law of entrapment

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There was no choice but to let the flowers fall, and it seemed that Yan once returned.

—— "Huanxisha · A New Lyric and a Cup of Wine"

That year, Xianhua was 15 years old and Yan Gui was 13 years old.

The day they first met was a cloudy and rainy day with very low air pressure.The dark clouds are depressing, like pulling cotton wool out of a doll and throwing it into a stinky ditch.The weather forecast is light rain all day, and now it looks like a heavy rainstorm.

First-year junior high school students report to school, and the school entrance is full of private cars, and all they can see at a glance are colorful flower umbrellas, and someone will accidentally splash the water on the umbrellas on the people next to them.

Xianhua mixed in the crowd, not because she didn't have an umbrella in her schoolbag but because she was too lazy to open one.

Unlike her name, Xianhua is not like a soft flower at all, not even a grass, just like an unattended stone next to a flower bed.

She was wearing a white T-shirt from a street vendor, with a peaked cap buttoned on top of her head, and her short hair with her ears exposed looked like a tomboy. Rainwater slid down the brim of the hat from her temples.The canvas shoes stained with muddy water clattered in the puddles, and the shoes and socks were already soaked.

It was not too far to walk from the orphanage alone. It took less than an hour to arrive. Even though the clothes were wet and a bit cold, the speed was faster than many cars stuck on the road.

From tonight, she will live in school, and she will say goodbye to the orphanage.

Just after thinking about it, I felt a pink shadow appear above my head, and then the rain that fell from my cheek stopped.Xianhua froze for a moment and turned her head, what she saw was a fair and lovely baby face with two playful braids.

A pink lace umbrella is held between the two.

"Let's go together." The girl smiled crescent-like eyes, long eyelashes and sweet dimples.

Xianhua was stunned for a moment, and pressed down on her dripping cap, but she couldn't say why she thought the umbrella was too crowded.There was only one sentence left in a soft voice: "Thank you."

It was raining heavily and the umbrella was a little small.

Their arms were next to each other, Xianhua moved to the side uncomfortably, but the girl held her arm very naturally.

"My clothes are wet, don't pull me." Xianhua paused, she instinctively hated physical contact with people.

"It's okay." The girl smiled softly, turned her head to look at Xianhua's uncomfortable look, and blinked her big eyes under the long eyelashes.He pouted his lips, changed his hand to hold the handle of the umbrella, extended his arm out of the umbrella, waved it twice and then retracted it.

The rain-wet sleeves held Xianhua's arms again, and the girl smiled warmly, "It's really all right now, my sleeves are also wet."

At that moment, Xianhua didn't know Yan Gui's name yet, she just thought this girl was really strange.

At that moment, Yan Gui looked at Xianhua, who had a face of not getting close to strangers, and thought, this girl is really cool.

===

Later, they were admitted to the same high school, and after being divided into arts and sciences classes, they were all assigned to the arts and sciences improvement class.

At that time, Xianhua was 19 years old and Yan Gui was 17 years old.

"Xianhua, where are you going to take your college entrance examination? Will you be in this city?" On the bench next to the teaching building, the two drank iced soda, Yan Gui with ponytails pretended to ask casually, his heart pounding. jumping.

"Well, C major." Xianhua also pretended to answer casually, her short hair fluttering gently in the wind, but her hands were nervously clutching the corner of her school uniform.

He was clearly telling the truth, but he couldn't help but feel flustered.The person who hides the secret is the other party, but she is also the one who is afraid of the secret being broken.

Yan Gui's home is in this city, and Yan Gui's parents want their daughter to stay with her to study. The obedient Yan Gui will definitely go to C University, and also wants to go to C University with him.

These fairies know it all.

She also knew that the girl leaning on her shoulder in front of her liked her, which was a kind of liking she could not accept.

Parting ways is the best choice, but she is selfish and reluctant to let go.

===

Fate's jokes are always caught off guard.

The year they passed under the hands of the god of death, Xianhua was 24 years old, Yan Gui was 22 years old, and they had just graduated from senior year.

Sunlight poured in from the window on the white hospital bed.

Xianhua looked sideways at Yan Gui who was sleeping beside her bed, felt like an angel with a layer of light on her body, and suddenly felt a pang of sorrow in her heart.

After the operation, the nightmare seemed to go away all of a sudden.

But Xianhua couldn't forget what Yan Gui said.

——'Xiaohua, it's okay, it's okay, I'll definitely cure you. '

It was the first time that Yan Gui hugged her tightly against his cheek, as if he didn't care about it, just wanted not to separate.But at that time, Yan Gui had just broken up with her family because of her treatment.

——'You must believe me, there must be a suitable source of liver, and we all need to be healthy. '

At that time, Yan Gui had been with her in front of the hospital bed for several days and nights, his hair was greasy and messy, but he helped her clean it up.

——'Don't worry, I will find a way about the money. '

In fact, Xianhua didn't know where Yan Gui raised the money. She didn't know if the family couldn't hold her back, or it was secretly taken out from home, or it was saved bit by bit, or something else.

——'Xiaohua, I have good news for you, our match was successful. '

It was the first time that Yan Gui cried in front of Xianhua since she fell ill, and it was just the kind of crying that wept with joy.

As a result, they had a scar at the same location on their waists.

The air in the ward seemed to be still, and the smell of disinfectant proved that Xianhua was still alive. The memory played in the brain like a projector, and every frame was Yan Gui who was running around.

Tears could not help but slipped from the wet corners of his eyes.

"Xiao Hua, why are you crying? Are you feeling uncomfortable?" Yan Gui, who was lying on the bedside in a light sleep, woke up and asked nervously when he saw Xian Hua's face covered with tears.

At that moment, raising her eyes, Xianhua suddenly made a big decision: "Yanyan, do you... want to marry me?"

Before this illness, she had many ambitions for the future.

Going to the best company, getting promoted and raising salary, buying a sports car, buying her own house, and falling in love with all kinds of handsome guys, she has to live a completely different life from the past 20 years.

In her future, there is actually no place for Yan Gui.

But after this illness, she suddenly became reconciled.

She knew that in this world, there would never be another person who treated her so well.She has no way to repay Yan Guiwei for everything she has done.

Two people are like this, for a lifetime, it seems to be very good.

===

This is their third month of marriage.

In the bedroom, the warm bedside lamp was turned on, and the rose-scented aromatherapy exuded an ambiguous atmosphere.

"I... Yan Yan, I'm sorry, I still..." Xianhua subconsciously grabbed Yan Gui's hand that was poking into the skirt of her side, her wrist trembling slightly.

Yan Gui sighed, smiled comfortingly, and rubbed her head: "It's okay, go to sleep."

This is the fourth time that Yan Gui has carefully tried intimacy with her.

Seeing Yan Gui who turned his back to sleep and turned off the bedside lamp, Xianhua's heart felt bitter.Guilty and confused, like dripping lemon juice into bitter coffee.

Xianhua felt more and more that she seemed to have chosen the wrong path for their relationship.

——'I... was harassed by the uncle who repaired the circuit in the orphanage when I was a child. Although my aunt rushed over in time, I...have always had a shadow in my heart. '

This is what Xianhua lied to Yangui when they hugged and lay on the bed on the wedding night.

In fact, there is no harassment and no shadowing.

She just, really couldn't accept being intimate with a woman.She would be sick and there was no way to get over it.

===

In the second year of their marriage, both of them found stable jobs, and their lives were flat but beautiful.

To Xianhua's relief, Yan Gui stopped trying after several failed attempts.Yan Gui comforted her by saying that if you don't do it, you don't have to do it. You don't have to force yourself to do this kind of thing, as long as they love each other.

At first Xianhua was very guilty.But gradually, after getting used to it, life will only be left with daily necessities.Squeeze out the touch, and the unwillingness will brew in the bottom of my heart.

The first mistake was a drunken kiss with a male colleague in the bar after the company's annual dinner.

The second mistake was that her company worked overtime, and the male colleague said that he would drop by to send her home.

When the car drove to the gate of the community, the male colleague got out of the car to help her open the door, and suddenly pressed her against the car door and kissed.

She could refuse, but she didn't.Luck and desire prevailed in that moment.

But Xianhua didn't know, Yan Gui bought her a late-night snack at the convenience store at the entrance of the community, and spilled the hot milk and Kanto boiled in his hand all over the floor.

Then, there is no more, the community they live in is near the lake.

The cold and suffocating lake at night killed everything about Yan Gui and took away everything about Xianhua.

In the past, they always liked to take a walk by the lake after dinner, chatting and talking and laughing while holding hands, just like junior high school, high school, and university.

They thought they would be like this forever.

On the night of Yan Gui's departure, Xianhua tidied up the things at home in a daze, read all the memories belonging to her and Yan Gui, and burst into tears.

She knew that she had ruined everything.Whether it's the friendship that she is greedy for, or the love that Yan Gui expects in her heart.

Xianhua originally planned to go to the lake to accompany her Yan Yan that night, but in the box, she saw Yan Gui's volunteer badge of Rainbow Manor and a volunteer record book.

Recalling the past, Yan Gui also asked her if she wanted to be a volunteer together, but she refused.

Open the book, there is a sentence written on the title page - "May the rainbow last forever, and grow old hand in hand with you, snuggle here to watch the sunset."

[The author has something to say]: After struggling for a long time whether to write the main text or the side story, I decided to write a supplement for Sister Xiaohua~

In fact, the current Xianhua, whether it is dressing up or dealing with people, is actually trying to live like Yan Gui and continue her warmth.