to the Chen family, never returned to Liangcheng, and stayed alone.

Until she got her graduation certificate, Cheng Hui made urging phone calls one after another.

"Now that I have graduated, can I go home? Yueyue misses you very much."

Su Jingming stood in front of the huge French window holding the phone, books and research reports scattered on the ground at his feet, his eyes reflected the scenery of the night, "Mom, I'm very busy these days, my supervisor hopes that I can continue to follow the Into the project in his hand."

"Is there any project in psychology that can be studied..." Cheng Hui regretted what she said, and she coughed twice, "Then you have to find time to go home and have a look. For four years, you don't even go home for the New Year. Do you know I know that my mother is very worried that you can't eat well outside alone, and you can't dress well?"

"The living expenses you give me every month are enough, and I also have a scholarship, so you don't have to worry about life." Su Jingming also can't remember how many times he said this to Cheng Hui, "I won't tell you, I have money on hand. I still have something to do, I'll call you back tomorrow."

This time, Su Jingming did not hang up the phone as he wished.

Cheng Hui asked on the other end of the phone: "Are you going to visit your father this year?"

Su Jingming held the phone tighter and tighter. Looking at the busy traffic below, the emotions accumulated in his chest gradually filled his heart. After a long silence, he asked: "...Did you let me go back?"

Five years.

Five years have passed.

The days drag on day by day, from autumn to cold winter, then from cold winter to spring, and then from spring to summer.

Repeatedly, Su Jingming began to lose track of how many springs and summers he had lived through, and how many autumns and winters he had lived through.

Su Jingming did not mention the matter of returning to Liangcheng for five years, and Cheng Hui was responsible for sweeping Su Qicheng's grave.

The mother and son were tacit about this, and if he didn't mention it, Cheng Hui wouldn't mention it either.

Just like Wen Yan would not be mentioned.

The word Wen Yan is like a taboo.

It took less than a year from acquaintance to falling in love when they were young, and they accompanied each other through the most difficult stage of life without any complaints.

In the end, his letting go, his fulfillment, still makes him dare not think about it.

I used to be a deserter, throwing away my armor and inserting a sharp knife into the person I love the most.

It's not that Su Jingming didn't think about contacting Wen Yan.

Whenever I see a familiar number, I refuse to press it for a long time.

He thought about what he could say when he pressed it.

What can I ask.

He was even afraid that Wen Yan would blame himself for running too fast back then and disappearing without a trace.

Emotions are really troublesome things, at least Su Jingming thinks so.

No matter how many people of the opposite sex were introduced by the seniors and sisters around me, they still couldn't get interested in it after all.

Su Jingming would always say half-jokingly: "A person like me should be fit to die alone."

It seems that he is not suitable for dating, nor is he suitable for meeting new people.

The author has something to say:

There is a little easter egg in this chapter~

感谢在2021-08-1621:30:09~2021-08-1800:20:41期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottle of Hinny;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!